sweetness.

spirit of my silence, i can hear you, but i’m afraid to be near you, and i don’t know where to begin. adam rowe — independent and fandomless original character, written by bucky.

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*taps mic* IS THIS THING ON

[hayaomiyazaki]

Josh O'Connor and Daniel Metz in HIDE AND SEEK (2014) dir. Joanna Coates

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oh bitch writing adam for the first time in over a month was truly an experience 

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ragebloomed‌.

@ripered​  /    𝐒𝐂.

𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄, 𝐍𝐎 𝐒𝐄𝐄. it was the first thing she wanted to say the second she stepped down in forks. long time. they hadn’t spoke since the fallout on their shared child. it was too hard to speak of a life that never stood a chance in her body. oh, and she blamed herself – of course she did. she was the one between them that she couldn’t stand, but it wasn’t fair to punish adam. he was nothing but an innocent bystander to her self destruction. now, it was time for remedies. for apologies. she fumbled her hand over her sleeve, tugging down the damp flannel as she caught eyes with the professor.

‘  hey,  ’   it was calm. simple. it was hard to fuck up a clipped greeting. she leaned forward onto the desk he was working at, not expecting him to get up at all. ‘  i’m sober now. i’m sorry you had to see all of that.  ’  her voice waned at the edge, knowing she would fall if she teetered too far with her words. oh, and how easy it was to fall with him. it took one look in his deep eyes to sink back in. she lifted a hand, eyes cast downward to break their gaze. it was better to do this unattached.  ‘  and i’m sorry if i caused any more hurt than needed. i know it wasn’t right to hide the kid from you. i just – i dunno – maybe, we could try again. i could live here. and we could pick up from where we started…if you still want that.  ’

adam, over time, has learned to keep things where they were. he’s spent so much time fumbling around the idea of things, holding on tight to concepts that would only bring him immense pain despite everything. maybe that pain always brought him something, a reminder that he’s not entirely numb to the world. a satisfaction. but that’s begun to make him feel so small, and there was so much to life that he was missing due to his own tendency to self destruct within himself. kat became a causality of his fleeting and ever fickle destruction, and he clung to it for far too long before it all turned to dust. so he walks away and learned to keep things where they are. 

that’s until she’s there, standing before him. he stopped thinking of his unborn child, as a way to solidify his newfound mindset of keeping things in the rear view. but now he sees her and wonders of what could have been, if they might have had her eyes or his own, or her smile or his timid expression. it earns his stomach to twist, feeling the need to be sick. it wouldn’t be the first time he threw up like a fool in front of her, that’s for sure.  ❛  don’t be sorry.  ❜ he replies softly, completely sincere.  ❛  you did what you thought was best for you, you don’t have to be sorry for that. ever.  ❜ in hindsight, adam was still a newcomer in her life, especially then. maybe there was just no room for him at that moment. adam soon purses his lips in thought, eyes averting down to his shoes and then back up towards kat.  ❛  i think rushing was also our problem last time.  ❜ it’s said with a smile, hoping to maybe lighten the conversation, or at least make her smile. but kat was still rudely undeniable and adam’s turning red from her words already. he nods towards the pavement,   ❛  come on, we can talk over food. i’m starving.  ❜

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the drama of it all..............very adam

[kuutamosonaatti]

[vicebuilt-aa]

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What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?

character solidifying meme   /   accepting.

50. what are the prevailing facial expressions ? sour ? cheerful ? dominating ?

i think adam’s most prevalent facial expression is....simple and a little timid. he has a very feminine grace to the way his face falls. he also looks as though he’s always observing and retaining information. though as of lately, his expressions are pretty neutral. he’s sweet and pretty content so his face falls a little towards the at ease range most of the time.

[darkfae-xiv]

Character Solidifying

[cultkeeper]

Originally from @ rockinrpmemes, however the post itself is gone, and I didn’t want the extra posts from the reblogs on it, so I’ve recopied it down as a new post.

1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have? 2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have? 3. Brothers, sisters? Who do they like? Why? What do they despise about their siblings? 4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient? 5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered? 6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child? 7. What was the economic status of their family? 8. How does your character feel about religion? 9. What about political beliefs? 10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted? 11. How do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated? 12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations? 13. Did they like school? Teachers? Schoolmates? 14. Were they involved at school? Sports? Clubs? Debate? Were they unconnected? 15. Did they graduate? High-School? College? Do they have a PHD? A GED? 16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike? 17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When? 18. What did they find abroad, and what did they remember? 19. What were your character’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now? 20. What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced? 21. What are your character’s manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate? 22. Who are their friends? Lovers? ‘Type’ or ‘ideal’ partner? 23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think and feel of sex? 24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually? 25. What are their hobbies and interests? 26. What does your character’s home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance? 27. How do they relate to their appearance? How do they wear their clothing? Style? Quality? 28. Who is your character’s mate? How do they relate to him or her? How did they make their choice? 29. What is your character’s weaknesses? Hubris? Pride? Controlling? 30. Are they holding on to something in the past? Can he or she forgive? 31. Does your character have children? How do they feel about their parental role? About the children? How do the children relate? 32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively? 33. Do they drink? Take drugs? What about their health? 34. Does your character feel self-righteous? Revengeful? Contemptuous? 35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures? 36. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering? 37. How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories? 38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic? 39. What do they like to ridicule? What do they find stupid? 40. How is their sense of humor? Do they have one? 41. Is your character aware of who they are? Strengths? Weaknesses? Idiosyncrasies? Capable of self-irony? 42. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain? 43. Does your character have any secrets? If so, are they holding them back? 44. How badly do they want to obtain their life objectives? How do they pursue them? 45. Is your character pragmatic? Think first? Responsible? All action? A visionary? Passionate? Quixotic? 46. Is your character tall? Short? What about size? Weight? Posture? How do they feel about their physical body? 47. Do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person? Does they want to be visible or invisible? 48. How are your character’s gestures? Vigorous? Weak? Controlled? Compulsive? Energetic? Sluggish? 49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent? 50. What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?

[dustlnd]

A BLUE - JEANS SERENADE , MOONRIVER ! WHAT’D YOU DO TO ME ? independent , original multimuse roleplay blog / selective , dash - only .

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     une douceur sur et amer.

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what’s up fellas it’s me checking in once again i’ve decided to go under the alias/name bucky from now on here in the rp world !!! hope that’s cool w y’all 

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i’m gonna be over at @anothersong bc i finally finished his account and i’m also way too lazy to make him a promo right now omg

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hey i’m sorry i’m never here i don’t even have a good excuse anymore i’m just sad all the time

[halfsavages-deactivated20200621]

I saw his round mouth’s crimson deepen as it fell, Like a Sun, in his last deep hour; Watched the magnificent recession of farewell, Clouding, half gleam, half glower, And a last splendour burn the heavens of his cheek. And in his eyes The cold stars lighting, very old and bleak, In different skies. 

Poem by Wilfred Owen, written between November and December 1917.

[greelin]

[said while barely holding back tears] honestly this is fine and i am completely unaffected right now, currently, as we speak

[scarletwitcheries]

All I heard was my heart, dim but fast, like footsteps fleeing into silence.