CURSED TO FALL

OI! This is the sideblog to @endsupes dedicated to my headcanons / aesthics / rants for billy butcher and the gangs of The Boys from the amazon series and the comics! sit back and relax, feel free to join in or not. I'm not your mother!!

[raidstombs]

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[sootsouls-a-deactivated20181209]

raidstombs‌:

Send ‘Trick or Treat!  🎃’ to my inbox and I’ll give you a treat! This could be: a promo graphic, icons, an aesthetic graphic of your muse, a drabble, a photoset of our muses together, a moodboard based on one of our threads, or some other goodie! Happy Halloween!  Let’s celebrate!

[riplander]

The actual urge to make a vought geneticist oc... but knowing my ass can't maintain more than one blog is like existing to serve cunt but being forced to earn a living wage.

[endsupes]

"All the V does is just amp up all that shit that's already inside. Your lot? Just a bunch of walking nuclear erections. You know? And it's not just Homelander. I mean you— you fucking all got to go. Every fucking last… one of ya."

Indie Billy Butcher from The Boys Amazon series (possible small comic influence) . Non-selective and open to AU, OC, and crossovers. Discord given to mutuals only. Personals do not interact. 

[endsupes]

Signs of affection

Physical: William is never far away in proximity and touch mostly comprises of either gentle leading with a hand guiding lightly/supportive or even aggressively gripping. He may also shield by blocking the view with his body. Mostly just any point of connection that's not exceedingly violent.

Words: rare, but he has the capacity to give compliments and speak about things that bother him or aspects of his life that haunt him.

Silent respect: this typically entails allowing handing leadership to someone whether its a small aspect ( his aunt taking care of terror) or something with great meaning ( asking hughie to say sorry to the boys )

Sexuality

over the years, Williams’ romantic and sexual life has been almost non-existent. this is the product of several things - the fact he is constantly working, that he’s often out on the field fighting for his life and the lives of others and too busy trying not to die as well a lack of confidence when it comes to romance, a growing disinterest in anything sexual, and the inability to understand or read flirtation and attraction from potential lovers without taking it unseriously ( obliviousness and an effect of his mental health issues both ).  often, any interest shown in him regarding sexuality and romance will not be picked up on and dismissed as casual conversation ( I.e he may flirt back but its hollow, empty words ) - it requires bluntness to get the point across to him - and usually it will be rejected because he has ‘better’ things to do which is usually work. it has been a long, long time since he’s been on a date and whilst everything William does tends to stem from love in a manner of speaking, he rarely sets time aside for romance. 

William is a very, very closeted bisexual and carries a lot of internalized homophobia - not regarding anyone but himself, he could care less about the sexualities of others, but is uncomfortable in admitting he is anything but the white macho man people assume him to be. he has always been uncomfortable regarding his own sexuality, but over the years it has grown worse. this is from the lack of physical intimacy ( despite not having it, he does miss it - William is a sexual person, enjoys sex, but has gone without for so long he now has several self-confidence issues regarding it ) and the fact that for him, it has always been a subject meant to be kept private - between himself and his partner ( he doesn’t really want to hear about what his friends/soldiers/team have been up to in bed, and doesn’t want to talk about his experiences or lack of either ). combined with his physical and health issues, it’s something he tends to avoid.

in his youth, he had a string of girlfriends - all of them were brief flings, no emotional attachment on either end, but not as many as he’d boast about ( the ego of a hormonal twenty-something boy in the prime of his life, with a gun and a military record doesn’t want to be seen as someone who gets rejected by pretty girls ). experimentation sexually was brief and short, uncomfortable with the idea - he’d been touchy-feely with men before, but eventually backed out, nervous and drunk, doing it for attention rather than anything else. he was never the best lover, but what he lacked in talent he made up for in enthusiasm.

Rebecca had only really been the most consistent sexual relationship he had for the obvious fact that they were married and really the only person he had ever felt particularly close to. Since her disappearance, he had spiraled mentally, only really seeing sex acts as a way to manipulate or extort information. But even then it was never something he relied on, more so, dangling a carrot on a string in order to get what he wants.

getting him to talk about it is an unlikely event, too. the only time you’ll hear of Williams’ romantic and sexual activities is if you’re the one he’s doing it with - he’s a private person in many aspects, despite the big heart, and likes to keep things to himself ( too stubborn to realise maybe talking about his issues could help get rid of them ). if you manage to break through to that though, he’s extremely appreciative in the moment, touches like he’s worshipping a marble statue with adoration. Gropping whatever, wherever, he's willing. however, it’s all emotional for him nowadays, and the idea of no-strings-attached sex is something he can’t get into - it has to mean something to him, and it always does, whether he admits it or not.

[endsupes]

𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 & 𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐄𝐒

Reaching his middle twenty's to early thirty's, William is conventionally attractive, nothing special. The most noticeable feature he has would be his size - often compared to that of a bodybuilder, though it is more appropriate to compare him to a strongman. The only real differing factor being the broadness of the chest and biceps accompanied by a solid core strength. This result being a combination of military experience and unhealthy coping mechanisms in regards to Rebecca's ‘death’ - becoming obsessive in his workout routine along with the constant working while in the CIA, lack of sleep or decent meals and frequent dehydration along with his height (6'5"). However, gradually reaching early forties, William develops a beard and penchant for smoking that leaves yellow stains between his fingers.

Facially, William has a strong set features; a strong jawline with noticeable cheekbones, his nose slightly long in length, but with small nostrils, slightly small full lips, thick deep set brows, medium pointed ears, narrow eyes, along with deep dark bags beneath his eyes and slight lines of age, and he often sports a scowl, but how intense of one varies. his skin tone is lightly tanned during the events of Season one , however takes on a more pale/grey color when under the effects of the tumorous temp V, and these effects last permanently even after his revival, the former is more common. in general, William is incredibly hairy - having most of it comprised of arm and leg hair. Obviously, facial hair is the most that stands out being that he typically sports a cropped full beard. However - generally the sicker he gets, the less he’s inclined on personal upkeep as he finds it unnecessary or has a lack of interest.

contrary to popular belief though, he’s very on-top of personal hygiene when possible but he takes little consideration into his appearance unless it is absolutely necessary - he changes clothes when needed, but otherwise his routine only consists of showering and cleaning himself, brushing his teeth, filing his nails and trimming his beard. However clean you can realistically get from using dish soap as a body wash. ( the oiled duck do it, so can he ).

after a lifetime of surviving alone, battles in pubs and constantly causing trouble, William's skin is covered in scars - most of them are worn, faded with age or simply healed, and there’s too many to count-- he’s constantly in danger and sometimes sustaining severe injuries. most are from things with edges (rocks, bricks, glass - the environmental hazards of doing what he does, he’s often falling through things, into things, against things, along with various things exploding around him), though he has several from burns and the occasional scar from weaponry/supes. his chest and torso are rife with scars - mainly due to the many stabs and cuts hes received from supes. His legs and arms being fairly unblemished since his jacket/boots takes most of the damage albeit superficially.

the most noticeable scars are as follows:

head/skull: minor cracks/tears along the nose and cheeks either from the military or bar fights.

arms: two shallow holes from handling the vaught infant and suffering minor burns from it's lazer eyes.

eyes: Bloodshot while under the effects of the tumor.

legs:  scarring on knees from repeated scrapes in trying to stop backwards momentum.

other than that, notable features of his appearance are that he tends towards cool but dark colors ( greens, greys, black, silver ).

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐓𝐇 𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐄𝐒

PTSD associated memories with Rebecca/partial amnesia.

Frequent night terrors/insomnia due to constantly being in danger.

anxiety/depression based on childhood trauma/idea of self inferiority.

Alcohol and tobacco dependency.

Suffers from hallucinations akin to schizophrenia.

Continuous cough that is accompanied by blood. (tumor effects)

unresolved anger issues and risky tendencies.

William suffers bouts of night terrors. Only able to manage 1-2 hours of sleep at a time, conversely, a very light sleeper able to awake at the slightest sound due to living cautiously for the vast majority of his life. along with this, he suffers hallucinations on the occasion which he has trouble differentiating from reality, leading to chronic headaches. Generally, having not been around others especially during the events of when the tumor is growing stronger and relatively self isolating as he attempts to sort out a virus to stop supes despite his waning health and moralistic dilemma concerning Ryan.

[unhinqed]

THE BOYS 4x08 | Assassination Run

[daily-spooky]

[starlanderdaily]

glowing eyes - part one HOMELANDER AND STARLIGHT the boys (2019-). 2.04 & 3.04

[daily-spooky]

[memewhore]

[himelander-deactivated20260515]

Ducklander 🪿

[riplander]

Hmmm I think I'm gunna make butcher fuckin beefy as fuck.

[riplander]

AU where butcher and homelander have to share custody ( co-parent ) of ryan.

[riplander]

DESPITE the comics being needlessly violent and quite honestly terrible, there are a few moments where I can reasonably envision adding some aspects to my portrayal to Butcher. For instance, Rebecca "Becky" meeting William on the train for the first time after he had no doubt found a fight to be in. To where, she chuckles and comments that he "looks like a bit like a panda" due to his black eyes from the fight. THIS ALONE is what sparks Butcher to pursue a conversation with her and eventually they end up getting married after a few dates. Imagine being so angry for so long and finding someone that is not off put by the fights you've been in or the anger you've held on to for possibly decades. He just melts, lets himself be happy and as a result no longer drinks or causes brawls. My man straight up drinks his 'love my wife juice'. That's why its such a devastation when she is killed and why Butcher makes it his sole resolve to kill supes. The one light is snuffed out and there's hell to pay-- dare I say the moment where allll that anger returns twice fold. This is something that I don't think was quite portrayed that well in the Amazon Series? How dedicated he was to his wife in the flash backs that is. Clearly TV butcher was pretty moved in knowing that she was still alive in S2, however, it felt short lived? Even in S4 she is only a small piece of his psyche that was easily overpowered by Kessler. REGUARDLESS of the reasons for this change I just needed ya'll to know that COMIC butcher is a full wife worshiper!! Thank you for coming to my ted talk <3

[irisro-art]

The rot is consuming🤙🇬🇧

[jdms-babygirl]

My mind is literally this 24/7 😍😍

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[intercrusher]

redraw of something i saw on twitter

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