Girl With A Wolf Heart

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My Heart

My home, He is across the seas. And when he returns to me, I will not survive losing him again.

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Brown Eyes

Brown eyes were always my weakness, But I guess I've kicked that addiction Because his blue eyes match mine

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The Wolf

My ex had a wolf tattoo on his shoulder I loved it, I'd stroke it and give it butterfly kisses He used to tell me to get a wolf to match him, it would mean we belonged together. But he didn't love me. Since I left I've discovered: I. Am. The. Wolf. I always was. And you can't tame a girl that howls.

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Your best friends girl

What happens when she's your best friends girl? When she gets pissed, At him, on whiskey And turns to you. What happens when she's your best friends girl? When you undress her slowly, And kiss her fast, And make her feel how he never did. What's happens when she's your best friends girl? You leave when she whispers his name in her sleep.

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"I could lie here like this for hours.."

You say as I'm laying on your chest. We exist in our own little bubble And it may full of whiskey and ash and hurt, And you're still covered in blood from the fight you got in And my fists are bruised from trying to hit some sense into you. But I look up at your face and I can't help thinking.. That you're right.

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Alone

You don't know how alone you are Until you're sneaking out of your best friends house because You need to fuck someone to love them And they need to love someone to fuck them

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To the boys I've slept with

To the first: Your hair rivaled mine in curls not length and you loved me so much more Second: I loved you. I did. Part of me still does but that doesn't matter even on Wednesdays when I miss your eyes and our coffee Third: I'm sorry I said His name Fourth: For a long time you were the biggest asshole I knew never lose that Fifth: We were both as drunk as each other. Your best friend got there first. Sixth: Next time find a girl who cares for your lies Seventh: I'm sorry you were second in a week of me going wild and tied back to number two Eighth: You were his best friend and mine and I'm sorry it ended how it did Nine: Deny it all you want it happened deal with it Ten: Thank you for not taking advantage of a drunk broken girl Eleven: We could love each other if we tried, I know we could. Your eyes remind me of him. It all returns to Two.

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Let go

I need to let go of the past but how can I when you make me feel more than I ever have?

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To the boy with the big brown eyes

I taste like whiskey and cigarettes And you taste like weed and beer Maybe we don't fit together But when I lie on your chest and feel you breathing beneath me I think maybe we do fit I believe we do I have to

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"I wish I knew how to quit you."

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We don't talk about that

The last person I loved was my best friend but we don't talk about that And I know I don't love you but we don't talk about that You two hate each other but I don't talk about that And you two have nothing in common except you both slept with the same girl but you's won't talk about that The only thing similar is how you both have stunning brown eyes that threaten to make me lose my mind And we can't talk about that

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Nothing's worse than the one person who always saw the best in you believing the worst with no hesitation

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Miss you

And even though I miss you I'll go back to sipping my whiskey Or shoving needles through my skin Cus the diamonds in the piercings Sparkle brighter than you ever did babe

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Drinking

I hate what drinking does to people. Most of my mistakes come from alcohol My mother used to be happy when she drank two bottles of wine a night and now she can't stand being around me sober My best friend loves me and wants to be with me drink but can't remember what he said when he's sober I turn into a slut when I'm drunk since it's the only way I feel love from others and for myself Why can't people just be happy without it

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Toxic

"Of course you know when it's toxic" my sister says "you always know" But sometimes you don't Sometimes you're four months in and realise this isn't how it's meant to be But it still takes you another month to leave And sometimes it's a year later and you're sitting with another boy who boys you coffee and mightn't break your heart And you're still getting over just how toxic things can be without you realising

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The girl you were warned to stay away from

Mothers always want to keep their precious baby boys away from girls like me Because who wants their little star with a girl who'd rather howl at a moon? They say to stay away because we care about nothing I put on a front with walls too high and dangerous for them to climb I won't admit my fears because they make me weak, Like how spiders and ladders scare me but not as much as my feelings Or how to deal with anger I'd rather slice myself open than scream and cry They keep boys away from girls like me by saying that we don't eat right, don't take care of ourselves but would they eat right if their mothers had told them since they were children they weren't pretty enough because they were bigger than other kids? They want boys to stay away from me because i have a bad relationship with my mother so I'm obviously going to turn them against theirs And what mother wants their son near a girl who'd rather fuck them and walk away than try for respect and love? Who's self worth is measured in how many she can pull in one night Who can drink a bottle of tequila and a bottle of whiskey straight and still feel nothing Who can smoke non stop and still crave more tar in her lungs Maybe my nose ring, short skirts and leather jacket tell them more about me than a conversation would but does that mean I couldn't be good for your baby? Because I'm an insomniac but just remember it will be his choice when he sneaks out to screw me at 3am

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There is no Us anymore

We've been on and off for four months now And it's been three weeks since we kissed You left me an hour ago And I can't still feel your eyes on me I can still feel your hands on my body I can still taste you in my mouth I can't get rid of your smell Or the sound of your voice Or the way when you laugh I need to Sometimes I'll say something that shocks you about your music and I know you're secretly impressed But we can't be together I'm broken and you're afraid And all we did was fuck up, fuck each other then fuck each other over We both know we care for the other And what happens if ten years down the line we realise we were perfect for eachother all this time? But there's no us anymore