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Tim: *slowly reaches for remote and turns off the movie*

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Damian: *watching the force awakens with Tim*
Kylo Ren : "nothing will stand in our way. I will finish what you started, Grandfather."
Tim: *slowly reaches for remote and turns off the movie*
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i have never felt more spiritually in tune with tim drake than at this very moment
[He’s stopped trying to predict where this conversation might lead, because every time he does, it takes a new turn and leaves him feeling dizzy. First he’s crushed, then he’s angry—the ups and downs are between the clouds and the center of the Earth. He supposes that’s fitting for them, though. They never quite settled into a comfortable medium, which is maybe what made him so infatuated with what they had. It never got boring. They never gave it the chance to.]
That’s right, Tim. Six months. Not a couple weeks. Not one or two months. Six.
[The fingers tangled at the base of Tim’s hairline circle just a bit tighter. Dick’s opposite hand dives down to find and capture one of the teen’s wrists, ripping the painfully familiar touch away from his body and pressing it down against the mattress.]
I know you waited for me, and I’m sorry that it took me so long to realize it. But I was always there for you, even when we weren’t together. And when we were, I would never have left you like that. Never.
[Fueled by months of hurting, Dick narrows his eyes and presses forward—just an inch, just enough to remind them both how closely fitted they are.]
Six months without contact? Without seeing your face? That’s warrant for a long more than a break up. What else was I supposed to do?
Moving on was the only option you left me.
[Tim’s chest heaves with shallow breaths as Dick leans over him, his wrists pinned to the thin matters with a pair of practiced, calloused hands— Dick’s thighs on either side of his waist, his weight holding Tim down with ease. He hates being controlled like this; contained. He hates it.]
Maybe what I did was wrong— I know that! But at least what I felt for you was real. [His face scrunches together in an angry way, crumpling in on itself as he looks up at Dick from his position on the bed. His eyes are tired.] I spent every minute of every hour of every day thinking about you while I was gone— and for a long time before that, too!
You and I both know that this wouldn’t be happening if the situations were reversed.
What do you mean ‘at least what I felt for you was real’? [Dick’s voice is low, dangerous.] If for a second you think that I wouldn’t have done anything for you—anything, Tim—then maybe you’re not as perceptive as I thought you were.
We’d just moved in together. I was committed to you. You don’t think I spent every second trying to figure out where you went once you were gone?
[The aged look on Tim’s face wears at Dick, but he can’t seem to reel himself in. He’s bitter, his words are acidic, and even though he feels guilty with each accusation, they just keep coming.]
If it had been you? I’ll tell you what would have happened if it had been you.
After a few weeks, you would have worried. You would have searched, frantically, everywhere. After a few months, your heart would have broken. You would have blamed yourself. You would have felt more alone than you had in years. You would have asked yourself what you did wrong, and what you could have done to change it.
And then you would have sought for something, anything, to try and take your mind off the fact that the person you loved abandoned you without a word.
If it had been you, we would be having the exact same conversation.
[He feels like he can’t breathe. The inside of Tim’s chest is hollow and cold, his ribcage tight-- constricting and squeezing around his already shallow puffs of air. He wants to be angry, so badly he wants to yell and scream and pound his fists until Dick understands, until he just—
Tim’s eyes slide away from his brother’s unfocused and glazed as he stares at in inscrutable point in the distance. He’s right. Everything Dick has said so far—Tim left Dick. At the time, maybe, he thought it was his only choice; the only way to find out what had happened to Jason was to use the one connection the two of them had shared.
Ra’s. And the League.
Tim knew Dick wouldn’t understand, he wouldn’t let Tim leave on his own—He’d beg and plead and refuse to let Tim go, at any means necessary. He wasn’t just a little brother to Dick anymore; Tim knew that. He knew the strength of their bond, he knew that the (very likely) possibility of his death at Ra’s hands would destroy Dick. Which was why—Tim thought, humorlessly—he did what he felt was necessary to keep that hurt away from the one person who mattered most.]
I didn’t—[He licks his lips, the chapped, dry skin chafing as he talks. His throat feels dry and chalky.] I didn’t want to hurt you. That’s why I couldn’t tell you, I—I didn’t want to hurt you, ever. I love you. [It hurts to say it now, more than it did a few hours prior. Now that everything is out in the open, now that he knows what Dick thinks of him—selfish, unloving—it feels hollow against his lips.]
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[He’s stopped trying to predict where this conversation might lead, because every time he does, it takes a new turn and leaves him feeling dizzy. First he’s crushed, then he’s angry—the ups and downs are between the clouds and the center of the Earth. He supposes that’s fitting for them, though. They never quite settled into a comfortable medium, which is maybe what made him so infatuated with what they had. It never got boring. They never gave it the chance to.]
That’s right, Tim. Six months. Not a couple weeks. Not one or two months. Six.
[The fingers tangled at the base of Tim’s hairline circle just a bit tighter. Dick’s opposite hand dives down to find and capture one of the teen’s wrists, ripping the painfully familiar touch away from his body and pressing it down against the mattress.]
I know you waited for me, and I’m sorry that it took me so long to realize it. But I was always there for you, even when we weren’t together. And when we were, I would never have left you like that. Never.
[Fueled by months of hurting, Dick narrows his eyes and presses forward—just an inch, just enough to remind them both how closely fitted they are.]
Six months without contact? Without seeing your face? That’s warrant for a long more than a break up. What else was I supposed to do?
Moving on was the only option you left me.
[Tim's chest heaves with shallow breaths as Dick leans over him, his wrists pinned to the thin matters with a pair of practiced, calloused hands-- Dick's thighs on either side of his waist, his weight holding Tim down with ease. He hates being controlled like this; contained. He hates it.]
Maybe what I did was wrong-- I know that! But at least what I felt for you was real. [His face scrunches together in an angry way, crumpling in on itself as he looks up at Dick from his position on the bed. His eyes are tired.] I spent every minute of every hour of every day thinking about you while I was gone-- and for a long time before that, too!
You and I both know that this wouldn't be happening if the situations were reversed.
You took the words from my mouth, “Timmy.”
Pfft. Like you could keep up with me.
You’re so naive, it’s adorable.
I think I know a little more than you're giving me credit for. But I'll let you keep fetishizing my innocence-- I'm all about helping out the elderly.
[The conflicted look in Dick’s eyes only subsides when he’s met with a humorless laugh and a remark that stings like a hand thrown against the side of his face. It’s the most appropriate medicine for his anger, which is chased from his body as quickly as it came, and replaced by something icy and deep-seeded. Perhaps Tim’s words only cut so deep because he knows they’re true. Or maybe it’s that their vocalization is happening now, but it leaves Dick wondering how long they’d been stewing inside the teenager’s head. Their relationship hadn’t been without its problems, but Tim’s absence made it easy to romanticize everything they’d been through.
Now the reality of it had returned full force.
His head is tipped back and despite himself, a soft noise leaves his throat in response to the tightly curled fingers against his scalp. Each confession is worse than the last, each word hits harder and digs deeper and leaves him feeling clawed apart and hollowed out. The last sentence is the perfect ringer, the trap door opening below his feet so that the noose can go taught. He feels strangled.]
Tim, is that. [Appropriately, his voice gives out. It’s a struggle to find it again, and during his search he lifts his hands up from Tim’s thighs and drags them over his upper body. One settles against the side of his neck, and one dips into his hairline.]
Is that really what you—?
[Lowering his head again, Dick struggles to keep himself composed enough to think. He desperately wants the anger back, because it’s so much more bearable than the suffocating, bottomless feeling that he’s left with now. So he tries, really tries to coax a glare back onto his face.]
I might not have been everything you thought I’d be. Maybe I failed you. But you’re the one who left.
You’e the one who let it all fall apart.
[All of the air in Tim's lungs feels like it's been sucked out, like his chest is shriveling under the suffocating weight of Dick's stare-- Of course that's not what he really thinks, of course he doesn't feel that way-- but he can't find the breath to say it. He only chokes on a few strangled syllables, pushing into the hand that travels up his chest. It burns a hot line from the top of his thighs to the base of his neck, searing that touch into his skin like a brand. In a way, Tim thinks, it really is.]
I didn't let shit fall apart.
[He finds breath in the anger that fuels his blood, heats his insides with a new power that he's never felt before. Tim shakes in Dick's arms, clutching and grabbing at whatever skin he can reach, too blinded to care anymore.]
I waited for you for nine years-- nine fucking years-- for you to notice me.
[There's a dark edge in Tim's voice now, lower, coming deeper from his rib cage-- he growls at Dick.]
Do you think I don't regret leaving you, Dick? Because I do. Of course I do-- [He sucks in a sharp breath, the crease between his brows growing deeper with each confession. They're finally at the heart of the issue.] But I leave for six months, and you've already moved on? Just like that, you're over it-- you're ready to start anew with someone else? [Tim is spitting venom now, hissing his words.]
Fuck you.
They only come out when I see your face.
Or hear your name.
Either one does it.
That’s gonna be really difficult for you when you can’t stop moaning it, won’t it?
You took the words from my mouth, “Timmy.”
Pfft. Like you could keep up with me.
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Wow, anger issues much?
They only come out when I see your face.
Or hear your name.
Either one does it.
That's gonna be really difficult for you when you can't stop moaning it, won't it?
#redrobinyuum #Brb I need to go punch something (preferably ur gut xo)
Wow, anger issues much?
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Evening. And-- you are?
[The kiss ends and Dick carelessly brushes the convenience store bag and carton off the mattress and onto the patchy motel carpet so he can scoot closer. It’s getting harder and harder to breathe, and it has nothing to do with their way their mouths had been pressed together, or with how Tim’s is still working tirelessly against his bottom lip. Instead, it’s the introduction of the weight he’d been suppressing the moment he’d been slapped with the reality of Tim standing a few feet in front of him, exchanging greetings like it had only been a few days since they’d last seen each other. It was his own little demon—all of the things he harbored as a result of being left—and he’d been running from it the same way Tim had run from Gotham.
Now it was all rushing in, consuming, overbearing, and Dick had no outlet through which to express it but his physicality. Hands dip underneath Tim’s thighs and lift, thrusting his back against the headboard of the bed. Sliding between his legs and pinning him there, Dick throws a palm against the cheap wood beside Tim’s head.]
Yes. [He growls in answer—but just as quickly as the acid leaves his tongue, it washes back down to burn away his esophagus and eat at his organs. Dick’s face crumbles along with his insides, and he hangs his head, the slam of pain making him feel feeble and useless.] No. No, of course I don’t. I could never—
But I hate what you did.
[The battle between anger and sadness is blatant on his face as he pulls it back up, and it’s impossible to tell which one is winning out. His hand slips from the headboard, falls down, and curls against a free thigh, traveling shakily up the line of it. Dick’s eyes never leave the darker pair across from him, and with every scrap of his being, he searches.]
[Tim grunts as Dick grips his thighs, slamming him hard back into the headboard of the motel bed, his tailbone throbbing with the impact-- He pays it no heed, however, as Dick fills the empty space between them with the miles of his body, his limbs clutching Tim so tightly it hurts. Their breaths mingle and Tim tries to feel the roll of Dick's hips against his own, tries to feel the tendrils of pleasure coursing through his veins-- but all he can feel is the burn of his brother's eyes on his skin, pressing the scarlet letter against his flesh as guilt eats away at him.
He barks out a dry laugh, desperate and fake, even to his own ears.]
How does it feel to be left behind? To have to chase someone for once.
[He draws a thick handful of Dick's hair between his fingers and grips it hard, pulling his neck back at an angle as he presses searing kisses to the underside of his jaw-- he doesn't want to look at Dick when he says this.]
You'll always want this, always want me-- [Tim tastes bile in the back of his throat, swallowing hard around a gruesome smile.] You'll spend years hoping that you can impress me just enough to earn a second glance, for me to acknowledge your prowess, for me fuck you like I fuck every other pair of legs in this god damn town.
[He takes in a ragged breath of air and chokes on a dry sob, his legs tightening around Dick's hips in a vice grip.] And when you finally get a taste of it, when you finally have it, I'll take it from you. And I'll give it to somebody else.
But at least we'll always have this, won't we?
[This is a bad idea on every account. Between Tim and Jason, Dick feels like the only thing he’s any good at doing is chasing away the people he intended to stay with. Being physically close with Jason since their break up had only solidified his inability to move on once he’s fallen in love, and opening that can of worms with Tim seems even more dangerous. They’d been together longer, gone through elevated highs and crashing lows, seen the best and worst of each other and hung on despite it. Dick had anticipated being with Tim for a long time. That was before everything was dropped on a dime.
There are too many feelings he’s still holding inside to make this anything but enormously stupid. He’s hurt, he’s angry, he’s scared. He blames Tim for it, and then he blames himself for it. He tries to convince himself he’s over it, but how does someone ever truly get over something like that—get over someone like Tim? So without another word, Dick leans back in.
The kiss is tentative at first, like he’s strapping on training wheels, trying to remember how it’s done, but it comes back in a wave, and soon he’s curling fingers against the back of Tim’s neck and prying his lips apart with his tongue.]
[The second Dick presses back against him Tim feels like he’s choking, suffocating on the warm feeling that spreads across his chest and down his arms, to the tips of his fingers—at one point, he may have recognized this feeling as love and affection, sweet words caressing his ear in between shared kisses—but now there is a cold undercurrent to the slide of their lips and the squeeze of fingers around his neck is strong and dangerous. Dick is angry, and he’s responding to Tim’s anger with a vengeance of his own.
Briefly, Tim pulls back, taking in greedy gulps of air in the scant space between them, his eyes having to cross just to meet Dick’s glazed stare. A shiver runs down Tim’s spine at the look of raw emotion he find there, hurt and betrayal and greed—this is something Tim will always have. The reward of such a meticulous sort of dedication to your partner, the kind Tim has always harbored for Dick, always, is the plethora of raw emotion he gets in return. They know everything about each other—every tick, every fear, every desire, Tim knows it. And Dick knows, too.
That is something that nobody but Tim will ever have.]
You hate me, [he mumbles against the swollen line of Dick’s bottom lip, sinking his teeth into the flesh there, watching a pair of true blue eyes go glossy.] don’t you? You should.
[He’s sliding his hands around Dick’s waist, scraping his nails against the wide expanse of tan skin, greedy to reach as much of him as Tim can in this moment.]