Room with a view.
Hospitalized for the good ole pneumonia, been here 3 days so far, might go home tomorrow.
It's funny that I'm literally blogging on here for myself. If anybody is actually reading any of this they damn sure aren't commenting... But like I said before, this is for me. And with no one actually following, commenting or whatever, it really is for me, lol!
An audience of one. Very good Rise Against song btw.
Lots of changes coming up. I don't make new year's resolutions, mainly because I never end up keeping them but also because I feel like it's a load of shit. Why wait until a specific date to make a change? Just because you start doing something new on 1/1 instead of a random Tuesday, does that mean you'll succeed? Does that date of 1/1 somehow give your resolutions a better chance of success? I call bullshit. What I'm getting at is I'm going to be sent home on freaking insulin. My diabeetus has finally gotten to the point of me having to inject myself.
I'm 38.
I did this to myself.
I was more concerned with temporarily satisfying myself with Pepsi and M&M's and pasta and ice cream.
Even though I knew those foods were literal poison, I knew they were making me fat, I knew they were slowly killing me...
Well, it's not 1/1, but it's my "New Year" so it's time for my resolution...
Time to stop being a fat ass, eating what I want when I want without thinking of how it's affecting my life.
Time to put more energy into my family. Stop spending my life in my bed, trying to sleep my life away. In my defense, walking around with blood sugar at 400-600, (should be 80-140) blood sugar levels that high make you extremely lethargic... Like you can sleep 14 hours and wake up still feeling exhausted.
Basically, it's just time.
This is my New Year. My New Year New Me. 2/11/2020. The day Brandy woke up. The day Brandy got the kick in the ass she has been needing. I refuse to be insulin dependent until the day I die. I will lose this last 60-80 pounds. I've come a long way already. From 297 to 234. But I still have a long way to go. I will get this last 60-80 pounds off and I will do it in a healthy way. I will cure my diabeetus.
This is my resolution.












