Welc9me t9 my 6u66lr acc9unt, while I used t9 run multiple s9cials with the express purp9se 9f educating my like-minded peers, I myself have recieved many questi9ns a69ut my struggles and experience as a marganilized hem9caste. I understand that my experiences may 6e different fr9m what 9ther pe9ple have c9me t9 kn9w as "n9rmal"- n9t that their struggles are any less valid than my 9wn- as a cullee. N9w, this isn't t9 give pe9ple the right t9 g9 prying int9 my pers9nal life as that w9uld 6reak a multitude 9f laws and n9t t9 menti9n the m9ral implicati9ns 9f entitlement t9wards 9thers struggles, 6ut I als9 6elieve if m9re pe9ple were willing t9 c9mpr9mise 6ef9rus may 6e a6le t9 get al9ng in an 9verall m9re pr9ductive and untr9u6led s9ciety. My name is Kankri Vantas and I am ten sweeps 9ld, I use exclusively he/him pr9n9uns 6ut frankly I w9uldn't c9mplain a69ut any 9ther. There are vari9us triggers that may appear 9n this 6l9g such as:
#tw a6leism #tw #tw cussing #tw em9ti9nallity #tw discussi9n 9f class struggle #tw em9ti9ns #tw seri9us t9pics
My name is Kankri Vantas, if y9u haven't already read my 6i9graphy. I mean descripti9n. This is my pers9nal 6u66lr t9 speak 9n my 9wn life experience, t9 h9pefully defeat the claims that, 9n my last 6l9g, I was viewing things exclusively thr9ugh the lens 9f my 9wn experience. I attempt t9 stay entirely su6jective in any situati9n s9 h9pefully I will 6e a6le to 6r9aden many 9f y9ur views 9n th9se wh9 experience the less traditi9nal 6ef9ran experience. N9t that theres anything wr9ng with n9n traditi9nally, I myself c9nsider myself a 6asti9n 9f such, as s9me9ne wh9 identifies rather pr9udly as 69th celi6ate and p9ly-quad-curi9us.
I use he/him exclusively 6ut frankly y9u may use whichever pr9n9un y9u find m9st c9mf9rtable, I'm n9t exactly the m9st picky when it really c9mes d9wn t9 it. I am a male, h9wever, and that isn't in any expectati9n t9 change. I identify as hem9an9nym9us at the m9ment and while I c9mpletely understand any negative reacti9ns a tr9ll may have t9 that dreaded identity la6el; I d9 n9t 6elieve any9ne is pers9nally entitled to my caste. That said, it isn't a secret in the slightest and I am n9t ashamed 9f my 6l99d.
I follow from @websitestar which is where my info/rules are.
This is an Blog-style RP account for Kankri Vantas. The au is undetermined but he's basically canon Kankri, or the closest I can get to it.
My names Chalice I'm 24 I use he/him or hy/hym. I'm a white jew I'm disabled in various and have evil parents. My blog isn't mutual exclusive, no pedophiles (INCLUDES PROSHIPPERS) or racists. I block/unfollow extremely willy nilly, don't take it personally.
Rules + All other accs
CW: Kankri is an asshole, he's a petty bitch and he can be extremely judgemental and socially inept. He is cowardly, multifaceted and deals with a lot of inner conflict. I can't vet every follower if they are okay with Kankri being a dickhead to their character, so if Kankri's canon ableism, sexism and general dickery pisses you off please don't follow. I promise it isn't personal, his character is just like this. If it bothers you, DM me and stop replying. We can decide if we want to stop rping together or just tone it down, but I cannot know if you don't like it if you don't tell me.
Kankri grew up in the cullee system on Beforus which has left him with a lot of scars from intense ableism, child abuse and poverty, and many of the things he says are him attempting to parrot his cullers for a sense of control and maturity that he doesn't feel secure in. He played the game for six years, was in the dream bubbles for a very long time before the beta kids/trolls won the game and they were transported onto earth as a reward, with memories of a casual earth life, with the betas, alphas and ancestors all living together in a family unit. Kankri has been struggling with visions of the signless since he was a kid but in the dream bubbles he was able to control them, and now that he's back on earth it's opened up the floodgates again, and this is basically meant to be a Kankri Redemption blog. He'll learn and get better slowly, but right now he is in ableism repression city. Most of the TW's he brings up are his own triggers he doesn't know how to ask for help for, and most of the claims he makes about other people are him projecting his insecurity onto them.
I think there is a6s9lutely s9mething t9 6e examined deeper a69ut the psych9l9gical inclinati9n t9 lean t9wards "6ully" language whenever s9me9ne is "right" ab9ut their ch9sen t9pic, and these 6ack to 6ack really d9 hammer in hive that its a 6ehavi9r we all partake in as tr9lls. Every9ne has such a large desire t9 6e percieved as right that perhaps when we are expected t9 "pr9ve" 9urselves we feel as if we are 6eing denied the c9rrectness we feel entitled t9, as 9ther tr9lls 6elief in 9ur serm9ns- I mean 9ur statements- is restricted fr9m us until we pr9vide further intelectual la69r.
It is nice t9 hyp9th9size a w9rld where n9ne 9f us NEED t9 6e s9rry for when we are right, instead we w9uld have m9re trust in 9ur fell9w tr9lls when they have s9mething imperative t9 say, and g9 in with g99d faith. While I am s9rry f9r the things I've said during these m9ments I can't help 6ut think that if they were to have 6elieved me in the first place I w9uld've never turned to such language.
N9, I didn't think it was, what I mean is I d9u6t that this p9st w9uld c9ver y9ur dash in the way it d9es if we all put m9re eff9rt int9 actually listening t9 9ne an9ther and c9nsidering their critiques a69ut how they might 6e adressing s9mething. T9 me it paints an 96vi9us picture 9f p9litical unrest, in s9 little w9rds it 6ec9mes clear t9 me that this is a sympt9m of a wider issue at hand.
N9w I w9uld hate t9 make assumpti9ns a69ut y9u and y9ur sessi9n 9f c9urse 6ut fr9m what I can remem6er a69ut 9urs is that this was a pressing issue am9ngst all 9f us, regardless 9f h9w true 9r accurate a tr9lls statement w9uld be they w9uld turn their 6acks and f9cus 9n m9re menial things like whether 9r n9t a helmet l99ks c99ler with an antenna 9r n9t, instead 9f the big picture pr96lem 9f appr9priating gr9tesquely ableist ic9n9graphy frequently used in m9dern media t9 "den9te" a characters intellectual status. I mean that is 9ne example 9f many that 9ur sessi9n was 6uilt up up9n it was just the first 9ne that came t9 my head first. And like I said, I cann9t and will n9t make any assumpti9ns a69ut h9w Y9UR game went 9r if y9u even ended up playing at all 6ut I cann9t help 6ut imagine this p9st sh9wing up 9n MY feed that many times and getting m9re than a little agitated at rhe fact that I am n9t particularly "s9rry" f9r things said since it was such a c9nstant 9ccurance t9 be misunderst99d and disregarded 6y the pe9ple i c9nsidered "friends" ar9und me. The p9int 9f the p9st was t9 earn a few chuckles 9f c9urse, I am 9nly speculating a69ut the culture ar9und the p9st and wht it may res9nate with s9 many tr9lls, and what that means f9r us m9ving f9rward: H9w CAN we fix this pr96lem, s9 n9 9ne w9uld need t9 ap9l9gize m9ving f9rward?
The 9nly reas9n I w9uld ch99se "mean" w9rds is when there had 6een a pr9ver6ial 6arricade in6etween c9mmunicati9n, typically due t9 unf9unded criticisms 9f the paragraphs 9f inf9rmati9n I've spent time 9ut 9f my day writing f9r them and I can 9nly assume 9thers feel the same. Theref9r it makes me w9nder what the m9st affective measures against such p9intless criticisms are and h9w we can inact them t9 m9ve f9rward t9wards pr9gress within justice spaces 9n the internet. S9 n9, the p9st wasn't a69ut that, exactly, 6ut I think thats hardly the p9int.
I think there is a6s9lutely s9mething t9 6e examined deeper a69ut the psych9l9gical inclinati9n t9 lean t9wards "6ully" language whenever s9me9ne is "right" ab9ut their ch9sen t9pic, and these 6ack to 6ack really d9 hammer in hive that its a 6ehavi9r we all partake in as tr9lls. Every9ne has such a large desire t9 6e percieved as right that perhaps when we are expected t9 "pr9ve" 9urselves we feel as if we are 6eing denied the c9rrectness we feel entitled t9, as 9ther tr9lls 6elief in 9ur serm9ns- I mean 9ur statements- is restricted fr9m us until we pr9vide further intelectual la69r.
It is nice t9 hyp9th9size a w9rld where n9ne 9f us NEED t9 6e s9rry for when we are right, instead we w9uld have m9re trust in 9ur fell9w tr9lls when they have s9mething imperative t9 say, and g9 in with g99d faith. While I am s9rry f9r the things I've said during these m9ments I can't help 6ut think that if they were to have 6elieved me in the first place I w9uld've never turned to such language.
mituna is kankri and kankri is cronus and cronus is kankri and kankri is mituna. this is because they are all disabled men in the same generation and social sphere and they experience the same issues and just have different reactions to them, and reactions to their own reflections.
kankri and cronus be like no i can't be open with how i feel. look at how mituna gets treated for being open about how HE feels. YES i know im the one perpetuating that ableism, but if i don't perpetuate it i will become a victim to it! he has to stay the only victim so i dont take his place! why do i feel so terrible and hate myself so much?
WHY DID THAT DE-ESCELATION WORK. THIS IS WHY I THINK IF YOU JUST WERE REALLY MEAN TO AND HIT CRONUS HE'D BECOME A BETTER PERSON. LISTEN. I WAS DOING YOU A FAVOR.
the actual answer for why the de-escelation works is because cronus faces so much bullying and aggression faced towards him that when it's just passive aggression it hurts less than people actively telling him hes an awful shitty useless excuse of a highblood that no one could ever love or find attractive because hes stupid and violent and delusional. that paired with the fact that kankri followed it up with essentially exactly what cronus needed to hear, the passive aggression doesn't even meet his ears, all he hears is that he is getting validation for something he genuinely feels in one way or another from someone hes desperate for validation from. it reads to him as someone trying to genuinely comfort him. thats why it works, he is so desperate for kindness that kankri genuinely DOES feel and seem kind to him, even though kankri absolutely knows what hes doing is manipulative and is manipulating him on purpose.
I ap9l9gize f9r the fact rhat my 6l9g truly has devel9ped a very str9ng "cry f9r help" s9rt 9f appearence. I pr9mise I am f9r the m9st part perfectly fine.
