The Outer Mind

A galaxy; enjoy your time stargazing. Be safe.

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25th of February

I’m grateful for another 25th of February. Means I still have another year to live, a breath to breathe. If I look back to this date 2 years ago it’s totally different. Alhamdulillah for 29 years, Allah. You are The Greatest, The One that I always ask for, for anything. May 29 look good on me, may 29 be the year of answered prayers, aamiin.

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First Anniversary

Hi again! I really meant to talk to you soon, lol. That’s okay being cheesy once in a while, isn’t it? Since I have too many photos on this day last year (!!!) let me do share you 3 collages (only) (do people still use collages these days or is it just me?).

Akad & Resepsi

Here is my extended family

Thanks to my girls for walking down the aisle with me (ciyehhhh aisle~)

Lots of love from me. - RZ

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HELLO AGAIN!

Oh hi, there! It’s been a while. I haven’t seen you in like.. 3 years? Crazy! What did I miss in the last 3 years? Wait, now I’m looking back my writings back then.

Asli emang gue sok keminggris ya banyak nulis inggris padahal belibet wkwk. Jadi sekarang karena era-nya Anak Jaksel jadi di-mix aja ya tulisannya which is easier to be understood gaksiiii. Jujur untuk memulai nulis ga jelas ini, gue harus flashback sama isi postan gue yang dulu. Ga apal juga karena gue ga liat sampe post paling awal (ya kurang kerjaan sih) ternyata isinya (kayaknya) mostly tentang jalan2, sedikit galau, makin ke sini sambatin kerjaan. Yang ternyata 3 tahun setelahnya hal yang menetap masih aja sambatin kerjaan. Ya Lord :”“

I’ll give you an update what life has made me in the last 3 years (like someone really cares reading this post). Life was (and has been) so mysterious I cannot understand how it works, sometimes it’s funny, and mostly it is scary. I was involved in another 2 projects since the last time I wrote here, which landed me to the east part of Indonesia for a year. To be exact, for a splendid year. The time I will never forget and will cherish forever. I met new people, gain new experiences, upgraded my skills, and unexpectedly met my significant other (cielah), married to him in 2 years after we first met. And today is our first anniversary! (23rd of November). Marriage, the thing that I couldn’t foresee in my college years, lol. A year is surprisingly feel very short, because we’re still LDR. I wish the Project will finish soon so we can stay together in Jakarta without months being away! I do really hope our wishes will do come true in the next years, aamiin!

But life was not always full of unicorns, I was in my lowest point 2 years ago. My darkest years, filled with hopes and tears. Now I’ve been recovering and will get back stronger than before.

Now, it is 2020. No one has ever guessed that life would be this miserable. In January, world was attacked by this virus called COVID-19. I always love sci-fi movies, especially movies related with new virus that attacked the world, now I feel like I’m in it. Almost a year isolated at home and limited to go outside. If we do go outside, a health protocol must be done. Million people had died. Million people struggled. And I am also struggling not to procrastinate, lol. For months I felt like I am useless, not worth it, and feel anxiety. People said that it is one of those effects from quarantine at home.

Whoa look what I have wrote in just 20 minutes. I miss writing in poor grammar! I do really miss writing in here. I do miss travel, too. In 1,5 months it’s going to be 2021. I really don’t know how 2021 is going to be. Is it going to be fun, too hard, or just the same as 2020? Thing that I do hope is: I feel that I am worth it, and everything will be okay :)

Talk to you soon. Take care. -RZ

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Namanya manusia pasti buat kesalahan. Tapi kalo ada manusia buat kesalah terus terusan, itu Raih namanya.

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"You look like wonton dumpling"

A friendly reminder that my friend is actually can be that foolish. #PostProjectSyndrome

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Februari 2017: Gue yakin orang yang ngebantu urusan orang lain akan dipermudah juga urusan dirinya sendiri. Terus kenapa masih ada juga yang congkak banget dimintain tolong? Padahal di atas langit masih ada langit, ini nyampe di strata langit aja enggak :(

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“When the night keeps you from sleeping Just look and you will see That I will be your remedy” - ngantuk ya bruh

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"She's happy you're here" The f I heard???

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I have a personal statement to define that every bad day will make you think like "I've been there" / "I've been worse than that". That will make you feel grateful because you're not as bad as THAT now. A concept that I am applying to everyday life (does that mean my life is full of bad days?). But since every concept is easier said than done, that will never happen. Because I always feel that every bad day has always been the worst. Not to mention that I wish the world will gulp me whole, or I could've disappeared like dust and no one will notice that I ever existed. It's the new topic of my mumbling-thingy: the series of unfortunate events. Welcome, 2017! Swallow me whole like your favorite candies.

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December

I wasn't born on this month neither celebrate christmas, but I just love when December comes. It's a month of joy, excitement, wonder, hope, and everything else. But most of all: there are lots of good friends of mine having birthday on this month. I'm excited to wrap gifts. To my favorite people that have birthdays in December: happy birthday! Happy birthday for those that far away from home and should go to work in this festive day. Am super proud to your loyalty (and a little bit envy cus I want to be a Capricorn too! #random) if only I could, I want to be there to celebrate your birthdays :") Happy birthday and have a superb end of year 💕

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"Jangkrik masuk koran!"

Duh dedeq bangghaaaa 💕

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Kirain cuma sinyal yang bisa ilang-timbul, kirain cuma gojek ke rumah yang mahal. Eee ternyata perutnya maju. "Kamu teh pucuk aku coca cola, rindu menusuk, ketemu la" - andinalay #iyainaja

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You might judge a book by its cover. I'm going to judge it by how it delivers the foreword. This piece might be good, I think.

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Yes, Penguins are a choice of decent books. Can't argue with that. But for the last couple years, when money become one of my problems (always will) I've chosen ebook as my company. So when you come to me showing this last page of book you're currently reading, I'd say: whatever you like - trust your taste. Because one simply can't enjoy reading a book that doesn't suit his genre. For me, I'd personally go with something magical, not a serious one. Life's been tense, why so serious?

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"Please come back"

The least thing I want to hear today. Just because.

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May 2016 Trip #2

Hi! It’s a long overdue post. Let’s continue the story with K and I last May.

Second place is Thailand. We visited a small city named Hat Yai by bus from Kuala Lumpur (a one great bus trip!) for more or less 8 hours (I forgot how long it was). Hat Yai is a small city, not crowded, and no public transportation except Tuk Tuk. Hat Yai’s Tuk Tuk is a little different from Bangkok’s Tuk Tuk. Soalnya bentukannya kayak bemo wahaha.

Singkat cerita, mampir ke Hat Yai mau liat patung Buddha yang besar kalo katanya Trip Advisor. Namun kami terdampar di kuburan yang ternyata sebelahnya ada patung Buddha besar di komplek sekolahan, ternyata abang Tuk Tuk nya ga sefrekuensi :”)

Hi, buddy!

That’s all from Hat Yai. Now let’s go to the airport by Tuk Tuk to fly to Bangkok. Off we go!

ps: here comes one of my favorite snack ever since that trip.

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"Bet you thought you were all gonna grow old together, sittin' around the table at Sunday dinner...doesn't work like that, Rick" - Negan. Still can't move on from this episode. It's sad yet happy to finally meet again with John Winchester. That familiar face who died on SPN at early season. I regret the emotion to see you died, now I hate you for innocent kids that you killed. Because I DID picture them eventually sitting in a district that they haven't been discovered yet. You failed me, sir. You really did 😭