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▓█ ♍ || “What are you doing here? Disciplinary committee members are supposed to be walking the school grounds making sure no one causes trouble.” Even in the midst of all the fun, Kamui was working. He didnt plan on taking part in many of the festivities, as much as he might want to or not. Even during the dance, he planned to work. He wanted noting going wrong that could hurt his reputation as the president.

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“What do you think I am doing?” Her tone is sharp, almost offended that he was suggesting that she’d be slacking off. Emi, as uncooperative as she may be, was diligent when it came to her work. If given a task, and she accepts it as one of her own responsibilities, she follows through to the end. It was the mind set she was raised to have, even as a small innocent child. “Do you know why big cats often hunt from above? Because they get a better vantage point. Their prey won’t know what hit them until it’s too late.” And from here, over - looking the festival as a whole, she could see everything. Which made her more efficient.

#iuseres #x. data ⇢ intro #v. ichi ⇢ I DON'T WANT TO TANGO WITH YOU; ID RATHER TANGO WITH HIM. I THINK IM GOING TO BASH HIS HEAD IN.

iuseres:

▓█ ♍ || The others in the meeting all seemed to pause when Emi arrived. All eyes in the room had turned to her, and even the teacher speaking to bring up the next topic in their [brief] meeting paused. The timing could not have been more perfect. Kamui had been the only one in the room who had not paused to look at who have entered. Just from their reaction alone he had a guess as to who it was. Not that it bothered him in the slightest. He took advantage of the moment to raise a new topic aside from the brief agenda of club fund raisers needing to be organized and suggestions for any school events to be held. “I’d like to propose we do something about this rumor spreading around campus.” Kamui began. The teacher at the head of the table rolled his eyes, seeming uninterested in such a topic. He even protested that it was not the time to discuss such matters and it was only a rumor, but Kamui paid no mind to such an unimportant opinion. “The rumor has been spreading like a sickness, even more so than the past few years since the supposed incident that is tied to it. Not only that, but students have been going missing.” In small numbers, sure, but that didnt change the fact that they were gone. “You can hardly blame the disappearances of a few students on a rumor. The police have found no evidence supporting it.” “Even still, I would like to propose that the faculty at least participate in dismissing such rumors about some soul snatcher in a science room. Some idiotic story such as that is not going to assist the police if the only information they get from investigating such disappearances is ‘they texted the haunted number’. If this continues on it could greatly damage the school’s reputation.”

Is this really what she had come to discuss? Emi, like the rest of the student body, was well aware of the rumors going around school. They say that if you text a certain number, a week later, you will somehow end up at the science lab and your soul would be taken away. Annoyance became clear upon her features, eyes fluttering shut as she leaned back in her seat. Crossing her arms over her chest, she threw her legs up and rested them on the desk before her.

“He’s not wrong. If you really care about the well-being of the students, investigating the rumor should have been a given. And if not for the students, then for the reputation of the school. If people hear about the rumor, it would discourage new students, and may even convince parents to withdraw their students.” It was unlikely that the faculty expected some kind of input by her. But, Emi knew how to handle these kind of things. Her father was a business man, and held a high position. Emi was actually an heiress of the business -- or would have been, had she not been kicked out.

Shaking her head, she pinched the bridge of her nose. “But of course, if you don’t care about the safety of your students, continue to pretend that the rumor is not part of the problem.”

#i. iuseres ⇢ 001 #iuseres #v. ichi ⇢ I DON'T WANT TO TANGO WITH YOU; ID RATHER TANGO WITH HIM. I THINK IM GOING TO BASH HIS HEAD IN.

inprudens:

the fear in his stomach that he’d actually hurt her only continued to grow as she took a moment – along with the whole cafeteria, to recover from his actions. soon, like the blink of an eye his weapon was taken & broken between her grasp. even so, he REFUSED to run away. he wasn’t scared of her; it was only the fact that he was scared to hurt her. as anyone should be.

but what happened next was something he’d NEVER expected. a foot right to his chest, middle of his rib cage – he couldn’t breath, whatever breath he had left was cut short as he was sent flying backwards; bashing into some empty chairs. finding himself gasping for air he laid on the ground for a while; unable to find the will to even more, let alone blink.

Emi watched as the boy was sent flying. She had not meant to kick him that hard, but, she supposed that she had been fueled by anger and aggravation. Sitting back on the heels of her feet, she smoothed down the front of her uniform -- grimacing quietly when mashed potatoes smeared across her palm -- she took cautious steps forward. Towering over the other, she scoffed quietly.

“Don’t cross into my turf again, understand?” With that, she pivoted on her feet before leaving the scene. Whatever appetite she had was gone, anyway.

#inprudens #i. inprudens ⇢ 001 #v. ichi ⇢ I DON'T WANT TO TANGO WITH YOU; ID RATHER TANGO WITH HIM. I THINK IM GOING TO BASH HIS HEAD IN.#we can do a time skip thing???

my mood is so much shit right now i want someone to punch me in the face.

#tbd.#laughs and rolls off the face of the earth tbh

nendckusai-blog

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nendckusai:

Weep for yourself, my man, You’ll never be what is in your heart Weep, little lion man, You’re not as brave as you were at the start Rate yourself and rake yourself Take all the courage you have left And waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head

#p. ⇢ self promo

setsunaai:

how cruel. How cruel of her indeed. He supposed there was some merit in saying that Katsumi Emi was sometimes callous, but there had always been some part of him that had thought he was an exception to that rule. Maybe it’s just desperation, he thinks. The boy goes on and makes a few friends and suddenly thinks that maybe he’s an ’ EXCEPTION ’. Like he’s fucking special. She had always been kind to him and maybe that was because he wanted to protect this girl. This hopelessly strong-willed girl who saved other people - saved him countless of times - but needed saving herself.

Briefly he wonders if he ever liked her at all or if this was just him, wanting to play hero to someone. ( HE WISHES HE DIDN’T LIKE HER. )

He’s stopped before he manages to get very far. Hands are clenched at sides and at first, he doesn’t understand why she stopped him to talk. Wasn’t she ANGRY with him? Didn’t she want to hit him? Somehow, being beaten around suddenly sounded less painful than what comes next. Put him up to what? PUT HIM UP TO WHAT? It registers then very quickly. THE KATSUMI CHALLENGE. A game made up by the guys in that school who deemed Katsumi Emi UNDATEABLE. She’d shoot anyone down who tried and he had heard of it once before. “… ‘ow little d'you think of me, Katsumi-san?” But this wasn’t it.

He’s never gotten angry with her. He’d never hurt her, but he’s suddenly compelled to push her away as hard as he can before taking a few steps back himself. Eyes are glossed and he lifts an arm to his eyes so that he doesn’t FUCKING CRY IN FRONT OF HER. She doesn’t deserve the satisfaction of seeing him cry. He laughs. “Did you really think I’d fuck around w’ that kinda shit? I never say ANYTHIN’ I don’t mean.”

His voice falters when arms drop back down to his side and Hayato sniffles, the words caught in his throat and on his tongue. “How little do you think of m’, Katsumi-san? I mean, I guess I’m stupid for thinkin’ that you might'a known better. But yer’ so fuckin’ SCARED of bein’ hurt and I.” A wave of the hand. God, he’s crying like a teenage girl after her first heartbreak and he’s got the feeling of melodrama running so deeply in his veins that he’s surprised there isn’t an orchestra in the background. Dictating his every emotion, every word. “Fer'get it.” He’s done.

Out of all of them, Hayato was probably one of the few whom she really tolerated. And dare she say.... Actually liked him? He treated her well, despite the fact that she was cold and harsh to him almost every time they met. But, when he talked to her, it was usually in earnest. Not with a lick of fear or disrespect, the way Kenji did -- whether or not he had intended to. Hayato was everything she was not, but maybe that was why this had hurt the most.

But if only she knew that this was some kind of misunderstanding. Her whole entire life seemed to be based on misunderstandings. If someone sat her down with her brother and they had a heart to heart talk, no doubt they could have resolved this huge rift between them. But they continued their unspoken war. If she had stopped to think that maybe -- just maybe -- that he had meant every word he said. That this wasn’t some kind of joke to him.

Maybe Emi was a lot more arrogant than she let on.

The other’s words cut through her like a knife, as ironic as it may be. Realization soon seeped into her bones, causing her breath to hitch in her throat. Her eyes widened a bit, fist relaxing at her side. Tilting her head back, she stared up at the ceiling, hand clenching at the shirt over her chest now.

“BUT YER’ SO FUCKIN’ SCARED OF BEIN’ HURT.”

He was right. He was so right. She was so scared, she literally scared everyone who tried to get close to her away. But still, that did not change a thing. Did it? “Hayato!” Her voice was sharp, but there was a certain lilt to her tone.

“Stop blubbering,” because he deserves so much more. “And pick me up by seven.” It seemed more like an order than anything, which wasn’t how most people did it, but Emi had always been a bit unorthodox. Damn, she will have to find a way to make it up to him.

#i. setsunaai ⇢ 002 #setsunaai #v. ichi ⇢ I DON'T WANT TO TANGO WITH YOU; ID RATHER TANGO WITH HIM. I THINK IM GOING TO BASH HIS HEAD IN.#slAMS THIS DOWN

@glacieshart | X

“--?” Wasn’t he... That bafoon who tripped over his own two feet and ate shit the other day? He was almost certain that he was. When he extended a flower in her direction, accompanied by a so-called ‘charming’ smile, she let out a small scoff in response. Emi was not the type to be easily fooled by something like a perfectly placed smile. The Katsumi Heiress was far from impressed, and if this was his way of redeeming himself, it was failing bitterly. “Keep it. What use do I have for a flower?” Does she look like the type to have time to take care of flora?

#glaciesart #i. glacieshart ⇢ 001 #d. starter #v. ni ⇢ BUT I'LL TELL YOU ( ONE ) THING; IF YOU WOULD LEAVE IT WOULD BE A CRYING SHAME

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offabletown:

❝ Is that a threat ? ❞ ❝ These lips are sealed . ❞ ❝ It is better to be feared than loved .❞ ❝ I’ve seen the way you look at ___ , okay ? You’re not foolin’ me .❞ ❝ You’re not as bad as everyone says you are . ❞ ❝ Anyone ever tell you you got a big fuckin’ mouth ? ❞ ❝ Whatever . I’m too out of it to get into it . ❞ ❝ We all have our parts to play . ❞ ❝ You can’t change the past . ❞ ❝ ____ , I’m gonna break your fucking face . ❞ ❝ I’ve heard stories about you . ❞ ❝ In some tiny little bottled up way , deep inside … you kind of enjoy it when things go wrong . ( Because it gives you an excuse to just … stop pretending ) . ❞ ❝ Life is easier with friends . ❞ ❝ Well I’d appreciate it if you’d fuck off . ❞ ❝ But no , hate’s the wrong word . They fear you more than anything . ❞ ❝ I know you like this whole ’ lone wolf ’ thing you got going for yourself . ❞ ❝ I wish I could have seen it. ❞ ❝ I’ll see you around . ❞ ❝ You almost looked peaceful . Except you’re lying in a dirty alley . ❞ ❝ Just … try not to be like ( yourself ) … ❞ ❝ Pardon the intrusion . I wasn’t aware this was a munchkin’s house .❞ ❝ I didn’t realize you were the bitch of the bitch . ❞ ❝ Hey , what are your plans now ? ❞ ❝ I’m not yours to lose ! ❞ ❝ Blah blah … blah blah blah . ❞ ❝ Are you saying you need a friend right now ? You can trust me . ❞ ❝ People are scared of you . I mean , look at your hands . ❞ ❝ You looked like when you take an action figure and bend it’s limbs the wrong way . ❞ ❝ But at the end of the day I’m still the bad guy . ❞ ❝ Everything used to be so simple … we had a beginning , a middle , & an end . ❞ ❝ When we suffer , we do it in silence . ❞ ❝ You should worry about your own fucking situation . ❞ ❝ I’ve made mistakes . ❞ ❝ You do what you want … you always do what you want . ❞ ❝ I’m glad you’re not dead . ❞ ❝ We need to do things the right way ! ❞ ❝ You’ll pray to any god who’ll listen that your mother never shit you into this fucking world .❞ ❝ Wait a minute … someone’s watching . ❞ ❝ I know it’s dangerous , but I’m not helpless . I can take care of myself . ❞ ❝ Not now , not now , shhhh , the grown ups are talking. . ❞ ❝ Out of my way ! I’ll show you how it’s done ! ❞ ❝ Do you want the Big Bad Wolf to take you away ? ❞ ❝ That was about 8 on the asshole scale … ❞ ❝ Cut the bullshit & quit wasting my time . ❞ ❝ This was really the wrong day to try & pull this shit ! ❞ ❝ You’re a monster ! A fucking monster ! ❞ ❝ You understand wanting to protect what you care about , don’t you ? You’d do anything . ❞

#tbt.

setsunaai:

he screwed up again. Of course, he did. He always FUCKS EVERYTHING UP. He knew he shouldn’t have said anything because of course something like this would happen to him. He should have known that she would have told him ’ no ’ because of course. What kind of person would ever find someone like him? Someone awkward, clumsy, unable to express his emotions. He didn’t make very funny jokes. He wasn’t at all handsome in the way the other boys on the team were and he wasn’t. He wasn’t a lot of things, he knows, and maybe it was his fault for mistaking her kindness for even the smallest glimmer of hope that maybe for once he might have been WANTED.

He had known it from the start after all. She would have told him no, but that didn’t change that her answer was hard to swallow because it wasn’t a ’ NO ’. It was a ’ get out of my face, I never want to see you again ’. It was a ’ you’re disgusting ’. It was a ’you’re dead to me ’. He had taken a gamble saying anything and now that he has; the only thing he can think of is a stream of STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID.

He fucked up again and it’s because he doesn’t know how to convey his feelings. It’s because he’s nothing like the guys he looked up to and it’s because he knows that no one could ever want him. He would have been just happy knowing that she was happy. Knowing that in some small way he made her world a better place and her silent kindness was something that was not lost on him now when she tells him to leave. She’s giving him a chance to run.

He doesn’t. Not at first.

But he swallows his words, his pride and he turns away to run off toward the first year dorm. Half out of fear for his life, half out of embarrassment that he was fifteen years old and still hasn’t outgrown crying like a child when he was upset. Katsumi Emi? Liking him?

WHAT A JOKE.

She could feel the bite of her nails as they left crescent indention into the meat of her palm. Her hands flexed, forming lethal and dangerous fists at her side. The hole in her chest ached more than it did a moment before, but she was almost always hurting, so it did not really matter anymore. When he did not do as she said, she rounded on him, a scowl on her lips. Anger shined in crystal hues, but there was a mild glisten -- like the onslaught of tears. Which was stupid, because why would she cry over something as stupid as this?

Body twisting around to face the other, a heavy scowl sat upon her lips. Her mouth opened, as if to say something, but then shut again. “Who put you up to this?” She will kill them, she swears she will. “.... Please tell me someone put you up to this.” She needed to know. Who would turn the other against her? After all that time they spent together? She let him sit with her during lunch. He defended her when people whispered about her, the way that they always did. He was nice to her, even when she spat knives at him.

So why would he take on the KATSUMI CHALLENGE and hurt her like this? Or did the people she... Well, she did not love Hayato, but she did not hate him, either. The way she did with everyone else. But, maybe it was true. Everyone betrayed her, left her behind to pick up the pieces of another disappointment.

“Because this isn’t funny.”.

#setsunaai #i. setsunaai ⇢ 002 #d. reply #x. fortune | COME ON MAKE IT EASY. SAY I NEVER MATTERED. RUN IT UP THE FLAGPOLE; WE WILL TEACH YOU HOW TO MAKE BOYS NEXT DOOR OUT OF ASSHOLE

“ I’m scared. “ “ It hurts. “

The voice rang in an all too familiar tune in her ear, causing the fearsome Emperor to halt in her steps. She could hear the call of her name from her team mates’ lips, but she showed no indication of hearing them. No, she was more focused on the voice in her head, echoing in the chambers of her mind. What was this chilling sensation she was feeling? Hearing something crackle, she slowly turned on her feet, eyes widening at the sight before her.

“ Why doesn’t anybody love me? “ “ Where did I go wrong? “ “ Oh, right. You scared them all off. “

Something -- or someone -- who looked exactly like her was standing right before her eyes, dark plumes of smoke licking off her form, eyes an eerie and glowing gold. “But... How?“ Her usual calm and cold exterior was replaced with shock, her heart thumping loudly in her chest. She could feel Bird’s hand on her shoulder as she tried to pull her back. Kei’s firm voice trying to stop her from stepping closer to this entity. Hayato’s voice, filled with urgent concern, rang in her ears -- yet, her feet carried her forward.

“ Everyone you love betrays you. No one wants you around. You’re more of a danger to the team than anything else. “ The smile which the entity wore was mocking and stomach churning -- almost a sickly sweet as enchanting eyes swallowed Emi up. Licking her lips, a pout sat on full lips, fingers wringing the front of her shirt. “ You’re alone. It hurts so much.... This is all your fault. Why did you push them away, Emi-chan? They loved you so much, but you pushed them away! “ The Shadow rubbed at her eyes, wiping at the tears which spilled from thich lashes.

“ Katsumi-san, don’t listen to it! “ “ Katsumi-san! Get away from it! “ “ KATSUMI-SAN! “

Once more, her team’s words fell on deaf ears. Suddenly, her hands shot out, taking this... This.... This thing by the front of its shirt and pulled her close. Her breath fanned across her mirror’s face, lips pulled back into a harsh snarl, teeth ready to rip into flesh. “You... You are not me!”

And laughter pierced the tense air around them, the Shadow’s shoulders shaking as she threw her head back. Tendrils wrapped around the figure’s form, shaping into a monster.

“ I am you and you are me. What about that don’t you understand? “

#m. ⇢ drabbles #ooc. ⇢ save

"Out of simple curiosity, do you believe creates such as werewolves, vampires, spirits actually exist?"

“---?” Was he really asking her such stupid questions? Well, given the fact that she was introduced to the world of Shadows and Personas, the answer would be yes. But she isn’t inclined to give him a reason to think she was crazy or something. “And what if I do? If they did exist, as long as they’re not something of my concern--I don’t really care.”

#glacieshart #t. ⇢ answered

Doesn't notice a root sticking out of the ground -- oops, there he goes, squealing the whole way down.

She saw it, the whole entire thing. All she does is steps over him like he wasn’t even there.

#glacieshart #t. ⇢ answered

"Is this your cat?" He queried, kneeling to scratch the chin of the feline encircling his legs.

“Does it look like it’s mine?” The retort was unnecessarily cold and harsh, though , that was not unusual for the Italian. “He’s a stray. But he likes to come around these parts every now and then. I.... Uh, fed him once and he hasn’t left me alone since.” She did not ask for this, but she wasn’t cruel enough to kick it until it left her alone.

#glacieshart #t. ⇢ answered

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send me a ❖ + a question and my muse will be forced to tell the truth.

#ooc. ⇢ memes

💕

Send me 💕 and my muse will react to yours asking them on a date.

* accepting ;

This was a joke. It had to be. Why would anyone ask her, of all people, out on a date – let alone want to associate with her? She was so appalled, she did not have the time to feel angry; not right away, anyway. But then, it hit her like a wave of emotion, and there was a look of hurt on her features. She thought that he of all people would never treat her as cruelly as the others, but, what explanation can their be?

THE KATSUMI CHALLENGE –

What a joke. “Get out of my face.” She liked Kinoshita-san enough to give him a ten second head start. “Get out of my face, right now.” She thought he was different, but, she was wrong. He was going to mock her the way everyone else did, huh? Who was brave enough to ask the dragon on a date? Who would be successful?

– This world really was cruel and disgusting.

#setsunaai #t. ⇢ answered #x. fortune | COME ON MAKE IT EASY. SAY I NEVER MATTERED. RUN IT UP THE FLAGPOLE; WE WILL TEACH YOU HOW TO MAKE BOYS NEXT DOOR OUT OF ASSHOLE

Kei wants the K ;)

Send me ‘I want the K’ and I’ll generate a number; 013. stomach kiss

* accepting ;

There’s an unusual softness to her gaze, an affection she had long since forgotten that she was capable of. So, maybe this wasn’t so bad…. Maybe the team was tolerable, especially their leader – who has come so far. It was one of those days, some time after they had gotten to the bottom of the rumor and figured out who that missing girl was. Somewhere, from the moment she smashed his face into his plate of mashed potatoes to now, a bond had been formed.

Who would have thought that his stupid kid would be the light at the end of the long ass tunnel she had been stuck in. He showed her a completely new world, one where she was capable of feeling anything other than resentment and bitterness toward the world around them. She had forgotten what it felt like to smile the way her heart ached to. Or the feeling of being cared for and loved. To be the one being taken care of rather than doing the protecting. That was a part of herself she did not see herself capable of anymore –

– but Kei had proved her wrong.

“You know…,” she began hesitantly, picking at the grass under them. She was using Kei as a pillow, despite her being the tallest between the two. “Fall is ending soon. Winter is around the corner…. I was thinking that…. Maybe…. I can go back to Italy for a bit.” There was hesitation in her tone – a child like fear – as she turned her head away. Avoiding looking up at the other, she let out a strained sigh.

Shaking her head, she turned over onto her stomach now. Resting her arms on his abdomen, she pressed her cheek against her forearm, looking at their leader once more. “… Forget it,” she mumbled out, pressing her face into his stomach now to hide the flush of her cheeks, lips lingering where they touched. Shooting up, she brushed back her hair. “I–I’m going to go inside now.”

#this is like post px game #bc its the only way i can see this happening hhhh #inprudens #t. ⇢ answered #x. fool | I'M JUST THE BOY INSIDE THE ( MAN ); NOT EXACTLY WHO YOU THINK I AM. TRYING TO TRACE MY STEPS BACK HERE AGAIN

magxstoro:

She was cold and ferocious. Every word she spoke was armed with a knife. And yet the magician would take every stabbing if it meant even hearing her. Oh she was such a sight to behold.

Even with eyes looking at them , but not staring best to not get too close or catch unwanted gaze , the magician didn’t care. Whispers about how he was brave and foolish at the same time mummers amongst students. But all Kenji could be focused on was the beauty. She was no plauge or demon as many claimed just a very cold-hearted person. Nothing wrong with that!

“ Well I didn’t mean to disrupt you. A woman such as yourself must be very busy! Don’t worry I’m a pretty clever guy, went to school to learn out of move to to side y’ know? ”

" Jokes aside. I was going to ask if you needed any assistance like I said you must be a busy woman and having me along might make things easier. “

First years these days will be the absolute end of her. One of these days, she may actually go to jail because of her harsh personality; after all, how many students has she sent to the infirmary over very small and trivial matters? So far, the other was trying her patience. All she wanted to do was finish her patrol and her paperwork -- because at least then, she could retire to her own room for the rest of the night. So, whatever fascination he had in her needed to come to an end, and now.

“Look,” she began, completely disregarding his offer. What use could he be of her, anyway? “I’m not in the mood right now. But, if you’re here for the stupid ‘Katsumi Challenge,’ I will make sure you can’t walk again.” That’s right. She was well aware of that challenge floating around. Who was brave enough to ask the fearsome Katsumi, Emi on a date? Those who tried wound up terribly injured.

“But if you really do want to make yourself useful, I do have homework you can busy yourself with.”

#magxstoro #i. magxstoro ⇢ 002 #v. ichi ⇢ I DON'T WANT TO TANGO WITH YOU; ID RATHER TANGO WITH HIM. I THINK IM GOING TO BASH HIS HEAD IN.

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