Self hatred at its finest

relationship status: in a longterm emotionally abusive relationship with myself

[disruptivedisgusting]

i dont think anyone really understands the levels of passively suicidal that i actually am bc like it doesnt matter where i am or what im doing id still rather be dead and its so exhausting

[remanence-of-love]

[hel7l7]

I'm fucking fine. Just leave me alone.

[incognito-melancholia]

I keep remembering. I keep remembering. My heart has no pity on me.

- Henri Barbusse, from The Inferno (Boni Liveright, 1918)

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

—

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[noname-404s-blog]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Note to self

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[bunnighost]

[guitarplayermrs]

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

I can relate to this

[allthesepurplelights]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

What really sucks is when you know you should be doing something but physically/mentally cannot bring yourself to do it no matter how important doing that thing is.