"E forse il fiume è dentro di lei"

she/her or fae/faer, 22, mentally ill. TW for sh, suicide, ed, depression, sa, ptsd and more. DM me for my backup

[rockbottomwithashovel]

Hi, I go by Rock <3

I'm she/her, or fae/faer

I'm bisexual and 22

I have depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts/actions, anorexia (in recovery, mostly), insomnia, ASD, PTSD/C-PTSD, BPD, ADHD and probably more idk or can't think of. I struggle with self harm, with alcohol for a while, and have been abused in a lot of ways and talk about it in this blog. I try to put trigger warning tags so people don't get triggered.

I DO NOT ENCOURAGE ED OR SH EVEN THOUGH I POST ABOUT IT!!!! I'm struggling but don't want anyone else to, so if this triggers you, please block me. Please block, don't report, this safe space is the single thread I hold on by and if I'm termed I'll just come back (but mentally worse lol)

Tags:

self harm -> tw sh, cvts,

suicide -> tw sui, tw suicide, tw su1, maybe I'm better off dead

sexual assault -> tw sa

calories and weight -> tw numbers

my own posts -> rock rambles

No terfs, homophobes, sexists, racist, ableist... Basically if you discriminate, piss off. My blog ain't for you.

If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here for basically any and everything. Don't let silence take you down, you are not alone.

I have an account, @talkawaythedark where you can go on anon and vent about anything and everything and let out the secrets that burden you on anon, I won't judge. I also have an ed recovery account called @rockbottomwithaladder <33

[wintercorrybriea2]

juvenile springtail

[imdrinkingmiso]

I am doing whatever the opposite of locked in is .

[taavicleric]

I am locked out. I am in the parking lot. The rain is coming.

[hello-friends9500]

It's not a cure-all solution but it's something that helps me manage for the time being.

[hello-friends9500]

Feels like my innocence was gone too soon, if that makes sense.

[hello-friends9500]

Mentally isolating myself even further.

[paper-wounds]

[minimalistquotes]

Forgive yourself for all the wrong things you did just to be loved.

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'll be like "I'm not really depressed though" but then every day feels like this

[nudityandnerdery]

Sub-Radio, the band that did Stacy's Dad, coming out with another banger for Pride.

[rockbottomwithashovel]

Fun fact about me, I am hypersensitive, especially to heat. So when I say i didnt need to blow on the food i bought fresh from the grill you know it's fucking cold out here

[rockbottomwithashovel]

At the festival. Eating dumplings alone. But I dont want to kill myself. This is progress :)

[rockbottomwithashovel]

nighty night everyone, please wish me luck with sleeping and tomorrow! <33

[sobcat]

i can't believe they let me be in charge of myself

[redstonedust]

thinking "everyone can tell im bad at this" as i stand completely motionless doing nothing in public

[kosmogrl]

uh oh made a mistake. surely i’ll learn from it and fix things

[bluest-fluff]

Wishing you the strength to choose healing every day, every moment.