For the first time in my life, I didn't greet the New Year shouting, jumping, and watching the fireworks. I was inside my parents room with our dogs, trying to calm them down.
Not complaining, I would do it again and do it every year.
Anyway, If the timing of my year-end report posting isn't an obvious reflection of how my 2025 went, then let me spell it out. Last year has drained the life out of me.
The biggest most life altering thing was probably my body breaking down mid-year from a trauma response. I have since learned to enforce boundaries and be more aware of myself so it doesn't happen again. With this, it seems that I have also gotten a lot meaner and more impatient with things and people in general. I don't know yet how to remedy it or if I even want to?
I have also very recently just repaired my relationship with money. I know that sounds weird, but for a minute it was the cause of my greatest anxiety. I know now that it wants to be spent and it is a tool to help make my life simple.
A lot of parental wounds were also brought to the surface this year. Have my siblings and I healed from it? I don't know, but we talk about it a lot. They have definitely been my greatest source of support this year. If it wasn't for them, I don't know how I would have survived.
I had a lot of highs too. My 2 week trip to Vietnam where I think my cortisol levels were for once normal and I wasn't on flight or fight mode at any point of the trip was nice. Seeing my parents' relief from finally moving forward with long running business issues and their amusement at seeing bad people get their karma. And me getting continuous little winks from the universe throughout the year.
Last year drained me and I had been at the literal end of my rope but I am still here and there is absolutely nowhere to go but up.
