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Jenna Ortega talking about how she choreographed the iconic dance scene by herself. WEDNESDAY (2022- )

I'm a fucking terrible person and an even shittier dog owner

whenever I decide anything I need 15 people to say "that's a good idea" to me otherwise I feel like I'm making a catastrophic decision that will ruin my life. in a chill way I'm chill

I adjusted to be chronically ill. And then I adjusted to being chronically ill and immunocompromised during a pandemic where people openly don't care if I live or die. But I don't want to adjust to just randomly having debilitating pain. This is not what i signed up for.

It would be one thing if this new pain was once every few months and had a very probable explanation (thank you ER doctors) like the other non-IBD-flare-up pain I've had for the last few years. But this new pain has been almost every single day for over a month now.

On the few good days I'll only be in pain for like 3 hours, but on the bad days I'm in mod/severe pain an average of 7 hours. It's a distraction at work, it keeps me from walking my dog and from eating normally, and it keeps me lying in bed for the majority of the day when I don't have to work.

I saw my doctor a couple of weeks ago when my pain was finally lessening and she had a reasonable guess of the cause and out me in a temporary med, but the pain started coming back just a few days after I started the med and I am miserable.

I don't want this body. I don't want to be broken, to be a physical or emotional burden.

And like my mental health is also fucked up.. No one is going to love me in this body.

#personal #Chronically ill #Disabled #Disability #Immunocompromised #Chronic illness #IBD

resilientknee

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#And honestly how pathetic is it that just a few weeks after I stop seeing my therapist (I switched insurance)#I immediately spiral into a major depressive episode #I am fucking broken #And all I want is a break from existence

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#The amount of times 'I want to die' had been literally singing through my brain the last week or so is definitely concerning #🙃🙃🙃#I do not have a plan #I am passively suicidal #I have never been actively suicidal #I'm not okay but I'm fine #personal #Also if you're wondering if I pretty much only come on Tumblr now when I'm massively depressed and borderline suicidal #you would absolutely be correct

manforsale

Fuck the whole “who’s gonna die this year” who’s death are you MANIFESTING. I’ll go first. JK Rowling

zvaigzdelasas

Maybe if instead of the vague cutesy term "brain fog" we use the more directly accurate term "neurological damage", that will help ppl stop seeing that as a "minor" outcome of covid

thedreamsofgods

Brain fog is a term that has been in use by disabled people for a specific type of symptom for at least 30 years. Instead of blaming disabled people for not being taken seriously when they try to discuss issues they face in the most understandable way possible, let's look at why doctors refuse to take patients seriously when they say "I can't think clearly, like a thick fog has covered my brain"

Brain fog was never a "cutesy term" before covid, and it isnt the fault of people who experience it that it's the best way we can think of to talk about this symptom when hey, we're experiencing it

Abled people are treating basically every part of long covid as "minor" and its affecting people who have experienced these symptoms their entire lives severely. It's not disabled people's fault abled people refuse to take our illnesses seriously and it's not the fault of the terms we made for ourselves and use

anxietyproblem

lemonadesoda

Ok like 100% guaranteed way to make me laugh is to send me a joke that takes out the superlative/adjective from a phrase that should have one like

easily one of the days i've had all week

world's...dad

drinks that taste

this is by far one of the posts youve made

this is one of the world's most sounds

one of the seattle colleges

it won't fail

bugsinspace

one of the jokes ever

wickedseahag

gays! clean your room

astrocyte-deactivated20171202

shitpostinguniverse

kadywicker

okay i’m curious bc my parents were relatively young having me but idk what age difference is “normal” between parents and kids as i’ve met people with plenty of variations. so if you want, reblog this and tag (don’t comment) how old your parents were when they had you. my mom was 25 and my dad was 21.

#My mom was 36 and my dad was 42(?)#But I was the third kid