because
your smile
is like my brother’s
you’re a Cancer
like my brother
you are handsome
like my brother
love your mother
like my brother
but you’ll never see me
like my brother did
you’ll never need me
like my brother did
there’s a black hole
in my soul
it’s beginning to show
through my dilated pupils
hidden behind lids
half closed
i thought that i’d be fine by now
but suffering doesn’t die
it grows
my strong wont last long.
i was not sent here to put on a show
and tell you lots of shit you don’t already know
pretending to be perfect is perfectly fine
for all the individuals who are perfectly fine
and grew up with money
and never fell on hard times
and had trust funds
and too much fun
with their full time dads
WE have NEVER had it easy
and fuck you if you dont believe me
and fuck me for crying over spilled milk
that i never planned on drinking
i’ve been thinking
and regretting
and accepting
and forgetting
and i hope these words find you
if you’re in need of some connecting
kids are getting crueler
parents working harder
mothers with no example of a mother
raising daughters
and vice versa for the men
raising young men
i am bleeding
i am dying
i am crying with a pen
i am trying
i am finding
my way back to him
im reminded of my brother
im reminded to keep laughing
and to love myself and others
im reminded of the times we turned couches and covers
into castles
and kingdoms
im reminded of our favorite songs and how loud we would sing them…..
we use to say we would start the Tupac religion….
then our Eminem obsession
im just scratching the surface….
- Jhene Aiko Efuru Chilombo
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