[retiredmd]

🩺 retiredmd. ━━━━ independent, selective and private writing blog for abby langdon of the pitt series. mostly canon compliant with heavy headcanon influences. medium to high activity. marked by maze ( she/her, 25 ).

mature themes … will be very present on this blog such as : hospitals, medical operations, death, etc. nsfw / sexual themes may also be present on this blog, but any threads will be placed under a read – more.

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[writersisland]

“You disgust me,” she mutters against his mouth.

“Good,” he breathes. “I’d hate for this to mean something.”

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@x2082 continued from / here

abby’s lips part in a flashy smile, a soft chuckle reverberating in her chest in response. she discreetly pulls a bag of donut holes out from her coat pocket and shakes the plastic enticingly. ❝  then lets hope this is the only heat i’ll be handling today. i put a request with your department earlier this week and it was approved — …   ❞ she interrupts herself at his comment, hands raising above her head in surrender. ❝  you got me! i want the kids – and frank – to see how badass i am in an area that isn’t just medicine. i’m not looking for a career change, just a little … change of scenery.  ❞

[nondelphic]

"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god

[retiredmd]

i know i’ve been saying i have two replies left to do since february, but my dumb self miscounted and just now checked my activity tab. i DO have two responses due and will be working on them today after i finish watching the new episode.

[shiftchange-moved]

𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐛𝐲’𝐬  𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧  𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝  the  moment  he  saw  abby.  something  in  the  emergency  department  shifted  with  her  there.  it  had  been  that  way  since  the  day  she  left  —  an  absence  felt  more  than  seen.  the  place  had  kept  running,  of  course.  it  always  did.  patients  came  in,  traumas  rolled  through  the  doors,  the  staff  adapted  the  way  they  always  had.  but  still  . . .  something  had  been  missing.  seeing  her  now,  even  just  standing  there  for  a  moment,  made  the  realization  settle  quietly  into  place.  there  had  been  a  hole  when  abby  retired.  he  grinned  at  her,  the  familiar  lines  at  the  corners  of  his  eyes  deepening  as  he  leaned  back  a  little,  arms  hugging  themselves.  ❝  glad  you’re  back.  like  riding  a  bike,  right?  ❞

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  ❝   yeah, thanks …     ❞ abby murmurs, still uncertain about staying for the whole shift. doubt creeps into her mind and she figures five hours should be enough to give the night shift doctors time to roll out of bed and come in. then, her thoughts flicker to how she would feel if someone brought in to work dipped due to their discomfort, and she straightens her posture, determined to stay the entire shift. however, abby doesn’t miss his comment about bikes, and tilts her head in confusion.

  ❝  wait, what do you mean by that? you have a bike? in pittsburgh?! ❞ she questions intensely, playfully prodding his ribs with her fingers to elicit a reaction as well as an answer.  ❝   what kind? a badass harley, or an old man scooter?  ❞

@shiftchange

[gobagx]

❝  ha!  ❞  the  man  barks  with  laughter,  fondness  playing  on  each  facial  feature.  fondness  for  both  abby  and  a  wiggly  little  boy,  who  even  with  a  battery  up  his  nose  and  honey  down  his  throat  still  has  so  much  vigor  for  life.  jack  pats  rhythmically  against  the  fabric  of  tanner's  character  shirt,  keeping  him  steady.  he  makes  some  pretend  roaring  sounds  at  tanner,  too.  jack  is  so  unabashedly  good  with  kids.  the  pediatric  patients  usually  get  redirected  his  way.  ❝  little  boys  love  their  guts.  ❞  he  tosses  the  boy  over  one  shoulder,  gently,  waving  his  chubby  hand  in  abby's  direction.  ❝  say  bye  mama.  don't  panic!  ❞  there's  an  open  room  and  jack  plops  little  langdon  onto  an  awaiting  bed,  rubbing  his  head  while  getting  some  sedation  ready  so  tanner  can  take  a  lil  nap  and  jack  can  take  a  quick  look  at  his  esophagus  with  an  endoscope.  once  abby  has  returned,  with  or  without  frank,  of  course. 

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abby's gaze softens at seeing how playful jack is towards her son. she gathers all of her belongings that she had placed down in disarray during the commotion, then slowly follows them to the open room. she lingers in the doorway, eyes following jack as he gets to work preparing sedation. she wants to blurt out the correct dosage based on tanner's weight, but forces herself to swallow her words. she doesn't work here anymore, she has to be reminded. instead, abby turns and makes her way to frank, letting him know of their presence. once he's aware, she watches him run off to help a patient with a soft smile while she returns to the room. she's still smiling when she takes a seat beside the bed, cheeks flushed pink at knowing her husband takes pride in his work. just like she used to. ❝  how is he doing?  ❞ abby inquires to jack, brushing tanner's bangs away from his face lovingly. she makes a self-note to get her son a haircut tomorrow when he feels better.

[ecnmatic]

THE HIGH NOTE (2020) dir. Nisha Ganatra.

[gloomglimmer]

›   A TENDER MOMENT OF CONFESSION.

“You must be blind if you can't see how I feel about you.”

“I shouldn't have to say it.”

“Don't you see?”

“Three words.” 

“If you want me to leave, I can.” 

“I would prefer if we spoke about this now.”

"You said you wanted to talk?

“Do you need me to say it out loud?”

“Let's agree not to lie to one another.”

“I think of you often.”

“I suspect you don't know how I truly feel.”

“Distance could not put a wedge between us.” 

“I suppose I'm not good at this.”

“What if I wanted it to work?”

“Do you care about me?”

“What more could you want?”

“I thought it was between us.”

“I don't do dates.”

“I don't do relationships.”

“You're different.”

“You're making it difficult.” 

[retiredmd]

abby is the kind of friend that you put an airtag on before leaving the house.

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@broughtpeace sent / #

dana’s name in abby’s phone is “the pitt queen”

dana’s picture in abby’s phone is a selfie they took when abby still worked in the hospital.

dana’s ringtone in abby’s phone is ludwig van beethoven's “symphony no. 5 in c minor”, specifically the beginning four notes on repeat. dundundun dunn!

abby’s last text(s) to dana are “how can i get puppy pee stains out of the carpet?” and “how do i surrender my husband to the animal shelter instead of the dog?”

[retiredmd]

@devilsnare sent / [ share ] ⎯⎯ jack and abby share a cigarette together

abby doesn’t usually smoke, but after such a long and devastating shift, she truly doesn’t argue when jack passes the cigarette to her. she accepts it awkwardly, holding the blunt between two fingers - her index and middle - before taking a quick drag. the smoke fills her lungs and she coughs in disgust, yet takes another slower inhale. her head rolls lazily to the side as steely blue eyes land on jack, simultaneously passing the cigarette back to him. ❝  you know …  ❞ she begins, running her tongue over her chapped lips to moisten them. ❝  our job will kill us faster than this cigarette. so let’s enjoy it while we’re still off the clock.  ❞

[connectivitty-blog]

cell phone headcanons

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[retiredmd]

@devilsnare sent / ❝ Hey, hey. What the fuck is going on in here? ❞

upon hearing frank’s voice, abby freezes in place as a wave of dread washes over her. the temperature in the room seems to drop, and she isn’t completely sure if its caused by the air conditioner finally kicking on, or due to the resident’s frosty attitude. immediately, self preservation causes her to leap from her seat and point at the monitor.   ❝  the monitor malfunctioned and i thought ms. gordon was flatlining, so i rushed in to call a code, but ... it turns out she just took off the blood pressure cuff. we were joking about it before you came in. how funny is that …?  ❞

[retiredmd]

@devilsnare sent / ❝ I just need a word: Just a yes or a no! ❞

abby’s face contorts in frustration, her anger visibly bubbling past its limit in such a petite body. her fists clench yet forcibly remain idle at her side in an attempt to extinguish her urge to punch a wall. she listens to robby’s voice as it fluctuates in tone and further grates on her nerves. it’s obvious that she’s annoyed at being caught nearly as much as he’s probably upset at being the one to catch her. nevertheless, she tries her hardest to withstand the attending’s questioning until he prods for a very specific answer.   ❝  yes!  the  answer  is  yes,  robby!!  dr.  langdon  and  i  are  in  a  relationship.  and  no,  before  you  ask,  it  doesn’t  effect  our  job  like  you  might  think.  contrary  to  popular  opinion,  your  doctors  are  capable  of  having  feelings.  and  i  have  feelings  for him.  you  can  deny it  all  you  want,  but  it’s  true.  ❞

[nondelphic]

"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god

[ecnmatic]

AM I OK? (2024) dir. Stephanie Allynne.