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in 10x02, Demon Dean sits at the piano and tools around a little. He plays two notes.

Those two notes are the first two notes to the melody of “Hey Jude” which is the song that Mary used to sing to Dean as a lullaby when he was little.

Demon Dean is this wild, strange thing. You would think that he would let go of all of those things that human Dean held onto, but Demon Dean seems to hold on tighter. To the point of languishing in a dive bar, instead of taking Crowley up on his offer to rule hell.

Demon Dean is Dean’s depression turned up to eleven. Sleeping with women he doesn’t care about, drinking himself half to death (if he were human), and thinking of the things his dead mother used to do to give him comfort.

He tells Sam in 10x03 that he wants to be a demon, and that’s a lie, which is interesting, because in Supernatural demons don’t generally lie. They tell you all of the true things you never want to hear. But Dean is different because his demon is not freedom the way other demons are. It’s depression.

And depression lies.

And that’s all Demon Dean is. Dean’s depression and trauma turned up to 11.

All evident in playing a C and and the A below it, one after the other.

waywardbaby

This is one of the best things I’ve ever read

wonderlandleighleigh

in 10x02, Demon Dean sits at the piano and tools around a little. He plays two notes.

Those two notes are the first two notes to the melody of “Hey Jude” which is the song that Mary used to sing to Dean as a lullaby when he was little.

Demon Dean is this wild, strange thing. You would think that he would let go of all of those things that human Dean held onto, but Demon Dean seems to hold on tighter. To the point of languishing in a dive bar, instead of taking Crowley up on his offer to rule hell.

Demon Dean is Dean’s depression turned up to eleven. Sleeping with women he doesn’t care about, drinking himself half to death (if he were human), and thinking of the things his dead mother used to do to give him comfort.

He tells Sam in 10x03 that he wants to be a demon, and that’s a lie, which is interesting, because in Supernatural demons don’t generally lie. They tell you all of the true things you never want to hear. But Dean is different because his demon is not freedom the way other demons are. It’s depression.

And depression lies.

And that’s all Demon Dean is. Dean’s depression and trauma turned up to 11.

All evident in playing a C and and the A below it, one after the other.

waywardbaby

This is one of the best things I’ve ever read

ao3commentoftheday

things I wish I’d known when I started writing fic on ao3

use & for friendships, colleagues, familial relationships and use / for romantic or sexual relationships (or encounters)

not everyone reads fic. Lots of people use screen readers, and screen readers can’t see what’s on images. use descriptive text to help them out.

lots of people download fic to read on other devices, not all downloads capture images too.

there’s a big difference between No Archive Warnings Apply (NAWA) and Author Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings (CNTW). NAWA means that there’s nothing in the fic that needs to be warned for using the official Archive Warning system. CNTW means there might be something that requires a warning and the author is either avoiding giving out spoilers or they are unsure how to interpret their plot point with respect to the official Warnings. (in both cases, additional tags are where it’s at - you can explain yourself there)

the reason why the number of bookmarks in the fic is different from the number of bookmarks on your stats page is because your stats page number includes bookmarks that are hidden

there’s a preference setting where you can receive emails with your own comments/replies.

there’s a site skin that hides stats so you don’t have to see them

writing in rich text format makes my life easier

knowing html allows me to do fun things in the comments section like comment/reply with reaction gifs

knowing html also allows me to do interesting formatting in my fics that I can’t do with rich text alone

those little blue bubbles with the question marks in them will answer my questions a lot of the time - and also teach me something new

the FAQ is linked under the word About in the header

if you write your fic in the draft window, you might end up losing it so make sure you copy the text before you hit Post, just in case

they aren’t kidding when they say drafts are deleted after 30 days

beck-a-leck

Here’s some additions.

The Anonymous collection will allow you to post anything you want and retain ownership over it.

Your identifying information will not be anywhere within the fic to any other reader. Though you will see it from your end when looking at it as a logged in user.

When you reply to a comment, it will anonymize you, so feel free to respond to your commenters!

You can take your fic off Anonymous at any time

When you are signed into AO3, you can easily access your Anonymous fics by looking at the “Works In Collections” tab on your page. Nobody else will see these Anonymous works on this page.

Works can be added to the Anonymous collection at any time

Just because a fic is Anonymous does not mean it is Abandoned or Orphaned.

Speaking of Orphaned fics:

If you have posted a story and for whatever reason you no longer want it on your account or associated with you, you can Orphan the fic.

Orphaning fics will remove all of your control and ownership of the story.

Orphaning fics is not a reversible process. Once a fic has been Orphaned it cannot be taken back. You cannot delete it. You can’t check stats and it does not show up on your Works page anymore.

Orphaning and the Anonymous collection are great options for when you no longer want a fic associated with you, but you don’t want to delete it either.

cacodaemonia

Also: dark mode skins are great! I use Reversi on this page and it’s much easier on the eyes than the white background. Here’s how to use skins.

Also also: how to use html om AO3.

buckskinblues

Don’t know if someone else has already said this in the notes but unless your bookmark is private the author can look and see what tags or additional notes you’ve put on the bookmark (I like to check them to see if anyone has :D). Also, yes, you can add your own tags to bookmarks and make different lists to organize them! You can comment on fics anonymously (though I think you have to log out to do so as of now, really wish it was an option while signed in but still great it’s even an option at all!) You can save new chapters on fics as a draft (without the 30 day limit if I remember). I do this a lot. There is separate sections for both beginning and ending author’s notes (you can use both on the same chapter or one shot) and using the author’s note doesn’t include your rambling as part of the word count. Which is nice as it doesn’t artificially inflate the numbers.

soyala04

On site skins:

You can combine existing skins by creating you own skin scroll to the bottom under ADVANCED and then Parent Skins. Example, i use AO3s Reversi and then XParrots Shortening Long Tag Field

Also, you can exclude stories in this area too! I got this from another tumblr post so i can’t take credit for it, nor do i know how to expand it to other things like tags or pairing or author.

.blurb#work_430075 { display: none; }

Just replace the numbers with the work you dont want to see anymore.

mikkeneko

Just a few points to add that I hadn’t seen listed above:

-In addition to beginning and ending author’s notes for the overall story, there are also beginning and ending author’s notes for each chapter of a multipart story. When you first create the story, before you add additional chapters, it will treat your author’s notes as overall story notes – meaning your “so that’s chapter 1!” note will be kicked to the end of every subsequent chapter unless you move it to chapter 1 specifically.

-There is, in fact, a character limit in the author’s notes. I’ve run up against it a few times.

spnhateblog

there's something so poetic about watching a man who's considered the "ideal" all american boy, with his love of women, classic rock and cars, slowly but surely fall in love with his best friend who's an angel of lord.

4evamc

Misha tweets 😭

cottoncandyofterror

Day 7 of my sudden Supernatural hyperfixation.

Still going strong, no end in sight.

I will watch that last episode tomorrow without understanding anything and no one can stop me!

hbfjnsdjnsaaa-deactivated201307

cas-lost-grace

This is the most perfect post

cinematicnomad

—Tyler Knott Gregson

clairenatural

- Amelia Pond, The Beast Below | anon request

4evamc

😭😭😭💔

castyel

pray4jensen

all this info coming to light about how jensen had zero reservations about the romance between dean and cas and like,,,,,,,honestly this is not new info because:

in s11 when they filmed dean saying goodbye to cas when he was about to go blow himself up, fans literally saw jensen caressing misha’s face during filming

and

in s13 when cas died and came back and dean and cas reunited, we literally have video proof about how jensen caressed misha’s face during filming

and the tragedy is that both of these times where jensen felt that dean caressing cas’ face tenderly was the right thing to do, the editors cut out these scenes

but

in s11 when jensen himself directed a deancas scene, we got dean caressing cas’ face and jensen ‘deancas stan’ ackles refused to let that scene get cut

so

in conclusion, jensen has been playing dean in desperate sweet tender love with cas for ages so when he got the news in s15 that all of it was finally going to be canon, he lost his shit and blurted during interviews that the most exciting thing about s15 for him was tackling cas and i’m just,,,,,,,,,,i love jensen

feralgosto

Dean's reaction as acted - explained; part 2

So I've gone over what Jensen's top notch acting actually meant as in Dean's response/reaction to the confession. Here's more. I realize I took a lot of liberties in the interpretation; but isn't that the whole point of acting? To make us see what may lie beneath the surface?

Like I sad in my previous post, Dean was on the verge of crying. And he spilled once he turned around. Because it hit him.

Let me explain (gifs not mine)...(also sorry for my messy English, I'm not native and it's like 10 pm here)

This is Cas after Dean told him the "Don't do this" line:

What he's saying here, with the unwavering look and slight head shake is " I am doing this, I have to do this". He gives Dean a rare moments to actually reflect on what he just said. Keep in mind Death is banging on the door, so these are truly just mere moments.

And Dean doesn't want to process, to believe. You can see him swallow hard, his brows furrow, and his jaw clench, it's a slightest movement, as in "No, no..."

He keeps fighting it, the dread of the reality he's faced with. And then raises the eyebrows, because he sees Cas. Cas seeing something. And Dean hopes for a different way, but the look in his eyes says it. He fears what he'll see.

He turns around. And that's it. The Empty. He can't deny what's happening any longer.

It's happening. And THAT's when he starts spilling, his eyes glistening.

When he sees, when he knows that this is it. He almost mouths something; as if saying

"No..." to this finality. His look changes. He's more focused, more present.

You can see him take a breath. And he turns to Cas as he clings onto the last moment. Now or never.

"Cas-" Cas I...?

You can see the momentum in his eyes, the rush, the utter panic. The importance of what he has to say, even though he may not even be sure of the words. Hence the "silent" I...

He never did say it. Cas didn't let him. He says his goodbye and before Dean can even tell him what he needed to tell him, what he so desperately wanted to tell him...

Even without the words, you can see the confusion; the shock in Dean's eyes. He hadn't expected Cas to take this last chance from him.

(looking at this gif in loop is hilarious to be honest)

And then, he's gone.

And here, ladies and gentlemen, you can see it manifested. The shock, or more so, the dread he has been feeling. His eyes are wet and wide. He's shaking and it's not from the fall. The breath he takes in is shaky too. He's panicked and shaken and he starts to break. But mostly...

He's devastated. He's devastated because Cas disappeared before his eyes. And he couldn't do anything. He couldn't say anything. You can see him lean back slightly, as in to lean onto the wall. As in away from the place where Cas was. Where there's nothing now.

When we see him again, he's still stunned, unmoving.

And when Sam call's him, it's a literal wake-up call. That it's all real. You can see him look up, as if allarmed, as if to check if this reality is truly happening. He looks around, rather slowly, as if he expects something, anything; but the room is empty. And it hits. It hits much harder than he hits his head on the wall.

You can see it. The slightest look of "admittance" before he blinks twice, probably in a futile effort to stop the tears. We all do this, unconciously. He swallows heavily, leaning back. It doesn't help and so he breaks, his face hiding in his hands. He sobbs.

(me too, Dean; me too)

So that's when he admits it all. Not just what happened, or that it did indeed happen, but HOW it happened.

But that's for another post.

So try telling me Jensen did a bad job, I dare you.

Let me know if you agree/disagree or what's your take from the scene :)

feralgosto

Dean's reply as acted - explained

One more time for those bashing the acting or the reply.

This is right after Cas says "I love you":

We see Dean turn ever so slightly tilt his head as if saying

"Please, don't..." because it means you're leaving me.

And we see that hard swallow and narrowing of the eyes. The tiny frown. He looks like he's holding in his reaction, like he's on the verge of crying. And we all know that clenching swallow one makes before it all spills. And he shakes his head ever so slightly, as if saying...

"Don't. Don't love leave me."