Me, Myself, I

through this blog, I hope that you can read my soul

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when i meet you, I hope that we connect on the deepest of levels. You see I’m not really normal right now. My day and night has completely switched. I might not be the easiest to understand. My life is really a paradox. I’m a virgin who knows how to get girls. When i meet you. I wonder if you’ll be as broken as me or even stronger than me. You see I lose interest really fast when i talk to girls. I guess I never really connected with them. I never tell them everything about me. There’s not that many people in this world that i enjoy replying to. I don’t know what the point of this post is. I’m just thinking about how single I've been and how hopeless I've been feeling in general.  I just wonder if you saw me like this now, would you love me? Or would you wait until after the grind. I want a movie type love. I’m waiting for the moment that i meet someone and really hit it off with. 

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i want a pack of ciggs 

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planning to move to vegas this time next year. Hopefully it works out. 

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you people made me like this. 

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 i know, i know that life would be better without me. I know

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I’m really sorry that my existence has caused you so much trouble, I’m really sorry that I was born. 

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You peaked my interest, now just don’t bore me. 

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i wonder if any girls out there is waiting for a guy like me

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I remember when i would tell myself that i'll never drink and smoke....well look at me now.

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the day i meet a girl i like, that's the day i start charging my phone.

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my mom is best at making me feel like things would be better if i wasn't born. 

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boys only want love if its torture. I can't have a girl to just be down for me. There needs to be a challenge or chase or i'l become uninterested. 

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There are times when I feel really lonely. Not that I'm actually alone. I just feel like I'm my own species, hoping for a female of my kind to appear. 

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I'm so obsessed with my future girlfriend and I don't know who she is. I don't know. I just think it's amazing that potentially one day. I'll meet a girl who will wow me enough that I would want to make her my girlfriend. 

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I believe people should appreciate the age they're at and make the best out of it. Make smart decisions, not everyone is lucky enough to be able to have a highschool and college experience. 

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There's a lot of girls out there in this world. I find most of them basic. I don't know I guess I've never gotten to know them like that. But I haven't seen any girls lately that i actually want to approach. I just want to meet a cute asian shawty whose fun and thinks about the world a lot. I guess in a way I have those type of girls around me. But I don't know, I guess i'm just not interested. I have it in my head that when i meet her it's going to be some movie type shit. Like her dropping her books and me picking it up .But that's not how life works. I'll either approach her or she'll approach me. Of all the girls I've approached and gotten their numbers. I feel like getting girls numbers is just a game to me. And i give up halfway. Maybe I've already met the girl for me but I'm just way too much of an asshole. I don't know. I feel like I already know what I want in a girl physically and emotionally. I love it when i actually see girls I want to approach. They are usually gorgeous as hell. Like these 2 girls. Jane and Denise. I met both of them at parties and they both just wowed me, with their looks, dancing, and weed smoking.  My first impression of them, were the same. YOU'RE DOPE. But sadly they both had boyfriends, like i was physically next to their boyfriends admiring their girlfriends. I feel like this  is a bit creepy me talking about these girls that barely know me or remember me. But those girls really seemed A1. They did have boyfriends after all........ 

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Dear Future GF

I wonder as I am right now, what would you think of me? What would you think of all this.