when i don't have the energy to drag pen on paper i just write here
staring down at my keyboard because the bright light from the screen is making my head pulse
wishing the present into the past
at some point i stopped believing a single word you said
but it still broke my heart to hear your apology
were you really listening?
i don't know, and i guess i never will
it makes me think of those long phrases at the end of neon
god i can barely keep my head up
you pulld at a place in my heart that i often forgot existed
it seems stupid that it still means so much to me
i wish i could forget you, or erase you, all until i talk to you
i forget you're human sometimes
i forget the nuance until i hear from you
i remember different things at different times, i remember the hatred, the disgust, the violence, i remember your presence as violence, and i forget your face as the cord that pulled my heart out of me
for better or for worse, doesn't matter until i do remember
i'd like to lay it to rest for good, lay us to rest and everything that comes with it
but if you really listened to me for the first time, if you really meant your apology, i wish you could hold me for the first time again too
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