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The Last Day Theory

If today was your last day on earth, how would you spend it?

Would you waste it scrolling a screen, arguing with strangers, chasing things that never mattered?

Or would you hold the people you love tighter, say the words you've been holding back, and finally do the thing you've been postponing for years?

The truth is, we all live like we have unlimited tomorrows, but every tomorrow is borrowed, every tomorrow is fragile.

One day, you will wake up and it will be the last, no warnings, no extensions, just the end.

So the question is this, if you knew time was running out, what would you finally do?

And why aren't you doing it today?

I won't be here on social media much anymore fyi, I'm on borrowed time in this world now and I've found my presence never mattered to people on platforms online even slightly in the way I did of them. Why stay on things when others do not care for you at all like you did of them.... people often choose those who will never choose them in the end.

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Where so much of my plant medicine comes from: Sananga, Bobinsana, Ambi Sacha, Chiricaspi, Amazonian White Copal Oil, Pegote, Chuchuhuasi, Cacao and many others I use.

Glory to Turtle Island.

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I can't stomach how my country turned super evil, but I will never deny it's natural geography that is my one true home.

I'm no longer 'Anthony' like I used to be.

I'm not 'Anthony' anymore really.

Anthony is a great person, and l was lucky to get to be him in this lifetime. But I don't think of that as 'me' anymore.

Thought is an illusory thing and thought is responsible for all - if not most - of suffering we experience. I was looking at these thoughts from another perspective and I wondered, "'who is it that's aware that l'm 'thinking?"

l used to be a guy who was experiencing the world and now l feel like the world and universe experiencing a guy.

Through ego deaths, I've been discovering what enables you to believe in you, not the universe or some master or teaching, but you, stripped bare of all of your add ons, beliefs, thought patterns, fears, guilt, stories, judgments, blames, pretenses...everything that hangs on you from the past. If you could drop them all - everything you have been taught and told and programmed to believe - what would be left to hear?

Silence.

Deep, clear silence.

That is you.

When you find that, you wil then know that everyone has that, too.

Interesting what happens when you simulate the death experience right as we die and undergo ego death with all the boundaries of the illusion of separation that melt away. Scared me hard the first time. Second time l knew what to expect, but it still didn't change what felt like an absolute l just died and was just about to cross over in a moment.