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"Come As You Are"

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"One Last Apology" Agent Opus version

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"Coat of Heaven"

"Code" is supposed to be "Coat".

“Mine alone won’t keep what was always meant to be” should be “meet”.

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"One Last Apology"

One last apology before you go

I’ve been rehearsing it all night

Every word feels too heavy

Too small

For the things I never got right

One last apology before you go

We may not see each other again

So take this truth I should’ve shown

Fold it somewhere under your skin

If you ever think of me

Let it hurt a little less

One last apology before you go

That's all I have left

You packed your books in the quiet

Left my sweater on the chair

Funny how the smallest pieces

Prove that we were really there

If I could turn back one more hour

I’d waste it all just holding you

No speeches

Just your tired head

Breathing in that crowded room

I’m sorry, I learned too late

How easy it was to lose you

One last apology before you go

I practiced it while walking home in the rain

Every word feels heavy in my throat

Every step keeps saying your name

One last apology before you go

For all the nights I made you feel alone

If this is it

If this is where we end

At least you’ll know

I always meant to mend

We may not see each other again

I’m not here to bargain for a stay

Not asking you to rewrite what you chose

Just needed you to see me this one way

A little braver than all my “almosts."

If you remember me

Let it be this

Eyes finally honest

Hands that don’t resist

If we’re just strangers

Passing years from now

I’ll still be grateful

I finally got this out

If you remember me

Let it be this

Eyes finally honest

Hands that don’t resist

If we’re just strangers

Passing years from now

I’ll still be grateful

I finally got this out

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"At The Door" (We have an 11-year-old cat who stopped using the litter box when he was a couple of years old.) I dreamt I heard my "partner" loudly say, "STOP doing that," to the cat by the front door. I went to check. The cat was surprisingly still there, but in a dark space/shadow. I could see several pieces of feces on the floor.

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"Climbing Into My Own Light" I dreamt that Barry Manilow gave me a gold watch.

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(Companion piece to the previous post.) "When The Gathering Begins (Revised)"

The tower still stands above the wall,

But no one watches there.

Their eyes are closed against the dawn,

Their mouths are sealed with fear.

They wear the cloak, they bear the name,

They sit where seers have been,

But heaven moves beyond their sight

When the gathering begins.

The field is stirring,

The scattered hear the call.

But those appointed to the height

See nothing there at all.

I will wake, I will watch,

I will keep my eyes upon the fire.

I will listen for the voice of God

When the silence gathers higher.

I will cry, I will warn,

Even when they turn away.

I will not call the darkness peace

To make it through the day.

I will stand where I have been placed,

I will speak what I am shown.

I will guard the ones forgotten,

I will call the outcasts home.

I may never hold the title,

I may never be let in—

But I will be a faithful voice

When the gathering begins.

The dogs lie dreaming by the door,

Too satisfied to sound.

Their hunger has no end in sight,

Yet truth cannot be found.

They drink tomorrow’s promise down:

“The day will stay the same.”

But morning comes without their leave,

And no one speaks His name.

The wind is turning,

The wilderness can hear.

A voice is moving through the ones

They never gathered near.

I will wake, I will watch,

I will keep my eyes upon the fire.

I will listen for the voice of God

When the silence gathers higher.

I will cry, I will warn,

Even when they turn away.

I will not call the darkness peace

To make it through the day.

I will stand where I have been placed,

I will speak what I am shown.

I will guard the ones forgotten,

I will call the outcasts home.

I may never hold the title,

I may never be let in—

But I will be a faithful voice

When the gathering begins.

They say, “There is no answer now,

No word has crossed the veil.”

They bind the wounds with empty peace

And call the silence well.

But revelation has not died,

The heavens have not closed—

The fire withdrew from loveless hands

And found the ones they loathed.

The stone rejected

Has heard the living sound.

The ones cast out beyond the walls

Are standing on holy ground.

I will wake, I will watch,

I will keep my eyes upon the fire.

I will listen for the voice of God

When the silence gathers higher.

I will cry, I will warn,

Even when they turn away.

I will not call the darkness peace

To make it through the day.

I will stand where I have been placed,

I will speak what I am shown.

I will guard the ones forgotten,

I will call the outcasts home.

I may never hold the title,

I may never be let in—

But I will be a faithful voice

When the gathering begins.

A title cannot make an eye,

A mantle cannot make a flame.

A tower does not make a seer,

Nor sacred office prove the name.

The true one hears before he speaks,

He watches through the longest night.

He sounds the warning, though it costs

His comfort, favor, place, and life.

He does not turn the flock to gain,

He does not feed upon their fear.

He stands between the teeth and sheep

Because the Shepherd placed him there.

I will not sleep upon the wall.

I will not call the darkness peace.

I will not silence what I hear

So those who hunger may increase.

Give me the eye that sees Your work,

Give me the voice that will not bend.

Let me be faithful at the tower

When the scattered enter in.

I will wake, I will watch,

I will keep my eyes upon the fire.

I will listen for the voice of God

When the silence gathers higher.

I will cry, I will warn,

Even when they turn away.

I will not call the darkness peace

To make it through the day.

I will stand where I have been placed,

I will speak what I am shown.

I will guard the ones forgotten,

I will call the outcasts home.

I may never hold the title,

I may never be let in—

But I will be a faithful voice

When the gathering begins.

The blind may keep the tower,

The mute may guard the door,

But the voice of God is moving

Where they would not look before.

He gathers those forgotten,

He calls the exiles in—

And heaven finds a faithful voice

When the gathering begins.

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"When The Gathering Begins"

Isaiah 56, Jeremiah 6:14​, Micah 3:7, and D&C 101:43-62

(I don't know the reasoning for adding the robots and creatures.)

"Found The Ones They Lost" should be "loathed".

"A Title Cannot Make The Night" should be "An Eye".

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I Will Move The Mountains

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"The Years No One Saw"

"Loss" should be "Law" and "Hope" should be "Hold".

I dreamt that a girl said that it was Inverse Day because Jesus didn't know what He wanted to do/wasn't sure He wanted to go through what was required of Him. I respond, slightly forcefully, that no one knows what He went through (during the in-between years when there's a record of Him).

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"Bloom In The Ashes" "Fragile alone" should be "Fragile all"

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When You Look Away

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"What Love Cost Me"

"Wrought" should be "Rod"

"When the promise flees" should be "When the promise bleeds"

I dreamt of going down an escalator and seeing three men walking in my direction. One of them was portraying Joseph Smith. I think one of them was Brigham Young, but not sure. I started to get teary-eyed and wanted to cry, but didn’t want to cry there. They stopped at the store at the bottom of the escalator, facing the way they came, standing at the right side of the opening, slightly at an angle to the escalator. The other man was closer to the store.

When I got down, I went over and hugged Joseph, putting my head on his left shoulder. He said that he wasn’t allowed to do that, so I brought my head up a bit. After several seconds, he relaxed and gently put my head back down on his shoulder. He had put his hand on my jaw, and I wondered if he felt any hair. We were the same height.

I was thinking of asking him about “being” with Emma and the loss of the twins. I knew that was an inappropriate question and wasn’t really going to ask.

I wanted to hug him longer, but was consciously aware of his time and that there were probably others who wanted to see him. I was thinking that maybe he “could” be my husband.

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"Build The Tower"

D & C 101:43-62

43 And now, I will show unto you a parable, that you may know my will concerning the redemption of Zion.

44 A certain nobleman had a spot of land, very choice; and he said unto his servants: Go ye unto my vineyard, even upon this very choice piece of land, and plant twelve olive trees;

45 And set watchmen round about them, and build a tower, that one may overlook the land round about, to be a watchman upon the tower, that mine olive trees may not be broken down when the enemy shall come to spoil and take upon themselves the fruit of my vineyard.

46 Now, the servants of the nobleman went and did as their lord commanded them, and planted the olive trees, and built a hedge round about, and set watchmen, and began to build a tower.

47 And while they were yet laying the foundation thereof, they began to say among themselves: And what need hath my lord of this tower?

48 And consulted for a long time, saying among themselves: What need hath my lord of this tower, seeing this is a time of peace?

49 Might not this money be given to the exchangers? For there is no need of these things.

50 And while they were at variance one with another they became very slothful, and they hearkened not unto the commandments of their lord.

51 And the enemy came by night, and broke down the hedge; and the servants of the nobleman arose and were affrighted, and fled; and the enemy destroyed their works, and broke down the olive trees.

52 Now, behold, the nobleman, the lord of the vineyard, called upon his servants, and said unto them, Why! what is the cause of this great evil?

53 Ought ye not to have done even as I commanded you, and—after ye had planted the vineyard, and built the hedge round about, and set watchmen upon the walls thereof—built the tower also, and set a watchman upon the tower, and watched for my vineyard, and not have fallen asleep, lest the enemy should come upon you?

54 And behold, the watchman upon the tower would have seen the enemy while he was yet afar off; and then ye could have made ready and kept the enemy from breaking down the hedge thereof, and saved my vineyard from the hands of the destroyer.

55 And the lord of the vineyard said unto one of his servants: Go and gather together the residue of my servants, and take all the strength of mine house, which are my warriors, my young men, and they that are of middle age also among all my servants, who are the strength of mine house, save those only whom I have appointed to tarry;

56 And go ye straightway unto the land of my vineyard, and redeem my vineyard; for it is mine; I have bought it with money.

57 Therefore, get ye straightway unto my land; break down the walls of mine enemies; throw down their tower, and scatter their watchmen.

58 And inasmuch as they gather together against you, avenge me of mine enemies, that by and by I may come with the residue of mine house and possess the land.

59 And the servant said unto his lord: When shall these things be?

60 And he said unto his servant: When I will; go ye straightway, and do all things whatsoever I have commanded you;

61 And this shall be my seal and blessing upon you—a faithful and wise steward in the midst of mine house, a ruler in my kingdom.

62 And his servant went straightway, and did all things whatsoever his lord commanded him; and after many days all things were fulfilled.

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Truth Speaks Louder Than Noise, companion piece to Truth Never Hurts, It Heals

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Truth Never Hurts, It Heals

A phrase given to me.

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Tempest Is Raging