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raf - he/she - 22 - dream journal blog

[robotdreamer]

i had a dream i was trapped in minecraft???

[robotdreamer]

i was in a never ending playhouse. it was really dark. it wasnt really me, i was just a spectator watching a little girl explore the place. she didnt look human to me? i think she was running away from something.

[robotdreamer]

I was going to these classes and right outside some guy got arrested for killing a cop. Me and another guy were outside trying to figure out what happened.

I remember reading one of the textbooks and one of the lines feeling really important, but i dont remember what it said.

Last i remember from this dream is i met a group of girls who i apparently had met before when i was younger? Some of them seem vaguely familiar, but i think my brain made most of them up.

[robotdreamer]

i do not remember my dreams from last night but heres some dreams from the last month i vaguely remember.

-i was listening to get lucky. i think i was on a car and listening to the radio or something. it sounded SO vivid.

-i was in some kind of mystery/horror plot that took place at my aunts house and moistcritikal was there for some fucking reason.

[robotdreamer]

I was in some kind of history museum where we learned about these creatures that came from space and used to roam the earth, called "The cosmics". They were huge. I remember standing over their fossils.

There was also apparently some kind of flood tied to the cosmics, which the museum had recreated in this waterpark like area. I remember the waves crashing against my body and it feeling really intense.

[robotdreamer]

-i discovered an old sketchbook from when i was a kid, full of silly stupid doodles and i came across perfectly drawn transformers yaoi fanart. i immediately messaged my friends like "how the fuck did i make this. i dont know how to draw. i didnt know transformers back then."

-i was back in middle school and i had found these special classes no one had told me about with some kind of special teachers, and i really wanted to join them. but i got in trouble with a different teacher and i had to hide around from her? the thing i remember most is that the classes took place outside instead of a classroom. and it looked really chill.

[robotdreamer]

god, there are so many dreams i have forgotten to write here.

-talked to alma again, outside of a building. i dont remember our conversation? but this time it felt like her, and i asked her to speak with me again.

-i was trapped in a false awakening loop. i was alone in my sister's house, when my father came in and told me he had to go, that something bad was going to happen. i got this strong sense that he was going to die. it freaked me out so much, it made me go lucid. i tried to wake myself up but instead i just appeared on my sister's bed. it took me a few times to actually wake up.

[pepminttea]

rb with your most common recurring theme in your nightmares. mine is pregnancy

[robotdreamer]

this dream makes no sense, but i had a dream i was playing a video game where you went to like??? a swimming competition thing?? and you had to get better at it to unlock new classes.

but there was a plot?? i dont remember it at all, but there was a mystery aspect. there was also this huge map. there was the location where the main events took place, like a big building for swimming. and there were different pools according to your level.

and inside there were different rooms where the swimmers would stay and sleep. there were a bunch of secret rooms too. i remember one that was really dark and you could only be inside for a short time because there was a ghost that would go after you.

outside of this main game area there was this part of the map that was just a bunch of different stores you could access. and you needed specific things from some of them to advance the plot.

i remember there was this advertisement in one of them of a person who claimed to be investigating the same thing we were, and there was a number you could call to exchange information. i never got to do it, but i did save the phone number to use later.

i also had dreams abt some family members, but i cant remember specifics.

[robotdreamer]

i completely forgot to post about this here but i had a dream i traveled to the transformers animated universe and met the characters KSNFNDND

the interesting part about it is i remember the world was like. the art style but in 3d? and it somehow didnt look super fake.

[robotdreamer]

my recent lucid dreams have been really disappointing. each time ive had one ive attempted to talk to alma again, but nothing really happens.

she doesnt *feel* like the same character. i ask her questions and she gives me nothing answers. whatever part of my subconscious she personified in that first dream i just havent been able to tap into that again. i'll try to speak with her again next time i lucid dream.

[sierpinskiharmony2]

have you ever wanted to lucid dream so bad that you dream of you lucid dreaming?

[robotdreamer]

i was lucid again today. i was in what looked like a savanna with someone else. (cant remember who. a woman, i think). we were doing something, but i cant remember what exactly, i just know we had to go somewhere and she started to run. i suddenly realized none of it was real, and i remembered my intention to talk to alma again. so i told the person i was with they could keep going, and i would catch up later (lying for no reason lol) and then i decided to fly off somewhere else. i landed on top of a building, i looked up at the sky and yelled out alma's name. the dream felt weird then, kinda like it was shaking a little? i heard her voice respond something to me, but i dont remember what.

if she's a part of my subconscious, i figured she would have interesting things to say about my current troubles, things i haven't thought about. so i asked her about my ocd specifically, since it's been really bad. she told me "you already know what you have to do. i cant help you." probably in reference to the coping mechanisms i had already started to implement. i told her "well, do you have anything else to say to me?" and she, again, said no. i felt really irritated, so i decided to wake myself up.

interestingly, i never saw her. she was a disembodied voice.

[robotdreamer]

i had a really interesting lucid dream this morning. i do not remember what lead up to me becoming lucid, i just remember i was walking down the street outside my house and everything looked vivid. i suddenly recalled something i had been meaning to do. for context, its not uncommon for people to assign a dream character as their "dream guide" to help them do stuff in their dream. ive been meaning to make one because im interested in making a persistent realm (a place in your dreams you come back to frequently), and i think having a dream character specifically tasked with helping me do stuff will make it so i dont have to do as much conscious effort. i considered designing one myself (consciously creating their apperance, naming them, etc) but ive heard people have better experiences when the guide "reveals itself" and i also really wanted to work with whatever my subconscious wanted to give me. so i decided what i was gonna do was directly ask the dream to take me to my guide.

i turned to a random dream character and asked them "do you know where my guide is?" and they said yes, but gave me a random location. all of a sudden, every dream character nearby was approaching me saying "no, i know where they are" and giving me random locations.

one of them said "they're in your kitchen" and since that was the first place i actually knew, i decided to walk to my house. outside of it, was a woman. she looked like she was in her 40s. i didnt recognize it at the time, but her appearance reminded me a lot of a teacher i used to have (which is really interesting symbolism i think). i asked her if she was my guide, and she said she was. i was really excited, so i asked to hug her. she seemed uncomfortable and said something about how she wanted our relationship to be "professional" so i didnt push. we walked out the house together.

anyway, i dont remember most of what we talked while we walked, but i remember some locations. i remember this big building that looked kinda like a library/school, and then just a big street. one thing i do remember her saying was "if you ever get lost in a dream, just find other dream characters and follow them, they'll inevitably lead you somewhere."

at one point, i remembered a question ive seen some lucid dreamers ask their dream characters, and i was really curious what she would say. i asked her "are you a conscious entity?"

she said she was. so i asked her then "what happens to you while im awake?"

she said some dream characters have enough individuality that they essentially continue to exist even while im awake, as spirits of sorts, and then appear again later. but others dont and then simply "return to become parts of the whole."

i noticed i was waking up. and she suddenly seemed sad. i asked her if it was because she would stop existing, and she seemed to allude that yes, that was the case. i said i wanted to find her again, so i wanted her name. she told me it was alma which is a name in spanish that means "soul" so thats also really interesting symbolism.

she seemed reluctant to let me wake up, which i find an interesting contrast to how earlier in the dream she didnt want us to get close or intimate. she pulled me towards her and held onto me tightly. she started to kiss me and i remember this feeling of not wanting to let go, like i *had* to stay with her.

i woke up very shortly after.