misunderstanding
Sometimes Misunderstandings happen and than comes someone into your life, and you wonder
"Where has they been all this time?”
"Where did this Person suddenly come from?"
Simply because you don’t pay attention to the little things. The little things that make a person who they are, that give them their identity.
It started with conversations-just everyday things.
It turned into regular Messages, through which learned more and more about each other.
We got to know each other and got along well.
At some Point, you Open your Heart and share a bit about yourself.
Not everything, through- for fear of scaring the other off.
In a Website, you dont necessary Look at someones Profile.
After all, youre Not really really thinking about looking for someone.
A few days later, i ready words that conveyed such a sense of closeness.
Words that carried weight between two people.
Until one Word Made me thinking.
A Word i has initially ignored.
What is that supposed to mean?
Should i have asked?
Should someone have explained it to me?
A Word that meant nothing to me, but revealed everything to the Person across from me.
A certain past makes you unattractive, you become cautious.
When you feel Like it doesn't matter what happened.
Then it makes a lot of Things easier.
But the fear remains.
So many Words in the Messages that Said
"Youre Safe with me"
All These Messages did was bringt us Close together.
Bringing me closer to someone Who was willing to Love me.
Me, Not my past.
As a Straight Woman, Dating Lesbian without knowing it, this was a First for me.
It confused me.
What does she expect?
Whats going to happen?
Is what i can give enough for her?
Exitement, Trambling Hands.
And all because of a Woman i dont know.
But than non of that mattered anyone.
Just the two of us.
Our First Date was a lovely Day.
We had so many Things to Talk about and laughed together.
The commons connected us.
Then the question of why i am alone.
My Explanation was sincere and direkt.
She had known for a Long Time that i'd never been with a Woman before.
Her ganze, full of pride, full of longing.
She held Doors Open, for me.
Held my Hand, for me to help.
There was still a little distance between us, yet it fehlt so Close at the Same Time.
That Day, i think i met the Most manly man of my life.
A real Man.