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Hi guys!!! thanks you so much for the the love on “The Tigress”, hopefully chapter four will be out tonight!!
THE TIGRESS Chapter Three
COD X Fem!Reader
(Eventual Simon Riley x Fem!Reader)
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“And here’s your room.” John opens the door with a keycard before handing it to Y/N.
The boys reclined in the rec room, where all bedrooms led to, attached to a kitchen barely big enough to fit all of them in.
Y/N steps into the room, assessing the grey walls, grey bedding, grey rug, and grey curtains. A poor excuse of a double bed pushed into the far-right corner of the room, a desk on the other side and a wardrobe by the door. The bathroom door in the middle of the left wall, indented and marked with stains Y/N doesn’t want to think about.
“Hm. You’d think they’d chose a less depressing colour to house soldiers, would you not, Cap?” She glances towards him, where he positioned himself just outside her door.
“Well, you can decorate it however you want. You’ll be here for a few months before we leave for the op. Just don’t repaint the walls.”
She throws her bag down, too small for a soldier of so much legacy, John thinks.
“No promises.”
John nods, “Well, you’ll pay the fine. I’ll leave you to rest. Remember, debrief-“
“At 0900, yeah I know.” She cuts him off, sitting on the edge of the hard mattress, untying her boots. “You got food in the fridge?”
He nods, “Take whatever you want. We’re due a delivery for food soon, so write on the fridge magnet what you need.”
Y/N nods, “Great. Well, thanks Cap. Can’t wait to work with you.”
She smirks, eying him up and down.
Great. John thinks, another Johnny.
He shuts her door, turning to the boys who are reclined on the sofas, Ghost sat on the old grandfather chair what springs squeak every time he sits, as he always does, legs parted and arms crossed.
Johnny is the first to look up as the door closes, like a dog smelling a bone.
“So, what dae we think?” He looks around the room.
Kyle sighs, kicking his feet onto the coffee table “She seems to like trouble, like you Johnny, bet you’ll get along jus’ fine.”
His face lights up, “Ya think, Gaz? Cannae wait to have someone else on my side to tease Lt.”
Ghost scoffs beneath his mask, opting for his plain balaclava.
John sighs, crossing his arms as he stands in front of the boys, “She’s not here for jokes, Johnny. Don’t reel her in to whatever you’re thinking. She’s here to train with us and assist us with the operation. Don’t get too comfortable.”
He looks towards the shadow in the room, “And Simon, don’t let her rile you up.”
“Would never happen, Cap.”
Johnny snickers, “Looks like she almost had you on the tarmac though, Lt. Could see those eyes narrowing a mile away.”
Simon said nothing, he didn’t have to. He never did. No soldier has ever ‘riled’ him up, he’s known for his control, his restraint even against Johnny’s teasing. A newcomer won’t reach him. He’ll make sure of it. Even one’s who are, almost, tempting.
Y/N lies back onto the bed, staring at the white ceiling.
A few months. She thought. A few months of this, then, onto the next thing. As always.
She found herself almost missing the time she was part of the team she ran with when she first joined the SBS. Her old captain, who always seemed to pick on her but it never seemed to bother her. Like she knew he only did it to make her stronger. Sometimes she missed the structure, the same thing every day. Knowing every nook and cranny of the base, knowing almost everyone there. Now, it’s always different. She’s learnt to not care about names, or trying to involve herself in activities not in the job description. It’s for the better. Less stress, more control.
Just finish the job.
Her mind travels to the mask, to Ghost.
She had heard of him, what she was allowed to know. That he moved like a phantom, if you see him, you’re already dead, the way he towers over all other soldiers on base, eyes dark, no one ever seeing his face.
Surely someone has. She thinks, If not, maybe she can be the first. Maybe that’s what’ll keep her occupied over these next few months.
1st Mission objective: See Ghost’s face.
2nd Mission objective: Complete the Op.
Seems easy enough.
A fun game. A way to pass time.
And she’s always had a way to get what she wants.
THE TIGRESS (Chapter two)
COD x Fem!Reader
(eventual Simon Riley x Fem!Reader)
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THE TIGRESS (Chapter One
Call of duty x Fem!Reader
(eventual Simon Riley x Reader)
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As promised, here are the cute romantic photos and a artsy angsty one cause I have no self control x) https://imgur.com/a/50w49gv *run to read the new chapter*
Holy crappppp I love these so much!! Thank you for sharing aghhhhhh I hope u like the new chapter! <3
DEAL WITH THE DEVIL | John Wick
Chapter Seven
- The Baba Yaga is back, fighting off demons from the past and protecting the one he left behind-
Warnings: gore, religious imagery, violence (mentioned)
Au: hi guys! This in an ‘inbetween’ chapter, im writing the next one currently, just want to give you guys something before it all kicks off! Hope you enjoy.
<-previous chapter / next / beginning
John knew he was playing a dangerous game. He had lost count of his winnings but knew he had never failed. But now, losing seems possible, and it frightens him. Teaming up with the woman who was once his only reason for breathing, a woman burdened by the last name which haunts the underworld they both inhabit. The ‘Ivanov’ family were once royalty. The beginnings of the high table. They sit higher than the high table, the rule doesn’t apply to them. That’s what makes them so dangerous. Viktor Ivanov simply decides when the rules will benefit him, imposing them on the weak and exploiting their promises and bargaining. But Sasha was different. When John had met her, she had already begun to lead her own life. The French businessman was simply an act of rebellion, it was never about money, or making her name known and transformed into a myth whispered in corners of rooms, but just to show her father that she can kill and keep killing until an opening leads to her father. Meeting John was that- an opening, an opportunity to weaken Viktor. And for a moment, it did.
He sent his men after them both when he heard they were living with each other in a recluse home in France. It was a warning. Dozens entered their home, but none left. That was a few months before he left her. Left for Helen- peace- and peace didn’t seem possible with the daughter of the devil, the woman in line for the Ivanov throne. He had always thought she’d go back to her father. Sometimes, she was cruel. The line of innocence and evil blurred in her fury, everything would become a victim of her violence. It was in her nature, to act as the devil’s advocate and messenger of death. But as John watches her now, sleeping with her features softened without cruelty between her brows, he questions whether she was her father’s daughter after all.
In Rome, she seemed vulnerable, not to his gun but to his touch. She begged him to kill her even when she could have bested him due to his ageing stance. Maybe she did want to escape, the weight of her last name lying too heavy on her mind, and in the Ivanov family, death was the only escape. John was her salvation, delivering a death which meant his freedom. She finally wanted to be the cause of something good. And John took that away from her.
Sasha stirs in her sleep, the blankets cascading in waves over her body’s adjustment. Her features pinch together and a grunt escapes her mouth.
Her eyes slowly peel open, blinking out the shards of light escaping through the blinds.
John watches from his place on the couch, nursing a glass of whiskey in a new tailored suit.
She pulls herself up the mattress, catching John’s eyes.
‘What time is it?” She grumbles, slowly edging herself off the mattress.
‘8:00 pm’ He grunts.
She peers down at herself, dressed only in her bra and underwear, a white bandage perfectly wrapped around her torso.
‘Thanks for,’ she hesitates, pointing down at the bandage, ’that.’
John nods, an awkward silence filling the air.
She digs her fingers into the mattress, the blood on her knuckles cracking. John studies her movements.
“What are we going to do, John?”
For once in her life, Sasha didn’t know what came next. There wasn’t meant to be anything after Rome.
‘Find your father.’ John speaks with certainty, ‘And kill him.’
Sasha nods, her eyebrows pulled together, contrasting with John’s certainty.
‘He’ll know we’re coming’ She looks at him, eyes darkening.
John grunts, ‘Yeah, he will.’
They sit in the silence for a while.
Sasha pushes herself up, the ache spreading to every part of her body.
‘Well then,” she clears her throat, ‘I better get dressed.’
She makes her way to the bathroom.
‘I left your clothes in the bathroom.’ John calls out behind her, watching her slowly drag herself away.
She holds her thumb up over her shoulder.
Not only had John gathered her a brand new tailored Italian suit, he had also cleaned all her blood away from the floor, walls and sink. Sasha laughed internally, he must’ve been waiting for her to wake for a while.
She slowly unravelled the bandage, revealing her wound. She paid no mind to the nasty, dark bruising decorating her skin, and how John managed to stitch her wound perfectly back up together. Sasha always remembered him to lack a certain skill of stitching a wound, doing the bare minimum to bring the skin together on himself. But on her torso, the wound seems to be healing already.
Sasha steps into the shower, letting the water wash away the past few nights. Memories flash in her mind, John taking up most. His touch is heavy, his eyes so haunting, his voice resonating so deeply within her chest whenever he speaks.
A mantra fills her head,
He didn’t do it, he didn’t do it, he didn’t do it.
She should’ve felt some sort of relief, most do when they’re spared by the boogeyman. But she couldn’t. Not when it comes to the wrath of her father. The nightmare had just begun. Sasha and John will have to walk through the nine circles of hell: separation from anything holy, storms, rain, the boulders’s of the Ivanov palace pushing them away, fights of wrath, flames shooting from open graves, shot at by the cenaturs Viktor reigns, bitten by snakes and fighting the chance to be frozen in time forever beneath Viktor’s fist- their souls in the grasp of the devil.
The dried blood escapes through the drains, Sasha breaths in holding her diaphragm tightly together- and breaths out deeply.
She was ready to fight for her freedom and John’s. Together.
currently writing chapter seven for “Deal with the devil”, hopefully it’s coming out tonight!!! Sorry for the wait <3
Hello ! I hope it you don't mind, but I was really inspired by your fic and did a little photoshoot of the action scene in CP2077 ! https://imgur.com/a/KepXu1r I did my best to recreate Sasha from your descriptions and i hope i haven't got anything too wrong ><
Omg i love it, very talented!! Thank you and i’m so glad i’ve inspired you <3
DEAL WITH THE DEVIL | John Wick
Chapter Six
-The Baba Yaga is back, fighting off demons from the past and protecting the one he left behind-
Warnings: Gore (Stitching a wound)
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Rome’s heat had never felt so hot on Sasha’s skin. Or maybe it was John’s touch, his body enclosing hers, his heavy breath fanning around her. She was ready to die, in Rome, in the only dress she owned which held pleasant memories. But his gun was thrown where neither of them could reach.
“What?” She breathes out.
John’s forehead is creased again, agony spilling from his pores, pressed against hers,
”I can’t kill you.” His voice is strained.
Her eyes search for his, behind his eyelids, searching for a sick game.
“You have to,” she pants, “You have to kill me, John. Do it.”
He shakes his head.
Sasha’s breathing quickens, her chest pushing against his suit. She turns her face from his, searching for the gun, his thighs limiting her ability to move away. The blade rests to her left, dripping with their blood, taunting them with the violence they so easily can muster. She reaches for the knife, holding it by the blade. The sharpness cutting into her palm. Sasha grasps John’s hands, which sat on either side of her face. She pushes the grip into his hand.
”Do it, John.” Sasha guides his hands to point the blade at her jugular.
Sasha had never begged, but she does so now, and so desperately. Like a sinner to a saint. A martyr to death.
Her pleas got louder, “Do it!”
The knife rocked between them, pushing into the skin then back into the air. Blood drops onto her neck, her sliced cheeks and the satin of her dress turning into black stains.
John grits his teeth, crimson leaking from the gums. He rips the blade from her controlled hand and throws it to accompany the gun. He pushes off of Sasha, standing as she lies still. They’re both gasping for air, no longer from exhaustion like predator and pray, but from the fate John is sealing for them both.
“You can’t defy the high table, John.”
He nods, for once his voice clear “I know.”
She sits up, blood still pooling from her torso “So do it.”
”You know I can’t.” His brown eyes connect with hers, filled with memories and agony for the future.
She shakes her head, “John this is your freedom. You can kill me. So just pull the trigger.”
Applauses echo through the opera house, the performance has finished.
”I’ll never be free if I kill you.” He strains.
“My father will never let you get away with this.”
”I know.”
”And I'll never get away from him.”
”I know.”
”So what do we do?”
He offers her his hand, pulling her to her feet as he covers her wound with his hand.
”We kill him. We kill all of them.”
She doesn’t respond. She can’t. Her thoughts are messy, riddled with consequences and promises. Vows she made to her family- for her family. Those she’d once loved, those who hurt her. Taunted her with bullets and prisons.
Were they her family? Is family a word meant to hurt? A word meant to haunt and dread?
Sasha dived into John’s eyes. Towards his soul, he left so guarded, but this time she could see every part of him. The pain, grief, guilt; rage.
“And then what?” She whispers, their lips almost touching.
”I don’t know.”
Their noses are brushing against each other, John’s hand still planted on her torso, one on the wound he gifted, the other on the curve of her waist.
He closes his eyes, drifting far from the world. Feeling the satin caress his palm, the warmth of her blood on his hand, the pulse echoing through her flesh. And then, the touch of her lips. Barely there, but John felt it. He leant in further, bringing them closer, sharing breaths as their lips chased each other’s.
Eternity passed them by, enclosed in their forever.
They broke apart, foreheads pressing against the others.
“You ready?” He grunts.
She brings her forehead to his chest, smelling the musk that used to coat her bedsheets and clothes.
She nods, “Yeah.”
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New York was different from what Sasha could remember. It was loud, but everything felt more secretive. Before, wandering the streets you would hear everyone’s life as you passed them by. Now, voices have dropped a tone. Or maybe Sasha’s mind has split apart from passerby’s, focusing on the boogeyman’s company- the partnership they had.
The yellow taxi felt suffocating. They had barely spoken upon their arrival in New York. John’s eyes were fixated on the streets, thoughts running through his head, about Sasha, Viktor- Helen. Sasha had stitched herself up in the continental back in Rome, but she felt the familiar tug on her torso, the stitches slowly working to become undone. Her black blouse hid the blood slowly seeping out of the wound. It was 9:00 am, 9 hours of John’s marker being active. Viktor would be suspicious, the boogeyman was the quickest there ever was. He would know something is not right. It is only a matter of time before he searches for them both. The devil had little patience with uncooperation.
The taxi pulled up to the Continental, suits and heels passing up and down the stairs. John pays the driver, a stack of notes Sasha knows is probably more than his wages the driver makes a month, and opens the door for Sasha. She hides the discomfort as she steps towards the continental doors, but besides her, John sees the slight hunch in her side.
The pair enter the building, the marble stone walls echoing the silence in the building. The Baba Yaga and Ved’ma walking together, battered and bruised. Word had gotten around from Rome, though word of mouth in the underworld is unreliable. Seeing them there -together- solidified a war brewing. Sasha Ivanova, estranged daughter of Viktor Ivanov, back from the shadows, with the one man who sent her into the darkness.
Charon awaits at the desk, eyebrows raised at their arrival.
”Mr Wick.” He turns to look at Sasha, “Miss Ivanova, how good to see you again.”
Sasha submits a subtle smile as John speaks, “A room please.”
Sasha raises her eyebrows, “One?” She speaks in his ear.
He nods, barely looking at her.
”One.”
Charon offers the room card, Sasha takes it.
“Enjoy your stay.” Charon bows his head slightly with respect.
They both nod, walking through people's stares and venomous whispers towards the Grand staircase.
”Elevator?” Sasha sighs, muscles aching.
John sighs, “Yeah.”
The elevator dings as the doors close, John and Sasha stand in each corner. They watch the numbers creep up, avoiding eye contact and any accidental touches. The silence suffocating.
The doors open smoothly as they stumble out, walking toward their room.
“You better keep on your side of the bed, John,” Sasha grunts out as she pushes the door open.
John takes his jacket off, “We’re not going to be doing much sleeping.”
He stills, Sasha raises her eyebrows.
”I can’t remember you ever being so direct.”
A beat passes, ”That’s not what I meant…We’re planning. And I need to stitch you up.”
Sasha rolls her eyes though the limp in her step says otherwise, “I am stitched up just fine, thank you.”
He turns to her and raises one eyebrow.
She sighs, “Fine. Let me shower first.” She moves towards the bathroom, allowing her shoulders to drop, closing the door behind her.
Sasha stands in the dark bathroom, letting her breathing fill the silence. She turns to the mirror, her reflection hollow-grey. The blouse she borrowed from John hangs loose from her frame, her hair barely held up by the clips she so carefully placed. The ones she lost were scattered on the roof of the Opera house. She undid the buttons slowly, feeling the fabric peel from her wound. Grunts fill the bathroom as she pulls it off her shoulders.
The wound was seeping, more blood than she was comfortable seeing leaking out of her.
‘Jesus’. She muttered.
Sasha opens the cabinet beneath the sink, grabbing the first aid kit, like a pirate finding treasure. Her head is becoming lighter, room tilting off its axis, hands becoming slightly numb. The box’s supplies fall onto the floor.
The door springs open. John stands there, blouse half unbuttoned, belt off and trousers loosely hanging from his hips. He absorbs the sight of her, half undressed, blood seeping out of her wound- the wound he gave her.
‘I didn’t think I hit anything too bad .” He mutters to no one.
Sasha was holding onto the bath, eyes hazy.
”Well you clearly clipped a vessel.” She mutters.
He steps towards her, lifting her slightly. “C’mon.”
”I can do it myself, John.” She pushes his arms away weakly, “I’ve done it many times.”
Despite her protests, he carries her to the mattress.
“I know.” He places her down, “But you’ve lost too much blood to hold anything.”
He runs to get the first aid supplies, throwing it all onto the bed beside her. He works in silence as he removes the loose stitches, cleaning the wound.
Sasha peeks out from behind her lashes, watching the way his eyebrows knit together. The sting from the peroxide did not amount to the ache in her chest, being so close to the man who would only visited her in her sleep.
His hands are steady, but his breathing gives him away. In through his nose, huffed out through his mouth, regulating his nerves.
“You were never good at this part.” His voice caresses her ears.
She closes her eyes again, feeling the needle join the skin together.
“Which part?” She whispers, the loss of blood lying heavy on her mind.
”Taking care of yourself.”
She hums softly, sleep coming close.
”Try not to sleep.” John watches the way her features soften.
But she was already gone. Her breathing deepened, slightly shaky.
John finishes the final stitch, and blood stops spilling.
He sits there, beside her, so close his hip touches her leg. He watches her chest rise and fall, slightly hesitant before repeating again. His fingers itch to touch her, to move the loose strands from her face. But he decides against it, a game too dangerous to play.
He places the blanket over her and lies on the other side, one arm behind his head and the other close to hers. He stares at the ceiling, waiting for her to wake, tracing shapes on the ceiling until memories take their place; ignoring his heartbeat pushing through his chest, towards Sasha.