One thing I found out about myself recently is that I love being touched in some specific ways, but also I hate penetration.
Prior to my Deprogramming, penetration was something I allowed to happen to me because I thought it was required and I thought I owed it to whoever would be so kind as to touch me in the ways I like. Turns out that's not true, and I was supposed to be enjoying it for real and not just smiling up at the girl f*cking me like there's no tomorrow.
While being crammed with c*ck is a very interesting sensation, it's not all that pleasurable. For me I suspect that the years and years of being molested and raped probably ruined it for me, turns out something is forced on you enough you stop liking it sometimes.
There is something in being f*cked and c*m in that is appealing, but it's more of a "look how good I can please my partner" than a "I actually enjoy doing this for real" kinda meme.
I value submission and obedience, particularly my own, it still feels good to obey and submit.
As I mentioned in either this post or another it also feels good to be touched, I'll go into that because I'm bored and some of y'all might have ideas on how to get more enjoyment out of this.
Basically my favorite kind of touch so far is having fingers traced along my sides and chests, I've used my own for this to great effect. It can actually make me feel those pleasure feelings and make me moan, unlike penetration that just feels like a hotdog in a tube.
I do like being touched in other ways, particularly I like to feel like an object of desire to my partner. This can play out in groping and fondling that I really enjoy.
Kissing doesn't do it for me, it's empty and boring and my childhood clients ruined it for me, as did my adoptive father. Kissing is pretty meaningless and not fun at all for me, so if I can avoid being kissed on the lips I'll go for it. My t*ts and general chest area on the other hand is a different story.
I think my chest, just in general, is my most sensitive part of my body. Sure my breasts are sensitive but the area that I really enjoy being played with is much larger. I'd say if you take a tank top and crop it just under the ribs, the space it covers is my sensitive area. That's where I wanna be touched, kissed, fondled, scratched, whipped, and licked.
I don't really know how to find someone who would want to do this to me knowing they couldn't f*ck my holes after. Thankfully I think I'm some flavor of bisexual or pansexual, so my partner range is pretty wild, basically most people who like trans women.
Ideally, I'd belong to a polycule, I think. Basically I'd have multiple people who could touch on me all they like and play and have fun, but they could fuck each other and not me. That would be very appealing. Idk if I could ever have that, but it's a nice fantasy.