The Girl with The Untold Stories

[rettyandhermind]

Pernah kepikiran untuk mengakhiri hidup karena merasa nggak berguna dan cuma jadi beban buat orang-orang di sekitarku. tapi ternyata, di Hari Ibu ini anak-anakku berharap supaya aku panjang umur dan sehat. Kata si sulung, dia ingin aku temani terus. Ternyata, ada yang masih mengharapkan kehadiranku dalam hidupnya. Ada yang masih membutuhkan pelukanku. Dan itu adalah kedua anakku.

———

boy: Selamat Hari Ibu!

mom: Makasih kakak. Ada nggak harapan buat ibu?

boy: Mm… Semoga ibu panjang umur

mom: Aamiin. Kenapa kok mau ibu panjang umur?

boy: Biar ibu sehat terus. Kalau ibu lagi nggak sehat, nanti kakak temenin ke rumah sakit.

girl: Supaya ibu setinggi langit

mom: *ketawa* Makasih yaa. Kalau ibu panjang umur, kalian mau ditemenin ibu terus?

boy: iya, kan kakak sayang buanget sama ibu

girl: adek juga sayang sama ibu

mom: *crying*

———

Terima kasih ya nak. Buat kalian, ibu akan tetap hidup.

- r.e. / 221225 -

[rettyandhermind]

you know what hurts after separation?

the fact that you have none to tell your random stories

you have none to tell how your day was

you have none to share your dreams with

you just carry them alone

and it hurts

it really hurts

- r.e. / 081125

[rettyandhermind]

do you know,

every day I look outside from the window

waiting for you to come home

but I only see the trees waving at me

the sunlight peeking through the fence

the birds chirping then flying

but you never come

I only see the darkness when it’s 2 in the morning

I even feel the cold outside

but still, you never come

today, in this lonely night there’s a wish

that you come back to me — to our home that we build together

the day goes by

I’m still waiting

- r.e. / 261025

[rettyandhermind]

if ending my life isn’t a sin, maybe i’d do it a year ago

my life has been shattered into pieces and i don’t know how to mend it

i cry my self to sleep every single night

cause i have none to talk to

i act like nothing happened, i smile to others

but deep down, there’s a hollow in my chest

i took antidepressant just to function

but it couldn’t fix my problem, it just delayed my grief

so i stopped

i stopped then my life’s a mess again — until now

every day i feel exhausted, pain all over my body

but all i can do is just crying

i feel like i’m a failure, a burden to every one around me

there was a time when i wish i get really really sick and that make me go forever

God, i just want this problem to end. i want to feel peace & calm

- r.e. / 23925

[rettyandhermind]

selamanya.

[rettyandhermind]

in my lowest point, i put my trust in Allah. only Him. only Him who can change the fate.

“Verily after every hardship there is relief, after every hardship there is relief”

[journalofsolitude]

Morgan Harper Nichols’ ‘Let July be July’

[bitesizedpoetry]

Sylvia Plath

[rettyandhermind]

just to keep me sane. and believing that everything’s gonna be alright.

[eggsdoodz]

all i want is the best for u ☘︎

[brightdeadthing]

love as recognition

anna gavalda / friedrich nietzsche / clarice lispector / jandy nelson / rebecca perry / mhairi mcfarlane

[mournfulroses]

Elton Glaser, from a poem titled “And In The Afternoons I Botanized,” featured in Parnassus

[thnkfilm]

“I don’t have a plan. Phoebe, do you have a plan?”

“I don’t even have a pla.”

Friends (1994-2004)

[cache-e]

" I’m tired, can’t think of anything and want only to lay my face in your lap, feel your hand on my head and remain like that through all eternity "

Franz kafka

[cache-e]

Egon Schiele, “Lovers” (1909)

[happyheidi]

ig: lagunayoshiro

[allthingseurope]

Volterra, Italy (by Yuri)

[keepingitneutral]

“Câlin,” Valréas, Vaucluse, Provence-Alpes-Côte d'Azur, France,

Contekst Architectuur