nia

pardesi mera aatm, shorir tar obdi ashena. yet i clutch onto the remnants of it.

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.✦ ݁˖~ NIIA!! || `8/7, `isfp, `cancer ~˖ ݁✦ .

`komola shuto'r, bong mayya`

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helloooo! i created this blog to have records of stuff about me and my days. i wanted to have a place to my own thatll exist even after i dont anymore, maybe to bother myself or find a peace of mind.

all the posts in here are just words of my life and moments that matter to me. /•᷅‎‎•᷄\੭

˖ ࣪. ࿐♡˚.

so heres some stuff about me as of now!

──★ beloved˙🪶 ̟ !!

✦ movies

✦ romance

✦ mountains

✦ daydreams

~𖹭.ᐟ

──★ into🪼˙, ̟ !!

✦ the office,

✦demon slayer, gachiakuta,

✦ enola holmes, feluda's adventure, byomkesh bokshi,

✦ avatar, anne with an e, a series of unfortunate events

✦ and more!

~𖹭.ᐟ

──★ artists🎼˙, ̟ !!

✦ laufey, pinkpantheress, somlata acharya choudhary, malcolm todd, peter cat recording co., mac de marco, ebony loren, chandrobindoo, the cardigans.

✦ jazz music!!

~𖹭.ᐟ

ᓚ₍ ^. .^₎ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

⤷ “ @remnantsofmine was made on april 2026 || when i moved to Kolkata i really missed the stories and memories that i left at my home, Alipurduar. so i created this blog.” ˎˊ˗

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convinced the bhondu to get a tumblr account, ONE MORE INFO!!! he likes COD i guess! he put a Ghost pfp on. plus a batman background. and i got to know his birth time AND mbti so his birthchart+personality IS IN MY HANDS

HELL YEEEAAAAAHHHHH!!!!11111111

also in the process of making a fanfic for meri highkey diva mitra ki upcoming birthday, if it blasts mai sigma ho jaungi😛

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i delayed my project work so much like i legit only did two yesterday that too on awkward files and gave it to mama today and she hated that and hated me🙏 i aint got the guts to give the other one so i called up my mum to give me shoelace files and i literally did my project in clas!!!!11111 i dont have enough enthusiasm to explain how mera hekdi nikal gayi yeh karte karte but 40mins before chhutti i went to the teachers room which was almost empty except for this one teacher and i was like ki maam are these submittable? and she lowkey just took it and kept them in another teachers bag YAYYAYAYAYWYYAYAYA MERA PROJECT NOT IN MY HANDS ANYMORE YALL thank god we dont have normal classes anymore cuas tomorrow is exhibition and friday is uah chhutti cuas maharama muharam something idono ANYWE now i dont have to beg my teacher to take my project idc if she throws it away or something

alright now thats out of the way😛

only me and bhondu came to tution today and after tution he finally waited for the elevator after SLAMMING THE DOOR ON MY FACE ANS SAYING "maine nahi kia🤓"ek maarungi chapati and then we lowley had phuchka and he paid for 20₹ for each(while i did 10 the last/first time i got us phuchka DOES THIS MEANSOMETHIEBG) and he pulled out his wallet right I SAW THIS GOOFY LOOKING SCHOOL KA ID CARD WAALA PHOTO I LEGIT TOOK IT AND VRO HELP he said "chomu lag rha hai" YAAR CHOMU KO CHUMU DUNGI HE LOOKS SO BHONDU WTF and like we walked till we reached the end of our common roads and also turns out he made an insta account in 2022 the deleted it then got it back in 2026 then deleted it again then again downloaded it😭 anyway 10/10 experience but i recommend myself to just hold his hand next time BUT ILL SAVE THAT FOR CHHAD KE JAANE KA DIN

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moment absolutely ruined FUAK YAAR.

so today it was maams tution right, diksha and priyanshi came later and left early to go to sir ka tution ANYWAY SKIP THAT so while tution bhondu baccha was on my right and SO i decided to make him my personal canvas again and this time when he took his hand away i told him much more to GIVE IT BACK. and he did❤️this is good boy behaviour, should i call him that or will he find it wierdANY WAY so the other two left yeah, and then he finished his work before me laik 2??? minutes and i was laik ki ey bosh toh because WHY IS THIS DUDE ALWAYS ON THE RUN FUGITIVE HAI KYA so again like a achha baccha he stayed HELP HE LOWKEY HUGGED HIS BAG FOR A SOLID SECOND AND CHANGED THE WAY HE HELD IT he was confused on how hes supposed to pose(get it cuas supPOSE pose okay no ykw mujhe uraado) ANYWAY we left and this ho like always was gonna take the stairs and i told him take the elevator instead. i asked him about his exam dates I ACCIDENTALLY SAID BOARDS WTF YAAR CONFUSE KAR DIYA USKO anyway his unit tests end in july 8 HELL YEAH!!!!! I NEED THAT GIFT I BETTER GET IT ISTG. so when we reached the ground floor or first floor whatever i went ei phuchka khaabi cuas i felt sigma and i had 20₹(for some reason 10₹=4phuchkas wtf, Alipurduar had 5!!:(((( )so we talked and yapped hes so cute WHY IS HE TO CHEWABLE KHA LUNGI NO ONE WILL HEAR OF HIM ANYMORE this dumbahh smacked his cycle on a car, got stuck on the bottom part of the gate of maams apartment, was on the wrong side of the street and got it takkared into a pole while talking to me and having the cycle om his right side. now LISTEN. thoda plij mujhe bolo am i delusional or was he POSSIBLY nervous? POSSIBLY LIKE HO SAKTA HAI KYA???? yawr kitna matlab HOW DO I EXPLAIN THIS IS HINDI OR ENGLISH I DONT THINK IT'LL WORK IN BANGLA TOO iska toh MMMMWWWWUUUUAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHJH i literally pulled his sleeve to the actual side of the street and talked a bit about god knows what. was having the greatest time of my life in this hellish city like wtf itna sundari lamba chashmish AND science waala baccha ke saath potential romance ho rha hai mera?????? MERA???? i cant explain my disbelief but ykw take that aside for when i manage to somehow get this hell of a guy hai reh Prabhu

now out of all the possibilities of having a gorgeous time and yapping on the street while having phuchka, what could happen? if you said my dad pulled up then no but if you said my mom did, im gonna have to just throw this phone away SHE WAS AT THE DAMN MUDI DOKAAN SHE WAS RIGHT THERE AS I STOOD NEXT TO HIM MERA DIL FATT GAYA WTF MUJHE BAAT KARNA THA YAAR KYA BAKWAS TIMING RO DUNGI BOHOT RO DUNGI BOHOT BOHOT!!!!! WTF WHY WAS SHE THERE AND MY DAD WAS GONNA PULL UP TOO APPARENTLY YAWR BAKWAS TIMING!!!!!!! anyway he said he'll buy me some on another day too I MADE HIM REPEAT THAT LIKE 6 TIMES OR SOMETHING WHAT TEHFAUAYAUAUEYEJUSKSKEKRJ IS WEORNEH TMWISTEHRM oke anyway❤️ since he said that theres a possibility he might actually like me BECAUSE BECAUSE LISTEN listen to me he sent me this on whatsapp after tution

NOW HOLD THAT HOLD TAHT KEEP TAHT IN YOUR HAND HOLD IT OKAY okay now other hand we have insta where he sent this reel

basically that the guy yaps on insta but patthar infront of her irl AND HE WAS LIKE "True???" THATS ANOTHER HINT ANDOGHERYHINNTTT

im GETTING this guy WAIT TILL I POST THIS BHONDU ON HERE also i had exhibition in school and i forgot to bring my literature work to tution then i left and came back, and i dont know mere andar kya jag gaya i was liek ki yar iska chappal dekhna hai kitna size BHWUAI YEH TOH ACTUALLY MERESE BOHOT BARA WTHHHHH AAAAAAAA I DONT KNOW HIS SIZE PROBABLY UHHH 9???10???? IDK BUT YAWWWWRRRRRRRRRRR HUM TOH NOOR HOGAYE someone play na re na IMMEDIATE.

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FUAK YAAR CHANCE URR GAY mera hekdi nikal gayi, today we are leaving maams tution right(also turns out he sucks at grammar, takes long to write answers. he finished liek 7 or something when im on my 30th fill in the blanks THATS GOOD OKAY IM GOOD W THAT im horrible at science so im good THIS IS A GOOD JODI OKAY)

and we all went up to the roof BECAUSE IT'S SUCH A GOATED AND REACHABLE HANGOUT PLACE anyway we did maha bakchodi and i tried bhondu ka glasses on VERY BORO GLASSES HELP and priyanshi diksha tried too, and i went to put it on him YAAR BAKWAS WAY ME LAGAI THIK SE RAKHA NAHI but its okay its fine im okay😭yawr hes so talk I GOTTA LOOK UP TO HIM IHEURHHEJEJEURJHDHSJDJ what is wrong with me whadduh😔 bhai the whole time both priyanshi and diksha were like haath pakro haath dhor or BECAUSE I SAID ILL HOLD HIS HAND RANDOMLY ONE DAY BUT WAIT I DIDNT HAVE THE GUTS OKAY I CANT DO IT RIGHT NOW I NEED ATINY BIT MORE TIME PLEASEUA anyway💔toh then we played truth and dare and stuff, HE DIDNT CHOOSE DARE FUAK wait neither did i WHATEVER ILL DO IT NEXT TIME I SWEAR AFTER THE EXAMS END😭😭😭 and i found out he likes Pal Pal by talwinder, only that because we didn't have time ESPECIALLY DIKSHA DHURU anyway so we walked till the point of the street ans road, diksha parted ways ans then i was with priyanshi and him. we yapped a bit and after priyanshi left i asked him why he wsnt texting me NO WAIT I DID IT NONCHALANDLY I SWEAR he said his exams are near ANYWAY ibuilt up the courage to tell him to text me AND HE WAS LIKE 👍 zyada bhondugiri kiya toh chumma de dungi HE NEEDS TO BE CAREFUL

and HE DID INFACT TEXT ME and uh i replied 20 minutes later.... I WAS SHOWERING OKAY I SHOULD HAVE TOLD HIM FUAK but ATLEAST BAKBAK STREAK NOT BROKEN YALL STAY SAFE THOUGH😛😛😛 got his reply later and YUP TALKED ALOTTT he does like using gifs instead of texts but hey that works with me

okay WAIT i know i said ill hold his hand I DID BUT LISTEN LISTEN ITS BEEN ONLY A MONTH OF KNOWING HIM(actually ALMOST a month, not fully a month yet) so laik you knowwwwww im gonna wait a tiny bit more before giving hints(girl bye i am a hint myself WHY DOESNSTEHE GETE EIET) im gonna just wait more I SWEAR ILL GATHER SOME COURAGE BUT IM NOT READY YET MERA HEKDI NIKAL JAATI HAI emSORRY BUT NO DHMAAKEDAAR NEWS FOR NOW and since his exams are upcoming and so are mine i am NOT doing anything too much, we gon finish our koshto torture first THEN ill think of strategies to BAG THIS GORGEOUS MAN THEFUAAAA👅 i feel like a fatass tiger the way im about to POUNCE omd. by now he has not called me anything regarding my weight or anything i might feel bad about(when i said his glasses were dhamra he said my kopaal was chhoto help??? what category does that put him in if im a 4finger forehead wtf ANYWAY WHATEVER) so i hope he doesn't in the future. and my birthday is coming up so that's another plus point of my not-to-confess-or-anything-yet list, i dond wanna sulk on my birthday, lemme know this dude first more!!!! IIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEE HES SUCH A PATOOTIE CHUMMA DEDUNGI EK NAMBAR KA BHONDU

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meow i didnt go to school today LAIK i was ready right full on duito braids and bhendi bag and i was tryna book rapido but NONE of the near bikes were accepting TOOK SO DAMN LONG AND AT SOME POINT IT WAS 9AM mind you if i go to school late again my teacher will RIP my intestinesout she HATES MY AHH i TRIED AGAIN STILL NO HOPE NO TOTOS AND I JUST GAVE UP IT WAS 9:10 and last day i was 15MINUTES LATE BECAUSE THE ROAD IS ON CONSTITUTION YAAAARRRR

i went to this annapurna bhandar ka something with my mum instead and they gave out free nimbu paani 😛😛i inhaled like 8cups and had one in my hand throughout the whole time till i came homeIHIHIAWR also uah I WENT TO THIS ONE DIDIS HOUSE TODAY because yesterday she told me shes free today so ye i brought alot of chips ab mai nachungi at 1am(in my dreams because agar so naa gayi toh maatha betha and paracetamol does nothing GOBAR BEHAVIOUR)

i dond wanna go to schooooooollll💔💔💔💔💔yawr i just hope i can befriend anushka DHURU BHAI KANO BONDHU HOENA

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meow i kind of possibly made another mutual, shes not sophisticated that's for sure. thank god for that, i have a chance of friending her(is friending a real worda?) anywe for soem reason robotics class turned into yoga and we have it on Thursday or friday too😔😔😔

i didnt do any of my projects and i dont want to, for some god forsaken reason as well my name is in the exhibition, wadahel man? i hate this heat and chapta loneliness uuuaaaaaaagghhhh i didnt have time after coming home and went to tution with two braids like those 1960's bangla medium girl with ribbon tied braids💔💔💔i looke dso goofi alsouah this twinkatron held my clutcher and glasses hostage, i will bite him one day DIRECT PIECE HAWA and uhhhh what else i walked with priyanshi today and diksha went with her dad

both of them are so nice and very mishuke!!! how come there arent girls like them in my class? i gave three girls my socials and i dont seem to have any reciprocation even yet but oke(how do i get out of this school omd am i too lame, atleast im not sitting alone so it works)

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i went to school today and sat in the last bench alone, then i asked two girls infront of me if i could sit with them because the fan's air didnt reach the last bench(actually just an excuse) and i kind of???? a little bit made a friend. not actually friend, mutual(well something like that). i got her instagram id but im not sure which one is it. i hope i get to be close with her and actually sit with people. in every last class/period we get to sit in AC rooms because of the heat but this time the boys didn't want to so none of us got to go there☹️☹️ why didn't the teacher let only us girls there if the boys didnt want to go? eugh

also because of school, i didnt go to tution this morning but the others did. i came home to see a hell lot of gifs and messages from bhondu😭😭 i guess it kinda hyped me up like WDYM HE LOOKED OUT FOR ME IIIHIHIHIHI there was aLOT of spam gifs but hey IM NOT COMPLAINING AAASHAGSAHHSHDG

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this fucking sucks. it really does i dont know what to do i dontlike this. its been 3months and i havent found a single person ro stick with i know this is a new place but i just dont know what to do i cant be with Diksha and priyanshi theyre already two people and i cant fit in plus theyre in the same school i cant be with him because hes always busy and we're in different stages i cant be with naani because her mums strict and she cant go anywhere with me and i cant stick with her too because shes never free and shes trapped with all this work and i cant make new friends here it just doesn't fucking work its just the same cycle all over again i cant do this its pissing me off its shitty i cant ask my dad or mom again about it and its crippling me. do not get me started on my god forsaken class, i tried making friends in school it lasted a week or so and the next thing you know im changing seats and everyones just ignoring me, im literally alone in the last bench with someone elses bags and cardboard laying around.its the same shit over and over i feel like im back in class 5 again and no one will be there for me i dont know what im supposed to do im not pretty enough or skinny enough to fit in i camt make friends. i fucking hate this school i hate it i hate kolkata bigcities fucking suck i hope this place burns down in the middle of a warfare or something i dont want to be here i miss teh peopel i was with it took me all these days all these months all these years to finally make atleast a friend or two and i only had a month's worth of rest witb them and now its all gone its down the drain i hate this i dont want to be here i want to go back i just dont wanna be alone i dont like being alone i never wanted to i never asked for thsi why couldn't i just stay there why couldn't i be in a hostel or something why couldn't i just not come to this shit city. i dont want a birthday party anymore im scared to go to school i dont want to sit alone again i dont want people to ignore i dont want everyone avoiding me i dont to be lonely i dont like this all i ever wanted was a friend i could see infront of me someone i could hangout with i just dont understand what did i do wrong what guidebook must i follow what do i have to do to just for the love of heavens why cant i get someone. i wish i had friends in my tution my school my home my area i just want a goddamn friend i can see everyday is it too much to ask for am i that much of a ratass loser how am i supposed to live i fucking hate this. i dont wanna just spend my sundays alone bedrotting and only seeing my parents i wish i had someone i could hang around with go to parks with talk on and on with visit my school for no reason with have sleepovers with i dont wanna wait till my college days or when i begin to work i just dont want to spend my teenage years alone i just want someone i can just

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wth???? maaru ya confusingly smile karu what is this behaviour pooja i asked him again if he has anything other than whatsapp he was like "Example, Insta" as in was i asking for his insta MIND YOU I ASKED HIM MULTIPLE TIMES BEFORE THIS THROUGH THESE MONTHS.

he pulls up with a yeah. since 2022. i dont know how to describe this shi. i mean why did he lie then the fuah?????

But if i look at it from an audience point of view, this could POSSIBLY mean he trusts me a bit?? maybe he didn't wanna tell me cuas of diksha and priyanshi😭😭 hey atleast i got it ig i DONT wanna be delusional but okay whatever NO OVERTHINKING he has like 6 girls on his following(51) most of the others are verified people like virat kohli messi ronaldo blahlblah and his follower count is liek 14 or somethimg ill stalk later i have to sleep🙏

ALSO NOT BIG NEWS BUT HEY THIS IS A BIG STEP this morning i had tution at maams class right, maam gave us(me priyanshi diksha) chhutti earlier than him and theres this carrom board so diksha and priyanshi were playing i was just there cuas i cant play carrom HEY BEFORE YOU CALL ME A NOOB MY HANDS HURT OKE i dond like betha on my haath💔 so then they played till he got chhutti and we went outside together. now he keeps his cycle in the apartment right(since the apartment is opposite to the class), he went there and was bringing his cycle out while we were going to the apartment and i was like "ei tor haath ta de toh" as in "ei tera haath de toh" and drew a cat(just a cat sketch i always do) in the middle of his palm. okay WAIT WAITTTTY BEFORE YOU SAY KI yaar what is this build up for drawing billa on his haath LISTEN I WANTED TO TOUCH HIS HAND OKAY IT WAS ONLY MY CHECKLIST AND I DID IT where is the confetti SOMEONE THROW CONFETTI MAINE KAR DIKHAYA this is very boro step for me LIKE ONE MORE STE TO THE MOUNT EVEREST PEAK oke anyway diksha wanted to know what i drew so she peeked later just before he got out the gate and blahbblah we actually went to the apartment cus of some test quarries of priyanshi and i just tagged along cuas meh. BUT YAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR MATLAB KYA BOLUUU YAAWWWRRRRR MERA GAYA MAI TOH URU URU MAI HAWA I AM DIFFUSED INTO THE ATMOSPHERE his hand is not not rough but not soft its firm and just there, not sure how do describe but its definitely lengthier than mine AAAAAAAHAAAAAIJJHIHIGIHIIHIH whatiswrongwithme. HWUEHEJURJEUUEIEEIEIAAAAAAAHAAAAAAA SYSTEM FAAD DIYA YAWR AM I MENSTRUATING OR OVULATING IDK IM TOH URONTO also i was just normally talking to him in text right then suddenly diksha messages me and just gives me a screenshot from her laptop/computer

thats him. shes texting him. i dont know if you can read her message but it says like "just suppose ok? agar ek ladki paas se aake aapka haath pakar li toh what will be your reaction" (ignore that freakyass sticker he sent to diksha😭)

matlab WHAT THE HELL?????😭😭😭😭 YAAR WHAT IS THIS MUJHE FSAA MATT DO HES GONNA THINK ME AS A DESPERATE JUNIOR LADKI yawr mai gayi ALL I DID WAS ASK THEM if i HYPOTHETICALLY just HELD HIS HAND NONCHALANTLY one RANDOM HYPOTHETICAL day WHAT WILL HAPPEN LIKe what will he HYPOTHETICALLY do, matlab alag hi level ka bandi hai😭😭😭USKO DIRECT ASK KARDI ISNE WTF i know hes gonna give randomass gifs or dodge the question BUT IM STILL PEEKING DONT JUDGE ME NA I WANT TO KNOW HIS ANSWER ei why are these people stealing my stickers this is not good

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BHAI WHAT IS WRONG WITH MEYAAR 😭 I took a different route with Diksha because like maam jaano naa dekh pae and Priyanshi ko lene jaa rhe the. Anyway, while we were yapping i was talking about 3husbands rakhna AARE DIFFERENT FUNCTIONS. then Diksha goes laik bhai tu kya muslim hai ki 3baar shaadi karegi and I was like taale toh qurbani karne lagega

BUT TELL ME WHY the placement was SO BAAJE MATLAB GAAND FTAANI BAD PLACEMENT 😭😭 There was literally a shop RIGJT BESIDE beside us called rahman somthing agerabagera AND LIEKthe guy who owned it was sitting there the ENTIRE YIME DOTTIR IM CRYING I CANT READ BANGLA OKAY I DONT KNOW HOW TO NOT BE LOUD YAAR MUJHE PHEK DO

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YAAYAYAYAY i watched dhurandhar and nearly half the sequel/prequel(2in1 actually) with my friend BUAT I DIDN'T GET TO TALK MUCH cuas a frw minutes ago i called her mum and asked if she could stay longer or liek wait two minutes yabadaba and her mum was liek SHIGGIR COME NO TWO MINUTES COME NNEEEEOOWWWWWWW so ye in the middle of the rain she was gonna go so i gave her my chhaata

IM GONNA CALL HER NEXT SUNDAY TOOOOO also chicken today btw❤️❤️ I FEEL LIKE SONNASHI EVER SINCE BABA BECAME VEG WTH😭

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kal toh sunday hai I AM TOH NAACHNACHAI AT 2:30YAASRRR im planning on dragging a friend of mine to fortune city and yap with her on the park😛 cuas she also has very irritation with making friends with all these people, kolkata is tiring i wish i was with everyone i actually knew man. i miss my people and i miss my days where i still had a personal reason to go to school. atleast if i was with the people i knew online it would be nice.

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Vro i was talking too much with diksha and sir lowkey crashed out and said that it was chhutti and to go home BHAI MUJHE NAHI SAMAJH AAYA KE SACHH KEH RAHE THE i thought he was normal and serious THEN SHE TOLD ME CONTINUOUSLY TAHT BHAIJAAN JHAAR RHE THE😭😭even after coming home twinkatronwaale said he was controlling his laughter BHAI MUJHE KYA PATA YAAR and after ACTUAL chhutti we all got 200₹ from sir(140₹ actually cuas baaki return) for free icecream❤️ NAAANI TERI MOOOOORRNII KO MOOORRRR- oke sory😔 so uah i was acting wierd and lowkey watered my aura down and like all four of us(me priyanshi diksha and bhondubaccha) went to Maam ka apartment ka chhad and yapped there for a while and stuff then just went home (shhhhh ignore the fact i pulled his hair every single time i passed by his chair in class and while he was solving something on the board ANS MY MUM SAW ME THROWING PAPER BALLS AT HIM😭😭😭SHE CAME TO TALK WITH SIR also sir asked about our dog because he got to know about it from maam and apparently MAAM SAW MUMMY KA FACEBOOK REELS MERA FATT GAYA BHAI🙏🙏😭😭😭)

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OKAY NO NOW IM REALLY HITTING THIS HO CUAS HE TOLD ME he made an edit and i was like hell yeah show me THIS DUMBASS THIS ABSOLUTE BHANDA PULLED UP W THIS

hes going to HELL and IM MAKING SURE OF IT. this photo is from 4-5days ago when our sir(science tution teacher) CHANGED TO A NEW LOCATION SO HE MADE US ALL CLICK A GROUP PHOTO thats maam infront of me btw and she gave me a tikka first❤️LADIESLADIES ONE ATA TIMME and I WAS IN A HURRY THAT DAY OKAY i forgor we had to tske a picture with everyone AND I DIDN'T WEAR MY GOOD SHIRT INSTEAD OF THIS LERAFERA EYEBURNING RAG and this DUDE IS RAGEBAITING ME you know what ts ho said HE MADE 4 MORE AND HE GON PRINT THAT SHI AND PULL UP TO TUTION WITH IT. thats it im pulling ALLof his hair outNO NEGOTIATION

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walked a hell lot today😭😭😭

both priyanshi and diksha dragged me to walk before AND after tution but i cant really complain cuas making other friends is too hard i might as well keep up with them🥀🥀

also im thinking im not gonna obsess over this dude, if he likes me back then yabadaba whatever🙏 i aint gonna text first these days IM GONNA TRY PIRATING THE OBSESSION MOVIE THAT CAME OUTTT

(also thas diksha in the first photo)

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okay now im just being annoying and only ever posting about a guy, but dude. like seriously?

hes been not texting first for 2 days and i waited till 10:20 this time. maybe he liked the attention? or just realized i dont have intentions of being his sister🙏 i found out other than studying or playing roblox he does swimming or gym(DAMN MAN I WANNA GO TO THE GYM TOO IM THE ONLY ONE HERE WHOS USELESS AND LETHKOR FUAK) so uh i ranted about idk being a matchmaker whatever he was like (in bengali) can i say one thing? what will i do knowing all this?

like. DAMN MAN IF YOU HATE ME JS HANG ME UPSIDE DOWN WITH THE VINES OF A BODGAACHH YAAR WHADIS DIS BEHAVIOUR 💔💔💔 oh my fuaking days i dont wanna be a boy crazy boy chaser again WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME STOP IT YOU DISGUSTING IDIOT I NEED TO MEDITATE AND DO MY PADHAI YAAR WHAT????? heavens let me bag him I DONT WANT A SLOWBURN BUT I DONT WANT A FAST ROMANCE WEEK AND GHOSTING ON THE OTHER PLEASE MAN what is wrong with you I NEED MY MEDS

do i have a kink for chasing whadduh