TW assault bc im on mobile
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Tbh the past few months I've been coming to terms with how I had a non consensual experience a few years ago. I dont really personally feel comfortable calling it assault bc it wasnt violent. I could have been more assertive, but I just wanted it to be over and would rather get it done and over with instead of having a difficult conversation of why I didn't want to have sex. I lied on the floor afterwards when he was in the bathroom and I cried, I was so disgusted. With him, with myself. Mostly myself. I even pretended to like it just so it would fucking end faster. I feel like that all attributed to me not having done enough to really classify it as assault but... the truth is is that I asked to stop the first time and that should have been enough. like that was somebody who claimed to have cared about me. No matter what if he cared about me even a sliver outside of himself it wouldnt have fucking happened.
✌️😜 little did I know I was actually incapable of saying no AGAIN. And he was well aware I didn’t want to. He just didn't care. Smh so on theme and yet I still missed it
