RizNoire

Light-Filled. Discovering the Extrovert Within

[riznoire]

1/1/2023 Unexpected, but greatly appreciated, beach time before I hibernate* Count down to New Life Happy 2023 yall 🎀 #Beach #Connecticut #Inversion #Flexibility #AlternativeRN https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm64bR1ufoY/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[riznoire]

To live a summer that never ends 🧚🏿‍♀️🧜🏿‍♀️💜

[riznoire]

Flippin' into 29 so 30 won't catch me slippin'

..xo.. this B'Earthday was rough. I was determined to make it as amazingly simple as possible, but those around me had other intentions.

I learned that I can Only control myself, my intent, my reaction. The energy I give is my choice. It is my Power. So I choose to choose wisely. Self Mastery💫💜 #LessonLearned

8.19.19

[riznoire]

the Peace in this room right now, 😌🙏 a storm is thundering outside, reminds me of far distant, relatively recent memories of NOLA reign. Days of blazing heat, eclipsed by thundering rains. Rolls away as suddenly as it came. A spliff and some munchies, old love and a movie. He's been dancing around my thoughts lately. I hope they (Eye and the Storm) have as much Peace in this moment as I do.

[riznoire]

Growing something beautiful! Soooo.. I have the distinct pleasure of partaking in community gardening efforts in my (present) city.. breaking ground, tilling the soil, a lot of hard work, but proud of myself for getting it done. Learning to reconnect in solitude, appreciating the opportunity to be with self. Learning to love the experience and.. grow something beautiful again 🍓🍒🥀😘

[riznoire]

Even on your worse day, *Stand TALL*

The world is watching.

*A Lil Gym Drip* 💪

I had a low day yesterday. self soothed with chips & a spliff. Felt bad about that decision so I ate more crap.. ironic right. Wellp decided to fast and cardio today. Took a class at my gym and was Burnt . Sweat-dripping-breath-huffing-notquitesureimgonnamakeit-type of class. But I pushed through and made my way to the sauna. En route, old homie stops me and tells me I was "amazing" in class (he was there too, see).. said his legs felt like jelly, what should he do to power thru (through, threw??) like me. I was beyond .. wow. Thanks. Offered whatever advice I had and moved on. #Humbled #Apprecative for my body and her capabilities. Even on a (self perceived) weak day..

So I remembered: be careful how I speak to myself. Be careful the titles I give to self.. she (Me) likely doesnt deserve them.

We (self&me) dont need outside validation from strangers, but the observation and acknowledgment is much appreciated. It doesnt mean we wont have vulnerable daze. But.. maybe the world doesnt need to know that 😌

[urbanthropologie]

ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

[riznoire]

For those troublesome daze, when you feel disconnected from the universe. Remember.. it is You. Observe it, absorb it, soak it in and reclaim your glory 🥀🛸

#StarGazer #SunSign #WaterChild

[riznoire]

Clearing out an emotional drawer and came across this Peace.

Peace in knowing myself

Peace in knowing my desire.

..She saw what she wanted and went for it.

Peace 💜

#SelfLove #FindingMe #LovingMe

[riznoire]

"I didn't get no sleep at all last night

My shoulders were as heavy as lead.

I felt something was just not right,

I had to roll a little spliff for my head..

So I took a walk inside

Talked to I, I self.

Free I from this frame of mind

Oh Jah give I strength"

-Stephen Marley

I hope he doesn't mind but... his vision gave me strength. The simplicity of this connection.. Earth Air Sun Water + 🎶a likkle spliff for my head 🎶 😏😘

[riznoire]

Because blame gets us nowhere fast.. break the chains.. free your mental.. liberate your damn self!* #BreakingChains #LiberateYoDamnSelf #FreeYourMind .. and your heart will follow 💚

[riznoire]

How ridiculously ironic..

#FeminismKills #DivineFeminine #MajícWoman

[riznoire]

Love > Pride

[riznoire]

Love is not feminine, Nor is it masculine. it just.. ..Is. The great equalizer. ..We all could use a great deal more of it..

RizNoire

[riznoire]

Dear Ex-lover

So many questions that you should have asked me. So much unresolved. So much more that I need to ask you. But.. I’ll settle for this outlet. If ever you see this.. THINK. Then respond

-I was 17. You .. 24. With no knowledge of your culture, none of freedom. Why did u pursue me? Was I an easy target? How many more like me? How many younger. You told me of at least 2. Do you know what that paints you in society’s standards? Guess we ignored all those rules, huh? Did you know I was a virgin? I never told you. Would it have mattered anyway? I gave you so much of me. My first everything. And you abused it. Literally.. figuratively.. back to the literal. Why did you hit me? That first time. In my car. Coming from my dorm. The corner of fitch and blake.. your hand, my head .. collided, my face smashed against the passenger window.. because you were late. Hours late.. with my car.. the abuse.. why? Why did I anger you so? How?

I gave you everything. Spent half of my check each week to rent a room in a rundown motel. For us. I was 17! Stole alcohol from the package store. Tanqueray .. that’s what you liked. Tang bang.. that’s what you called it. Hardly.. Did I tell you I got caught once? In North Haven. Arrested. I was 17 smh. Fingerprinted, with a PTA. Court, in Meriden. With my textbooks. Ha!. I was in school, college. Trying to make better of myself. Sitting in court, studying for a test as I awaited my fate for stealing a bottle of gin. The embarrassment. Did you know? Would it have mattered? Why should it matter now?

I haven’t been able to erase the mental strain you gave me. Ive carried you forth from one relationship to the next. Its strengthened me in many ways. I know clearly the signs of an abusive cheater because of you. I know clearly the signs of a manipulative abuser.. because of you. And because of you I have never allowed myself to stay in a situation that would harm me in such a way. You helped me to grow forward, further than I may have made it on my own. I am still mad at you. But I am grateful for the lessons learned, for the ache saved. As in all lessons learned, the pain is a reminder of the path I travelled. A tether to a vulnerable young me.. I revisit that girl from time to time, remind her that she’s ok. She doesn’t have to cry anymore, nothing more to fear. She’s safe now.

[riznoire]

I moved to OAKLAND.. !

I should have so much more excitement in my Soul. and.. its there.. I just have to move beyond the typical new day blues.. bc I see the gold, I can see the worth in this move. I’ve started a “new beginning” thrice in the past 2 years. seems like a trend. or maybe I'm just a wanderer.. somehow I don't believe that anymore. maybe I'm running..

I have to own my definites. all these maybe could bes give my power away. and I own it. not you. So YES.. I am a wanderer, but I seek a home. will you make room for me? Take your time deciding, Ill just make myself comfortable here.. oh, hello OAKLAND <3

[riznoire]

B'Earthday Strong. V-Steam. Chai-Yok. Something.. Different.

[lagonegirl]

Don’t normally do this but I had to. The older gentlemen in this picture noticed younger one reading a book. And just sat down and asked him questions about the book and what his next steps are as far as his education and future. Than he took his information and offered him mentorship and opportunities. Now these two man don’t know one another at all. But I share this because this is what’s missing. This is not shown by media. These black man holding each other down to better the next generation.THIS is what needs to be done. Might not mean much to some . But to those that see will see the bigger picture , this is for you! Remember “ EACH ONE TEACH ONE!” Thanks and have a good day.

source #BlackUnity 

[riznoire]

Big up big brother, big up black men..

We see you, we need you..

Give thanks