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Mosquito Man (2005)

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has it ever happened to you that you were someone's real love but they weren't yours

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this shit so fucking tragic. i tried to make it work but it's just not meant to be. but i still feel so guilty

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has it ever happened to you that you were someone's real love but they weren't yours

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going through a breakup right now. well actually the breakup already happened 3 days ago im just dealing with the aftermath. was a pretty short relationship and i wasnt the most hearfelt partner but im still having a hard time right now. im not talking about this to anyone. Im not sure I have anyone i would rather be talking about this with to be honest.

at the moment im an echo chamber for myself. ive skipped three meals over the last 2 days and gotten drunk twice. im just venting here because i feel like i dont have anyone to talk this through, at least right now . i could really use a hug right now

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i believe i got cursed like there is no way this is not a curse. some witchery type shit. Rapunzel ass curse. Shout out to whoever thought of this because theyre so devilish i cant help but respect that

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as a grown ass man i dont really have places where to vent about petty inconveniences and small feelings and thats why im here today

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todays complaining is that at this point i have fully accepted that for every nice thing that happens to me, something is going to go wrong. for every two nice things that happen to me, two more things are going to go wrong. There always must be a balance of either slight unhappiness or total mediocrity,, which translates roughly to: jfc i cant have shit in this life can i?

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im too old to be this whiny reason for which i am here instead of literally anywhere else but come on how can i go from being the happiest man in town to the most miserable fucks in such a short amount of time come onnnnnn why me

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feels like withdrawal like really i am really feeling all this all day and for what??? Fucking jesus come on. its not my fault if i am fragile god dammit just be nice to me for once let me have it let me have one (1) thing come onnnn fuck

[realyti]

as a grown ass man i dont really have places where to vent about petty inconveniences and small feelings and thats why im here today

[realyti]

todays complaining is that at this point i have fully accepted that for every nice thing that happens to me, something is going to go wrong. for every two nice things that happen to me, two more things are going to go wrong. There always must be a balance of either slight unhappiness or total mediocrity,, which translates roughly to: jfc i cant have shit in this life can i?

[realyti]

im too old to be this whiny reason for which i am here instead of literally anywhere else but come on how can i go from being the happiest man in town to the most miserable fucks in such a short amount of time come onnnnnn why me

[realyti]

as a grown ass man i dont really have places where to vent about petty inconveniences and small feelings and thats why im here today

[realyti]

todays complaining is that at this point i have fully accepted that for every nice thing that happens to me, something is going to go wrong. for every two nice things that happen to me, two more things are going to go wrong. There always must be a balance of either slight unhappiness or total mediocrity,, which translates roughly to: jfc i cant have shit in this life can i?

[realyti]

as a grown ass man i dont really have places where to vent about petty inconveniences and small feelings and thats why im here today

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i wouldnt think of me as someone who truly hates himself like i'm not depressed i'm ok with myself but some part of me definitely can't stand my own soul because thats the only reason i can think of for me sabotaging myself in every possible way. i cant see how i could be liked or loved so ive always just ran from it. like a poor coward but im getting too old for this shit. and im very slowly learning how to let myself be loved for the first time in way, way too long

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i have always thought that my looks were what got in the way of me living a normal fulfilling emotional romantic life but in reality that was never ever the case the fact is more that i don't care for most people and am not comfortable in intimacy. basically the call was from inside the house

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its kinda funny this blog and all the other ones i manage are about self loathing and dont get me wrong i still self loathe and cry about it but reality is that there are people who like me even in ways i thought impossible there have always been and ive been bitching for nothing this whole time. its always truly been about how much i hate myself and not how much others may or may not like me

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sempre più nero, sempre più oscuro

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lilithgoldsins

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i’m too old for this shit but yeah

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secret magazine no. 14