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And other lies you’ve been told.

We went as a family to a Friendsgiving of LGBTQ friends. My partner and transgender kid have been attending the art group a couple times a month for almost a year now.

And I was disappointed. I thought this was going to be our group…our “people”

But there isn’t room at the table for people that appear cis het.

#lgbtq representation #lgbtq #alphabet mafia #still looking for my tribe

Had a dream in June or July that a friend was pregnant. Asked her mom. Mom said no, she wasn’t pregnant.

They just announced it this week.

Should I tell them it’s a girl 😅

I had another dream a different friend was pregnant. They had difficulty conceiving the first time and the message in this dream was that “it happened naturally” but also unexpected at the same time….

My dreams have been less fiction and more sub-alternate realities…..

My first weight loss goal was 200lbs. I was going to get my nose pierced. I hit 200 lbs. I chickened out and told myself I would do it when I hit 200 on the work scale. (Fully clothed, shoes on etc) Well I hit 200.4 lbs on the work scale and I’m still chickening out.

Start: 236lbs

Current at home: 197lbs.

7 lbs till I am not considered “obese”

I have done healing in understanding why I have let my weight be a shield.

Every day is a choice. 😵‍💫

I had a sick kiddo for three days. I’ve kept my work informed that my spouse has lost two days of work because of it. AND the response was “…well Thursday is a really busy day so it doesn’t really work well for the schedule”

I understand that me having kids is a financial burden for you when they are ill. I’m not giving anyone a heads up next time.

If an immediate family member dies, I get three days of bereavement. The fuck I care if it’s an inconvenience to your schedule.

#late stage capitalism #fuck the system #I care not

#crow queen #I want a murder of crows

I recently sat in a meeting with my managers, the chief medical officer, and the narcissist doctor I work with.

It was incredibly triggering. He DEMANDED that I respect him. That he is a DOCTOR and he deserves respect. Accused me of making a false accusation of how he had treated a patient. Gaslighted me and I feel incredibly broken.

My managers praised me after the meeting. Stated it was a very productive meeting and that they were glad he had come unglued in front of the chief medical officer because he had never showed his true colors before.

I feel like I was treated as bait and I am second guessing everything. Nurses are leaving the field because of burnout. I did not think I was there yet but I am incredibly hurt that my employer allowed an abusive meeting to take place.

Toxic people in toxic work environments.

I’ve been cross training in a different department and it’s the break I needed from my coworkers.

Also:

The best thing you can do in the facilitation of your healing is verbalize your feelings.

nick-avallone

my kink is seeing money go into my bank account

Being heavy (weight) has provided me a wall….a shelter from unwanted comments, advances, and from vulnerability.

Because small is vulnerable.

…and the thought of being vulnerable makes me want to throw up.

BUT I need to be healthy for me…I need to finally tolerate this meatsuit I have been assigned. I need to stay around long enough to watch this revolution of starseed children light on fire the fallacy of capitalism.

#starseed #spiritual journey #spiritual awakening #fuck capitalism #personal growth #I’m doing this for me