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Feelings I’m desperately fleeing
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Happiness that’s often fleeting
Feelings I’m desperately fleeing
It’s building inside of me
My heart feels so heavy
Burden I can’t seen to carry
I want to press reset.
I don’t know what to feel
Just the thought of falling out of love scares me... and it happened to me again. I have loved something for a really long time and now, I don’t feel the same anymore. Deep inside, I wan’t to continue but my heart can’t seem to hold on. No matter what I do, it doesn’t feel the same... It made me feel empty... It made me feel pretentious. I know I want to continue because I think it’s the right thing. But the other half of me says that it isn’t worth it. It’s scary that this thing that I used to love somehow made me feel uncomfortable and insecure. The environment just became so toxic and I couldn’t bear it anymore.
The thing is... I fell for another thing and I never felt happier. It isn’t big like the other thing that I used to love but damn, it occupied a wide space in my heart. This thing is so precious to me... they’re like stars that brighten up my dark nights. I love that thing so much and I don’t want to fall out of love again. I feel like this thing deserves my love and I want to continue loving them for as long as I could.
The thing that I love so much right now is called ‘ONEUS’
For Dong Si Cheng, I'm standing behind your back all this time Watching you doing the things you love Even though you didn't get enough lines and screen time You still managed to flash that sweet smile I'm afraid that I won't see you in person soon Because you stop promoting with NCT 127 But I know debuting in your hometown was one of your dreams I'm dismayed but I still managed to accept it Now, I can't hold back my tears As I see you slowly achieving your dreams I'm so proud that after all your hard work You're finally getting what you truly deserve Love, Your biggest fan
190307. I celebrated my birthday with NCT Dream
Being a fangirl is one of the most wonderful things that ever happen to me. I don’t know why, but I somehow feel like I’m destined for it. I’m glad because I’m given a chance to meet my favorites who inspire me to reach my dreams.
I have always been a fangirl for as long as I remember, but never in my entire life I have imagined that I’ll get into Korean pop (K-pop) music. Since then, I started going to concerts and collecting albums and official/ fan-made merchandise. It’s only been a year since I became a K-pop fan.
Seeing your favorites in real life is every fangirl’s dream. It will give you a different kind of happiness and satisfaction. This dream of mine came true for the third time when I saw NCT Dream. I almost lose hope because my chance of seeing them is next to none but God madee a way. Nine days before the concert, I was notified that I won a ticket to the event and I couldn’t get any happier.
When I was at the concert venue, I still can’t believe that I’m going to watch NCT Dream live! It was one of the most unforgettable day for me as the concert date is also my birthday.
I can’t explain the happiness that I felt when they came out from the backstage. I cheered and shouted their names for as loud as I could. I waved my lightstick as they started to perform their first song. I was about to cry when I finally heard their voices live for the first time. I usually hate noisy places but being in a concert is different. There’s this unexplainable feeling that you get seeing your favorites perform on stage. I felt so happy and proud of my fave group because they’re finally living the dream. Their hard work after years of training are now paying off.
Even if some people are calling fangirls as a bunch of screaming mess, it won’t change the fact that it pave way for me to meet new friends and be inspired by the people I choose to support. I will always be proud of being a fangirl because it’s one of the things that truly makes me happy.
I won’t forget that night because I feel like I’m the happiest fan in the concert because I celebrated my birthday with NCT Dream.
P.S. They said that they will visit my country more often and I can’t wait to see them again soon!
To you who always make me smile, Thanks for cheering me when I'm down You brought light to my life In times when it was quite dark. To you who is my greatest pride, Thanks because I have you by my side You are the best blessing I've had In times I thought I had none. To you who I loved so much, Thanks for telling me I should love myself too You've worked hard and I know that To hold your hand, I must reach my dreams too.
I count the stars while the sunlight touch your skin. I shiver at the cool breeze while you feel is humidity. In here is night, there is day. Surprised, I see the sun while yours is the moon. To be with you is far from happening. But like the moon and sun, there are things that must meet. #NCT #WINWIN #NCT127
We're staring at the same sky in different times Breathing the same air in different places I look at the clouds while all you see are stars You're distant and yet close to my heart Our feelings connect us with each other But like the sun and moon, we will never meet
I looked up in the night sky To reach the stars, I must fly I wasn't afraid that I might fall It's better than not to try at all I'm glad I fell because I have found A boy who was lying on the ground He was so breathtakingly beautiful That can make anyone feel delightful I was frozen the time our eyes met Those eyes made me want to forget He stood up and extended his hand I took it even though I don't understand We walked together on a snowy road And showed me a path full of diamonds He smiled and it took my breath away A soft smile that brightened up my day I stared at his figure as we walk I don't have the courage to talk This man who I didn't even know the name I love him and I hope he's feeling the same #WINWIN #NCT127 #DongSiCheng #WayV #WeishenV #NCT
Imagine a 16 year old Chinese boy who came to Korea to train as an idol after he was scouted in front of his school. A boy who bravely went to a foreign country by himself despite not knowing how to speak Korean. He thought that coming to SM was his destiny and there he found his new dream: to become a singer. He was doing excellent in school. He graduated early from a dance academy, got an award for winning the first place in China’s large dance exam. He was also one of the nation’s best dancers and went to an acting school with less than 1% acceptance rate. Despite these achievements, he left his home country just to pursue his dreams in Korea. After debuting in NCT 127, he was known to be the member with no lines. It wasn't easy for him to shift to hip-hop/modern dancing because he is more accustomed to traditional Chinese dance. He always work hard knowing that he didn't train for a long time like the other members. He doesn't want to be a burden to the team. He sacrificed a lot to join the company and celebrated many birthdays away from his family. He is a kind of person who wants to show a bright and cheerful side to everyone because he is embarrassed to reveal his hardships. Despite not being able to join the promotion for Simon Says and NCT 127's first solo concert, he still encouraged fans to support the group with a smile on his face. He didn't complain. He never complained. He deserves more than what SM Entertainment gives him. He is Winwin of Neo Culture Technology. He is Dong Si Cheng who was born in Wenzhou, China. NCT 127 is not complete without him. His smile is a reminder that everyone should be treated equally. #LETSWINWIN #WINWIN #winwin_is_nct127 #winwin_is_the_origin #NCT127 #NCT127_1stTour
BSD Light Novel: Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era (Prologue, 1/3)
A few things to start off: I’m translating this from the Chinese novels to English. Chinese is my mother tongue while English is my first language. I’ve had formal education, but understandably some things are lost in translation from Japanese > Chinese > English. I’ll do my best to explain them, but please enjoy this with a teaspoon of salt. I try to keep to the original intent as much as English grammar will allow, but the gist is more or less there. For this part, I haven’t had much trouble other than one part, which I’ve added a postscript note for.
Please don’t hesitate to shoot me an ask if anything sounds wrong or looks weird! If anyone wants to proofread these for me I’d be eternally grateful. I’m doing these at my own pace, so if anyone wishes to help out just let me know, I’d be more than happy to join forces.
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The Road Less Traveled
When I heard the words “road less traveled,” the first thing came to my mind was the song Who Am I Living For? by Katie Perry. The lyrics goes like this:
I can feel a phoenix inside of me
As I march alone to a different beat
Slowly swallowing down my fear, yeah, yeah
I am ready for the road less traveled
Suiting up for my crowning battle
This test is my own cross to bare
But I will get there
I had no idea what to write in the first place. I don't even know what my road less traveled is. Despite of that, I will try to make an essay regarding this matter (insert laughing emoticon). So, here goes nothing. Evey one of us has their own road less traveled. Sometimes, we choose not to take the other road because we are afraid. We doesn't want to go out of our comfort zones. We are scared of change. We feared that the society might judge us if we became different.
For me, I finally took the road less traveled by telling the world that I am an otaku. An otaku is an anime, manga, and video game enthusiast. If you will search the meaning of otaku in a dictionary, it means “geek.” It is extremely negative in meaning because it refers a person with an unusual or odd personality who stays at home all the time. Some people think that otakus are weird because we spend the most of our time in watching animes, reading manga, and sometimes playing video games instead of doing something more productive.
When I was in high school, I decided to cosplay because I want to be like those anime characters that I see on TV. I also met cosplayers in Nueva Ecija and decided to join their cosplay club. That time, I started saving money because cosplaying is quite expensive. My parents doesn't know that I'm a cosplayer. I didn't tell them because I know they'll just disagree. But I never thought that my mother will be supportive when she found out that I am a cosplayer. I'm so glad because she did not get mad at me despite the fact that I'm spending my money, time, and effort for cosplaying. I love cosplaying. It makes me feel that I'm in the anime world. Sounds corny but it's the truth. While wearing those wigs and costumes, I can be somebody else. I can escape the harsh reality even it's just for a day.
In college, I tried going to class wearing my costume. Some people stare at me like I'm a new found species. Some looked at me from head to foot while others are raising their eyebrows. I know some of them are thinking that I'm crazy or something like that. But I don't care, it's where I found my happiness. Another thing is that I became a super fan of a Japanese rock band called ONE OK ROCK. I cannot describe the happiness that I've felt on the night of January 19, the day when I finally saw them perform live. Some people are asking why am I wasting my money on things related to my favorite band (concert tickets, band merchandize, etc.) I'll just answer them that no one has ever made me feel that kind of happiness other than them.
I refuse to conform just like what Sora and Shiro did in my favorite anime, No Game No Life. So, what? So, what if the society judge me? I don't want to be like my gold fish who did nothing but to swim around the aquarium together with the other gold fish (oh, sorry Goldie!). You don't have to have a map in order to take the road less traveled. You just have to have courage. Be true to yourself. Don't be scared to take the road not taken. If you thought that you took the wrong road, don't worry. Just remember that wrong choices make good stories.
「BEST ACTIVE OVERSEAS」はONE OK ROCK! #ONEOKROCK #スペシャアワード
(Source: https://www.instagram.com/spaceshower/)
Congrats, babies! <3
A Fangirl’s Dream Come True: ONE OK ROCK live in Manila (part 1)
Note: I want to share my experience in #ONEOKROCKLiveinManila. I will write this in my mother tongue, which is Filipino to fully express myself. (Photo credits to Senpai May)
January 19, ang araw na pinakahihintay ko. Ito yung araw na magco-concert ang pinakamamahal kong banda na ONE OK ROCK. Hindi ako makapaniwala na ito na ang araw na 'yon. Ito na talaga 'yung araw na hinihintay namin lahat. Hindi talaga ako makatulog kagabi dahil sa excitement at naninibago na rin dahil lumipat ako sa bagong bording house. Sinubukan kong matulog pero wala. Hindi ko talaga kayang matulog kaya nag-post na lang ako ng post sa Twitter with the #ONEOKROCKLiveinManila. 4:00 am pa dapat kami magkikita ng mga kasama ko sa organization pero 2:00 am pa lang gumayak na ako. Naisip ko nga na baka hindi ako tumagal bukas dahil puyat rin ako kagabi. Yung talaga yung ikinawo-worry ko. Baka antukin ako tapos wala naman akong matutulugan sa MOA.
Mga ilang minuto pa ako naghintay ng text mula sa mga kasama ko kung lalabas na ba kami ng gate para abangan yung bus na papuntang Pasay. Tapos noong nag-text na sila, nagpaalam na ako sa classmate ko which happens to be my room mate. Noong nakatawid na kami ng kalsada, nagka-kwentuhan na kung gaano kami ka-excited sa papalapit na concert. 'Yung isa pa namin kasama nakasakay na doon bus na papuntang Pasay dahil sa terminal siya sumakay. Ina-update niya lang ako kung na saan na 'yung bus. Noong dumaan na yung Golden Bee bus na papuntang Pasay, pinara ko.
Noong nakasakay na kami, nakatabi ko sa bus si ate Ivy. Fan rin siya ng ONE OK ROCK at manonood rin ng concert. Bias niya si Taka at Ryota. Ang dami rin namin napagkwentuhan tungkol sa ONE OK ROCK. Nakakatuwa dahil napagbuklod kami ng OOR. Nang dahil sa musika nila, nagkakasundo kaming mga fans nila.
Medyo naging matagal nga lang yung pag-byahe namin papuntang SM Mall of Asia. 10:00 am na kami nakarating doon. Sa sobrang tagal kong nakaupo, na-butthurt ako (Literally, hahah.) Noong saktong dumating kami sa MOA, yung nag-flash na commercial sa screen ng arena ay yung concert ng ONE OK ROCK. Nung nakita ko yun gusto kong sumigaw ng, “This is it!” This is the day that every ONE OK ROCK fan is waiting for. Gumala muna kami sa SM. Nagbabakasakaling makita o makasalubong sila Taka somewhere. As if naman magpapagala-gala sa MOA yung mga 'yun sa araw ng concert nila. Edi dinumog sila ng fans. Pero malay mo naman makita nga namin sila, possibilities are endless. Before kumain ng lunch, nagpasama ako sa National Book Store. Wala pa kasi akong notebook. Ngayon week kasi ang start ng second semester namin. Ang swerte nga namin dahil yung ibang OOR fans, midterms nila this week kaya hindi makapunta yung iba sa concert. Anyways, noong nasa loob na kami ng bookstore, nakita ko yung pulang Cattleya notebook at ang biglang pumasok sa isip ko ay si Taka. Pati ba naman sa mga ganitong bagay, si Taka pa rin ang naiisip ko? Pumila na ako para bayaran yung notebook. Ang haba ng pila pero medyo mabilis naman ang pag-usad kahit papaano. After ko makabili ng notebook, ang dami namin nakakasalubong sa daan na nakasuot ng ONE OK ROCK shirt. Grabe, parang gusto ko silang harangin isa-isa para tanungin kung sino ang bias nila.
Sa Tokyo Tokyo namin napagkasunduan na kumain ng lunch. Ang in-order naming apat ay cheesy pork katsu yata yung pangalan. Kaunti lang yung kinain ko, wala kasi akong gana. Lahat naman kami kaunti lang ang nakain. Pare-pareho kaming nagsabi na sana sushi na lang ang in-order namin. Wala talaga akong gana. Makita ko lang si Taka sa personal, busog na ako. Hahaha, I'm serious. Yung red tea ko, wala pa sa kalahati ang nainom ko. After kumain, uminom ako ng Enervon dahil nagwo-worry nga ako na baka antukin ako mamaya. But I'm sure, sa mismong concert mawawala yung antok na mararamdaman ko if ever na antukin nga ako.
After kumain, pumunta na kami sa parking lot ng arena. Ang daming tao. Maaga talagang pumila yung mga nasa VIP Standing para makakuha ng magandang pwesto. May nakasalubong rin kami na coser nina Toru at Tomoya. Sabi ni Senpai May, magpa-picture na raw kami ni Lyn. Sabi namin sa susunod na lang na makasalubog namin sila. Tiningnan rin namin kung start na ng pagbebenta ng official merchandise pero sabi nila 2:00 pm pa raw so babalik na lang kami before 2:00 para hindi maubusan ng merch. Mahirap na. Baka umiyak ako kapag wala akong naiuwing official merch nila. Dapat nga hindi na ako bibili ng merch kasi may pinag-iipunan pa akong iba pero naisip ko na minsan lang ako makakabili ng official merchandise nila. At saka maiipon ko pa naman yung 450 pesos na ipambibili ko. Two days bago dumating ang araw ng concert, may nagbebenta ng ballers sa isang OOR fan group sa Facebook. Nagpa-reserve ako ng dalawa for me and my little sis. Yun na lang ang ipapasalubong ko sa kanya (and birthday gift na rin) dahil hindi ko afford bumili ng dalawang official merchandise para sa amin. At para na rin maibsan yung nararamdaman niya kasi nga #TeamBahay siya.
Noong napadaan kami sa malaking screen sa arena, hinintay namin yung commercial ng ONE OK ROCK. Noong nag-flash na yung commercial nila, I took a photo of it sa phone ko. Sobrang low quality nga lang dahil puchu-puchu lang yung camera nung phone. Hindi ako nagdala ng digicam dahil may napag-usapan sa FB group na huwag mag-take ng photos and videos during the concert at saka baka kasi hindi ako makapasok ng arena if ever na ipagbabawal ang digicams. After nung commercial, naghintay ulit kaming ipalabas sila. Magpapa-picture kami para may pang-cover photo sa Facebook. Ang tagal namin naghintay bago lumabas yung commercial nila. Nakapagpa-picture naman kami ni Lyn kahit papaano. Hinintay ulit namin yung commercial pero sobrang tagal. Mga 30 minutes yata kami naghintay bago lumabas ulit yun. Noong pang-apat na naming naghihintay, sobrang tagal na talagang i-flash yung commercial nila kaya nag-decide na kaming umalis para maglibot-libot sa loob ng MOA. Pero habang papaalis kami, tumitingin-tingin pa rin ako sa screen. Nagbabakasakaling sa pag-alis namin ay ifla-flash ulit sila sa screen. Tapos binibiro pa kung mga kasama ko na, “Ayan na yung commercial!” tapos titingin naman sila pero wala naman.
Habang naglilibot-libot naman, palagi naman sinasabi ni Lyn na, “Si Taka oh!” sabay turo pa. Noong tiningnan ko, wala naman. Umasa ako. Gustong-gusto ko talagang makita si Taka ng malapitan. Ganoon na lang rin ang ginagawa ko. Sasabihin kong, “Ayun sila Taka!” pero wala naman talaga. Hahaha, edi pare-pareho kaming umaasa. Ayun, gumala-gala nga muna kami tapos naisipan naming pumunta malapit sa dagat. Ang layo ng nilakad namin pero worth it. Ang ganda ng view. Nakakawala ng pagod. Sa pagpunta namin doon, may mga nadaanan kami na Japanese restaurants. Sinisilip-silip namin yung loob kasi baka nandoon sila Taka at kumakain. Pero wala. Umasa na naman kami.
Malapit na mag-2:00 pm kaya naglakad na ulit kami papuntang Arena. Noong malapit na kami, may nakita kaming coser ni Taka. Kamukha talaga ng porma at buhok niya dati nung mukha pa siyang poodle. Hahahah, joke lang Takabels. XD Pero syempre, mas gwapo pa rin si Taka kaysa dun sa coser niya. Nothing beats the original, ika nga.
Naloka ako nung makita ko yung pila sa bentahan ng official merch. Ang habaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Nagmadali na akong maglakad para hindi na maunahan ng iba sa pila. Kasama ko si ate Ivy sa pila tapos sila senpai May at Lyn hinintay na lang kami dun sa pilahan ng mga VIP. Inaya ko si senpai May bumili ng beanie gusto niya rin sana pero may lakad pa daw siya sa mga susunod na araw kaya kailangan niya rin yung pera. Gusto ko rin sana bumili ng official shirt pero kapag bumili ako, baka hindi na ko makauwi ng Nueva Ecija.
Habang nasa pila, may staff ng PULP Live World na kumukuha ng pictures at videos. Nadaanan pa nga kami ng camera. I wonder kung saan nila ipapalabas or iu-upload yun. Nag-kwentuhan na lang kami ni ate Ivy habang naghihintay kami. Pagdating namin dun sa booth wala ng beanie! Kukuha pa daw! Grabe, ang haba ng pinila ko tapos maghihintay pa ulit ako? Sana naman in-announce na nila kaagad para hindi na ako pumila! Pero kahit na ganun, hindi ako na-beastmode. Hahaha. May separate line na para dun sa mga bibili ng beanie. Noong una, two lines yun tapos pinag-isa na lang. Si ate na nasa gilid ko, pinauna ko na sa pila. Nag-thank you siya tapos tinanong ko yung name niya. Her name is Lawrence and I was surprised when I found out na taga-Cabanatuan siya. That's 30 minutes away from our house! I'm glad to meet a fellow Novo Ecijano. May klase rin siya that day and may quiz pa nga siya. Fourth year MedTech student siya sa SLU. Grabe, mas mahaba pa yung byahe niya kaysa sa amin.
**to be continued
This is one of my favourite pictures of Toru.
But wait... Where’s Taka?
Opinions are easier to swallow than facts.
Switchfoot, Selling the News
Twisted
PS. I made this sonnet for my English 115 subject.
Meeting you feels like my heart’s in heaven
Full of happiness, laughter, and delight
You will make me laugh with your silly jokes
I’m mesmerized by the look in your eyes
I don’t need anything, I just need you
But destiny took you away from me
I wish I could forget that tragedy
The night when I saw you crying for help
Crying because you cannot take the pain
You said you’re sorry and told me goodbye
Those memories... I wish I could go back
Back to the past when we’re still together
This is heartache... I wish I could escape
This fucking twisted love story of us
ONE OK ROCK Live at Olympia Hall in Paris, France (December 21, 2015) Setlist: 35xxxv (Intro) Take Me To The Top Memories Deeper Deeper Stuck In The Middle Clock Strikes Last Dance Instrumental with Toru, Ryota and Tomoya Cry Out Heartache Decision Suddenly The Beginning Mighty Long Fall — Be The Light The Way Back No Scared Photos by Michela Cuccagna More photos and live report: https://www.rockurlife.net/report/one-ok-rock-olympia-21-12-15