For the first time today, Alear finds himself surprised in a way that's positive, rather than wildly negative. A more graceful confession of the situation than he'd expected to hear, from one who was previously attempting to claw his heart out with bare hands. But that makes sense too, in its own fashion. People can wear varied masks. This must be the one which explains why Rafal has an accepted place here.
He should confess to the fire, in turn. He started it deliberately, in the ruthless mindset of a Fell Child who would do anything for survival. Part of him still isn't sorry for that. Maybe if he'd held back, then Rafal would have killed him. If the smoke hadn't drawn attention at the end, then Rafal would definitely have killed him, capitalising on his error.
Should he still think of it as an error? He'd feel safer, if Rafal were dead. But in that case, wouldn't he be accused of murder?
It's odd to acknowledge that's something which could happen here. Of course, Alear is a murderer. A thousand times over, he is. It's given other names though, when the highest authority demands it rather than condemns it. Conquest, victory, vengeance, progress. As if that should lift the weight of the dead from his conscience.
Compared to that, arson is a very small crime.
He opens his mouth to speak - not swiftly enough, however. Rafal gets the first words in, and amazingly takes the blame for himself, rather than casting it in the proper place, at Alear's feet.
He can't fathom why. Aren't they enemies? Shouldn't Rafal be pleased to see Alear in trouble? It doesn't seem like a peace offering, but if there's another motivation, then identifying it is beyond him. A simple wish to reset the balance, no matter who it involves? False claims that Alear was guilty, followed by false claims that he's innocent.
He's tempted to state the truth, regardless. What seems benevolent on the surface might not necessarily be so, laying a trap or planning for blackmail, machinations he'd struggle to decipher or defend against. Besides, Alear doesn't want to be a coward who hides behind others. He wants his life here to be more honourable than the one he escaped from.
…Though where self-preservation is concerned, he recognises that an established professor will likely be judged less harshly, than a newly-arrived student. Ultimately, he doesn't contest it, because he doesn't understand this place or these people well enough, to make a confident choice.
"Even if you believed him to be responsible, there are other channels of discipline, besides taking it into your own hands. Try to remember that."
This calm correction seems to indicate that Rafal's apology is accepted.
"And you," she continues, aimed at Alear, "This is an unfortunate start to your time here. Let me make it clear that this type of conduct is considered unacceptable within Garreg Mach, for everyone."
"I understand that. I am sorry this happened."
Even here, he's defective. There must be punishment due; more than an exchange of words, to break disobedient spirits down into palatable shapes. A sense of skewering dread, as he contemplates what might be next. He'd been trying to avoid thinking of this part.
The worst case would be expulsion. Being sent back to Lumera in disgrace, having to explain why the Officers Academy rejected him. Showing that she was wrong to believe in him, after all.
"I don't have a full report of the damage yet, but you'll find yourselves very unpopular, if some of the Black Eagles end up taking lessons outside in the middle of winter, while their classroom is reconstructed." From her tone, it's hard to tell if this would actually happen. "I'll expect you to take part in the repairs somehow, so you appreciate the work involved." A brief pause. "Not necessarily together, though. As for the rest, you'll find out soon enough."
Her tone doesn't sound as ominous as it ought to. For the second time, Alear is left confused. He casts a glance at Rafal, but that doesn't clarify much either.
Aren't they going to hurt him, for doing something wrong?
"Professor Rafal, you are dismissed. Alear, there's something else we need to discuss, in private."
Silence settles in the office, once they're alone. A perceptible lessening of tension, though Alear doesn't feel entirely safe yet.
After a drawn-out minute, the knight explains, "There's nothing further to discuss, really. I'm just making sure you leave at staggered times, because I don't want you near each other for the rest of the day." She sighs. "It's a shame you're in the same house, but there's nothing we can do about that, for now. Just try not to antagonise your teachers."
After that, she stops speaking and concentrates on writing her report, quill scratching across the paper. He can't think of anything else to say, drained and disoriented, busy unpacking the last hour's worth of intense, perspective-altering conversations. Eventually, she waves a hand and declares that he's free to go.
The most prudent choice would be to head directly back to his own room, and stay there. Still, he can't resist a detour, to see what state the classroom is in. Much of the crowd has dispersed, though there's a few chatting observers still hanging around, already inventing wild rumours about what happened there (as if the truth isn't dramatic enough). The fire is long dead, the doors left open to reveal a cavernous, blackened ruin of a room, with smoke-stained stones and desks reduced to brittle charcoal. How much work will that take, to repair?
Maybe it's true, that Fell Dragons can't leave anything besides destruction in their wake. Alear doesn't want it to be. But he'll have to do a lot better than this, to convince anyone.