Thoughts, Dreams and Ramblings.

Because sometimes you can't keep those things inside.

[redlilyfae]

There is something I need to say. I don't know how many people it will reach, but I'm going to put it out there anyway.

If you need to talk, I'm here.

I am an adult, I've struggled with depression since I was a teenager. I had my daughter at seventeen, I raised her mostly on my own. Her best friend is trans and I love him like he was my own son. She identifies as pan and was so relieved when she told me and I told her I identify as bi-sexual.

I have Celiac and Fibromyalgia, and a lot of my life is a struggle. Don't get me wrong, I have a good life, family that I love, a decent job, a roof over my head and food on the table. I haven't always had these things so I'm grateful everyday.

My point is this: I will listen to you. If you just want to rant and have some silent support, or if you want some advice from an adult. If you can't turn to the adults in your life, I will lend an ear. I will try to help.

You are not alone.

[redlilyfae]

Everybody ready? It's almost time!

[redlilyfae]

Ok, so, I'm a lurker not a poster, mostly because all the hate and nastiness I see scares me. But I cannot resist today. I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! Captain Swan is getting married tonight!!!! And it feels so good to come on Tumblr and see my fellow CSers freaking out just as hard or harder. Today is our day and I'm so happy to share it with all of you.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Who is the brilliant author who is writing the CS!AU Amazon/Spartan fic on here?? I know who they are on Archive of our Own…but I am guessing different name on here?? Anyone know?

[redlilyfae]

I don't know their Tumblr, but on ff.net the author's name is to theendoftheworldortime79

[redlilyfae]

Holy crap what an episode! Next season is gonna be a wild ride.

[redlilyfae]

Well what a mixed bag of emotions this episode was. Disgust for Hades and Rumple, seriously, what douchebags those two are. Pride in Zelena for choosing her sister, pain and sadness over Robin Hood's death. Poor Roland. :-( Worry over what Regina is going to do now. And such happiness that Zeus sent Killian back to Emma. I've already seen people complaining about their reunion, and all I can do is shake my head. If someone you loved, who you thought was lost to you forever, suddenly came back would you stop and think before running into their arms? I know I wouldn't. So my CS shipper heart is happy, while at the same time I feel terrible for the OQ shippers out there that are mourning right now. I'm sorry for your loss.

[redlilyfae]

I absolutely, 100% do not understand all the fandom hate for Once, or any other show. It's television! It's a fictional world, with fictional characters! Look, I love Ouat, I fangirl and cry and get emotional, but I also understand that this is a world created by others and I have absolutely no control. No fan has control over a t.v. show. It is the creation of the writers. They have reasons for what they do and while I may not agree with some, it's not my business. If you don't enjoy a show anymore or really dislike the direction it's going, stop watching! Honestly, it's that simple! Sending hate to the actors/writers/creators only serves to make you look childish and sending hate to other fans is so beyond ridiculous I can't even comprehend it. If you've lost faith in the people who created this FICTIONAL world, bow out gracefully. Sending hate to anybody to make yourself feel better is bullying, and it needs to stop.

[redlilyfae]

I still haven't properly processed last nights episode. Captain Swan got True Love confirmation(yay!), then they were torn apart in one of the most heart wrenching scenes I've watched since 10 and Rose were separated. All I know right now is that their reunion better be epic.

[redlilyfae]

Awwww. Yay for the CaptainCharming moment! So cute.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Perhaps I am alone in this…does the timeline REALLY matter?? I see people get upset from time to time about things on OUAT. I think it’s good to be passionate…but it’s also good to ‘roll with it.’ In the end, the show is entertainment. It always makes us smile…at it’s best, it makes us cry AND smile. I think perhaps a few mistakes here and there are inevitable…and incredibly forgivable. 

[redlilyfae]

I don’t think it matters all that much, except when it’s blatantly screwed up, like with this latest sneak peek with Ruby in Oz. That just shows a lack of attention and care from the shows creators, which is disappointing and kind of insulting to those of us that love the show.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I am thinking that they ‘lost the thread’?? I don’t think they don’t care…as much as they sort of lost track of the detail. You know what i mean?? Like, they have these big, ambitious goals for plot…and they want to do so much…that they can’t seem to keep it all together. I can sort of understand that (perhaps as someone who can be a bit overly ambitious at times myself!!) I think sometimes their writers (particularly the newer ones) have these deadlines/assignments…and want to impress…and they mess up the little nitty details. To be honest, (to my shame as a fan!) I didn’t notice the error myself!

It does sound, from Adam’s tweets,  like the mistake was actually caught by the team prior to airing…just not prior to the sneak,. 

[redlilyfae]

I completely understand them losing track, with all the storylines and time changes. Usually it doesn't bother me at all. I hope they did catch this one though, cause it was pretty big.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Perhaps I am alone in this…does the timeline REALLY matter?? I see people get upset from time to time about things on OUAT. I think it’s good to be passionate…but it’s also good to ‘roll with it.’ In the end, the show is entertainment. It always makes us smile…at it’s best, it makes us cry AND smile. I think perhaps a few mistakes here and there are inevitable…and incredibly forgivable. 

[redlilyfae]

I don't think it matters all that much, except when it's blatantly screwed up, like with this latest sneak peek with Ruby in Oz. That just shows a lack of attention and care from the shows creators, which is disappointing and kind of insulting to those of us that love the show.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Ok….I have to vent a bit here…for a moment. So, I am a Type-A. Like REALLY Type-A. If I am getting someone a gift, I’ll spend hours thinking about it. When I plan an event, I take MONTHS to plan it. I read articles, create Pinterest boards etc. I work my butt off.

I’ve had a board for months now where I’ve planned ideas from obscure articles for cute ideas for a big party I have coming up.These are ideas that I have compiled over months. MONTHS.

So a few days ago, an acquaintance went through my Pinterest…liked a bunch of the things on my board…and then USED them all for her own event…and took credit for “finding” all of them, and being “creative.”

This ticked me off. A mutual friend noted that she stole the ideas…but thinks that I should just “accept it” and move on (aka quickly come up with all new plans). I am struggling with this. Is it right to be upset?? I am not planning on ‘going there’ with this acquaintance…but I am thinking of blocking her from my Pinterest etc.

Edit: for the record, this is the same person who once stole my wedding palette colors (she asked what mine were (told me she didn’t have any yet)…oh and then used them at her wedding…a few months before mine… And then stole a baby name we were using after my mother let it slip what our choices were. Petty….maybe.. but annoying too??

[redlilyfae]

You absolutely have the right to be upset. And you should definitely block this person from your Pinterest. Honestly, you should confront her too, stealing ideas is wrong and she'll just keep doing it if she keeps getting away with it.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

CS GTKY-Open Question: What What Your Favorite Toy as a Child

Hi All,

I recently finished a classroom project with my kiddo for kindergarten where we discussed favorite childhood toys from when hubs and I were kid (and when his grandparents were kids). It’s been fun thinking of the first toy as a kid you can really remember. For me, it was an American Girl Kirstin doll (I LOVED that doll!).

So, in the spirit of ‘getting to know you’, what was YOUR favorite toy as a child?? What was the first toy you really remember playing with??

[redlilyfae]

I had a Cabbage Patch Doll named Ardella. I took that doll with me everywhere I went. I gave her to my baby sister when I was a teenager. (I still have my American Girl Samantha)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I have a Samantha doll too!!! She always had the best accessories! :)

I also had a Cabbage Patch kid…any chance you’re a fellow 80′s baby??

[redlilyfae]

I am indeed an 80’s baby. My childhood was full of My Little Ponies, Care Bears, Danger Mouse, Popples, Rainbow Brite and Strawberry Shortcake. :-)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Me too!! Actually I was chatting with my hubby last night about how they need to bring back Rainbow Brite!! Matt actually had quite a few of the same toys that seem to be coming back ‘in’ now (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters etc)

[redlilyfae]

My sister and I had the Ghostbuster proton packs. I love how things come back around again. When my daughter was little My Little Pony and Care Bears became popular again. She loved the Care Bears Movies, man I think I watched those a thousand times more with her than I did when I was a kid. She’s actually the one who got me into Ouat. She was like ‘mom, you gotta watch this show’. Now she’s all ‘mom you’re obsessed.’ And I just remind her that it’s all her fault.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Ha!! That’s awesome though!! (and good on her getting you into a fun show!)

We got my oldest son (almost 6) a TNMT blimp last Christmas. Matt (the hubby) was snapping photos..and then suddenly had a ‘light bulb flash memory’ type moment. He called his mom, and sure enough, they had photos of him at about 4 years old with the SAME blimp (circa ‘86 or so!) It all comes back around!

Btw, do you remember the old ‘scratch and sniff’ My Little Ponies?? I think I probably still have my “vanilla cupcake” pony stored away somewhere. :)

[redlilyfae]

I do remember those! And how amazing Strawberry Shortcake dolls smelled. Your oldest is 6? That’s such a fun age. My daughter 17. She’ll be 18 in June and graduating high school. It’s all so surreal. I swear she was 5 yesterday. Time goes by way too fast.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Yes! As I recall, my Strawberry Shortcake doll smelled ‘fruity’ (although not really like strawberries…or shortcake!). I went through a phase of asking my parents make me strawberry shortcake for dessert at least once a week for a good year or so. :)

My oldest  will be six, and my youngest will be two next month!! I can’t imagine High School graduation yet!! I was a mess when the oldest one ‘graduated’ from pre-school!! I feel like I blink, and my kids are each two inches taller already! :) 

[redlilyfae]

My daughter, her best friend and one of my nieces will all turn 18 and graduate within a few weeks of one another. I may have a complete mental breakdown by the end of June. I wouldn’t trade a second away, but I do sometimes wish she could be little again. Having kids is joy and heartbreak and the best thing in the world.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Yes! I had a moment about a week ago, talking to my oldest, where I thought “Holy cow…he’s really growing up!! Where did my baby go?!” It’s amazing/heartbreaking all at the same time!

[redlilyfae]

It's an amazing thing, being a parent.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

CS GTKY-Open Question: What What Your Favorite Toy as a Child

Hi All,

I recently finished a classroom project with my kiddo for kindergarten where we discussed favorite childhood toys from when hubs and I were kid (and when his grandparents were kids). It’s been fun thinking of the first toy as a kid you can really remember. For me, it was an American Girl Kirstin doll (I LOVED that doll!).

So, in the spirit of ‘getting to know you’, what was YOUR favorite toy as a child?? What was the first toy you really remember playing with??

[redlilyfae]

I had a Cabbage Patch Doll named Ardella. I took that doll with me everywhere I went. I gave her to my baby sister when I was a teenager. (I still have my American Girl Samantha)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I have a Samantha doll too!!! She always had the best accessories! :)

I also had a Cabbage Patch kid…any chance you’re a fellow 80′s baby??

[redlilyfae]

I am indeed an 80’s baby. My childhood was full of My Little Ponies, Care Bears, Danger Mouse, Popples, Rainbow Brite and Strawberry Shortcake. :-)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Me too!! Actually I was chatting with my hubby last night about how they need to bring back Rainbow Brite!! Matt actually had quite a few of the same toys that seem to be coming back ‘in’ now (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters etc)

[redlilyfae]

My sister and I had the Ghostbuster proton packs. I love how things come back around again. When my daughter was little My Little Pony and Care Bears became popular again. She loved the Care Bears Movies, man I think I watched those a thousand times more with her than I did when I was a kid. She’s actually the one who got me into Ouat. She was like ‘mom, you gotta watch this show’. Now she’s all ‘mom you’re obsessed.’ And I just remind her that it’s all her fault.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Ha!! That’s awesome though!! (and good on her getting you into a fun show!)

We got my oldest son (almost 6) a TNMT blimp last Christmas. Matt (the hubby) was snapping photos..and then suddenly had a ‘light bulb flash memory’ type moment. He called his mom, and sure enough, they had photos of him at about 4 years old with the SAME blimp (circa ‘86 or so!) It all comes back around!

Btw, do you remember the old ‘scratch and sniff’ My Little Ponies?? I think I probably still have my “vanilla cupcake” pony stored away somewhere. :)

[redlilyfae]

I do remember those! And how amazing Strawberry Shortcake dolls smelled. Your oldest is 6? That’s such a fun age. My daughter 17. She’ll be 18 in June and graduating high school. It’s all so surreal. I swear she was 5 yesterday. Time goes by way too fast.

[jackieorioncat]

I had a my buddy doll. But the little toy I have kept all these years is a happy meal cabbage patch plastic doll (that is in pristine condition by the way) that my daughter now plays with. I don’t really remember not having it. I love that thing, even now.

[redlilyfae]

It's so much fun being able to pass toys on to your own kids.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

CS GTKY-Open Question: What What Your Favorite Toy as a Child

Hi All,

I recently finished a classroom project with my kiddo for kindergarten where we discussed favorite childhood toys from when hubs and I were kid (and when his grandparents were kids). It’s been fun thinking of the first toy as a kid you can really remember. For me, it was an American Girl Kirstin doll (I LOVED that doll!).

So, in the spirit of ‘getting to know you’, what was YOUR favorite toy as a child?? What was the first toy you really remember playing with??

[redlilyfae]

I had a Cabbage Patch Doll named Ardella. I took that doll with me everywhere I went. I gave her to my baby sister when I was a teenager. (I still have my American Girl Samantha)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I have a Samantha doll too!!! She always had the best accessories! :)

I also had a Cabbage Patch kid…any chance you’re a fellow 80′s baby??

[redlilyfae]

I am indeed an 80’s baby. My childhood was full of My Little Ponies, Care Bears, Danger Mouse, Popples, Rainbow Brite and Strawberry Shortcake. :-)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Me too!! Actually I was chatting with my hubby last night about how they need to bring back Rainbow Brite!! Matt actually had quite a few of the same toys that seem to be coming back ‘in’ now (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters etc)

[redlilyfae]

My sister and I had the Ghostbuster proton packs. I love how things come back around again. When my daughter was little My Little Pony and Care Bears became popular again. She loved the Care Bears Movies, man I think I watched those a thousand times more with her than I did when I was a kid. She’s actually the one who got me into Ouat. She was like ‘mom, you gotta watch this show’. Now she’s all ‘mom you’re obsessed.’ And I just remind her that it’s all her fault.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Ha!! That’s awesome though!! (and good on her getting you into a fun show!)

We got my oldest son (almost 6) a TNMT blimp last Christmas. Matt (the hubby) was snapping photos..and then suddenly had a ‘light bulb flash memory’ type moment. He called his mom, and sure enough, they had photos of him at about 4 years old with the SAME blimp (circa ‘86 or so!) It all comes back around!

Btw, do you remember the old ‘scratch and sniff’ My Little Ponies?? I think I probably still have my “vanilla cupcake” pony stored away somewhere. :)

[redlilyfae]

I do remember those! And how amazing Strawberry Shortcake dolls smelled. Your oldest is 6? That’s such a fun age. My daughter 17. She’ll be 18 in June and graduating high school. It’s all so surreal. I swear she was 5 yesterday. Time goes by way too fast.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Yes! As I recall, my Strawberry Shortcake doll smelled ‘fruity’ (although not really like strawberries…or shortcake!). I went through a phase of asking my parents make me strawberry shortcake for dessert at least once a week for a good year or so. :)

My oldest  will be six, and my youngest will be two next month!! I can’t imagine High School graduation yet!! I was a mess when the oldest one ‘graduated’ from pre-school!! I feel like I blink, and my kids are each two inches taller already! :) 

[redlilyfae]

My daughter, her best friend and one of my nieces will all turn 18 and graduate within a few weeks of one another. I may have a complete mental breakdown by the end of June. I wouldn't trade a second away, but I do sometimes wish she could be little again. Having kids is joy and heartbreak and the best thing in the world.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

CS GTKY-Open Question: What What Your Favorite Toy as a Child

Hi All,

I recently finished a classroom project with my kiddo for kindergarten where we discussed favorite childhood toys from when hubs and I were kid (and when his grandparents were kids). It’s been fun thinking of the first toy as a kid you can really remember. For me, it was an American Girl Kirstin doll (I LOVED that doll!).

So, in the spirit of ‘getting to know you’, what was YOUR favorite toy as a child?? What was the first toy you really remember playing with??

[redlilyfae]

I had a Cabbage Patch Doll named Ardella. I took that doll with me everywhere I went. I gave her to my baby sister when I was a teenager. (I still have my American Girl Samantha)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I have a Samantha doll too!!! She always had the best accessories! :)

I also had a Cabbage Patch kid…any chance you’re a fellow 80′s baby??

[redlilyfae]

I am indeed an 80’s baby. My childhood was full of My Little Ponies, Care Bears, Danger Mouse, Popples, Rainbow Brite and Strawberry Shortcake. :-)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Me too!! Actually I was chatting with my hubby last night about how they need to bring back Rainbow Brite!! Matt actually had quite a few of the same toys that seem to be coming back ‘in’ now (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters etc)

[redlilyfae]

My sister and I had the Ghostbuster proton packs. I love how things come back around again. When my daughter was little My Little Pony and Care Bears became popular again. She loved the Care Bears Movies, man I think I watched those a thousand times more with her than I did when I was a kid. She’s actually the one who got me into Ouat. She was like ‘mom, you gotta watch this show’. Now she’s all ‘mom you’re obsessed.’ And I just remind her that it’s all her fault.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Ha!! That’s awesome though!! (and good on her getting you into a fun show!)

We got my oldest son (almost 6) a TNMT blimp last Christmas. Matt (the hubby) was snapping photos..and then suddenly had a ‘light bulb flash memory’ type moment. He called his mom, and sure enough, they had photos of him at about 4 years old with the SAME blimp (circa ‘86 or so!) It all comes back around!

Btw, do you remember the old ‘scratch and sniff’ My Little Ponies?? I think I probably still have my “vanilla cupcake” pony stored away somewhere. :)

[redlilyfae]

I do remember those! And how amazing Strawberry Shortcake dolls smelled. Your oldest is 6? That's such a fun age. My daughter 17. She'll be 18 in June and graduating high school. It's all so surreal. I swear she was 5 yesterday. Time goes by way too fast.

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

CS GTKY-Open Question: What What Your Favorite Toy as a Child

Hi All,

I recently finished a classroom project with my kiddo for kindergarten where we discussed favorite childhood toys from when hubs and I were kid (and when his grandparents were kids). It’s been fun thinking of the first toy as a kid you can really remember. For me, it was an American Girl Kirstin doll (I LOVED that doll!).

So, in the spirit of ‘getting to know you’, what was YOUR favorite toy as a child?? What was the first toy you really remember playing with??

[redlilyfae]

I had a Cabbage Patch Doll named Ardella. I took that doll with me everywhere I went. I gave her to my baby sister when I was a teenager. (I still have my American Girl Samantha)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

I have a Samantha doll too!!! She always had the best accessories! :)

I also had a Cabbage Patch kid…any chance you’re a fellow 80′s baby??

[redlilyfae]

I am indeed an 80’s baby. My childhood was full of My Little Ponies, Care Bears, Danger Mouse, Popples, Rainbow Brite and Strawberry Shortcake. :-)

[justalilblondemama-deactivated2]

Me too!! Actually I was chatting with my hubby last night about how they need to bring back Rainbow Brite!! Matt actually had quite a few of the same toys that seem to be coming back ‘in’ now (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters etc)

[redlilyfae]

My sister and I had the Ghostbuster proton packs. I love how things come back around again. When my daughter was little My Little Pony and Care Bears became popular again. She loved the Care Bears Movies, man I think I watched those a thousand times more with her than I did when I was a kid. She's actually the one who got me into Ouat. She was like 'mom, you gotta watch this show'. Now she's all 'mom you're obsessed.' And I just remind her that it's all her fault.