the life

not pro anything | ask me 5’6 | SW: 144.6 lb | CW: 128.4 GW 1: 120 lb | GW 2: 110 lb | UGW: 88 lb

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if u wanna see more of me

folllow @relatively.not.okay on insta :)

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the worst part about right now is knowing i did this to myself. i used to be skinny but now i’m fat again. i did it. me. it’s my fault i’m miserable, and it’s my fault i can’t restrict.

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me during the day, delicately nibbling on carrots: i’m so healthy! on my way to becoming tiny and beautiful!

me at night, wolfing down fruit snacks and goldfish and bread and cereal: i’m so unhealthy! might as well eat more! i’ll always be fat! fuck it all!

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my parents are visiting and i’ve gained 3 pounds in two days please help

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i need to stop binging holy shit

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if i has a dollar for every time i said i would fast and didn’t i’d be rich enough to pay for lipo so i wouldn’t have to fast

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you burn approximately 0.42*weight calories per hour sleeping, and my bmr is around ~60cal/hour so given that i only eat when i’m awake sleeping forever sounds like a fantastic plan since i won’t consume anything and will just burn calories

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do i donate blood to burn 650 cal, to help people, or to make myself pass out? the world will never know...

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if you’re crappy and you know it clap your hands 👏🏼 👏🏼

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if you have ever suffered from…  

• depression 

• anxiety 

• eating disorder 

• self-harm

• ocd 

• bipolar 

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness 

• suicidal thoughts 

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer. you are not alone.

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leg check but i gained 4 pounds :((((

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Reblog if you are insecure about anything below:

-weight

-appearance

-intelligence (or lack of) 

-skills (or lack of) 

-weird hobbies

-friends (or lack of) 

-body

-personality

-family

Who ever reblogs this will get a message in their inbox.

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i got so fat oof

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the worst feeling is

knowing you’re eating too much and feeling yourself expand and having your thighs start touching again and your arms start squishing again and knowing everything is getting softer and fatter and grosser and not doing anything about it because you think you are not worthy enough to be confident and look good and love yourself so you just watch yourself and your hopes and dreams slip away

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me getting sick

is this because my body is starving so i have a shit immune system or is this just the end and my organs are shutting down

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i just ate three slices of pizza and want to die someone please hold me accountable for my actions

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things i thought i would get from an eating disorder

- skinny

- thigh gap

- control

- compliments

- confidence

things i actually got from an eating disorder

- smaller measurements

- worse dysmorphia

- no sense of control

- weird looks and comments

- self loathing

being ‘skinny’ is enticing, but i hate myself more now then i did when i started

please consider your future and stay safe