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Okay, but real talk, if Tubbo goes Federation informant for real / hard manipulation, the other islander's will be at fault.
Hear me out:
From the beginning there has been this like. Really unfair view on Tubbo. His chat is scolded for metagaming (as it should be) but he's also talked down to a lot for not just accepting things.
He won't just accept they're trapped because the older islanders say they've tried and failed. He won't just trust islanders who've been trustworthy in the past (ex Bad) who are no longer acting trustworthy. He's trying the same methods other people have tried because he wasn't there for it.
Any nerfs happen? That's Tubbos fault. Never mind that they were bound to nerf create the moment another big create member joined because how they were using it to break puzzles instead of doing the puzzles.
People are constantly picking and blaming him for things and then saying his suspicious because the federation doesn't do anything about him. Despite the fact that the federation does not give that boy a moment of peace, and have not since he arrived.
Meanwhile people like Bad and Pierre have only just begun to experience the horrors, despite how long they've been breaking the rules and causing trouble.
Then you look at interactions he's had and BOI. From his POV alone I wouldn't blame him if he didn't trust any of these people.
(mandatory this is only referring to RP characters.)
Tubbo is an adult. However, he is BARELY and adult, and that is something that is important to note, and I don't mine saying with his "i'm minor coded" joke. Like, as someone approaching 30 I can't imagine interacting with a 19 year old the same way I would someone near my age. So keep that in mind for my thinking going forward.
He's pulled from the ice and a few days later he's approached by a crazy bear with a gun and the power of create that tells him he HAS to do a task. One that will betray someone he's made friends with and an egg. He tries to refuse and the bear starts shooting.
So he does it, thinking he has no choice.
Then two men, who are like, MVP, highly respected, defenders of the island, tell him he should have just died. In fact, he was selfish for not dying on that hill, and that the father of that egg is going to be FURIOUS with him.
To the point that Tubbo is freaking out when Fit catches him trying to fix what he had to break for his task, and make things right.
Is it any wonder he thought he was capital D dead when he "lost" one of these men's eggs?
Now jump cut.
Boy is pressured by men into spinning a wheel that, lets be honest, probably only had bad outcomes, and then is told it's his fault. HE killed the eggs.
Which leads to local teen burning in lava in a breakdown.
And don't even get me started on the drama that was two men who live in a different zip code losing their minds because local teen does yard renovations.
One of which being someone said teen is convinced kidnapped someone, and has tried to gaslight him about it.
Like, outside of the morning crew, Fred is kind of the best relationship Tubbo's got going for him at the moment.
Warnings: none, pure angst, no happy ending, talk of depression, panic attacks
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Steven
He swears he hears his heart shatter
He can feel his soul die and his breathing stop
Divorce? You want a divorce?
Why? Did he do something wrong? Did he miss too many dates? Was he talking too much? Did he get too annoying? Was his cologne too strong?
Tell him, please, tell him what he did wrong, he'll fix it! He promises to fix it!
Or do you... Do you not love him anymore?
Steven would not stop talking, rambling about what he must've done wrong, his apology, and how he can make it up to you
"Just please... Please don't leave."
He'll try to get you to talk with him, explain why you want a divorce and how he can prevent that outcome as much as possible
But there's nothing he can do to change your mind
You're done
And you leave
And Steven swears, swears by all of Egypt's gods and goddesses, that he died in that moment
He doesn't move for a while
He doesn't breathe for a while
Then suddenly, he's gasping as collapsing on the floor, clutching his chest and sobbing
He cries so hard and for so long, he passes out on the floor
He doesn't have the energy to go into work, he doesn't even have the energy to move his hand
He stays in his flat for days, never leaving unless Jake take over to make sure he doesn't lose his job
Jake's the only one that can continue working and existing as a person after your divorce
While Jake tries to make sure the body stays healthy and alive, Steven doesn't talk or acknowledge anyone
Eventually, he starts blaming Marc for driving you away
"It was the stupid pigeon and the sneaking out at night and coming home covered in blood! It was your fault, you scared them away! I hate you!"
Eventually, Steven realizes that while Marc may be at fault for a few things, it was ultimately his own fault you left
He realizes he must've driven you away, somehow
He can remember times where you seemed less interested in his ramblings and blames those specific moments
He refuses to talk or even think about his interests now, too pained, too angry, too heartbroken to think he deserve anything but pain and heartbreak
It takes a good few months, maybe even a year, for Steven to start regularly fronting again
It takes so much energy and effort, but he's stopped feeling pain
He's stopped feeling
He doesn't correct Donna when she says his name wrong, he doesn't give any snarky come backs when she teases him about being late, he doesn't say anything
Donna makes the mistake of commenting on the disappearance of Steven's ring one day and all hell breaks loose
Let's just say, after the exchange, Steven isn't allowed back in the museum for... a while
It takes months for Steven to coexist with other people and it takes him years to be able to feel again
But he's never the same
He doesn't smile anymore
Marc
"What?"
Any anger, any annoyance, any frustration he felt during your argument is gone
Unbridled fear is the only thing he can feel and it hurts
It tightens his throat, makes it hard to breathe, to think, to see
He has to physically shake his head to be able to think
"Are you serious?"
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
"Ok."
Unlike Steven and Jake he didn't beg you to stay
He wanted to, god he wanted to
He wanted to get on his hands and knees and beg for you to stay
He would if you asked
He would do anything you asked
But that's besides the point
He wouldn't beg you to stay unless you asked, and you didn't
He wouldn't beg because he wants you happy and if you're not happy with him then...
He should let you go
Right?
He silently watches you pack your things, occasionally helping, but otherwise he's just standing there
He doesn't say anything, which isn't a problem, you don't either
He signs the divorce papers without any argument and he goes home like normal
It doesn't officially hit Marc that this is real for a while
A couple weeks at least
It's when he's making dinner and goes into your office to tell you it's ready when he realizes
Your stuff isn't there
You aren't there
And he collapses
He lays in your office sobbing
All night
Dinner is easily forgotten and left to get cold
Dishes are left in the sink to attract flies
Laundry is left to mildew in the washer
Mail is left to overflow
He doesn't move to do anything
He can't
He feels like a failure
He ruined your marriage somehow, he's sure of it
And he ruined the only happiness he, Steven, and Jake had
He doesn't front for a while, leaving Jake to pick up the pieces of himself and his life
On the rare chance he does, he only does it to be Moon Knight
He regresses into a violent, unfeeling vigilante and he doesn't care
Steven doesn't care enough to stop him either
Jake eventually yells at him for endangering the body, his, and Steven's life and that kind of kick Marc into gear
He starts taking better care of the body, purely for Steven
But he doesn't do anything more than the bare minimum
He can't
He's lost without you
He feels like an asteroid in the darkest spot in space and he doesn't think he'll ever find a way out
Jake
He laughs
He laughs
"Very funny, cariño, you're just upset I forgot to buy you flowers."
He doesn't believe you until your scream and/or crying at him that you 'can't handle it anymore and want a divorce'
He gets very quiet, very still, very fast
He doesn't say a word
But then you're moving to the bedroom with a suitcase and he cries
Instantly, he's running after you, asking a million and one questions
Jake doesn't consider himself someone who would beg for anything
Not for food, not for help, not for his life
Nothing
But in that moment, he got on his hands and knees and begged and wept for you
"Mi amor, mi corazón, mi luz, mi vida, mi amor, mi ángel, please, tell me what I did wrong, yell at me, hit me, but please, please don't leave me. Don't leave us. What would Steven do without you? Marc? You can hate me for however long you want, but please don't leave!"
He's never been with someone for so long, he's never been with someone period
He loves you so deeply and strongly, it controls his every action
Every time you put something in a box or suitcase, he takes it out and puts it right back 'where it belongs'
It causes you to leave to give Jake time to cool off
But all it does is make him grow more restless
What if you leave your stuff to haunt him?
Is that your plan?
To torture him for the rest of his life?
To make him regret every choice he's ever made?
By leaving your stuff behind, are you making sure he never forgets what he did?
Of course, eventually you do come back
With a moving crew
And Jake has to bite his cheek to stop from yelling at the random people taking away your stuff from it's home
It's rightful home
He spends every second of the move making comments, insulting the moving crew in hopes they would get fed up and leave
It didn't work
And to make things worse, you didn't talk to him at all
If you did, it was only to tell him you would be sending him the divorce papers soon
That made him walk away
He didn't want to talk about it, think about it, nothing
He outright refuses to sign the papers when they arrive
It takes you coming over to talk to him that he blows up, practically screaming at you that 'this is wrong, you should be with him, he can make you happy, he can be better'
You still tell him to sign and in a fit of rage, he does
He instantly regrets it as soon as you're gone
As soon as you walk away, it's like his breath is being taken right from his lungs
It's like you're taking it as you walk away
Along with his heart
He slowly falls to the floor, his eyes clouded with tears
And he cries
And cries
And cries
He throws himself into helping Steven and Marc, never giving himself time to think too long on anything but work
Eat breakfast, clean, go to work, eat lunch, go home, clean, eat dinner, sleep, repeat
It's when Steven starts fronting again that Jake finally starts to think
About you, about your marriage, about everything
And he finally goes through the 5 stages of grief
Well, the two stages of grief
He grows to hate you
That's what he tell Marc and Steven, at least
Every time they think about calling you or walking by your apartment in hopes of seeing you, he takes over
"They're a terrible, horrible person."
"They were just using us."
"They don't deserve to see us."
"I protected you, they didn't do shit."
"I will fix you."
"I will keep you safe."
He plays off his hate for you, your existence
But in actuality, he hates what you did to him
He hates that you tore down his walls and made a home in his heart
He hates that you made him care about anyone other than Marc and Steven
He hates that you made him feel safe and wanted
He hates that you did all of that just to leave
But he could never hate you
He still loves you more than anything
And as much as he wants to go crawling to your door and beg you to come back, he can't
You hurt Steven and Marc too and that's something he can't forgive
He's spent his entire existence taking care of them and he'll be damned if he stops now to chase his feelings
Jake goes back to hiding his feelings, prioritizing Steven and Marc over himself
He gets the body up, eats, showers, and goes to work
He makes sure Steven doesn't lose his job, he makes sure Marc doesn't die while fighting
He goes back to the shadows of the head space, only taking over when needed
And he's so unhappy
He's so sad
He's so broken
You broke him, just like you broke Steven and Marc
