River

ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴄᴀʀᴄᴀꜱꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ, Irl Vampire, i🫀music, He/Him ONLY Riverrazorz on everything

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About me

Hey, I'm River. I'm 17 from Sydney, Australia. I like guitar and Vampires. I listen to mainly PHxC, industrial rock, metalcore, deathcore and alt rock. I'm emo as fuck and like blogging about my life. Expect my hair colour to change every week, you get used to it. I'm a guy and go by He/Him (contrary to my appearance haha.) feel free to message me or dm me on any of my other social media's and ill reply as fast as I can. @riverrazorz on everything. dc; de2814. Including the period.

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keeping yourself concealed from me

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Holy yummy. Homosexuals when they say they love your insides and your outside they mean like this

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keeping yourself concealed from me

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New hair yet again lol

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Sexuality is a weird thing. I like guys and i like girls but i don't like anyone in particular. I like the idea of relationships but never find myself connecting to anyone. I don't even know how to label myself cause I've been going by bi aro-ace for ages now but im not even sure. If i were to think of a fantasy scenario, i would probably be with a man. But theres no specific person nor have i wanted 'forever' with anyone before. Likewise i've never desired a sexual relationship with anyone but im extremely sexual bordering on hypersexual and when I get bored intimacy is a way to pass time for me. Ive had numerous relationships and they never work out because the fun wears out after a short time and i realise i never loved them, just wanted company. And for years now i always have been a manwhore at parties but guys never want me, its always just the girls. I'll never complain about that but i wonder if theres an aspect of self hatred there that makes me feel the urge to be loved by anyone even if its just for 10 minutes. I don't want to be alone forever but at the same time, i don't talk to anyone or leave the house enough to meet people let alone ever actually truely fall in love with someone eventually. So i'm somewhat gay somewhat not depending on how much vodka's flowing, somewhat aroace and somewhat allo if i'm bored enough. I hate my mind, can it lock im

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Pierce the Veil | Sydney night one ICHY tour

Best night of my LIFE im never going to be the same again

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We, yes WE will all meet the loves of our lives at concerts and WE will not end up in a toxic relationship. Click yes to affirm. Cause when has meeting guys at concerts ever gone wrong (its delusional hour)

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Shirt i've made for prv. I love tbwcf🤤

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Pierce the veil tomorrow. Im so excited

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Easter friday or smth. Just chilling with friends all day and gonna get drunk as hell🥰

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Red, violent red.

So hi, um i dyed my hair (again) this time bright neon red. It came out so good. Since my last post nothing much has happened. I've started making my own custom itabag for my favourite character, Armand from AMC 2022 Interview With The Vampire featuring my own custom art. I'll make a post when things start to arrive. I'm so excited. I've been struggling a lot recently with the feeling of being wanted. I want to get closer to people but this same feeling that I'll never be enough and that they'll never chose me makes me want to withdraw. Endless cycles of yearning and loneliness.

I hate seeing happy couples, I want somebody to love so badly. Someone to feel that connection with that makes life worth living. Someone I can share my interests with, that will support me when I'm not at my best, who wants to spend time with me and someone I can give my everything to. May this love find me at rapid pace im begging bruh😭

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20.3.26

My blue hair is already fading💔 The back is completely white. I've had a very eventful week, Dad tore his AITFL and shattered his ankle, and everyone in my family seems to be going through a depressive episode so everyone is on edge and are quick to anger. I'm thinking of redying my hair to red since it's been a while now since I did red... I also need to start going to the gym because my arms are so stick-like its almost concave... That's all for today.

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7.3.20X6 saturday

Travelling alone has always made me jittery, music makes it better. I've been thinking a lot about "my future" now that it's been 2 years since I graduated and I do nothing with my life. I struggle a lot with mental health so that interrupts my study frequently. That's why I've decided to drop out of college, I want to pursue something that won't force me to hide who I am and what I like. I've decided to go to a Training college to study Live sound production and Light engineering. I want to be surrounded by music in all forms of the art at all times of my conscious hours. It lets me be my true authentic self and around stuff I enjoy. That is my plan for now.

Today I'm going ice skating (ill post pics later) with my friends. I'm slightly scared because I haven't skated in so long but C'est la vie MDR. See you later Tumblr