Music Feeds My Soul

I post things about the randomness that my brain plays, like a jukebox set on permanent random. Oh and pics I take.

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Room with a view.

Hospitalized for the good ole pneumonia, been here 3 days so far, might go home tomorrow.

It's funny that I'm literally blogging on here for myself. If anybody is actually reading any of this they damn sure aren't commenting... But like I said before, this is for me. And with no one actually following, commenting or whatever, it really is for me, lol!

An audience of one. Very good Rise Against song btw.

Lots of changes coming up. I don't make new year's resolutions, mainly because I never end up keeping them but also because I feel like it's a load of shit. Why wait until a specific date to make a change? Just because you start doing something new on 1/1 instead of a random Tuesday, does that mean you'll succeed? Does that date of 1/1 somehow give your resolutions a better chance of success? I call bullshit. What I'm getting at is I'm going to be sent home on freaking insulin. My diabeetus has finally gotten to the point of me having to inject myself.

I'm 38.

I did this to myself.

I was more concerned with temporarily satisfying myself with Pepsi and M&M's and pasta and ice cream.

Even though I knew those foods were literal poison, I knew they were making me fat, I knew they were slowly killing me...

Well, it's not 1/1, but it's my "New Year" so it's time for my resolution...

Time to stop being a fat ass, eating what I want when I want without thinking of how it's affecting my life.

Time to put more energy into my family. Stop spending my life in my bed, trying to sleep my life away. In my defense, walking around with blood sugar at 400-600, (should be 80-140) blood sugar levels that high make you extremely lethargic... Like you can sleep 14 hours and wake up still feeling exhausted.

Basically, it's just time.

This is my New Year. My New Year New Me. 2/11/2020. The day Brandy woke up. The day Brandy got the kick in the ass she has been needing. I refuse to be insulin dependent until the day I die. I will lose this last 60-80 pounds. I've come a long way already. From 297 to 234. But I still have a long way to go. I will get this last 60-80 pounds off and I will do it in a healthy way. I will cure my diabeetus.

This is my resolution.

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Been musically crushing on this guy hard lately. When a song gives you goosebumps, that's a damn good song.

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This is me. Bored with life, longing to travel and see the world.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. Eh, it's Folk Punk but it's punk-ish and I love it.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. I didn't find these guys until about 2010-ish and man was I missing out. They have since become one of my go-to get punked anthem bands.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. Eh, more Ska than Punk, but it's an awesome cover so it's the song of the day.

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2nd Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. Today's anthem. Seriously, no really, seriously over all this. Beyond time to move on.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. Watching Stranger Things on Netflix and this song has been played a few times. Funny that it's not really what you immediately think of when someone says punk but it's The Clash!

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Fake smiles are better than no smiles. Said goodbye to a beautiful soul yesterday, this was a few hours after the service. I can't forget who she was and she would want me to smile, even a fake smile. Rest In Peace Tara. Your pain is gone, you'll finally get the sleep you could never get in this life and you can join your husband in the afterlife. I feel horrible that I had no idea you were hurting so bad. They said it was ultimately heart failure, they don't realize just how right they were. The heart can only take so much....

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. I think this may be a repeat but it's the song of the day. 🎵And if I wasn't a fat kid in high school, I would have never listened to punk rock.🎵

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Updated pic. Playing with filters on a random Tuesday night.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. Social Distortion was not always my favorite, honestly I did not like them at all. In the last maybe 10 or so years as I began to expand my musical collection, I found Mike Ness' solo stuff and fell in love. So loving the man himself I felt I owed it to him to try SD again. That man has so much ambition, it blows my mind. To remain the backbone of a band that has switched out every single member, at least ten times each instrument, and yet he has not given up.... that is the definition of Rock N Roll In My Soul! So today I salute you, Mike Ness. May your badassery live forever!

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk. RIP Erik Petersen I never got to see you play and that sucks.

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New ink

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Love it! I already have the ship in a bottle from The Way I Tend To Be album art, going to get this one as well on the same arm.

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Song of the day in my year long celebration of punk.