Emotion Carnival

Hi I'm Rachel Ann but please call me rei :) This is my tumblr account and Where I juggle my pain, happiness, anger, and all emotions concerned and some shits that I think of. I am a freelance writer who spends most of her time in the internet and/or writing articles for my clients. I love manga, anime, kdramas and music. My alter ego is a some what interested in arts and poetry(I post some of my works here). I don't have many friends so I want to gain some here. follow me :D WAU_tab('4qjham32uhoa', 'left-middle')

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Mer

floating, her words

melted, she said I long for that We met followed the map looked for the gold I long for you Even if the reasons change it’s never gonna freeze again even if the matters change we’re all gonna remain the same even if we face the end thoughts are gonna stay as cells, though all that is what I want all that is what I want Across another river reached the ocean just before sunset bombing started with a roar yet we’re unfazed, we’re unamazed we’re staying calm and chasing other details, not that easy though all that is what I want all that is what I want Mer one for myself one for the wish I long for you We met one is for you one for the gold I long for that Even if the reasons change it’s never gonna freeze again even if the matters change we’re all gonna remain the same even if we face the end thoughts are gonna stay as cells, though all that is what I want all that is what I want Across another river reached the ocean just before sunset bombing started with a roar yet we’re unfazed, we’re unamazed we’re staying calm and chasing other details, not that easy though all that is what I want all that is what I want Song: Mer

Artist: Hyukoh

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I’m back home.

It funny and bittersweet at the same time. It wasn’t obvious at first but a lot of things changed, I mean look even tumblr changed. 

As a 25 year old, I may disagree, cringe or applaud what my younger self posted here. I haven’t been blogging for quite some time, work had my time preoccupied and I guess I’m too busy living as an adult kid LOL. 

I guess I’ll still try to update from time to time[I know I promised last time but I didn’t post anything at all; geez I was really busy you know].. This is the only place I can post my inner thoughts; so yep I’m back again.

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Current home office set up. :D Kulang pa lels. XD

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:3 To ease the heat...

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Pizza lovers UNITE! 

Visit Muse Designs shop to get yours: https://represent.com/store/muse-designs

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1974 email messages... XD Got my phone's screen fixed after months LOL

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Chapter 700...

Right after a deadline, I had a message from one of my high school buddies (who I haven't talked to for quite awhile) saying: "have you read it yet? Chapter 700?". Knowing what chapter 700 was, I replied: "I haven't but I'll be reading later. Say hi to tita for me :)"

Our friendship has been passive after high school ended but there isn't bitterness. As he is one of those people who tolerated my weirdness because he was equally weird. 

"Did you ever consider dating him?" another friend asked back then. I never answered, but I might have, I said truthfully to myself. 

Chapter 700 feels then came... As I read the last pages Haruka Kanata played (An old favorite theme from the anime). It was like I was slapped by nostalgia... It was equally as depressing as I read and watched the last Harry Potter novel/movie and when I mourned when Neji and Jiraiya died. I was slapped by nostalgia... and it said "You're all grown up now." 

I remembered those good times more than 10 years ago with our friends and how my brother and I would fight on reading the manga first. My then 8 year old brother's reaction upon seeing a physical copy of the manga (even it was in Japanese) I borrowed from a friend. And I could remember his face when brought home something which was rare back then an English translated version of the manga (I sacrificed not spending half of my baon to buy).

All I could respond back to that friend was "700 chapters..." and he replied back "I know you'll read all of it again." 

(Side note: I'd like to thank Kishimoto sensei for bringing Naruto in my life. It was a great journey growing up with the manga.)

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Confession for no one...

Earlier this year, I felt something I never imagined I would feel again after all these years.

Perhaps was it love? I don't know how it started but I can't deny how you made me smile, how you made my heart pound. It felt you made me believe in love again... 

Remember? You asked me who was it for? I dumbly said it was for someone else but truthfully it was for you. 

I don't know if you may ever read this but if you do it might have been too late right? I'm not even expecting at all since you have someone and we may even never meet in our lifetime.

So to close this chapter, I would like to confess that I did like and maybe loved you... I know there's no chance or way you could have possibly liked me at all anyway. But if you do find this letter, I'd like to ask you: Did you ever felt the same for me? 

Thank you for making my heart beat again. 

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The first beer in months. :) Happy Birthday to me.

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Boston- Augustana

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Ze parents @ Elaine's debut celebration @ PAF museum yesterday.

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My kind of abangers hehe :p

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It's been 7 days after...

If we're still together, it should have been our 8th yr.

Thankfully, I've awoken from my daydream and faced reality.

It was more of one-sided actually, it was more like you didn't love nor liked me that much.

These poems...

Do you remember?

Let me tell you something.

But unlike before I'll tell you something different.

Despite that I'm still alone, I'm happy.

Way happier than when I used to be with you.

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Ramyun <3 While on break. :D

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Work until you no longer have to introduce yourself.

(via aphrodisy)

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Umaga na di pa din ako natutulog. -_- My shift pa naman ako mamaya