Our Lucid Dream

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tried doing vocals on my beats for the first time. this is an invitation to hate. god bless.

[red-star-pilot]

exams done. time to sit in my room for 300 billion years

[red-star-pilot]

it’s me. im goon.

[red-star-pilot]

[red-star-pilot]

i’d give anything to live in the same 2 years for the rest of my life. i miss my friends. everyone i meet now feels hollow and meaningless. i never learned from my mistakes until it was too late and now that i’ve done the work it’s meaningless to me. i wish i could kill the person i was 5 years ago and live in his skin. i thought eventually i’d be able to move on with my life and it would be better for everyone that way, maybe it is, but i can’t help but live in the past when im alone with my own thoughts, my mind always wanders back to one place, every attempt i make at moving forward feels like a mistake, i’ve woken up every morning for the past 2 years feeling guilty like I’ve failed everyone i’ve ever cared about cuz i did. im wasting my life and i don’t know how to stop feeling jaded about everything, nothing makes me happy anymore. i keep having dreams about one person and i wake up and realize that everything is gone. all i have left are memories, and that there is no purpose in making more with people i will never appreciate. my life is a nightmare, i wish i was 18 in 2022, i wish i did better for the people i love. i hope that one day it’ll stop feeling like a piece of me is gone but i dont think that day will ever come. im sorry for everything.

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productive as fuck for a couple days and then I don’t go outside for a day and i just want to stop being alive

[red-star-pilot]

tgisb

[michaelmurder]

rose garden

[red-star-pilot]

bought a ps3 just to play my older brother games

[red-star-pilot]

this is me bc fuck my chud life

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my fucking uber driver is like 600 lbs no joke and he smells like a particular strain of unwiped ass person i havent experienced in several years. reminds me of a certain white jeep.

[red-star-pilot]

idk what to do anymore

[red-star-pilot]

it has never been more over than this

[red-star-pilot]

[red-star-pilot]

you’re the only one that understand me 💔 hot sake and curry tonkatsu 💔💔💔🥀