Forever a Fiend

Just Trying Not to Relapse. 23/Male/7 Years a Junkie. ASK ME ANYTHING

[camiile17]

お前に、用はない

[fuckyoubaker]

[fuckyoubaker]

[womi18]

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[recoverysabitch]

Ive been an addict for 8 years. Addicted to Tramadol, which most don't take my addiction seriously because its Tramadol. The only time I went to rehab they wouldn't even medically assist me with detox because of what I am addicted to. Withdrawal from this drug is horrific and terrible. How do I get help when no one wants to take my addiction seriously. I take up to 20/30 50mg pills a day just to lead a normal day to day life. I feel like I will never get help and I have no support.

I'm so sorry that you're in the position you're in. My honest recommendation would be to try Suboxone/Subtex. It was the only way i could get sober and it was HARD. Extremely so. But I'm pulling for you and i swear to you it is far more worth while to be sober. The upside to Suboxone to me was knowing that even if i had drugs that they wouldn't work and it would be a waste of money, time, and hope. I'm sorry i can't necessarily put all of what i want to say into this reply. If you so desire i would love to speak to you more, feel entirely free to DM me. Sorry again.

[recoverysabitch]

I am so sorry to hear that!! Please take care over the next few months.. Eat and drink water.. And allow yourself to heal. You are so strong..

Thank you. Your kind words mean the world to me!

[recoverysabitch]

Hey so I think I may be low key addicted to hydros bc a friend introduced me to them a few weeks ago and we snorted them and I’ve been stealing them from my parents every now and then but I copped a tram but I’m too scared to snort it. Do you know if that’s “safe” or should I just take it instead.

Well, in respect to your seeming impending addiction i very much recommend against it. I know opiates feel good but they're honestly not worth it. Please take my word on that. 7 years addicted that i don't remember most of and regret everything i do remember. 2 years sober from opiates now and i finally see what's actually wrong with me. I know addressing the real issues is hard but i promise you drugs will only make it harder.As for whether or not you should snort a tram, if you research the absorption percentage of intranasal versus just taking the pill as intended you'll find that intranasal is faster and lasts for a shorter duration. Where as taking the pill will take 40ish minutes to hit you, you will absorb far closer to 100% than you would via intranasal, and the high will last longer. My personal way around pills dissolve time was starving myself so i had nothing but acid and pills in my stomach. I don't recommend this as it fucked up my gastrointestinal system to the point that i have issues to this day. Long story short, toss the pill, get sober before it gets worse. Sorry to be such a buzz kill

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[recoverysabitch]

I just want to relapse and OD

Today is the absolute worst day of my life, my number one worst fear became a reality today…. All I want to do is get so fucking high on Methadone that I nod off Into a sweet, blissful, never-ending sleep.

[recoverysabitch]

This post is from the day my mother died. Since then it's only gotten worse. I want to be done. We'll see how tomorrow goes...

[recoverysabitch]

I just want to relapse

Honestly why the fuck not. Nothing matters anymore. Im tired of everything. I just want to feel different, not even better, just not like this anymore. I just want to relapse and OD. Drinking doesnt help. Distractions dont help. Ive tried everything positive and it doesnt make a difference. I just want to be done already.

[recoverysabitch]

Well Fuck

My fiancee of 6 years (6 years and 5 months to be exact) left me. I honestly don’t know how to feel. My heart hurts, consistently. I feel like i’m gonna throw up like 24/7. I miss her and i just wish i could at least know if she is okay. I’m trying to keep myself busy so i don’t let myself get stuck in how i feel but i don’t know. I’m just having a super hard time. Still sober and thankfully don’t want to get high. However without her here or at least being able to talk to her i just feel like i’m stuck in a manic episode. My anxiety is through the roof and i don’t know what to do. I just hope shes okay. I hope shes happy, but god do i wish she was happy with me...

Anyway, sorry to unload, i guess i just need a bit of support right now if you guys don’t mind. I’m gonna try to post more regularly, but that might not happen right away. Thanks

[recoverysabitch]

Do you notice any permanent physical changes to your face from the drug use? Sorry if that is too personal to ask.

None that i can see, do you mind if i ask what prompted this question?