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teenage garbage pile

[ringmybel]

my most depraved fantasy is to be saved from myself

it is getting really bad. i find myself missing april, this time i find the sting in my throat instead of my thighs. i feel as if theres a blade itching under my skin when food sits heavy in my stomach and im both fourteen and seventeen at once, loving you and cursing you at once

i'm realizing depression doesn't go away it just gets better for a little bit and then evolves into something else

[ringmybel]

gee my fifth hot bath of the week didn’t cure the undying restlessness like bugs underneath my skin? sitting in my own dirty water didn’t heal the hole in my chest? gee it must be time for another hot bath

[ringmybel]

getting in a bath that’s a little (or a lot) bit too hot is genuinely as erotic as masturbation

[ringmybel]

i dont like getting off as much anymore because sometimes ill slip and say her name when i finish and ill just start sobbing

[ringmybel]

i think now i need to learn to do my own braid

[ringmybel]

i tried to do my hair in one braid but it was shitty and i couldnt and i thought if she was here she'd do my braid. so until then ill just do two braids until she can make one for me

[ringmybel]

YOU'RE THE ONE 😂‼️😱 YOU'RE ALL I EVER WANTED 🤣❗️🔥 I THINK I'LL REGRET THIS 😂‼️😭

[ringmybel]

stop tearing me apart pretty please ill ask ever so nicely just how you like and ill wash your feet and you'll kiss my cheek and sell me for a bag of silver

[ringmybel]

hey omg not to freak you out buttt if i could i'd be your little spoon and kiss your fingers forevermore!! but big spoon, you have so much to do, and i have nothing ahead of me... you're the sun, you've never seen the night, but you hear its song from the morning birds!! well i'm not the moon, i'm not even a star, but awake at night, i'll be singing to the birds!! don't wait for me, i can't come. heavy on that last part

[ringmybel]

i care what she thinks more than anything like yes please tell me everything you have ever thought about me and did you like that picture or did you get weirded out UGH i wish i could live in her brain

[ringmybel]

"i knew how to kiss before you, mr. kentucky"

WHAAT IF I EXPLDOED

[ringmybel]

can yall edblr girls stop posting ur ed shit under the bones and all tag

[ilovesmoothjazz1998]

reblog in 45 seconds to have a slutty little night

[ringmybel]

i want to be tiny and warm and held in big arms and lay on chests with loud beating hearts

[ringmybel]

and here i am on my roof remembering july 4th all too well staring at the lake i was going to drown in

[saturnerens]

[ringmybel]

i was too tired to go out and see our stars tonight