" Alicent died alone in a cell below the Red Keep after contracting Winter Fever, Her last words spoken to her septa were about her desire to see her children again"
Warnings:Β NON-CON,Β DUB-CON,Β pr*stitution, power imbalance, classism, mentions of death,Β jealousy,Β humiliation, revenge p*rn, drug dealer!Rafe, drug use,Β Pogue!reader
summary: You and Rafe are using each other until you decide that's not what you want anymore, and the spoiled rich kid will do whatever it takes to have his expensive toy back in his bed.
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Your door shut behind you with a resounding click, and once in the comfort of your home, you took the time to decompress. You took advantage of your much needed reprieve, the back of your head grazing the wood as you allowed your eyes to fall closed. Your heart was still beating wildly in your chest, and you wondered if a day would come where it ever wouldnβt. After all, this wasnβt exactly βnewβ anymoreβ¦
It had been five months since you buried your mom, five months since you discovered the mountain of debt sheβd done an impressive job of hiding from you, and five months since you thought youβd be homeless on the street in less than one. In two weeks, youβd dealt with a loss you didnβt think youβd have to for at least another forty years or so and took on the kind of responsibility you didnβt think youβd have to for at least another three.
Your mom died 152 days agoβ¦
β¦and youβd started fucking Rafe Cameron less than a month later.
You liked to pretend to not know why you slept with Kildareβs prime rich boy that fateful Saturday night, but you were far more self aware than you wanted to be. Even if you werenβt, it wasnβt exactly some mysterious string of decisions that lead to being tangled up in the sheets with Sarahβs asshole of an older brother. You didnβt need to pay someone to diagnose you.
You were grieving.
It was really just that simple, and the monetary stress on top of that drove you to find comfort in strange drinks and hard drugs. To this day you still didnβt know if Rafe just happened to be at the right place at the right time or if he heard whispers about John B.βs best friend snorting pills and getting shit faced when her usual crowd was looking the other way, but either way, the stuffy Kook clearly saw an opportunity to kill several birds with one stone.
βFirst two lines are free,β heβd told you that night, the bass of the music downstairs muffled by the expensive walls of some girlβs house.
You remembered how youβd chuckled, drunkenly shaking your head.
βWell, two lines is all Iβm doing, I guess,β youβd murmured, throwing your hands up.
Rafeβs smirk had been cruel, a mocking glint in his blue eyes.
βWhat?β heβd dragged out, head tilted. βSpent all that life insurance money, already?β
Any other time and Rafeβs insensitivity mightβve upset you, but at the time youβd been drunk out of your mind and looking for more ways to forget the sudden absence in your life.
βI canβt imagine why Sarah hates you,β youβd sarcastically replied, approaching the impressive desk and leaning over to inhale a line.
You wiped your nose as you straightened, lashes fluttering as you ignored the feeling of Rafeβs gaze on you.
βIβll be lucky if I even have a house to live in next week.β
The words had come out slurred, accompanied by a light chuckle, and deep down youβd felt the flutter of stress that youβd been desperately ignoring for weeks. Youβd quickly snorted the other line, closing your eyes for a moment.
βTurns out my mom was skilled at hiding more than just illnessesβ¦β
You remembered the silenceβfrom both you and Rafeβand how in that moment youβd allowed yourself a solid four seconds of lingering on the reality of your predicament. In those four seconds, your eyes had watered and your lips had trembled and your throat had tightened, and after those four seconds, you were turning to Rafe with a haughty smile.
βGuess you wonβt be finding a new client in me, huh?β youβd wondered with a shrug, finding a seat on the desk.
Rafeβs blue gaze had been unreadable as he eyed you, sitting in the chair at the desk, legs spread as he ran his eyes over youβslowly and in a way you didnβt hate at the time. You hadnβt been able to tell what he was thinking, although looking back, you wondered how it wasnβt so obvious to you then. Maybe because it was just too cruel of a thought, and while it was no secret Rafe was a spoiled asshole, you had never once thought of him as cruel.
Rafe had merely shrugged.
βThereβs plenty of fish in the sea,β heβd slowly said, the corner of his pink lips curving upwards just a tad. βBesidesβ¦β
Youβd watched him stand, rounding the desk to come and tower over you where you sat.
βI like to think of myself as a pretty ethical kind of guyβ¦β
Youβd started to snort at that before his gaze met yours again, and you found yourself swallowing whatever you were about to say. You hadnβt done a thing when Rafe reached up to touch your arm, the feel of his finger so light. You hadnβt wanted to acknowledge the way your heart skipped a beat at both his close proximity and the change in atmosphere. You hadnβt been able to ignoreβhoweverβthe heat that settled in the pit of your stomach.
β...and Iβve been known to meet people halfway. Accept whatever they can offerβ¦β
You remembered your internal conflict that night.
Youβd been drunk and high and sadβ¦not stupid. You knew exactly what Rafe was insinuating to you, and youβd struggled with the idea of really sleeping with Rafe Cameron for more drugs. The man was far from unattractive, sure that if drugs werenβt involved youβd still consider sleeping with him. If youβd believed in any of that, youβd imagine that your mom was turning over in her grave. At the time though, you hadnβt been quite sure as to what you believed in, so when he took your silence for consent, leaning in and touching your nose with hisβ¦
You hadnβt stopped him when he closed the distance.
You hadnβt even known whose house you were at, only internally apologizing to them for having sex on their expensive desk. You didnβt know if it was the drugs or the alcohol or simply Rafe Cameron, but it was easily the best sex youβd ever had in your life, and at one point youβd really considered how much better it could possibly be to fuck him without the condom.
You had no idea that youβd eventually find out.
Once dressed, youβd walked home with a small bag of pills and a satisfied grin. You knew that your friends would host some kind of intervention if they ever found out, but all youβd been able to focus on was the simple fact that fucking Rafe Cameron for a little coke and pills wasnβt sounding like the worst idea. Of course, if youβd known that youβd eventually start fucking him for your livelihood, you mightβve made different choices that night.
You pressed your hand to your face and pushed away from the door, eager to start the shower and scrub the stench of him off of you. Per routine, you took the money out of your pocket before getting undressed, eyeing the wad of one hundreds that now sat on your nightstand. Two grand was nothing to someone like him, but to someone like you, it made all the difference in the world.
β¦and Rafe knew that.
Heβd known that when he handed you a thousand dollars one night, the coke in your system just starting to hit. Youβd looked up at him from where you sat in confusion, hesitantly wrapping your hand around the money as you alternated between eyeing it and eyeing him. You hadnβt known how to feel about it, especially since it had only been moments ago when he was inside of youβ¦and there he was handing you a grand in hundreds.
βDonβt look like that,β Rafe had chuckled, walking to his dresser in search of a shirt. βYou know you need the money.β
He wasnβt wrongβ¦and that was the problem.
Unless you hit a lucky streak in life, youβd always need the money, and that was exactly why you were in the predicament you were inβfour months later and putting up with the monster that was Rafe Cameron just to keep a roof over your head. The thought brought tears to your eyes, positive now that your mom could see you and was beyond disappointed in you.Β
Her disappointment could only be outdone by your own.
You were in a situation that you couldnβt get out of, on the verge of ending this arrangement so many times before asking yourself what better way could you pay your momβs debts and survive? It wasnβt easy money by far, but it was fast money, and it was the kind of money that would take months to make at whatever low paying job youβd find around Outer Banks. Someone like you rarely got hired at the country club or working for some rich snob who wiped their ass with the kind of money you needed.
Rafe knew this too.
Tears kissed your eyes as you scrubbed your skin raw, wishing that you could scrub away the nasty bruise right along with the sweat and grime. You winced every time you touched it, cursing the blond and feeling one of those moments where you considered blocking him and moving on from this pathetic era in your life for good.
Fucking Rafe Cameron for drugs didnβt seem like a bad idea at the time, fucking him for money seemed like an even better oneβ¦until that entitled attitude started to extend to the woman he was paying good money to have access to. You remembered the first time you opposed something he wanted to do, the way in which he ignored you, the way he merely pressed your face into the pillow to shut you up.
It was the first time you felt truly icky about this whole situation.
Not even just icky.
β¦but afraid.
βI donβt pay you to tell me what you will and wonβt do in bed,β heβd chuckled at you like it was the funniest thing heβd ever heard.
Youβd still been trembling and wiping mascara from your cheeks.
βI pay you because I want to fuck you,β heβd slowly whispered to you, leaning in. β...and you let me because you donβt want to be sleeping on the beach.β
Heβd held your gaze for what felt like too long, impressing upon you the true dynamic of this arrangement, and you remembered the unease that had festered in your gut that day. Maybe all the drugs and alcohol hadnβt allowed you to fully look at this arrangement for what it was and the power imbalance here, but you had for the first time that day, and you hadnβt liked it.
You liked it even less now, wrapping the towel around you and wondering how you were ever going to get out of this predicament youβd put yourself into.
βMy familyβs going out of town for the weekend,β the familiar blond mumbled to you as he inhaled a familiar powdery substance off the back of his hand. βPack a bag when you get home, and Iβll pick you up tomorrow night.β
You resisted the urge to roll your eyes at that, huffing instead.
βI canβt spend the whole weekend on Figure 8,β you told him. βI have plans.β
Rafe nodded, and you hated the smile that danced across his lips.
βOkay, uh, be ready at 8, I donβt want-.β
βRafe, Iβm serious,β you cut him off, shrugging. βI canβt stay at your house all weekend.β
You watched him watch you, slowly swiping his tongue between his lips as a frown started to take over. His dirty blond hair kissed his brows, and the longer the silence stretched, the more nervous you grew. You watched as Rafe glanced away, seemingly deep in thought before those baby blues of his rested on you, much colder than they were a few seconds ago.
βWhat the hell am I paying you for?β he whispered.
The question was rhetorical, and you swallowed.
βRafeβ¦Iβve barely seen my friends in months. I finally made plans to meet up with them for more than five minutes and-.β
β...and whose fault is that?β he shrugged.
You frowned at him.
βNobody told you to go off on a bender when your mom kicked the bucketβ¦β you blinked at his callousness. βMaybe you shouldβve been finding comfort in your friends instead of drugs and vodkaβ¦and me.β
He finished his sentence with a softβand yet cruelβsmile.
βI pay you good moneyβgreat money even!βto be available when I want you to be, and unless youβve found some other rich asshole to open your legs for, which I doubtβ¦be ready tomorrow at 8.β
He was standing, now, looking down at you where you sat on the bed. The harsh reminder of your roles here had you looking away, and Rafe turned away when he rightfully took your silence as confirmation. You stared at the wall for a few moments before turning to stare at his back, thinking to yourself that this couldnβt go on much longer. Whether it took 1 or 5 jobs, you couldnβt keep relying on Rafe Cameron forever.
What was once a weekly occurrence had turned into something entirely other, and it hadnβt bothered you so much when your motherβs death was still so fresh and you were seeking solace in the worst coping mechanisms known to manβincluding isolation. Now, however, you were waking up to the choices youβd made and you hated the feeling of being inebriated and being surrounded by people you barely knew.
You hated being away from your friends.
βI didnβt even know youβd gotten a job,β John B. said to you hours later, looking disappointed but understanding. βJJβs gonna be real disappointed. Heβs been talking all week about having you try some new weed he got.β
You gave a light laugh at that, a pang in your chest at how much you missed doing stupid shit with them.
βYeah,β you sadly said. βThe worldβand billsβdoesnβt stop just because my mom died.β
The brunette grew quiet at that, worriedly eyeing you now.
βYou doing okayβ¦?β
You sighed at that, looking out over the yard of The Chateau, fiddling with your fingers as you thought of a certain blond.
βIβve been better, butβ¦Iβve been worse too.β
Your answer was honest, and you briefly wondered what John B. would think if he knew just how bad βworseβ had been. You didnβt think any of them would hate you if they knew the full extent of just how far youβd fallen, but you knew theyβd have a hard time wrapping their head around it. The drugs and alcohol were one thing, but Rafe Cameron was entirely another. The man was the worst example of a Kook if there was one, representing every bad trait attributed to them.
Your friends would not understand you essentially sacrificing your self respect for money and drugs.
Sometimes you didnβt understand it either.Β
Most especially when Rafe had his hands around your neck.
He picked you up at 8 on the dot Friday nightβa man of his word if nothing elseβand less than a hour later you were bent over his fatherβs desk as he pounded into you. Your head was hanging off of it, fighting hard to not scrape your nails against the dark mahogany. It wasnβt the first time Rafe fucked you on Wardβs desk, and you doubted that it would be the last time. Thereβd even been a few rare occasions when he fucked you in the older manβs bed, and you didnβt know what complex the blond had that fueled these decisions, but you werenβt a psychologist so you figured it wasnβt anything to concern yourself with.
Despite the tight grip on your throat, a choked moan managed to escape every time Rafe pushed his cock into you. Sweat made his skin glisten, and you were sure you fared no better. His hair wasnβt so neat, now, and you had the stray thought that you preferred it that way. Rafe being so far from ugly definitely made this arrangement easier to swallow down at times, but other times it just made you angry.
How was it fair that someone seemingly had everything, including the big dick to match?
Rafe walked around like he was Godβs gift to the world, possessing one of the most rotten personalities youβd ever had the pleasure of being on the receiving end of, and he seemed to be rewarded with it with everything the average person could only dream about. As if any of that wasnβt enough, you practically rewarded him with even more by essentially telling him he could do whatever he wanted so long as the price was right.
It made you disgusted with yourself at times.
When he pressed a hand to your stomach, hips slowing to a pace that made your breath hitch, you squeezed your eyes shut. In the quiet office, the sound of his cock disappearing between your folds was loud, the wet noise telling you that thereβd no doubt be a mess left on Wardβs desk when this was all said and done. You heard Rafe curse, and you didnβt have the energy to lift your head from where it hung off the desk.
β...and to think,β he panted from above you. βYou were going to pass this up to sit around with those dirty Pogues.β
At this, you did attempt to sit up, a hand against his chest and one on the desk as he thrusted into you.
βThose βdirty Poguesβ are my friends,β you forced out, lashes fluttering. β...and clearly you forget that Iβm one too.β
Rafe merely chuckled at that, perfect teeth winking at you as he grinned.
βYeah, but youβre my dirty Pogue so itβs a little different.β
His words had your frown deepening, disgust filling your chest at the way he talked about you while literally fucking you. Completely turned off, you turned your head away, attempting to separate yourself from him. That haughty laugh reached your ears, and to your dismay, he wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you closer.
βWhatβ¦?β he lazily drawled. βYou donβt like the sound of that?β
βYouβre being an asshole, get off of meβ¦β
He jerked his hips against you, making you gasp, and you squirmed in his arms as you fought to get away. Rafe leaned in to harshly nip his teeth at your cheek, his movements growing rough, causing the desk to shake.
βIβve spent too much money on you to not say whatever the hell I want,β he evenly said. βSo, yeah, at this point, Iβll confidently say I practically own you.β
Tears kissed your eyes at the disgusting words, and fed up with your resistance, Rafe merely placed a hand between your breasts before harshly shoving you back down. You winced at the action, but you had no time to fully linger on it as Rafe started to roughly plunge his cock into you, the sound of his skin slapping against yours reaching your ears. He wouldnβt allow you to sit up, both of his hands wrapped around your wrists now as he leaned over you.
This felt too reminiscent of the time heβd pressed your face into the bed, telling you to relax as he pressed the head of his cock just above where your folds were. You recalled the uncomfortable feeling and the tears that stained the pillow as he slowly fucked you in a place no one ever had before. The deja vu of it all had your mind wandering, eyes defocusing as you just waited for it to be over. It seemed like Rafeβs grunts sounded from above you forever, and when he finally came onto your stomach with a low moan, you didnβt move for some time.
You were slow to sit up as he got dressed, trembling as you steaded yourself for what you were about to say.
βI donβt wanna do this anymore.β
The words came out whispered, but in the quiet study, you might as well have yelled them. Rafe didnβt acknowledge you, and you knew it wasnβt because he hadnβt heard you. Frustrated with his refusal to take you seriously, you hopped off of Wardβs desk, angrily grabbing your clothes.
βIβm serious, Rafe. After this weekendβ¦this is done,β you continued, voice firmer, now. βDonβt call me or text me or worry about any more money. I canβt rely on you forever anyway.β
By now, Rafe was actually listening to you, and you avoided his gaze as you got dressed. His silence was loud, and when you were finally decent again, only then did you lift your gaze to glance at him. His visage was unreadable, and after some time, he merely blinked at you.
βIf I remember correctly, per your own words, your mom had enough debt βto file for bankruptcyβ.β
His words made you sharply inhale, and you bit your tongue as he ran his hands through his hair in a poor attempt to tame the damp locks.
βDonβt ruin your life just because youβre pissed at me,β he coldly added.
You crossed your arms over your chest, pulling your lip between your teeth.
βPersonal feelings aside, I canβt rely on you forever, Rafe. Thatβs just the truth. I have to figure something out eventually, and thereβs no time like the present,β your voice shook as he fixed you with an unnerving stare. βI miss my friends, and I donβt want to be the sad, damaged girl running to Rafe Cameron just so I donβt feel anything anymore.β
The blond followed your lead, folding his arms over his own chest as he leaned against the wall, staring you down with that annoying crooked smile.
β...and where exactly do you plan to find a job that pays you what I do?β
βThere are jobs, Rafe. Iβll find one.β
You didnβt appreciate his tone nor the look he was giving you as he studied you. He was looking down on you, and yes while that wasnβt exactly an unusual occurrence, this time was different. He was looking down his nose like he didnβt believe in you, like he expected you to be crawling back to him in no time, begging him to fuck you again.
After a few moments, that crooked smile curved even more, and you didnβt miss the glint in his eyes.
βWell, I wish you luckβ¦β
His voice didnβt match the words that came out of his mouth, and his gaze most certainly didnβt.
βI literally called this morning and was told over the phone that you all were hiring...and now I get here, and Iβm being told youβre notβ¦?β
You tried to keep the skepticism out of your tone, but your frustration at your predicament was bubbling up and threatening to be unleashed on the lone man before you. The inside of the country club was practically emptyβa slow Tuesdayβand you briefly glanced around at the two staffers in the whole room. Sure, you could write it off to a slow day that didnβt need a full staff, but something in you told you that it was more than that.
You didnβt believe the man in front of you.
βLook, I donβt know what else to tell you, miss. Whoever you talked to got it wrong. Iβm sorry for the miscommunication on our end,β was his only explanation.
You didnβt dare bother to point out that both he and whoever youβd spoken with on the phone sounded damn near identical.
When it became obvious that this conversation was over, you turned away with a small huff, breezing outside to a familiar dark car. Kie was standing by it, arms uncomfortably crossed over her chest, glaringly obvious that sheβd rather be anywhere but here despite being from βhereβ.
βWellβ¦?β she wondered as you got closer.
βTheyβre not hiring,β you mumbled as you slid into the passenger seat.
She joined you inside the vehicle a moment later, a frown on her face.
β...but you called.β
βI know.β
There was a beat of silence before she scoffed, reaching for her door handle.
βIf this is because you arenβt some rich snob looking for play moneyβ¦β
She trailed off when you spoke up.
βNo, I donβtβ¦I donβt think itβs that,β you stopped her. βLetβs just go.β
She eyed you for a few moments, frown deepening.
βAre you sure? Y/N, this is like the fourth place youβve been to today,β she pointed out. β...and I donβt want to add my stress to your stress, but itβs kind of fucked up.β
You didnβt have the heart to tell her that it wasnβt possible for you to be any more stressed than you already were, simply signaling for her to drive. You could feel her eyes periodically landing on you as she did, and you chewed on the inside of your cheek, wondering why the universe had it out for you.
It had been weeks since youβd last seen or talked to Rafe, weeks since you ended your little arrangement, and weeks since youβd had a consistent source of income. It wasnβt a pretty nor respectable way to make money, but youβd been making money nonetheless. However, you couldnβt find it in you to continue sacrificing your self respect to keep sleeping with Rafe Cameron. Youβd also been telling the truth when you told him you didnβt want to be this messed up sad thing anymore.
You had long let go of the drugs and cut back on the drinking, and now youβd dropped Rafe too.
Youβd had hopeβ¦but now it was dwindling.
No one would hire you. In fact, no one had even allowed you far enough to officially apply just to get a foot into an interview. It was always the same. Youβd call ahead so you didnβt waste your time, theyβd tell you they were looking for people, and then the moment you actually showed up and introduced yourself, it was an entirely different story. It didnβt make any sense to you, and the thought of ever proving Rafe right made you want to be sick.
βHow bad is it?β JJ asked you a few days later, the both of you away and isolated in some corner of some guyβs party.
You looked down at the weak drink in your hand, contemplating on whether or not to be honest.
βItβsβ¦manageable.β
A whopper of a lie.
β...then why donβt I believe you? Come on, Y/N, itβs me. I know your mom wasnβt the best when it came to funds, and when she diedβ¦β he scoffed. βYou werenβt exactly in any shape to march down to anyoneβs job and fight for work just to keep things afloat.β
You looked away at that, throat tight.
βIβm honestly shocked youβve kept it up for this long.β
If only he knewβ¦
You felt his gaze on you as you wondered just how truthful you should be, but you reminded yourself that this was JJ. If he knew the full extent of everything, heβd be likely to rob a bank. Nevermind the fact that it would just make him ask more questions, like how youβd even managed to keep things afloat all this time. You didnβt think you could lie to him, and you didnβt think you could handle being on the receiving end of whatever look JJ would undoubtedly give you if you told him youβd been sleeping with Rafe to pay your bills.
You didnβt know if it was fortunate or unfortunate that the subject of your thoughts walked through the doors to prevent this conversation from continuing. His presence shouldnβt have shocked youβthe party was pretty mixed with people from all sides of the island after allβbut it still gave you pause, and JJ noticed.
βThis asshole,β you heard the blond murmur, rolling his eyes.
You were inclined to agree, and you shrunk in on yourself with your drink, unable to ignore the knowledge that Rafe was at the same party you were at. In the weeks youβd been free of him, youβd had time to really ponder on your dalliance, and while youβd long accepted your hand in your own life choices, it was now hard to ignore Rafeβs own opportunistic choices in the situation. Sure, yes, you fucked him for moneyβ¦
β¦but what did it say about him that he was perfectly happy to enter an arrangement in which he kept you off of the streets so long as you opened your legs for him?
If he was a good guy heβd justβ¦keep you off the streets.
Like JJ would if you ever told him the truth.
Youβd just decided to stop hiding in the bathroom when you came face to face with the man himself, heart skipping a beat at his presence. He was leaning against the wall next to the door, and you had the sneaking suspicion he hadnβt been waiting for his turn.
βHowβs the job search going?β was how he greeted you, and you hadnβt been able to keep the ire off of your face.
He softly laughed to himself at that, nodding.
βI figured youβd look a little something like that.β
βFuck you,β you breathed, and Rafe frowned, tilting his head to the side.
βYou were, remember? And then you stoppedβ¦and thatβs how you found yourself back at square one,β he reminded you.
The music traveled from downstairs into the dimly lit hallway, and you looked away from him just as he heaved a tired sigh.
βDo I need to apologize for calling you and your friends dirty Pogues? Is that what this is about?β he lazily wondered.
You didnβt dignify that with a response, and when you lifted your gaze, Rafe was rolling his eyes. He fixed you with a look, reaching up to touch your hair with a tsk.
βCome on, Y/N. You need meβ¦β
He leaned in.
βWe both know it, and youβre never going to find a job in this town.β
βYou donβt know that,β you fired back, slapping his hand away as you took a step away from him.
Almost instantaneously, Rafeβs entire expression morphed, and you swallowed at the shadow that passed over his features. His pink lips pressed together, and those blue eyes hardened in a way youβd never been on the receiving end of. You watched his nostrils flare.
βOh, trust me, I know.β
The combination of his tone and his expression and his words gave you pause, and your brows pulled together as you stared at him. For a moment, the music in the house faded into the background as Kieβs words came to your mind. βItβs kind of messed upβ, sheβd said, and while you hadnβt given that much thought to the statement thenβ¦you certainly were now.
βWhat did you do?β you shakily asked the blond, skin growing cold.
Rafe didnβt answer right away, and when he did, it was a lie anyway.
βI donβt know what you mean,β was all he said, one brow raised.
You felt tears kiss your eyes, and you felt silly for not putting the pieces together earlier. You didnβt know how, but somehow, Rafe had a hand in your lack of employment. It seemed exactly like something heβd do, but the only thing you couldnβt understand was why. Why do it? Just to see you fail? Just to feel like heβd won?
βLook, this little rebellious actβ¦itβs cute and amusing and allβ¦β he shrugged off with a small smile. β...but itβs silly. We both know youβre just going to end up right back under me.β
βYouβre such an asshole,β you hissed, moving past him.
βYeah, and you knew that when you let me fuck you for drugs on some guyβs desk,β he threw at you, making you flinch and slow down.Β
βI was going through things then, Rafe! I didnβtβ¦β you huffed a sigh, turning to glower at him. βI didnβt care about things I most definitely should have. Itβs different now.β
You threw your hands up.
βIβm different, now, and I donβt want to keep sacrificing my dignity and self respect just to keep a roof over my head. I donβt want to sleep with someone who views me and anyone like me as beneath him. It disgusts me, and unlike you, I have no interest in sleeping with people who I claim disgust me.β
You watched Rafeβs lip curl over his teeth.
βYeah, thatβs real respectable and noble and all, but I wonder how noble itβll feel when youβre being evicted,β he spat at you, moving closer. βYouβre not getting a job in this town, that I can promise you, so you keep this up for as long as you want to, but we both know how this ends.β
You leaned away from the finger in your face.
βI fucking own you,β he bit out, roughly grabbing your arm and yanking you close despite your resistance. βYou named your price, and I paid it-.β
βFor a service! Not a person,β you harshly whispered.
Rafeβs chuckle was cold as he stared you down, perfect teeth winking at you.
βYou think youβre the only girl in Outer Banks willing to spread her legs for some money? You think Iβd have to pay any of them half of what I paid you?β your stomach dropped at his words. βIβve been a lot more generous than you realize.β
He roughly let you go, practically shoving you away from him, and you stumbled. He eyed you with an expression filled with promise, and when you turned away to finally find your friends and hopefully leave, you descended the stairs on unsteady legs.
You pushed against Rafeβs arm and chest as he held your chin in a tight grip. The vehicle you were next to hid you both from view, everyone on the beach none the wiser to what was happening in the parking lot. Your feet tripped over one another as he forced you back, trapping you between him and the metal contraption.
βIs that what you came up with? You think that pathetic Pogue is going to pay your bills? Give you a place to stay when that eviction notice is taped to your door?β
βGetβ¦offβ¦of me,β you snarled, finally shoving him away with difficulty.
Your breathing was heavy as you glared at the blond, lips trembling and heart racing at the downright evil glint in his blue eyes. You glanced over his shoulder for any way to get away from him, your frustration growing as he moved closer.
βColor me curious, but is it somehow more dignified to fuck someone like JJ instead of me?β
The jealousy dripping from his every word threw you for a loop, and you werenβt in the right headspace to even linger on how strange that was.
βNot that itβs any of your business, but weβre not like that,β you drunkenly choked out. βI donβt know why you feel like I need to answer to you about my personal choices.β
It had only been thirty minutes ago that you were dancing with your friends. JJβever the flirtβhad gotten a bit handsy, but it was nothing unusual. He could get handsy with a tree, and youβd merely smiled at the behavior, ignorant to the heated gaze that was hyper focused on you. You hadnβt even realized heβd been following you when you went to get a drink from Haywardβs truck.
βButt out of my life already. Youβve already done enough,β you hissed at him, moving to get past him when he stopped you.
βWeβre not done talking-.β
His words were interrupted by your hand, the sound of the slap echoing in your ears, and heβd just harshly pushed you against the car at your back when a familiar voice interrupted you both.
βGet off of her!β
Kie was suddenly there, helping you in shoving him away, and she looked at Rafe like heβd lost his mindβlike sheβd bore witness to an even sinister side to him. The blond didnβt seem all that fazed by her presence, barely sparing her a glance as his jaw clenched, his eyes on you. Clearly he felt that whatever he was contemplating wasnβt worth it, because without another wordβbut not without a final scoffβhe made his way back to the party on the beach.
Kie wrapped her arms around you when you started to cry.
βAre you okay? Did he hurt you?β
What a loaded question, and you realized that the truth was just on the edge of your tongue. Unable to stop yourself, you threw your arms around her, collapsing under the weight of all your choices and what had led you to make them.
βKie,β you started, voice trembling in her ear. βI have to tell you something.β
If she was horrified by the truth, she didnβt show it much. You could tell she was shocked as the words tumbled from your lips, her brown eyes stricken and face draining of color. You didnβt know what bothered her moreβthe drugs, the prostitution, or that both involved Rafe Cameron. As it turns out, it was none of those things.
βWhy didnβtβ¦why didnβt you let us help you?β she tearfully wondered, looking between your eyes. βWe know how hard itβs been for you, and we wanted to be there for you, but youβ¦you just disappeared. You barely came around, and John B. heard things, but he didnβt want to believe them.β
She whispered that last part, and your chest ached at the thought of your friends hearing about your out of character behavior but feeling powerless to stop it, accepting it as part of your grief.
βRafeβs a demented asshole,β she finally spoke on the elephant in the room. β...and we wonβt let him win, okay?β
There was conviction in Kieβs voice, the kind of conviction that made you want to believe her, and so you nodded at her words.
She helped you straighten, wiping your face and taking you back to the party, quietly promising you that she wouldnβt say anything about any of this to the guys. She stuck to you for the rest of the night, and a week later, she made good on her promise, her parents shaking your hand as they welcomed you to their staff.
βWe could always use the extra hands,β Mrs. Carrera told you one Friday evening. βIt gets crazy busy, especially on the weekends.β
All the noise in the restaurant only validated her statement.
Youβd been working at The Wreck for a week, and while it was nothing like what Rafe had been paying you, it was a job. It was a means of earning your own money that didnβt involve lowering yourself to the likes of Rafe Cameron. It was grueling, sure, and you sometimes wondered if it was truly worth the money, but then youβd think of the alternative, and youβd decide that it was worth something and thatβs what mattered.
You hadnβt been paying that much attention when you approached your last table for the night, looking up from the apron at your waist and stopping in your tracks.
βHey, I didnβt know you worked here too,β Topper said, a fairly neutral greeting.
Topper may have been just as much of an asshole as his friends, but he at least played nice for the public. Your gaze traveled around the table, quickly looking away when it connected with a familiar blue.
βItβsβ¦a fairly new gig,β you finally said, getting your notepad ready.
βHey, if youβre going to use your friends for anything, might as well use them to become a productive member of society,β he told you, his tone now making you frown.
Opting to ignore the comment, you asked them what they wanted. You didnβt make eye contact with Rafe when he gave you his order, hand unsteady as you wrote it down. When you left them to go and get their drinks, you werenβt surprised to hear the scrape of a chair behind you. You were focused on rounding the counter, reaching for some clean glasses.
βWhat the hell are you doing here?β
You didnβt forget your last encounter with the rich blond, tempted to ignore his presence altogether, but you were unfortunate enough to know how Rafe operated. Pausing in your movements, you turned to look at him, not surprised at all by the unhappy look on his face.
βIβm working, Rafe. What does it look like?β
You eyed the way his jaw ticked, finger gently tapping against the counter as he simplyβ¦stared you down. You glanced away, realizing that he didnβt have any power over you anymore. No, you werenβt completely out of the woods, but you had a secured source of income, and youβd happily struggle and scrape over sleeping with Rafe ever again.
βGo find some other struggling girl to take advantage of,β you finally said to him, grabbing their drinks and making your way to their table without a backwards glance.
Working at The Wreck was hard work, and no matter how many shifts you covered and how many tips you got, it was still long and hard work for half the money Rafe had ever paid you. You knew this when Kie came to you about the job, but on the other side of it, you were so beyond grateful for it. You were still stressed, of course, your monetary problems not going away anytime soon, but it was the normal stress of the average working twenty-something.
It wasnβt the kind of worry that came from a violent and abusive lover.
Rafe had been by the restaurant a few times since that day, and each time was more nerve-wracking than the last. Sometimes you served him, sometimes you didnβt, but it didnβt really matter because his gaze always found its way to you either way. On the days when Kie worked too, sheβd ask you if you wanted her to do something about him, but you always declined.
After all, what reason would you have her give to her parents for kicking out the son of Ward Cameron whoβto their knowledgeβhadnβt done anything to warrant it?
Maybe you shouldβve listened to Kie though. While you didnβt know if that wouldβve changed things, you at least would have felt better about attempting to do something. Perhaps it was the mere sight of watching you workβwatching you earn money independent of himβthat made him snap, made him drop all pretenses completely. Barring him from the restaurant while you were there mightβve triggered some out of sight, out of mind response. It mightβve forced him to slowly get over whatever this thing was that he had about you.
It might haveβ¦
β¦and it also might not have done shit. Perhaps nothing wouldβve changed, and you still wouldβve found yourself tearfully staring at Kieβs mom as you took off your apron for the last time.
It was a normal Saturday when the texts and emails came through. The busiest day of the week, the most packed the restaurant ever would be for the next six days, and youβd been placing some fries down in front of some familyβs kid when the noise in the restaurantβ¦changed. You hadnβt been able to pinpoint how it changed, but if you did your best, it was like the chatters went from excitement about their food or whatever happened during the week to something else entirely.
One single thing that everyone was talking about.
You werenβt getting paid to mind your patronsβ business, but you started to think differently about that when the people at the table you were next to started to heavily eye you. The whole restaurant was loud with hushed chatter, so you couldnβt hear what they were saying, but the glances between the phones in their hands and you had you frowning.
You were slowly glancing aroundβrealizing that that table wasnβt the only oneβwhen you were yanked by your arm off the floor.
βWhat are you doing? Whatβs going on?β you worriedly wondered the moment Kie had you hidden from view.
The look on her face was hard to read, but her parted lips and wide eyes told you that she was horrified. She opened and closed her mouth a few times, seemingly unable to get the words out before slamming it shut, swallowing. The combination of her expression, her silence, and the lack of silence out there had a ball of dread forming deep in your gut.
βKie,β you softly said. βWhatβ¦whatβs wrong?β
It took her a moment to speak.
βItβs Rafe,β she softly said.
Your confusion only grew, still not quite understanding.Β
βWhat happened? Is he bothering you? Didβ¦he do something to you?β you hesitantly asked, fearful that your former tormentor had turned his sights onto your friend.
βNot to me.β
That simple sentence started to put the pieces together, and you turned your face towards the front of the restaurant, recalling the stares and whispers and listening to the excited chatter. Your skin grew cold, goosebumps erupting all over you, and that dread was long gone. It was instead replaced by nausea.
βHe sent everyone somethingβ¦β
βNo,β you heard yourself whisper.
β...a video.β
You turned to her with wide eyes, shaking your head in disbelief. Glancing down, you caught sight of her phone in her hand, and before Kie could stop you, youβd snatched it out of her grip. You moved out of her reach as she extended her arm, desperately trying to protect you, but it was too late.
You felt like you were weighed down by bricks as you stared at the two familiar faces on the screen.
It had to have been taken months ago, during one of the first few times youβd slept with him. You both were in Wardβs bedroom, and you remembered the day all too well, recalling the feel of his palm striking your skin and his voice in your ear before pulling your head down to his lip. Of course, it was that one and not one of the ones where heβd held you down and forced you to take his thrusts.
Your hand was empty, not even realizing when Kie had taken it back, simply staring into space at the memory of what was on that screen.
βY/N, when my parents find outβand theyβre going to find outβtheyβ¦β
Her words died in the air at the sound of footsteps behind you, and you flinched when you heard a familiar voice call your name. Mrs. Carerra didnβt sound happy, and her expression fared no better when you turned around. You couldnβt stop your tears from spilling over as she gestured for you to follow her further into the back of the restaurant. You knew what was coming, what Kie was trying to prepare you for.
It was what Rafe wanted, after allβ¦and heβd gotten it.
It was hours later when you were sitting with your back against your door, your phone turned off, overwhelmed by the influx of missed calls and messages from your friends. Youβd only gotten a glimpse at them before finding your head bent inside of your toilet. Every single one of them bar Kie were shocked, their horror and confusion clear as day through their words. Only Pope had eventually sent a text that asked if you were okay.
β¦and the truth was that you werenβt.
You were so far from okay.
Rafe had won, heβd gotten exactly what he wanted, and even though Mrs. Carerra had expressed sympathy for your plightβmore angry at the situation than anything elseβsheβd still had no choice but to let you go. Every other business in town valued the Cameron family way too much, and the only place that had been willing to hire you had been swayed by Rafe too in the worst manner possible.
It was well after midnight when your door shook from harsh knocks. You hadnβt moved in hours, just blankly staring at the wall, and you closed your eyes at the sound, positive it was one of your friends. You didnβt have the strength to face them, to answer questions and either break down or pretend you felt far better than you actually did.
You did, however, have the strength to face Rafe, your gaze lifting when his voice met your ears, demanding that you open the door.
His fist was still in the air when you swung it open, looking at him like he was something youβd find on the bottom of your shoes. He looked as put together as ever, completely unfazed by what heβd done. And why wouldnβt he be? This wouldnβt hurt his reputation and success in this town a bit. If nothing else, the video would have even more girls falling at his feet, but for some reason he didnβt seem to want that.
He preferred to force your hand instead.
βWhat is wrong with you?β you tearfully asked him, throat tight.
He didnβt respond right away, touching his tongue to his lip as his gaze roamed behind you.
βYou gonna let me in?β
Your eyes almost popped out of your sockets, and he gave a haughty laugh.
βItβs not like Iβve left you with much of a choice, now, have I?β
He sounded soβ¦proud of himself, and all you could do was cry as he brushed past you. He closed the door for you, noticing that you were struggling to move, and he kept his hand on the wood, his chest grazing your back as he pressed his face into your hair. You heard him deeply inhale, and you squeezed your eyes shut.
βI told you how this would end,β he whispered. βI gave you a chance to be smart about this.β
You went to move away from him, but his other hand shot out to grip your arm.
βYouβre the one who made things way more difficult than they needed to be.β he continued. βWe had a good thing goingβ¦and then you had to go and get sensitive and sentimental.β
When he forced you to face him, you kept your eyes on the collar of his shirt. The silence stretched as you refused to look at him, and you eventually heard Rafe heave a sigh. He let your arm go, and you watched him reach into his pocket, disappointed but not surprised by the roll of one hundred dollar bills he pulled out. When he straightened, he took your hand and placed the money in your palm, clasping your hands together.
A few more tears escaped when his fingers threaded through yours.
βDo you still feel like fighting this?β he quietly asked. βLet me know, right now, because I have all the timeβand moneyβin the world.β
He slowly pulled you closer.
βYou donβt.β
You shakily exhaled, reluctantly lifting your gaze to meet his own. You stared at one another for what felt like too long, and when he leaned in, taking your silence as defeat, you let him kiss you. It was a salty kiss, your own tears mixing in, but Rafe didnβt seem to mind, moving his lips against yours with a growing smile. His arm snaked its way around your waist, and the animalistic noise he let out told you just how excited he was to have you back under his thumb.
The couch seemed sufficient enough for him, bringing you both to it as he peeled your clothes off. You shuddered as the air hit your naked skin, thoughtlessly moving closer to his own body heat, and Rafe pressed a kiss to your shoulder as he laid you down. It felt like ages since youβd last slept with him, but you knew that wasnβt why you were trembling.
You were trembling because you finally realized you were sleeping with a monster. Before, Rafe had just been an opportunistic asshole to you. Rich, spoiled, selfish, the list went on, but now he was so much more than that. He was now someone whoβd raped you on more than one occasion, and who had proved that heβd do anything to make you completely reliant on no one but him.
How else could he ensure that youβd never leave him? Never have any other choices but him? Youβd eventually have to leave Outer Banks one day, you knew that to be true if you ever wanted a life independent of him, but that video could follow you around for the rest of your life, and very probably would.
When Rafe sheathed himself inside of you, stretching you out in a way that was regularly familiar to you, you gasped. The blond wasted no time in adopting a steady pace, fucking you hard against your couch, his fingers pressing into the arm of it. His grunts were soft in your ears, and despite your combined hatred and fear of him, you werenβt able to swallow down the whimpers that escaped your lips too.
You didnβt know what kind of hard on Rafe had for fucking someone he deemed so far beneath him, even more so to go through so much trouble of forcing you right back into his bed. You didnβt understand it one bit, and part of you never wanted to. You didnβt want to understand a thing that went on inside of his head, didnβt want to understand the thought process behind doing what heβd done to you.
His fingers scraped down your thigh before yanking you forward as he sat up some, looking down to where his cock disappeared into you. He was focused on the sight, lips parting as he panted from above you. He didnβt lean back down until your leg was over his shoulder, preventing you from moving much as he used you to chase his high, hips repeatedly curving against yours and forcing you to grip the couch.
βI missed this pussy so much,β he murmured, lips grazing the corner of your mouth as he spoke. βYou drive me crazy, you know that?β
You hadnβt before, but you did, now.
When his hand landed on your throat, it didnβt hurt, but his thumb applied just enough pressure to keep you alert.
βIβll stop calling your friends dirty Pogues if that makes you feel better,β he whispered, a gentle kiss from his lips to yours. β...but you still belong to me.β
summary: after a training accident, Aemond's wife takes care of him. In more ways than one.
tags: heterosexual sex, cowgirl, massage, hand job, cum eating, cranky Aemond is a good boy for his wife, mentions of the other members of the Green but not present.
Training accidents were as common as breathing if one wanted to master the sword.
If one wanted to hold a blade, then one must also be prepared to suffer its bite. Aemond was well aware of this. Even though it was just training, play fighting for the knights & instructors brought in from all over Westeros to teach the prince, he had been cut before. Nothing serious. Nothing like his eye. He wishes it had been. It would make this latest injury less wounding than the others.
A simple misstep, that was all. His own clumsiness was what put him in this bed. His leg wasnβt broken or maimed, but twisted in his fall, to the point that he could put no weight on it. Or at least that was what the maesters said.
2 weeks. That was the punishment for his own mistake. He was not to leave this bed save to relieve himself and the few moments a day he was granted to stand & test his legs progress. Each day was a new torment. Not for the pain, Aemond could handle that, but the failure of trying his leg and only have it betray him again & again. He wondered how his father did it all those years trapped in his bed. Aemond would have begged for death sooner.
βHusband,β the prince looked up from his window and thoughts of limping over to throw himself out of it, when his wifeβs voice came into the room.
One of his few constant visitors during his confinement. Helaena came to visit him but was busy with her children. Aegon only came once, to taunt him about his trip more than anything before he left and a back handed βget better Aemond the Fierce!β. His mother came as well but flapped between concern and scolding for his βrecklessnessβ. She was the only one who seemed genuinely concerned for him, though her concern was not needed. Aemond did not wish to feel more like an invalid than he already did. βWhat is it?β
βIt is time to change the bandage on her leg.β To keep it straight. To keep him bound, he thought with a spat, although Aemond arched a brow at the comment.
βWhere is the maester?β His wife was many things, but she was no practitioner of medicine nor magic.
She sighed. βDid you really expect them to come back willingly after last time?β Aemond pursed his lips.
Under the best of circumstances, Aemond was aware that he was not the most agreeable person in the realm. Could anyone really blame him? His existence had taught him over & over that it was better to lash out and cut first, lest you be the one who is sliced. Metaphorically, of course. He wasnβt a mad man like some of his ancestors. And attached to this bed the only weapon at his disposal was his words. He had cursed, jeered, and ranted, honestly uncharacteristic of himself, at the maester who had attended to his leg the day before and had the nerve to tell him his progress was splendid. If it was so splendid then why was he still in this bed? If he was such a great man of knowledge and skill, why hadnβt he healed him yet?! He should go back to whatever dung heap he crawled out of and beg alms for to the gods for wasting a fine Citadel education on an incompetent!!
The prince said a few more unkind things before he forbade any of them from touching him again. He did not think they would take him seriously.
βSo, they sent you to do the work of a common barrio healer since they do not wish to do their jobs?β
βI think it was more that they thought you wouldnβt scratch at me. More fool they then, hn?β
Aemond sunk further into his pillows, sulking. He doesnβt mean to scratch at her. He doesnβt mean to scratch at any of them, honestly. He just wanted to get out of his bed and go on with his life. To have the world move on around him, to grow weak and irrelevant in this bed, was the real punishment. βIβm sorry.β He apologized. ββ¦thank youβ¦for helping meβ¦β
βYouβre welcome Aemond.β
How quick she was to accept his apology. How quick she was to help him, already coming to his side despite his scratching, when he needed her. No wonder he was always aloneβ¦.
The prince did what he could for her as he raised his leg from the pillow propping it up and held it there while she unwrapped the old dressing. βAre you sure you know what you are doing?β It was not meant as a slight. Just a genuine curiosity on if she knew the proper way to wrap his injury.
His wife just chuckled. βYes, Aemond. Despite not wanting to come in here on their own, the maesters did instruct me on how to do it properly.β Cowards, he thought. βThere! All done.β
Aemond looked at his leg with his good eye and tried to flex at his foot. His nostrils flared at the persistent pain, but it was wrapped correctly. He was impressed. βThank you.β
βOf course. I want you healed as soon as possible as well.β Her hand reached for his on the bed and clasped it. βIn factβ¦I was told of another treatmentβ¦.one that might help with theβ¦circulation in your leg.β
βOh?β Aemond was curious about that. Trapped in this bed, his legs were not getting the work out that they normally would. Training aside, the walk around the castle was enough exercise for most lords. He hadnβt been able to go more than a few steps for days. His legs teetered between weightlessness and the sharp pricks of falling asleep all the time. βWill it improve my condition?β
βItβ¦.couldβ¦β She seemed unconvinced. Avoiding, even. But perhaps that was because the last person who made remarks about the improvement of his condition was threatened to be fed to Vhagar. βWill you let me try it?β
What was there to lose, he thought, and Aemond nodded before he helped her take off his lower bed linens so both his legs were bare. A small vial appeared out from her pocket, and she poured some of its contents onto her hands before rubbing them together and placing them on his leg. βJustβ¦try to relax for me.β
A hefty ask, but he does try. All he could do recently was βtry to relaxβ. βRest, my princeβ, βyou need time to healβ. It was all he had heard for the past days, to the point that any word close to βrelaxβ had almost the opposite effect on him. But for her, he does try. For her it worked a little. His shoulders finally untensing. Looking at her in the candlelight. Soft feelings swelling at the touch of her soft hands. βDoes it feel good?β
βYes.β He answered, almost without thinking. It did feel good. He didnβt realize how stiff his leg was until this moment.
Aemond let out a deep exhale. Not really a sigh, just the release of all the air in his lungs and tension built in his body. His eye closed as he laid back and let his wife work. They arenβt strong, but persistent. He continued to enjoy until he felt her hands shift up higher. Up his calf where his injury was to above his knee. βWhat are you doing?β
βWhat??β Her shocked face was particularly adorable in the soft light. Wide, wild eyes. Body frozen save for a soft tremble in her shoulders. βI..Iβm rubbing your leg. I told you.β
βMy injury is not there though.β He told her logically. Gaze still fixed on her for any kind of reveal.
βIβ¦I knowβ¦β Her hands shift to seem to want to move away from him, but she willed them to stay still. βI just thoughtβ¦maybe there was some other tension I could help you withβ¦.β
It was Aemondβs turn to be shocked, but he doesnβt show it on his face like she does. His wife was a lady. A demure, kind, noble one at that. Though she wasnβt nearly as boring & cow eyed as the other noble ladies on offer to him at the time of his betrothal, or so Aemond assumed as he didnβt pay much attention to any of them, boldness like this was not heard of in their marriage. She never denied him. Seemed fond of when they were together; or at least made all the right noises like she did. But it was always he who initiated such acts in their bedroom. To see her offer, and on offer, as he finally took in her appearance and the thin robe she had come to him in, Aemond would not deny that it was quite arousing.
Without another word, Aemond parted his legs further to give her room. If this was her intention, he would not deny her. There was a flush on her cheeks that bleed down her neck towards the V of her robe when he did this. Her resolve seeming to waiver, and disappointment started to drip into his chest at the prospect he may have ruined this too with his terrible attitude, but she continued.
The prince sighed. Gladdened to feel her hands on him again and closed his eye with a newfound desire for his treatment, now that he knew what was going on. βHigher.β
βHere?β
Her coquettish tone was a tonic to his ears. She was enjoying this. She was enjoying touching him and playing with him. His cock jumped as it filled fuller. More aroused by the fact that his wife truly did want him than her hands close, but not close enough, to his member. βHigher.β
βHere?β
Aemond opened his eye and genuinely growled at his wife. Though this game was amusing, enticing, it had been days since heβd found release. Being stuck in this bed did not really spur a person on towards desire. And though she laid with him at night like a good wife she had been spared from her βwifely dutiesβ for some time as Aemond was either still in too much pain from his leg, or unable to move it to perform the act, or in too bad of a mood to make the effort. Having her close. Feeling her touch. It was like the flood gates opened on a dam he had long since locked up and threw away the key on. βPleaseβ¦.β
His kind, noble, demure wife took pity on him, and also took his cock in her hand. Aemondβs head tilted back as he moaned. Her soft hands stroking his member from under his night shirt slowly, deliberately. She had touched him before, so she knew how he liked it, but honestly she could have touched him anyway she liked. Like a clumsy novice that first night they were together, and he still would have melted in her hands.
βDoes it feel good?β
βYes.β Again, without thought. But headier this time. More needy. He opened his eye to look upon his wife and found her staring at him. Those bright eyes darkened with desire. Heβd never seen it before; mostly because when they were together her face was either buried in his chest, or shoulder, or in the pillows. Aemond bit his bottom lip hard. Trying not to cum at just the sight of her.
βItβs ok.β She told him in a whisper. Like it was a secret between the two of them. βYou can let go husband. Will you let go for me?β
It was the softest command that Aemond had ever heard, and yet it forced him to obey more than any other. His back pressed further back into the pillows as his head tilted back again. His cock spasming in her hand as his seed leapt out from the tip. Covering her hand and perhaps getting some on her pretty robe by her knee. He would have to get her another one.
He opened his eye again after coming down from his high. Just in time to see her lick his seed off the palm of her hand. βWhat are you doing?β
βWell, the royal seed is sacred, is it not?β Her grin was soft, but mischievous. βWe should not waste it.β
Aemondβs hand darted out to grab hold of her arm and drag her down to him in a deep, needy kiss. Apparently the flood gates he thought were released earlier were in truth just a leak in the levees. This was when the dam broke now. The need he had for her burning so hot that he could almost taste blood at the back of his tongue, his blood was boiling so hot.
He tried to spread his legs wider to make more room for his wife, but when he moved, he was reminded (painfully) of his injury. βDamnit!β The prince hissed against his wifeβs lips. The throbbing in his leg almost in tandem with his cock.
βSsshβ¦itβs ok Aemond.β He wanted to bite at her soft words.
It was not ok! None of this was ok! He was injured, in pain, stuck in this bed, and now he couldnβt even fuck his wife! He felt useless. He felt angry. He felt humiliated not being able to do things as a man should, and he just wanted to get back to normal!
Before he could tell her any of this, however, his wife pulled back and removed her robe from her body. Mesmerizing in the fire light. No Valyrian alabaster, but still just as dazzling to Aemond. Shift discarded, his wife raised her hips and inched closer to hover them over his own. βThe maester said not to move unless absolutely necessarily.β He wanted to argue that laying with his wife was absolutely necessarily, particularly in this moment, but all his words left him on a moan as she lowered herself onto him. βSo you just stay there. L-Let me take care of you.β The little stammer in her voice as she started rolling her hips almost sent Aemond into a frenzy, but he endured.
He genuinely couldnβt move with her on top of him like this and his position on the bed. Though why would be want to? For the first time since his accident, Aemond was actually ecstatic to be stuck here in this bed. His wife lovingly impaling herself on his member. Riding him with skill just short of a dragon rider. If he had the wits still about him, he would have chuckled at his own joke. βDragon riderβ. As it was though he was stupid with lust. Dumb, witless, helpless at her mercy as she took from him everything and gave him back so much. He still had brains at least to return the favor.
His wife cried out when he reached up to cup her breast. The weight of them in his hands something he missed. Aemond does not get a lot of time to enjoy them, however, as his wife suddenly fell forward. Covering his body with her own. Hips still moving but at a much snappier pace with the depleted gap between them. He didnβt care though. His hands just repositioned themselves on her other mounds at her backside and pressed her to move faster.
βA-Aemond!β Her cries were his music. The tempo in which he set a new rhythm.
The wet sound of their sexes kissing along with their actual kissing fill the room, until it all stopped in one bright, shining moment of his wife shaking on top of him while her fists tried to fight his pillows and he spilled inside her this time.
He wished he could hold her like this for longer. Her weight a comfort, like a blanket, in his arms. But she rolled over onto his non-injured side to lay beside him. It was good enough. βDo you feel better now?β
Aemond looked down at her, having to turn his head completely as to not just look at her with the sapphire in his eye, realizing at last what this was about. Her idea of a good will effort. To lift his spirits and relieve his tension. Maybe keep him from trying to execute more of the maesters in the castle. βYes. Iβm feeling better.β
She smiled, then placed a soft kiss on his shoulder. βGood.β
The fingers from the hand around her own shoulders played with her hair as he stared at the ceiling. βWas this all just for me though?β
His wife looked at him with a perplexed look, but then realized what he was asking and blushed. She was smart enough to figure it out. βNotβ¦all of it. I did want you to be in better spirits butβ¦I have missed you.β
The corner of Aemondβs lips ticked up. Pleased, and pleased with himself. He did not think his sexual prowess was worth much compared to his prowess with a sword or strategy. But to hear that his wife wanted him, truly wanted him, was all the praise he would ever need. βSo, you came up with this idea to satisfy both of us, Δbrazyrys.β
βIt wasnβtβ¦.all my ideaβ¦β Aemond arched a brow at his wifeβs words. Curious now where she had got the idea from, as it had clearly come from somewhere. βAegon commented on your bad mood and how someone should βcheer you upβ. He gave me the idea, but the rest of it was all my doing.β
Aemond wasnβt sure which comment he was more shocked about. The fact that his brother knew how he was faring in his recovery, or the fact that he made lewd comments to his wife. He was battering between feelings of an odd sense of touched and white hot furry, but he decided to just let it go for now and enjoy his wife. βWell, thank you, regardless. In future I will try not to scratch at you while I am still confined to this bed. Lest you ask.β
She giggled when he kissed the top of her forehead. βAnd the maesters?β
βThey are on their own.β Idiots. βI make no promises on their safety, but I willβ¦endeavor to be of better character in the future.β At least not threaten to feed them to Vhagar. That seemed a reasonable adjustment.
love the genre "my pretty pookie queen rejecting n humbling down bad villian making them cry, pathetic begging for her while he asks her to join him n corrupt her like himself ! "
Ok I am not a Helaemond shipper neither anti but that balcony scene was so fucking delicious. They really pulled Darklina , Reylo, Anidala there ! Can't believe ππ
I have to say Ewan and phia killed that. The angst was so π³
I would be the first person I guess who might like and see helaemond more after second season. All praise Ewan and Phia for that.
Bye bye 'S1 ep7, ep8 Aemond' bye bye you were bigger than the whole sky !
My babymond you served too much cunt for your age. Hotd cannot hold so much cunt all together they were afraid of your power. They knew you would eat everyone up,,,,,,β€οΈ
Also my special boy episode 10 Aemond Targaryen, your unhinged scary goth boy aura will be missed, I will remember you scary mad villian laugh forever ! π₯° Bye bye
Bye bye S1 Aemond Targaryen πππ you will be missed. Hotd writers were too afraid of villianmond
He's awfully gentle - and perhaps that's what you hate about him the most. The way your tears reduce him to a shell of a man, the way he holds you tenderly, like glass about to shatter from the wind. The way he looks at you - like you're the only person in his small grey world that's made of moving, breathing flesh and fragile breakable bones and splash of incoherent colour all over your cheeks. The way his irises move with feral speed when the ring on your sharp, barking laugh fills the stuffy mold - infested air with life, and his heart all but throbs out of his chest when you push him away.
He holds you at night through the nightmares and the screams, refusing to let go as you fight with all your might to break free, but it's pointless. He knows you - he's studied you, every creek and curve, every dream and fright, every single thing that makes your being tick and purr and surrender. He speaks your language, despite your best efforts to remain hidden, to remain a mystery, he's managed to slice through the protective shield of your psyche, of your most intimate fears, and he's made himself at home in your arms.
It's odd - perverse even, you realize in rare moments of rationale, how used you are now to waking up with his warmth inside of you, nested neatly between your folds; whispering soft little nothings in your flushed ear. Keeping you at the realm between sweet dreams and bitter reality, making you question every fluttering touch, every butterfly kiss against your throat. You're not sure what's real anymore, hot, throbbing pressure pulsating in the middle of your core, the honey nectar dripping down your thighs, back arching in a pleasure - fueled spasm so erratic you're left breathless. Overwhelmed by ecstasy, followed by guilt - ridden shame in a ruthless cycle you have no hope of escaping anymore.
To think it used to be different all those months ago when he first took you in. You would scratch and bite, kicking at will - acting as crazy as possible in hopes he'd find you too difficult to keep. But alas, his gaze never hardened, lips mouthing words of adoration in respond to your countless insults.
"I hate you. I fucking hate you, y-you - you maniac!" You'd hiss through clenched teeth, sweat forming under your brows as your whole body stiffened before his naked figure hovering over you, strong muscled arms keeping you close to his chest in an awkward mockery of a hug.
"Shh, I know you're scared, my love." He'd caress your hair softly, running his fingers through your wet messy locks, cooing as if you're a cornered animal. "I know you're frightened, but I am not going to hurt you, precious. I love you more than you could possibly imagine. You don't know how long I've dreamt of embracing you." He'd press hot, feverish kisses down your collarbone, stroking your numb fingers until you eventually unclenched your fists. "Just like that, you're doing so good for me, angel, so fucking beatiful for me, just lay back and let me show how much I adore you."
You'd relax your hips slowly, keeping your eyes fixed to the ceiling - yielding to the inevitable, yet making a last pitiful attempt to hide the growing heat between your legs.
"You're so perfect, angel." He'd say, slowly undressing you. "I need to feel you against me. I hope you can forgive me one day - but here, before you, I am just a man. Without you my life would lose all meaning, I can't let you go. Forgive me. Love me, please."
And somehow deep within your heart, you wonder if you truly can.
Oh nooooo is Aemond's oral sex scene is reall happening ? These shots were from next trailer. Is this guy performing oral sex on him. These are those girls here too
I am so scared for how we are going to see Aemond ππ¬
[ warnings: incest obviously, oral sex, smut, fingering, the angst, degradation, role play, dirty talk ]
[ description: During a meeting of the Small Council, Aemond learns that his wife is feeling unwell. Fearing that these are symptoms of another pregnancy, he abandons his daily routine and visits her in their chamber. To his surprise, he does not find her there, but someone else. Sexual tension, dark, loving, thirsty Aemond.Β ]
Authorβs note:Β The events of this oneshot are part of the canon of The Fall from the Heavens series and feature the same characters. This oneshot takes place several years after the events of that storyline and can be read as a standalone story. I just came up with this idea and decided that's it, I have to write it. Ehhhhh.
* English is not my first language. Please, do not repost. Enjoy! *
My other works:Β Masterlist
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"Where is the Queen Regent?" He asked impatiently, surprised that, although it was not her custom, she was late for the Small Council meeting. One of the guards bowed his head and shifted from foot to foot.
"The Queen Regent requests that the meeting be held without her today, as she has been feeling unwell, Your Grace." He said.
He pressed his lips together at his words, driving his fingernail into the skin of his second finger at the thought that his wife was perhaps expecting his child again.
Seventh, he thought in disbelief, staring dully ahead.
That would be the seventh.
As many as she had promised him.
And what would happen next?
He tried to focus on the meeting and what each person was saying, however, he knew that he was involuntarily pushing for it to end as soon as possible.
Once everything was settled, he approached the Grand Maester, wanting to know what the situation was.
"Do you know anything about my wife's condition?" He asked coolly, frustrated by the possibility that he might have withheld such important information from him for some reason.
The man shook his head.
"No, Your Grace. I am surprised myself. The Queen Regent has not summoned me, so it is possible that her frail condition is due to some other cause." He said, making him feel discomfort in his stomach.
Although he always took part in sparring after the meeting, wishing to remain as skilled and agile in sword fight as he had been in all the years he had been king by his wife's side, this time he headed for their chamber.
When he stepped inside, he did not see her where he expected her to be, which was in their bed. He looked around the room, tense, the servant standing next to him bowed humbly.
"Where is my wife?" He asked, approaching the window overlooking the courtyard, thinking he might perhaps catch a glimpse of her walking between the cloisters.
"The Queen has left, Your Grace." The girl answered him. He furrowed his brow as her voice seemed familiar to him, but he wasn't sure why.
"Where to?" He asked, walking over to his desk to pour himself some wine and quench his thirst.
"She didn't say, Your Grace."
"You may leave." He replied, taking a few deep sips from his goblet deciding that she was probably hiding in the library for some reason. He set his goblet aside, impatient to hear that the girl had not moved from her place.
"Did I express myself unclearly?" He asked, turning to face her and froze, unsure if he had seen correctly or if he was slowly beginning to slip into madness from exhaustion.
The girl standing on the other side of his chamber looked at him before their gazes met, however, she lowered her eyes meekly to the floor when she sensed his surprise and frustration.
She had his wife's face, his wife's figure, his wife's voice but she wasn't dressed like her β her hair was pinned up in a braid around her head, her attire simple, consisting of a long-sleeved red bottom garment and a linen top gown belted at the waist.
"What?" He asked more to himself than to her, looking at her with wide eye.
"The Queen is not here, Your Grace." She said, looking at him again, something in her gaze from which he felt heat in his lower abdomen.
Her gaze was bright, piercing, familiar, but terrified at the same time.
Was it possible that a woman so confusingly similar to his wife had served in the Red Keep?
He swallowed hard, feeling the dryness in his throat, so he reached for his cup again and took a sip from it, looking at her intently.
"Have you been serving here for long?"
"For a few days."
"Mmm."
Perhaps that's why she doesn't know all the rules of good manners yet, he thought.
"If I say you may leave, then you are expected to leave."
She lowered her gaze and did something that betrayed her: her hands entwined with each other as she began to play with her fingers in a gesture of discomfort that he knew all too well.
Fuck.
It was her.
"The whole kingdom speaks of the affection you have for her, Your Grace. About the fact that she has already given you six children, although she is still so young. Perhaps she should rest from this duty." She whispered, looking down at her hands, not daring to look at him.
He pressed his lips together, wondering if she was implying something.
Was she tired of him and carrying his offspring in her womb.
"I could have your head for this insolence." He said, intrigued by what she was trying to achieve, what her plan was.
"You could have something else. While she rests." She confessed finally, the gaze of her bright eyes surrounded by dark lashes lifted to him.
He felt a shudder at her words, at the realisation of what she was suggesting, what she was aiming for, and his cock expressed a desire to participate in her idea, pulsing greedily in his breeches.
"Indeed?" He murmured, raising his cup to his lips, sipping the remainder of the wine from it, not taking his eye off her with a mischievous look.
She did not reply, standing still, her lips parted in an accelerated breath betraying that she was aroused.
"Very well. Come here." He said, stepping around his desks and spreading out comfortably in his chair, looking up at her from below. He set his cup down on the table as she approached him slowly, her gaze fixed on the floor.
"Kneel." He ordered.
She swallowed loudly and obediently sat on her knees between his legs, not daring to look at his face. He licked his lower lip involuntarily as he undid the buckles of his tunic with his long fingers, only to immediately slide them down to the fabric of his breeches, untying them with an agile flick of his wrist.
"Don't delude yourself into thinking I'll treat you like my wife. You don't deserve it." He scoffed in a trembling voice, feeling the chill of the chamber envelope his swollen erection, leaking with desire. Her gaze lifted to his manhood as she nodded, moving closer, the look of her innocent eyes rising to his face in anticipation.
"Open." He said, grabbing the base of his swollen cock, directing the throbbing, pink, wet head of it to her face.
Her lips parted in an obedient gesture as she leaned forward, her hands clenched on her lap. He tilted his head back, feeling the rapid pounding of his heart as her puffy lips slid its tip into her warm interior, her tongue giving him one encouraging, gentle lick.
"β fuck β" He breathed out, clamping his free hand in her hair, forcing her to take it all the way in, the head of his manhood bumping against the back of her throat with her quiet moan of discomfort.
She knew him too well, knew what drove him mad, what touch and where drove him to the brink of insanity.
"β quiet β you wanted it yourself β now suck like a good girl β" He gasped, watching with a wide grin as the fullest part of his manhood disappeared again and again deep between her lips with the quiet clicks of her saliva.
He squeezed himself tighter at the base, trying to find a rhythm with her, involuntarily rolling his hips back and forth, each time making her almost choke, tears of exertion running down her face one after the other.
"β only my wife deserves to swallow my seed β maybe I should come on your face? β hm? β would you enjoy that? β" He sneered, and she shook her head quickly and cried out, looking up at him with big eyes full of tears, whimpering as he quickened his pace suddenly, disappearing again and again deep into her throat.
Her beautiful face was all rosy with exertion, droplets of sweat on her cheeks and forehead, unruly strands of her dark hair stuck to her skin.
So pretty.
"β no? β then how about your tits β show me your breasts β" He exhaled, sliding out from between her lips to avoid coming too soon, taking a surprising amount of pleasure from this unusual act of their marital intimacy.
His wife drew in a loud breath, wiping her cheeks wet with tears, and reached up to untie her dress at the back, blindly undoing it. She looked at him with a look he knew perfectly well when she finally slipped the bright and red material off, showing him one of his favourite parts of her body.
She was so fucking wet, he knew it.
"β go on β I didn't let you stop β" He said coldly, and she leaned over him again, taking his fat erection between her lips with such commitment that he groaned, biting his lower lip so hard that he could feel the blood under his tongue.
"β good girl β just like that β fucking serve your King β" He growled, clenching his fingers in her hair, allowing her small hand to caress what was not fitting deep in her throat imposing a fierce, aggressive pace on her. She cried out loudly, clearly not able to keep up with taking a breath, making him stop in half-motion.
"β too much? β" He mumbled, stepping out of his role for a moment, but she shook her head, looking at him with affection.
He stroked her hair, his fingers sliding down to her face, his thumb running over the hot, moist skin of her cheek β her murmur of satisfaction ran in vibration through his erection, making him pulse hard between her lips.
"β just a little more β your King is satisfied and about to come β hm? β" He cooed, and she nodded, letting him do what he wanted with her mouth, thrusting his long manhood into her again and again with the greedy, deep stabs of his hips.
The warmth of her mouth, her tongue that ran over the soft skin of his erection swollen from his veins, her lips that clamped again and again on the thick head of it made him close his eyes, losing the urge to pull it out of her.
"β I changed my β f-fuck β fuck, gods, swallow β" He gasped out, panting heavily with pleasure, tilting his head back, feeling his cock begin to throb all over in elation, his wife whimpered when suddenly his spend spilled deep down her throat.
He looked at her with dreamy eyes, breathing through his parted lips, stroking her head, listening to the quiet sound of swallowing.
"β that's it β easy β you did well β" He praised her, and she took a heavy breath as he finally let her go, sliding his erection out from between her sweet lips with a loud slap.
She closed her eyes and pressed her face against his thigh, embracing it with her arms, trying to calm down after what she had done. His fingers roamed through her hair, his gaze fixed on her full of curiosity.
"β come here β" He murmured.
She looked at him sleepily and lifted herself up on trembling legs, however, to her surprise, he didn't let her sit on top of him with her arms around him, but turned her so that she was resting her back against his chest.
They both sighed, and her legs spread involuntarily to the sides as his broad hand rolled up the material of her gown, exposing her thighs, slipping under her smallclothes. While there his fingers sank into her silky, leaking folds, the fingers of his other hand embraced her neck, making her moan softly, tilting her head back.
"β only my wife deserves to be fulfilled β so how will it be? β" He whispered in her ear, placing hot, loud, sticky kisses on her red, welted sweaty cheek β her hand involuntarily wrapped around his arm while the other reached back into his hair for balance.
"β please, my King β" She mumbled pleadingly.
"β tsk-tsk β not like that β" He gasped, teasing her little spongy bud with his fingertip, playing with it gently, his other fingers trailing over her throbbing, moist slit.
"β ah β gods β Aemond β" She sighed, bucking her hips to the rhythm of his strokes, his fingers clenching warningly around her neck.
"β call me right or I'll tease this little cunt all night long, but you won't experience fulfillment, sweet girl β" He said warningly and felt her swallow loudly under his fingers, his hand between her thighs all slick with her sticky wetness.
"β husband β please, husband, please, please, please β ah! β" She mewled, clenching her hand in his hair as his two fingers burst into her hot, fleshy interior, pressing the spot hidden between her muscles from which she could see stars, while his thumb teased her pearl from the outside in circular, gentle strokes.
"β good girl β fuck yourself with my fingers β only my wife can use me for her own pleasure β" He gasped, watching with satisfaction as with a cry of pleasure she fell apart in front of him, reaching her peak β his hand from her neck clamped down on her breast, all swollen with milk, feeling her weeping cunt squeeze his fingers again and again, sucking them inside.
His once again hard erection pushed against her buttocks, delighted by what he had just witnessed.
Her hands closed around his, making sure he didn't let go of either her hot, leaking womanhood or her soft, plump breast.
"β what unusual idea did you come up with, hm? β is that the reason for your non-attendance at the Small Council? β" He sneered, placing tender, lazy, sticky kisses on her neck and cheek.
"β I've been thinking about it for a while β what it would feel like β and have you ever had fantasies of doing this to a servant β" She muttered, breathing heavily through her mouth, looking at him curiously.
He snorted under his breath and shook his head, sighing contentedly, spreading himself comfortably in his chair with her.
"β I didn't feel the need for it until it turned out that you could be one β I'm afraid it's not a question of role but of your pretty face β those big eyes of yours β" He murmured, grabbing her chin, turning her head so that she could look at him. She giggled sweetly at his words, her eyes lit up with joy and warmth from which he felt heat in his chest, a feeling he only experienced in her presence.
He hummed under his breath, pressing his forehead against hers, smiling in a way that was meant only for her.
For his wife.
"β if you wish, we can satisfy each other in this way, if you need to rest for a time from bearing me children β you have given me as many as six β" He said softly, wanting her to know that her sacrifice for their lineage, for the kingdom and for him was precious to him, and he held his gratitude for her deep in his heart.
She blinked and smiled comfortingly at his words, her fingers running over his cheek.
"β since Daeron was born, the deliveries have become easier for me β they're shorter each time, I already know exactly what awaits me β I promised you one more, didn't I? β" She whispered, and he nodded.
"β and then? β"
"β hm? β"
"β when you give birth to our seventh child β what will happen after that? β" He asked, and she amazed him by bursting out laughing.
"β it will be surely followed by another β as long as my flower does not wither β" She said, resting her head on his shoulder. He put his hands around her breasts, not wanting her to get cold, thoughtful.
"β our children already think there are too many of them β" He sighed and heard her snort at his words, amused.
"β they will be able to speak on the matter when they become parents themselves β" She replied, looking up at him, placing her hands on his. He kissed her temple and nuzzled his forehead against hers, closing his eyes, imagining how many more children she would bear him.
"β let's take a bath, wife β"
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