We have all gazed at the night sky amazed by the light shining so far away from us. Some of us have struggle to focus on the dimly lit stars knowing they to have purpose. Simply beautiful, is this vibrant painting god has given us to enjoy, We ponder the questions and wishes deep inside each and every one of us who becomes aware of this thriving brilliance that has been created.
What if each one of us is a star in gods sky? How would we appear in his ever knowing vision? Would you shine as bright as the north star or be dimly lit imitating the flickers that vanish into the darkness of the vast universe.
Have you ever noticed the moment you try to focus on that dim speck in the sky it seems to scurry away as if it were afraid to be seen?
I have, maybe I noticed those stars because I myself felt unworthy to shine. Afraid that GOD would notice me : my faults, fears, betrayals, weakness, I was brought to believing that god would punish me for wrong doings and or for not being strong enough to stand up for myself.
If I think or feel unhappy, afraid, confused, angry, worried, or dread, what comes next? Am I not like the dim lit stars that seem to struggle or hide from their greatness?
So if we come to that understanding that God is joy, forgiveness, hope, (just to name a few) and most of all love then wouldn’t this bring clarity, conformation that he wants us to shine brighter than the stars above with all that is love.
I have come to realize, that while hiding in my anger and believing that I was not worthy of God’s love. I was in fact creating my own punishment; my personal hell. Thus allowing myself to hide under the veil of darkness that only I had the power to create, keeping god from shining his love through me.
Think about this for a moment…
God wants to see his children full of great health, happiness, love and wealth. is this not what you would want for your children?
I came to believe that we are gods stars walking on the earth, I imagine god looking down upon the earth and seeing a few stars shining bright, and all these tiny little flickers trying to hide from themselves. By their own choices.
I’m going to sing…”This little light of mine I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let ME shine.”
Why would god take a part of his all knowing, eternal presence, and create any human being for them to experience pain?
Now I know there is pain in the world, Lord knows I have experienced a great deal of pain myself physical, emotional, and spiritual. Spiritual was the fight and confusion of why I see things or feel them. ( I was told this was evil ) However I have come to realize that with acceptance comes understanding.
Acceptance of my choices in all areas of life, my own actions and perceptions of the world and people around me. The moment I realized that everything that played out in my life was the way it is meant to be. For me to find my truth.The understanding of all the actions taken towards me and by me were simply to teach me. I did not have to let others hurt me, by what they said or did. Yet allowing the supposed superiority of my elders, and lovers, to be more important than myself, allowed in every negative emotions, thoughts, and action to flow into me, creating the world outside of me, to see this weak insignificant, scared creature. Which then attracted all of those like minded souls in to my life.
The reason for the struggle was the absence of understanding that I have choices to except what was said, done or implied by others. I was not a ball of clay that needed to be molded into what others wanted, but by my own manipulation to create what I see myself to be.
I do believe we are here to learn, I have been saying for years that life is our school. Life is what we make it to be. However I didn’t understand the lesson completely.
Everyone knows we have been given the FREEDOM of choice. “Free Will.“
My understanding of this means:
I have the choice or willingness to have bad, hurtful thoughts and act on them. I have the choice or willingness to accept and choose to stay in a hurtful, harmful relationship; with my mother, father, sister, brother friend, aunt, uncle or lover.(pick one)
I have the choice or willingness to bully myself with words, or ignore my physical health. I have the choice or willingness to believe and carry with me negative things that others have said or done to me. I have the choice or willingness to do something I truly don’t want to do or does not feel right to me.
I have the choice or willingness to show and receive love, to be kind, share a smile, lend a helping hand, to respect myself and others. I have the choice or willingness to except that I am worthy of all things, to know that I am a beautiful person. I have the choice or willingness to wake up happy everyday, to know what or whom I have in my life is best for me. I have the choice or willingness to have a job or career I am passionate about. I have the choice or willingness to know that I make a difference in this world. Simply because I am alive.
When I understood that everyone who has come into my life was there to teach me something about myself. A lesson to learn in order for me to grow, I simply let go of the anger, and the self pity. “You are retarded” turned into I am brilliant. “Stupid” into wise. “Ugly” into beautiful. “You will never amount to anything” turned into I am awesome. “You’re a fat elephant” turned into strong, spiritual and fit. Anything you have been told that is a negative please turn it into a positive. Feel the difference and hold onto what you truly are. You are the only you, no one in this world is like you, this in itself is amazing.
Find out what feels right about yourself and be just that. Your awesome, complete, wonderful self. You are a beautiful being, love yourself by finding your truth deep inside your heart.
Find you again. The you that feels complete.
Let go of the things you had to be in order to survive certain parts of your life.
Let go of the things you were taught to be in order to fit in.
This may have become a habit but it is not your true self.
Let go of all the emotions and actions that no longer serve you today in this moment.
Every human is at a different level at different times of our personal journey.
This I believe is why we connect with other souls. We relate to their lesson either because we have accepted our teachings or are learning our own lessons in what attracts us to another.
We see the greatness in others because it’s the reflection of our own greatness.
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