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๐ฅ๐จ๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง : zarina's apartment
hook didn't feel anxiety . perhaps that was too specific - - james hook didn't feel much of anything , besides anger . on occasion , he'd feel something akin to lust , , , but it was always derived from his fury in some shape or form . yet , as he stood outside of zarina's apartment , he felt nothing but unease . concern . there was no room for anger , not with the feverish spell of nervousness festering beneath his skin , his hands shifting in and out of his pockets as he stared , narrowed eyes , at her door . the very door in which he had gone in and out of more times than he'd admit in the months zarina was gone . one he missed walking into when she had returned , though he knew - understood - that there would never be a day in which he was invited further than the porch . the porch itself felt like a luxury .
he doesn't remember knocking , not until the echo of the sound was ringing in his ears and his knuckles were raw from how hard they had rapped against the word . hook stepped back , half expecting to be met with the glinting tip of a drawn sword IF the door were to open , preparing for it . he dragged his thumb across the weight in his pocket , the small gift he had brought . it wasn't much , though even if it had been he knew there was no use putting band aids over bullet holes , , , and yet , the longer he had stared at it on the shelf of his shop - -
the door suddenly swung open , catching him off guard . james almost flinched , his adam's apple seeming to duck for cover as it prepared to taste the metal of her blade , bobbing low in his throat to dodge . james blinked through the fog that had suddenly shrouded his vision , holding his hand out as if attempting to reassure a wild animal he wasn't there to feast on them .
" don't shut the door . please . i just , , , " wanted to make sure you were okay . see how you were . know you were alive . again . " i , , , " another harsh clearing of his throat , the turning of his eyes to the road since holding zarina's gaze seemed to twist his speech . make the english language seem foreign . his hands fell into his pockets once more .
" i heard you were back . that everyone was back . " ever observant , the captain was . " - - wanted to see for myself . "