◤ THE HANGED MAN. ◥

ind. kaidan alenko. written by cee.

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i got soul, but i’m not a SOLDIER. ❜

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i got soul, but i’m not a SOLDIER. ❜

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gunnerychief.

Teeth grit around the animal that sleeps in her mouth.  it’s ready to snarl and bite and if she lets it loose, there’s no telling what kind of damage the shrapnel of her words will leave.  the fresh scar tissue itches, leaves her pressing a palm to the back of her neck.  how did you survive?  they’d asked.  i haven’t got a fucking clue.  she’d hissed.  but still the flutter of RELIEF at his form, unmarred and ALIVE, leaves her with a softer expression than what she would offer most.  she smiles, but murmur of GUNMETAL and merciless fire rests at the base of her spine, a reminder of all she has endured.  she smiles, but it’s tight; like she’s holding a bullet between the vowels that haven’t formed yet.  “ yeah, glad to see you guys made it out okay.  it was pretty… damn rough down there. ”

He’d watched Virmire crumble under a blaze of fire and heat – the same sort of explosion she’s made of, it would appear, simply a bomb waiting to go off. He’d felt a sort of guilt for years – at surviving, at making it out alive when she deserved it just as much. Grappling with it has been less than easy, but he’d be damned if he wasn’t trying to get over it and live his life. And now… well, it’s easier said than done. ❛ No kidding. I didn’t even know that you were----. Still around. We all thought… ❜ He trails off, unable to finish.

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vckarian.

     AND HERE GARRUS WAS CONVINCED relations with kaidan had been entirely severed. while he’d always hoped the opposite ( back in the o l d  d a y s, the two had formed a veritable camaraderie                  something that garrus genuinely missed ), the turian assumed after issues with cerberus and the sudden lack of kaidan’s trust in shepard, the two would never meet again. and here they are, proving his old thoughts completely wrong. friends again. reconnecting. ❛ didn’t think i had that in me, then, huh? ❜ a light joke; garrus adjusts himself on the couch in the lounge and tosses a smile kaidan’s way. ❛ if the mercs wanted me dead, they completely failed. a zero out of ten. but if they wanted me to be less-handsome, now… that’s another matter ENTIRELY. ❜

They’d had the budding start of a friendship at some point – Kaidan had seen it in their conversations and interactions. But that was s o m e time ago, and he’s glad to see that the bond hasn’t disappeared yet. Trust is not easily held these days, least of all by himself, but there’s some sort of reliance there under the surface. He crosses his arms, looks at Garrus with a furrowed brow. ❛ I wouldn’t say that. I’ve heard the ladies like scars. And even then, I mean, y’know. You’re still a badass through and through. ❜

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                              EVEN BEHIND THE pale blue of his visor, Shepard’s gaze gleams with something primeval. Inhuman, harsh, cybernetic RED; like glowing eyes floating above the loam of the woods, inviting wandering prey to a mouthful of TEETH. 

❛  That’s because everyone’s too damn AFRAID to get their hands dirty.  ❜

                              His hands are ALREADY dirty. Carmine red ( SINNER’S crimson ) stuck beneath nails, as spongy & damp as the day he made his first KILL. & he’s never BOTHERED to wash them. So his next order is casual, dismissive; tossed from dry lips. 

❛  But we can talk field mentality LATER. Grab your gear.  ❜ 

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He does not feel as though he has fallen victim to Shepard’s predatory gaze, but there is a distinct feeling of unrest in his bones, as if his body is ready to rattle his skeleton apart. His head aches, a dull pain in comparison to the usual migraines.

Regardless, Kaidan gives a short nod, snatches his helmet and slips it overhead. The distinct click sounds as it latches on, and his assault rifle is at the ready in seconds. ❛ What’s our objective, Commander? ❜

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“ our luck had to run out sooner or later. ”

i still don’t remember the name of this ask meme.

❛ well, it’s not all bad, y’know? ❜ some time ago they had been so full of life, strangers to the galaxy and to each other, hell bent on making someone proud. but they didn’t know who that someone was, and now ashley is being consumed by her rage. and he’s being eaten alive by his guilt and sorrow.❛ i mean, sometimes it’s bad, but not always. ❜

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provocatcur.

“I’ve seen the ones on the Citadel. I’ve even done research.” The image popped in her mind of walking a fish like you might a dog on the human vids. “I’ve read human stories about giant sea monsters. Are those true, or just whales and giant squid exist? The megalodon, now that is an impressive creature.” Now she’s on a tangeant she almost doesn’t hear his suggestion. “Do humans really make an art of eating the deadly poison pufferfish? What is the point of that delicacy?”

❛ Y’know, I’m not really sure. They probably do exist somewhere, but I can’t see it happening on Earth. Our oceans are really deep – so there’s more than meets the eye. ❜ He chuckles at the thought of giant squids in all their glory, their eyes bigger than him. ❛ Humans do stupid things. No one ever said we were great at survival skills. ❜

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kriegmark.

“I AM UNUSED TO THESE EMOTIONS!”

( just relax, Big Man, you’ll be—-! )

          He roars before large hands begin to rub at his stomach, the calloused skin on his fingers and the leather of his gloves massaging scarred flesh as he attempts to digest whatever was making him feel funny.

❛ Okay, big guy, uh---- it’s probably just indigestion. You’ll be fine. ❜ He’s... mildly alarmed, for one, but also unsure of how to proceed. ❛ You might have eaten something weird, so now your body’s reacting to it. ❜

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ROLEPLAY CHARACTER STATISTICS SHEET repost, replacing the old information with your muse’s information. pass it on to your mutuals for a better understanding of their muses.

tagged by: @gunnerychief!!


▌FACE CLAIM: oscaar isaac ▌NAME: kaidan alenko ▌AGE: 31 ▌HEIGHT: 6′3″ 
▌SPECIES: human 
▌GENDER: male. 
▌NATIONALITY: canadian. 
▌BIRTHDAY: september 12th, 2157 ▌SUN SIGN: virgo. ▌RESIDENCE: normandy sr2 ▌MARTIAL STATUS: single ▌ALIGNMENT: lawful good ▌DRINK: not all that often, but if he gets the chance, he might. doesn’t tend to help with the migraines. ▌FOOD: MREs and rations are his usual components of meals, but he’ll always dig a good steak or anything with beef in it. 
▌DAY OR NIGHT: day.
 ▌SNACKS: generally whatever ration bars or MREs are on the ship. 
▌SONGS: embarrassing funk pop, probably. that wouldn’t surprise me. ▌PET: dogs. give him a dog and he’ll be the happiest man alive. ▌COLOR: dark blue, grey, white, dark greens. ▌SEXUALITY: bye-sexual am i right??? haha no he’s bisexual. ▌ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: biromantic. ▌BODY TYPE: athletic / muscular. ▌EYE COLOR: dark brown. ▌HAIR COLOR: black.

Tagging: @makersjoy, @adastraed, @bigbadspectre, @makerspride, @cewyll, @championhung, @kcmpfer, @provocatcur, @profaneson, @vigiilance and anyone else who wants to do it tbh???? like... don’t let a tag stop you.

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my name is jager and i am literally alistair

then maybe you should call yourself… jagerstair. B)

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☾

☾: Favorite moment from your Muse’s canon, and why. (If your Muse is an OC, then favorite aspect of their story.)

i would definitely have to say that my favorite moment in his canon is the developmental arch between ME1 and ME3?? mostly because it’s just so fascinating, and i really dig that sort of growth where characters might be forced to acknowledge that what they thought they knew isn’t always true. this definitely shines through for kaidan when he is hit with the fact that:

shepard is alive

shepard is alive and didn’t tell him (esp. if he and shepard were close)

shepard is working with cerberus

he just doesn’t know how to handle that at all, at first. he’s already dealing with the colony issues and people missing – feeling like he’s inadequate, like he wasn’t cut out for the job he’d been doing since shepard’s death, feeling like he was worthless. (i.e. “out of all the people that got taken, they left you behind?”) that’s definitely a huge blow to his confidence – because not only did he not manage to save those that were in a way depending on him, he knows that he can’t get them back. it makes him look at the fact that his idealism and naivete isn’t exactly gonna be able to last much longer, even if it dwindles almost entirely by the end of the first game.

so what happens basically is that kaidan leaves shepard behind in a rather harsh manner, at least for him, because he doesn’t wanna handle the idea that he might have been wrong. he’s angry, he’s emotional, he’s in pain and he’s ridden once again with intense survivor’s guilt. (why ashley, and not me? why them, and not me?) it should never have been a choice for him, but that decision was something he didn’t get to make. he grows here the most, and that can be seen in me3 by his not so much confrontational behavior as it is… more calm, collected, like he understands that they’re only human and that he made mistakes that he couldn’t have necessarily controlled, and the choices made like the one on virmire was not his responsibility. does he still feel bad? of course. but he’s grown beyond blaming himself and being angry.

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NOT GONNA SAY JUST KAIDEN BUT ALL??? YOUR CHARACTERs: you are dedicated in putting time into each one, you really get into their skin and portray them so well they seem true-to-script renditions. You give them so many more traits and flaws that make them seem so whole and real I just??? damn YOU REALLY ARE SO GOOD AT ANY CHARACTER YOU CHOOSE AND I WEEP

send me ur fave thing about how i write my muse & boost my ego!

squints @ u a lot because i love u so so so much mischief!! ;w; it means a lot to hear this from you okay i think you’re wonderful. i try to grasp the effect of each character and sometimes that’s hard but y’know?? i try?? ilysm you nerd and this means sooooo much to me.

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“ i was already calm, asshole. ” [ helloooo ]

five word sentences.

❛ off the record, i don’t think yelling at the top of your lungs really qualifies as CALM, commander. ❜ he says it with all due respect – which at this point, is still a lot. not as much as it might’ve been, but a lot.

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“i can’t swim.”

i don’t remember what this meme was called oops.

❛ well, i mean – it’s not shocking, i guess. weird, since you like fish so much. could your body even handle that sort of thing? ❜ look, he doesn’t know much about quarians at all, beyond the basics. it’s sad, but true.

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Favourite characters • Kaidan Alenko

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jcsus.

     “Not unless you try something- but chances are probably not.” 

     In all honesty, he was unarmed, so even if he wanted to, there was slim chance of that. Hilltop was a place where ammo was a myth anymore, bullets wasted away and left them all with nothing but spears and hope. He was no different, and though it would have come in handy, he was left with little more than the knives he carried and his hand-to-hand combat alone. It would be pure luck to close the space between them and take the gun he carried.

     “You seem like a good guy, and I’d rather not bring about any unnecessary deaths. I was just looking for supplies in the area.”

❛ supplies? ❜ when was the last time he’d been met with a friendly face? somebody kind? the idea almost seems mythological, and so his grip on his gun tightens, but he still keeps it pointed towards the ground. kaidan listens carefully to the surroundings around them, the dense thickets of the wood surrounding the two muffling quite a bit of sound. he hears nothing, so he tries to keep himself calm.  ❛ i don’t think you’ll be finding any around here. there’s not another... place to stay for miles. days away. ❜ he should know: he’s desperate, hungry, and thirsty -- his head has been pounding for days on end, A C H I N G. he rubs at his neck at the very thought, trying to massage the knot that’s settled there and loosen it up. ❛ i’m kaidan. ❜

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like this for a starter.