Salt, Sand and Sun

Third year teacher in Florida

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Our new couples therapist just told me that women are emotional and men are logical.

I want to drop her so bad but he likes her so if I quit I’ll never hear the end of it.

She is a doozy though

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I made my kids dinner…again

And they didn’t eat…again

So I just cried and cleaned the kitchen.

We’re off to a greaaaaat start.

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My miscarriage is now complete and now I can start to finish my healing. September was very rough for me so I’m gonna do my very best to move on and try to look forward to the things I have in my life 🤍

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I’m not sure what’s worse.

A pregnancy loss

Or a loss that doesn’t pass after 3 weeks so you have to have a procedure to you know…help it pass because your body is developing an infection.

Anyways life is hell (currently) and I’d like God to stop testing me.

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And I just would just like to shout into the void that I did everything society deemed “right” to start a family and it’s still not enough.

I would love to have a 3rd child but I cannot sacrifice the stability of my first two for the third.

my kids deserve all the financial preparedness I wasn’t afforded. but again I went to college, got 2 degrees, got a job in the public sector and still not good.

so yeah I’m annoyed and mad and trying to get over a life that I cannot have and appreciate the one I do.

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It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Also, whaaaaat

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Taking postpartum meds is a struggle.

Do I want the headache and nausea side effects or do I want to feel like an anxious ball of chaos about to explode?

And I’m just not down to switch meds and try this all over again.

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I looooove being pregnant and almost passing out everywhere.

It’s just so much fun.

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Being 40 weeks pregnant and people texting me everyday how I’m doing and if I’ve had my baby.

1. I feel shitty because I’m carrying an extra 30 pounds and mentally and physically I’m over it. That doesn’t change daily

2. When I have my kid, I’ll let you know but you texting me everyday brings me back to my frustration of 1.

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I looooove being pregnant and almost passing out everywhere.

It’s just so much fun.

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About to just let all the porn blogs follow me cause at this point I’m tired of the constant blocking everyday 😂

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I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

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Submitted bloodwork, impatiently waiting to know gender

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It’s a boy. I’m nauseous everydayyyyy 😭

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I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

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Submitted bloodwork, impatiently waiting to know gender

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I thought we avoided hand, foot and mouth this winter

Baby now has it

And I’m nervous since I’m still in first tri.

timing timing timing

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I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

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1st week of daycare

Nurses line thinks baby has Covid.

fantastic.

it’s been miserable since Wednesday

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Let’s pray that baby doesn’t have a milk allergy because the last thing I need during a formula shortage is to change formulas.

I don’t mind if it’s necessary but I’ve accumulated a stash of her current formula and I’d hate if we had to switch and stress over not having enough

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No allergy. apparently babies get cradle cap on their face????

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Let’s pray that baby doesn’t have a milk allergy because the last thing I need during a formula shortage is to change formulas.

I don’t mind if it’s necessary but I’ve accumulated a stash of her current formula and I’d hate if we had to switch and stress over not having enough