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prinhlt

genuinely want tonight to be the night i go.

what the fuck is the point in this shit.

“do you agree that inpatient would be the best option?”

are you fucking kidding me. i’d LOVE to go and pretend like my life doesn’t exist and “recover” but that shits not going to fix how i feel. i’m still stuck feeling like this for forever and there’s nothing i can do.

i want to get rid of my brain.

it keeps me from pulling the trigger.

im so tired of being alive. all i do is fuck everything up and make everything harder than it needs to be. i’m taking up space and im being a burden. i wish i wasn’t scared to kill myself. i wish i wasn’t scared to relapse. i don’t want to feel this pain or live in my body or exist anymore i hate feeling like this and i just want to scream for help at everyone but no one knows what to do. they can’t keep helping me. they can’t keep watching me spiral. i can’t be helped. i’m useless and i feel like people only love me because they don’t want me to kill myself. i wish i was dead so no one had to fucking worry about me anymore