ronan had experienced few feelings in his life besides crippling fear. why he had been wired that way, why he had been medicated for almost his entire youth, was a question for another day; the take away from this, however, was that he was hard to enrage. nigh impossible, in fact. he could recall clearly the day he had blown up at mariana, clearly remember the sinking feeling of guilt he’d felt pinching his chest ever since, even with her he was partly in the wrong. would always partly shoulder his share of that burden. one of the few other times, however?
with his fingertip he pushes the drink that had suddenly materialised back toward the other side of the booth, grip around his own beer tightening on instinct, bone white beginning to seep through pink skin. ronnie smiths. he didn’t feel that sinking feeling around her. didn’t feel that genuine pang of sadness, the thudding that came with his anxiety, the self-blame and deprecation that came with his depression. he felt rage. anger. something blind and ugly and all encompassing. he wondered if this was how aiden felt, if this is what replaced the vein of melancholy others didn’t have. ❛ someone’s sitting there. you should sit somewhere else. ❜
did she feel bad ? about forty percent , most of her was proud that she was able to hold the lancaster male like putty in her hands , & get the right reaction from him. of course , she wasn’t going to deny that her depressive episode had managed to come soon after their fall out , although she blamed that mostly on the emotional rollarcoaster that she put herself through. it was only the rules of the game , not only was he on bad terms with her leader , but she was also the brother to the one & only aiden lancaster. of course , she barely knew the male , but the small window of time she had known him , she was not impressed by his lack of interest in her ways. ronnie never thought of herself as the most attractive person to walk the earth , but she had manipulative & sociopathic tendencies , which needed to be fulfilled with the hurt she inflicted on others , aiden ? he refused to be one of those people.
‘‘ fine , don’t say i didn’t offer. i’m happy to have another drink for myself. ’’ she stated before wrapping slim fingers around the glass & lifting it to her lips.
the attitude that she was given was only fueling her to stay in her spot , her stomach twisting in such a satisfying way , manicured nails taping on the table. ‘‘ really ? female or male ? they cute ? i’m sure they wouldn’t mind more to the party , i know i don’t mind. ’’ she said in a flirtatious tone , leg stretching out to lightly run up his leg before dropping back down , head tilting to the side. ‘‘ oh --- stop being so grumpy gills. we both know that we have fun together. ’’
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