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the flowers of love are in full bloom chiaki. 23.

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all she’s ever wanted was to fit in, and even now she’s moved from that small city to tokyo. she can’t even blend in. 

                          is it... true? 

                         i heard she literally beat that girl.. 

             what? she looks so.. delicate?! wow.. deceiving 

             doooon’t talk to her, she won’t respond anyways. 

tomu usually doesn’t respond because if you have nothing nice to say-- don’t say anything at all right? none of these people knew her or the circumstances which that fight occurred. these kids knew nothing about her, and this rate none of them ever would. the high school experience could be boiled down to luck. if you’re lucky you’re popular and pretty. if you are unlucky you are one or neither of those things. according to everyone around her tomu lacked popularity. if she only smiled more and if only didn’t have such a cold look on her face. 

there are only a few people who really know her, the real her. 

it sounds so cliche and maybe it is. 

“tomu ~” yes, she looks up from her lunch box to see her friend sit right next to her. her only really friend anyone, karen makes a pouty face before using her chopsticks to reach for tomu’s lunch. obnoxious eating noises come from mouth and tomu laughs as she pulls her plate away. “nope, i made you lunch, just because you ate it early doesn’t mean you can eat mine.” tomu taps her chopsticks on karen’s nose, and karen huffs. tomu always had to sound like a mom. it wasn’t her fault that karen was such a kid at times. only wanting specific foods demanding dessert too? kid! kid! kid... what a kid. it was sweet though and it made tomu forget about everything. 

karen makes another face and tomu plucks a tempura shrimp from her plate into karen’s bento. “there i don’t want to see not one pout miss karen.” she smiles then looks down at her lunch before starting to eat once more. it’s simple when they are together, she just wishes karen didn’t have to be.. like this. they talked and giggled about things together. music, celebrities, fashion, make up. tomu was mostly into make up.. karen was a bit more a tomboy than anything. yet she always entertained tomu’s talk of make up. karen was into sports, loved animals not to mention manga. their conversations rarely ever ran deep and when they did tomu tapped out immediately. not even with karen did she want to be vulnerable.  

“tomu-chan you’re okay, right?” the sudden question-- the sudden seriousness takes the elder aback. tomu tilts her head as she looks to karen. she then puts down her chopsticks, “karen.. i’m fine why are you asking?” the younger girl tucks a piece of hair behind her ears and shyly places her hands atop of tomu’s. karen has probably heard every bad thing about her and she still chooses to be her friend. that to her, is the most precious thing anyone has ever done for her. ( aside from her cousin hwiyoung being there for her when she needed someone )  

“because it’s okay if you aren’t.” tomu looks down at their hands and at then at karen. her cheeks now reddened, she doesn’t know why she’s being like this right now. the feeling is similar to when they first met, a warm and hopeful feeling. it’s even more intense now, tomu doesn’t know if she can handle it. karen smiles at her and she sniffs a bit. it’s a long time coming but the tears start up, “...i’m” tomu starts before shaking her head, “i’m not okay karen.” all the mean words, harsh shoves away from the group get to her. her pride would never admit to being not able to handle something on her own. 

“dummy...” karen sighs loudly before bringing tomu into a hug and she kisses tomu’s temple. 

“you really aren’t alone anymore, okay?” 

“thank you.” 

it was the start.. of a beautiful and confusing time in her life. to teach her that things like love and friendship.. are more complicated than she thought. 

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sanggyun knows he tried.. damn.. her eyes are so sharp, and so was the way she spoke to him. fiercely formal.. would be the way he’d describe it, she wanted him to know there was distance between them. they weren’t friends, and they never were going to be. no matter what. 

you’d think moving to another country together would bring you closer! in this instance it did the opposite. the wedge between them became deeper, “alright alright… i’m sorry damn.” sang apologizes with a roll of his eyes. the young man walked right in front of her to ensure to her that he wasn’t running off. sanggyun– in some weird way did like tomu a lot actually. he was always so chill, cool and collected. she was more intense, calm before she struck and yet, she was so over dramatic at times. this instance was a perfect example, she didn’t have to run out and grab him like a child. “you don’t have to treat me like a child.. you act as if you’re the only one whose life changed dramatically.” sanggyun mutters before practically hopping across aisles, stopping where the kimchi was and crouching looking at their options. 

sanggyun wants to go back to japan, he wants everything to be normal again. they both were in a shitty situation, he’s the one that almost died. sanggyun feels he should be the most upset between them. 

tomu doesn’t make a counter comment to his, and let’s him go off. to a degree she should be more understanding. she knows that his life is really the one in danger here not hers. tomu knows how to defend herself despite her upbringing she knows how to survive. sanggyun is a spoiled overgrown brat who honestly was helpless sometimes. 

she should be kinder to him, but it’s all the bullshit he puts hwiyoung through that makes her dislike him. if he just could be more loyal.. less promiscuous and grateful---- then maybe. until then tomu wants to be arms length with him at all costs. moving across a country can make you see what a person is really made of. if anything tomu wants him to prove her wrong about him. but it feels like everyday he only proves her more right. it helps her justification of her ugly attitude towards him. 

quietly she follows behind him, reaching the aisle she crouches down to get the jar of her choice. “ let’s just try to get along till christmas and this can be over.” 

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Wendy chuckles. “I guess you can say that. I’m friends with two of them,” she admits, gesturing to the slogans hanging out of her pockets. “So it’s kind of part of the job description to be a fan.” She supposes this girl is one of those who has no idea who she is. It works to her advantage in this situation, she supposes. After all, she’s just a trainee under Nova. It’s not like she expects people to know who she is anymore. With news of Luxe, Convex, Eclipse, and the latest MGA winners, who has time to remember hidden people like her? “Are you also a fan?” 

Wendy can barely control the surprise on her face at the other girl’s offer. She observes the taller girl. She’s definitely taller than Wendy is, but her face looks very friendly and cute. However, despite the cheeriness in her eyes, Wendy gets the feeling that this girl is not to be crossed. “I’d like that very much,” she says with a smile. “Especially if allow me to treat you to a nice meal in thanks!” It wasn’t fair for Wendy to take advantage of a stranger’s kindness, so she’ll have to do the other girl a favor as well. 

“My name is Wendy, by the way,” she says with a bow. “It’s very nice to meet you!” 

tomu is more surprised than anything, it must be interesting to have friends who were actual celebrities. she looks at the girls on the stage more closely then looking back to the girl in front of her. the girl was super pretty just like the girls in the group. birds of a feather really do flock together huh? tomu can’t relate unfortunately, she doesn’t really have that many friends. she usually sticks out because of her juon like expression and demeanor. “you do not need to treat me to anything.” it was nice for her to offer, but tomu couldn’t ruin her diet now, she was slowly getting into ballet. so she wants to be in peak perfection. 

“hello miss wendy, i am muto tomu, it’s my pleasure to meet you.” tomu greets the girl with a respectful bow, standing back straight she gives a warm smile. with other girls she is more than willing to look more friendly and approachable. it’s men she always was careful of, she chose to be as standoffish and cold as possible. 

“and i will be happy to aid you in cheering for your friends.” she kneels to the ground, and gestures for wendy to hop on her shoulders. today has been truly wild.. she loses sanggyun, she knocked an ice cream cone out of a kid’s hand. this act could make up for the losses she’s taken today, it can redeem the day for her. 

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it all goes too quickly. the area is crowded and he decides to slide right between two people. naturally, he brushes on one person, nothing harsh, nothing even worth apologizing for. is trying to make his way somewhere that much of a sin. seems like it. because he quickly feels a sting on his hand and sees the perfect looking ice cream fall from his hand. it’s as if he’s seeing the fall in slow motion, yet he’s frozen. “no…” he calls in despair. splouch. he wants to fall on his knees and scream. dramatic much? not nearly enough, no. sad eyes turn to the cause of the biggest, most awful, most tragic event in all of Felix Lee’s history. a girl. that seems to be angry at him for what she has done. he’s just confused. confused and sad. eyes go from the ice cream to the girl. from the girl to the ice cream. “why would i be a weirdo… i only wanted to eat an ice cream.” corner of his mouth fall. “i don’t even have money left for another one…” innocent and big eyes set on the older woman, eyebrows knit together to complete the pitiful look. “why did you do attack my ice cream…?

to everyone looking from the outside, this was probably.. kdrama level dramatic. 

it’s the look on his face that makes her feel even more guilty about everything. this wasn’t fair! how could this happen? maybe sanggyun was right-- despite how graceful she was... in some social interactions she was.. far from being ‘graceful’. this was akin to falling on your face in public, this was so embarrassing. tomu didn’t know whether to comfort or to continue being mad because she made a mistake. tomu wasn’t a woman to make mistakes, so she wasn’t handling this well to say the least. she grumbles something inaudible under her breath.

so she takes a deep breath, and exhales slowly, “i’m.. very sorry little one.” she speaks in a gentle tone, it’s a complete 180 from the the voice she just had a moment ago. tomu takes a step back to bow regretfully and stands straight composing herself, “i’ll buy you two, one for each hand? how does that sound?” now she’s speaking to him as if he were a very little kid. tomu is a sucker for innocent eyes and she’s hook line and sinker. too bad sanggyun was never cute, this kid was adorable! like the little brother she never had. 

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soohyun is.. enchanted by chiaki to say the least. she’s tall, pretty, dependable– and not to mention strong. soohyun is only one of those things when comparing herself to tomu. dependable, maybe to a stupid degree but she is loyal. when they began talking soohyun lamented to her about she’d love to be a beautiful graceful ballerina. so tomu took it upon herself to give her a few lessons. she was far too kind… really. 

“well you see.. i never really could afford something like ballet.” soohyun low key envied the other kids whose parents could easily afford something like ballet or instruments. the only instruments she had access to were a guitar, and the piano. the piano being a family heirloom, and the guitar a gift from her grandparents. she then upgraded to the ukulele when she saved enough for it. it’s embarrassing to admit to chiaki– who obviously was at least upper middle class. she had such a regal, queen like air to her.. something soohyun aspires to be like. 

she obediently comes over to the balance beam, she carefully balances herself, leg on the beam following chiaki’s footsteps. “like this right?” she looks at chiaki then looks at herself in the mirror. she sighs at herself.. because this probably wasn’t going to go well. though her japanese will significantly improve due to hanging out with chiaki more. 

tomu steps back from the balance beam to look at soohyun’s form. she straightens her back up, and pulls her a little farther back so her leg will stretch more. “there more like this, you’re actually more flexible than you think.” tomu pats soohyun’s head, then she gives further instruction and continues to watch the young girl. from what she gathered from soohyun was that she grew up on a small farm. she didn’t really have many friends growing up aside from her brother. tomu could relate seeing how she only had hwiyoung, and karen. soohyun gushed about all the friends she’s made in seoul and how happy she was. it was so endearing and sweet.

the comment about not being able to afford ballet. it reminded the japanese girl that she was privileged being able to do what she wanted. financial freedom, to a certain extent of course. ballet, kendo, tea ceremony lessons, and private schools. lawyers.. were a big one. “well honestly-- it was fun but tense, ballet i mean.” tomu tells soohyun then shrugs, “you didn’t miss much, but you have me here and i will teach you to the best of my ability.” it’s a promise without her having to say ‘i promise’. tomu doesn’t want soohyun to feel as if she missed out on something when she really didn’t. 

“enough stretching, hmm- have you ever watched princess tutu?” tomu asks the girl with a smile. “you remind me of the main character a bit.” a beautiful precious duck. 

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it’s a miracle that his parents let him attend all three days of the festival. this permission had a price naturally, but he’s willing to put a bit more effort into school work just for three days of freedom. he didn’t plan anything besides meeting soohyun at some point, that’s why he often found himself wandering alone the festival area either with his phone in hand to stream the event or food (and sometimes both, quite the juggle exercise, however he could make it work). this time around, his phone is tucked in his pocket and his eyes are glued on the vanilla ice cream he’s holding. the teenager licks his lips, in admiration in front of what could be his last ice cream of summer season 2018. it looks so sweet, it looks so good, it looks so refreshing… it’s going to be perfect.

if you spoke to anyone close to tomu, they would tell you she was a bit paranoid at times. thanks to her past she should be really careful. tomu tried her best to function normally like any other girl her age. she feels someone brush against her backside. her body on high alert, she quickly turns around to confront whoever it was. reflexes at an all time high, slap what she assumes to be her assailant’s hands. unfortunately-- whoever this person was.. just lost their ice cream cone. she watches it fall to the ground as if it was in slow motion. ( was this all.. just a misunderstand? oh no..  ) 

“oh my goodness i--” tomu begins then she looks up to see.. a teenager? a literal kid... she was a demon for this. “i- thought you-- touched me and i-” she stutters then angrily points at him, “ah! why aren’t you some weirdo!” tomu whines-- animated as if she jumped off a manga page. 

“please say this isn’t your ice cream!” tomu hopes it isn’t his-- she doesn’t want to admit she messed up like this. 

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This is the first time Wendy gets to see Seolhyun unni, Dawon unni, and the rest of Luxe perform as a debuted group. She’s not going to lie. It’s still weird for her to see the onstage as idols rather than as friends or fellow trainees. She’s not going to lie. She’s happy for them, but she still has a little bit of resentment toward Dawon unni for being smart enough to leave Nova. Dawon unni has made her dreams come true. Meanwhile, Wendy is still stuck in the same place, doing the same things. When will it be her turn in the spotlight? 

She shakes away all those thoughts as she focuses on trying to find a spot where she can actually see the performance and not just watch her friends through someone else’s camera phone. She gently tucks her Ella and Sona slogans in her pocket, scowling at the many people who have pretty much set up camp at the front row. “This isn’t going to work,” she mutters under her breath. Addressing the girl next to her, she adds, “You’re lucky you’re tall enough to see what’s happening.” 

tomu decided that she will be stanning eclipse and convex, but the girls in Luxe are really gorgeous. she isn’t someone who goes to seek idols out, unless it was convex then she’d be sprinting to go see them. so far she was enjoying the show the girls were putting on and tomu had a clear view of everything. luckily she was taller than most of the people standing around her. 

she watches this girl looking around, tomu chops it up to her trying to find a spot in the crowd to watch the girls. tomu doesn’t say anything, in fact the girl speaks to her first. “well in situations like this it comes in handy i suppose.” tomu replies politely, “are you a fan?” it’s a stupid and obvious question one, of course the other girl wants to see the group. she wouldn’t be looking around and huffing if she wasn’t. tomu did feel for the girl.. she was so tiny.. her face was just as small. she’s.. sure she has seen her around somewhere but she isn’t for sure. so won’t mention it, clearing her throat, she smiles gently “if you’d like i can probably help you see.” tomu taps her own shoulders her smile now a confident one. 

this girl probably weighs-- 49 kilos max, tomu can bench press at least 5 of her probably. “i’m quite strong, and i would like to help you out.” tomu continues to speak formally with the girl. 

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fall is here, will you fall for me...? 

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“miss soohyun..” calls to the younger girl and crouches a bit to pat her head. tomu doesn’t want to treat her like a child, but with soohyun’s youthful face it was hard. soohyun reminds her of.. someone important to her, so she wants to protect her. they met when tomu first arrived actually, she helped her with directions and from there they hit it off. 

she always wanted to have a little sister, a cute companion, alas she was an only child. her big eyes stared in wonder at the young girl in front of her. though soohyun won’t say it out loud-- she had definitely been through a lot. so tomu wants to help build her confidence, to such a high level that she would never be hurt again. tomu knew that kendo probably wasn’t the option, seeing how soohyun didn’t seem too interested in the idea when she suggested it. so dancing it was! tomu was a ballerina, now she does dance more casually. though.. she brought her pointe shoes just in case soohyun asks if she can still do it. ( she wanted to show off a little bit tbh )

“ballet is going to do wonders for you, i can’t believe you’ve never even taken a lesson before.” tomu says before standing back up straight, and heading to the balance beam to start stretching. “come come.” skill assessing needed to be done too. 

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supernova angel

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tomu was in korea long enough to catch the mgas, shows like that were her guilty pleasure. even though usually the people she actually thought had talent never made it to the top. so many young kids were on that show.. who had such high hopes, it was awful to see them not make it. 

the himdere believed in fate, and the ways of the universe. in one way or another people will reach to their desired destination. she adjusts the strap of her the carrying bag that contained her bamboo sword. “eh..” tomu tilts her head, and notices that it’s changmin--? from the mgas? right now he’s sticking out like a sore thumb. especially with tomu’s hawk like eyes locking onto him, tunnel vision is activated. her slender body weaved through the bustling people of seoul, and she gives a small wave before approaching the boy. though her aura is quite intimidating he is a child after all so she softens up. it’s a small smile, but it’s a smile nonetheless. 

“hi- you are changmin-ssi from the mgas right?” even before he confirms her suspicions she gives him a small bow and hwaiting motion, “you did well.” she spoke like a knowledgeable big sister, and smiled like a proud mother.  

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if it glitters,

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at her old kendo club, back in high school they used to call her hardcore muto. intense in and out of the ring, tomu never would describe herself as.. warm per se. once proper introductions have been made then she is more willing to open up. not all the way, but enough to make ‘friends’. jinhwan and her actually had a few things in common so it was nice to talk to him. plus.. he wasn’t insufferable, most men at their age were either at the worst or at their peak. she is practically sprinting to the cat cafe, tomu hates being late. being punctual was common courtesy! 

“jinhwan-ssi..” she’s always formal, especially knowing that jinhwan was older than her. not by much, but she wants him to know.. she does respect him. “you worked hard today, so i brought you something.” she takes out a small bento box with a gold ribbon wrapped around it. a gentle smile forms on her lips, as she extends the small token. ( it’s nothing too crazy, just japanese style curry-- which she hopes he likes ) jinhwan was like a giant cat, sometimes you really had to be aggressive with affection. it was a small bit of affection, besides if he eats this he might grow. 

she’s still in her work out clothes, hair in a high ponytail, she isn’t insecure about her body in the least. tomu makes note of the once overs, and quick glances from everyone in the room. “sorry i came in my workout, i didn’t want to be late to come hang out.” she says taking a seat, pulling the scrunchie from her hair and she shakes it about. 

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