This is what you do: You make me come alive.

"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out-plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jeremiah 29:11.

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Night after night, there's an empty horizon and my God do I feel so alone.

You know that Hunter Hayes song, "Everybody's Got Somebody But Me"? Well, I feel like that pretty much defines my life right now. I truly feel like I am the only single person in college, which I know isn't true, but it just feels like it. 

I just want to feel wanted. Like really and truly wanted. I want to be spoiled and taken out on dates and be given flowers. I want a man in my life. And I know that one will come when the time is right, but right now I just feel really alone and it's super depressing. And it's frustrating because I have so many awesome things going on in my life. But I have been wanting a man in my life, and I have been yearning for Him for years, but the Lord keeps insisting for me to wait. 

But Jesus, I am so tired of waiting. I want to feel wanted and loved and precious. 

Why is it that everyone around me is feeling all special while I am over here waiting for the month of February to end so I don't have to listen to sermon series about love and sex. 

I'm starting to feel like it's my fault, like I'm not worthy enough or pretty enough or smart enough to be with a man. I'm trying to turn to You Jesus, but it just seems like everyone around me is so happy and I am just sitting here constantly waiting. 

Why can't I be happy Jesus? 

When are You going to put that man in my life? 

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I'm so forgetful, but You always remind me.

You're the only one who brings me peace. 

So, I come, Lord I come,  to tell You I love You, to tell You I need to tell You there's no better place for me than in Your arms. To tell You I'm sorry for running in circles, for placing my focus on the ways, not on Your face. You're the only one who brings me peace. 

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I want to feel wanted and beautiful and not scared all the time.

I want to feel special. 

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ALL THINGS NEW: Reflections on my summer at Glisson...

From the minute that my discipler prayed for me at the last Wesley of the year in May and thanked God for making me new, I knew that I had been restored. Jesus had done so many things in my life in the past year and has blessed my life with so many things. Not getting hired for summer 2012 was so hard, but Jesus used it for His will. Through the experience, I realized that working at Glisson was MY plan, not God's plan. It was so difficult to realize, but through it He's blessed me so much. Throughout the year, the Lord made it evident that I was exactly where I was supposed to be. And as I walked up to the door of G5 this summer and saw the door decorations and as I realized that theme for the summer was All Things New, I truly felt like I was exactly where I needed to be. Through every single experience this summer at Camp Glisson, I realized so much about myself and so much about serving the Lord and I could not be more thankful for the experiences that I have had.

Week One I fell in love with my high school girls the first night. Somehow on the first night I ended up telling them my testimony and it was so powerful. What are the odds that my very first night of having campers I tell them my testimony? It was so crazy and I immediately connected with them. Later on in the week, I ended up telling my testimony again, but to the whole living group. And somehow God used my story to impact my co counselors life! DURING WEEK ONE! Seriously. That's just crazy. I was literally brought to tears as I heard that my pain influenced someone else's life for the better. Week one was just glorious and it made me so excited for what was to come this summer.

While working at Glisson was amazing, there were also some struggles. I remember there was one week where I truly struggled with comparing myself to others. I was doubting myself and I just really struggled with viewing myself as beautiful and wonderful as who God created me to be. But that night at chapel, we sang "Nothing I Hold On To" and as I sang the words: "I give it all to You God, trusting that You'll make something beautiful out of me" I truly sang it to the Lord and I gave Him my self esteem and truly believed I was wonderful in who He made me to be. Afterwards, I shared with my campers what I was struggling with and one of my campers came up to me and told me that I was beautiful and that I didn't need to compare myself to others, which was absolutely beautiful and I started bawling all over again.

Another big struggle of mine this summer was having a servant's heart. Throughout my time at camp, I was focused on myself. It wasn't until week eight that I realized that I needed to give up focus on myself. My job was to serve my campers, not me. I realized that I was too uptight and too strict about certain things and I was just worn out. Luckily though, I was able to take that information and use it for the glory of the Lord week nine. And week nine was one of my favorite weeks. It was so much fun and I truly learned about the joy of letting go and the joy of spending time with your campers. It was absolutely beautiful and I loved every second of it. 

Even though there were hard times this summer, the good moments and the beautiful moments of seeing your campers worship the God you love, it's literally breath taking. I honestly had campers of all ages this summer and each age group worshiped in different ways and it constantly amazed me at how much they believed at their age. I loved being able to worship in that chapel every night. It was absolutely beautiful. And I constantly grew in the Lord because of it. Working with so many different ages gave me so many different insights to how people lived their lives. It opened my eyes to so many things and I am honestly changed because of it. 

I honestly could not have been more blessed to work at Camp Glisson this summer. Jesus has fully restored me to who I was meant to be in Him and it definitely shined through this summer. I cannot wait to go back to school and continue to shine His light all throughout campus. I pray that He continues to make me new through everything I do. I could not be more blessed. God is so incredibly good and I thank Him every day for making me new. 

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"I wish the couple on the corner would just get a room. It seems like everyone around me is on their honeymoon. I'd love to take a pin to a heart-shaped balloon. Everybody's got somebody but me."

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I AM SO CONFUSED.

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I finally found where I belong.

The Lord has constantly been working in my life. Through everything I have been allowed to do this semester, I am convinced that I truly am right where the Lord wants me to be. 

After this past year, it feels so good to be loved and welcomed like I have been at Athens FUMC. I cannot even begin to tell you how much of a blessing working with these students has been. 

I get to work at my favorite place in the world this summer. 

I am constantly surrounded by people who love the Lord and who love me for who I am, which is a huge difference from last year.

The Lord is literally showering me in blessings this semester and I cannot even begin to tell you how thankful I am. 

This time last year I was crying tears of anxiety and loneliness, but right now I am crying tears of joy because I am so incredibly happy with the way my life is going right now. 

I am completely blessed. 

Jesus, You are good.

"I finally found where I belong. I finally found where I belong, in Your presence  I finally found where I belong, to be with You, to be with You."

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"Hey, what's with you? You need a hug or something?"

Best line ever. 

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Today, I received a phone call and I am so excited to say that I will be working at Camp Glisson this summer!

MY JESUS IS SO UNBELIEVABLY GOOD. 

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I had my Glisson interview a few weeks ago!

Praying that whatever happens that it is YOUR will Lord! 

Now I'm just waiting to see what YOUR will is. 

I pray that I am content with whatever the outcome maybe, and I pray that I am reminded of Your constant love. 

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