❝ I always thought I might be bad, now I'm sure that it's true
Cause I think you're so good, and I'm nothing like you . . . ❞
independent, private & selective PINK DIAMOND / ROSE QUARTZ from Steven Universe, penned by ROMEO.
• 21+ • icon and para threads • heavily headcanon-based • oc & crossover friendly •
A STUDY IN responsibility, rebellion, risking it all, rejecting who you were MEANT to be, discovering who you WANT to be, unlearning toxic behavior, running from your past, making a family, making mistakes, learning to change, creating yourself, and above all, LOVE.
❝ If I could begin to be half of what you think of me,
I could do about anything, I could even learn how to
LOVE LIKE YOU . . . ❞
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CONTENT
this blog contains themes of sexuality, toxic relationships, violence, war, messed-up family dynamics, objectification of living beings, self-hatred, & other potentially triggering content
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Romeo, 30, they/them. Pink/Rose apologist & defender until I die ; it's just me & Lil Nas X against the world. Other rp blogs include hellaverse @discoinfernos & phantom of the opera @delanuit. Personal @rrrromeo.
The poor gem continues to sob letting everything out "I missed you and still do but you've given us something wonderful something beautiful our Steven.... Oh stars I tried to off him!" She covers her mouth letting out a whimper
Pink simply held Spinel as she continued to cry, continuing to smooth her hair soothingly. how long has she held onto this? the projection wondered. it must have been thousands of years coming. she'd known firsthand what holding on to this much emotion for so long could do to a gem ; even as a shadow of her former self she could remember.
but she froze at the last words to leave Spinel's mouth. it was an unnatural stillness; like a machine that had suddenly stopped. The Room itself shifted, pink clouds darkening to a dull purple.
❛ I don’t upset you? ❜ sent by Rhodonite @partcfyouruniverse
❛ are you kidding ?? ❜ Rose's pupils have grown to stars in her excitement, hands clasped in front of her as she grins widely at the fusion — a fusion she has never seen before. a Ruby and a Pearl ; what a story that must be !! Rose had thought such things could only happen on Earth, but here she is : escaped from Homeworld.
Truth was that if petal was aware that she was being pitied right now she would be even more pissed off at her former best friend. And that was saying something considering how much she was simmering with rage. "I'd like you to die for starters." She spoke honestly and with bluntness. "Not that I want us catching up but I want you to know in the years we've been apart I've become quite the skilled fighter. So I'd be more than happy to shatter you myself."
Rose sighs, more tired than anything. she is used to this ; nearly every gem in existence wished for the end of hers. she has long resigned herself to this reality. but it's the fact that the words are coming from her former friend that give them that extra little sting. Petal's fate hadn't been her fault, exactly, but that means very little. the Pearl had been her responsibility, and that means she's responsible for what happened to her, even if she'd had no real part in it.
❛ well, I can't give you that. ❜ there is a bit of self-deprecating humor in her tone — Petal doesn't know the half of it — but then she's shaking her head. ❛ and I don't want to fight you, Petal. it wouldn't go well for you. ❜
"Rose." The quartz once again decides to repeat the words spoken to her. The little amethyst had been alone pretty much all her life so socialization would be a slow progress. At the very least she could understand her. She nodded before grasping onto rose's hand. Leading her down the kindergarten before eventually reaching her exit hole. Which she climbed inside of. "Here. This is home."
Rose allows herself to be led by the little Amethyst through the ravines of the kindergarten. for the first time in centuries, Rose sees the the place as she first did : as a source of life. true, her colony's activities had stolen all future possibility of life or growth in this area, but if even one good thing could have come from it, maybe it was worth it after all.
when they arrive, Rose kneels down to observe the hole into which Amethyst had crawled. in all honesty, she doesn't know much about kindergartening, but simply given how close the exit is to the ground, it's no wonder this quartz is so small.
❛ how wonderful, ❜ she whispers to herself. an entirely new form of life! a wonderful little surprise. only on earth . . . ❛ how long have you been here? ❜
❛ Why would I ever wanna go home if you're here? ❜ sent by Pearl @partcfyouruniverse
— please understand. if we lose, we'll be killed. and if we win, we can never go home. that's what Rose had said, but Pearl, her incredible, brave little Pearl, won't be deterred.
Rose has never quite understood what humans mean when they talk about their ❛ heart ❜ or ❛ soul ❜. but here, in this moment, understanding comes all at once. because she can feel her heart taking root in her body at Pearl's words. they stir up something fierce, yet tender within her, and maybe she finally understands why the humans look at each other like that across their campfires.
❛ my Pearl. ❜ her gaze softens as she extends a hand toward her companion, her partner, her knight. ❛ then we'll stay by each other's sides. just as we've always done. ❜
"sorry ....for leaving to rot sorry for leaving me sorry for leaving your first kid and sorry for abandoning your daughter!" She sobbed opening her arms and hugged pink
❛ oh, Spinel . . . ❜ Pink wrapped her arms around the smaller gem, gently, pulling her close. she hadn't developed any matronly feelings until much later in her life, when she — Rose — finally understood what it meant to be part of a family. it seemed so unfair that Spinel had gotten to experience none of that. Pink had been so young then, so utterly unaware of the complexities of the emotions of smaller life forms, so oblivious to the creatures that depended on her.
none of her children had gotten the care they deserved from her ; not Spinel, not the Rose Quartzes that had been bubbled for her rebellion, and not Steven for whom, in order to be given life, she'd sacrificed herself. she'd thought she'd been giving him a gift, but had never truly considered the legacy she'd leave behind. what's left to be remembered of Pink's, of Rose's, heart clenched. so much left unfinished . . . so many mistakes for which she could never make amends . . .
a single tear ran down her cheek as she brought a hand to pet Spinel's hair.
❛ I never meant for any of this to happen . . . I'm SO sorry. ❜
The gem....froze up visibly flinching like she'd been .... Hit..."...do you hate .... Was I not good enough .?!" Spinel fell to her knees and bursted into sobs heartbreaking sobs.... "I tried to shatter myself!" She shouted then she began laughing "I waited for you ....for so fricking long! ... Everyone moved everyone forgot I existed because of you!"
Rose, or what little was left her consciousness, wished that she could feel the full extent of the remorse her true Self would surely have felt upon seeing Spinel like this. as it was, she barely had enough of her Self to wish for more. she was merely a shadow, a projection of what had once been. a distant sense of lingering pity, of regret. the memory of the gem before her was so far away, it felt more like little bursts of light and happiness than concrete images.
she knew that Spinel had been important to her, once. that was enough to compel her forward, even if The Room hadn't been pushing her to fulfill Spinel's desires. she knelt before the smaller gem, eyes soft and sad.
❛ what do you want me to say ? ❜ the question wasn't petulant, it was genuine, almost pleading. all she wanted was to give Spinel whatever she wants.
❛ I don’t want your garbage. ❜ sent by @petalsxfallen
Rose's expression doesn't change ; she continues looking at the Pearl with an odd mixture of pity and understanding.
❛ I didn't expect you to, ❜ she says softly, in her distant, knowing way. she'd only wanted to give Petal . . . something. something that could make up for what she'd endured all those years. a HOME, in place of the one she'd lost. a place to BELONG. but she knows in her heart that it's an empty gesture, like so much of what she does. nothing can make up for what Petal has gone through. there is no fixing this . . .
Spinel wandered into the cloudy room Steven said this was her room now.... ...she was family .... ❛ So this is were you ran away to..........you traded one child for another..... do you ever care how ether of us are screwed up.... because of you! ❜
sent by @emotional-suport-noodle
The Room had sensed her presence, even before Spinel started talking. this was an unwelcome intruder, carrying a gem that was not meant to have access. but the door had been opened by the repurposed, disguised gem for which The Room was made, and The Room had no choice but to allow her to enter.
there was enough of the gem's memory woven into the magic of The Room that Rose's . . . Pink's . . . consciousness lingered. she recognized the voice that rang out through the endless pink clouds, a voice that she never thought she'd hear again, though she didn't recognize the agonized tone. she'd never heard Spinel sound like that before.
Steven had given The Room to her ; it could read Spinel's hidden desire and gave her what she wanted without her asking. from the rosy mist it spun a familiar form, one that Spinel would recognize. PINK DIAMOND stood before her, amongst the nothingness.
❛ Isn’t it beautiful? I don’t think I’ve ever seen such a beautiful flower. ❜ sent by @petalsxfallen
Pink's eyes widen with wonder and awe, her diamond pupils dilating. she reaches out as though to take the flower, but her fingers stop just short of touching its strange surface ; she'd hate to damage it. instead, she pulls her hands back and clasps them in excitement, eyes casting to her companion.
❛ oooooooh, PETAL !! it's gorgeous !! what is it ? ❜
Amethyst doesn't say anything for a solid thirty seconds. She just stares at the pink lady. Gently carding her fingers through her curls as she repeats the word "Earth."
Rose's face flushes with pleasure as she kneels down to be closer to the little being looking up at her with those wide, questioning eyes. she'd had no idea there were any of her Amethysts left on earth, let alone one that wasn't CORRUPTED.
sometimes, when all other distractions have melted away, Rose finds herself drawn to the sites of the destruction she'd wrought on this planet, almost as though some part of her feels that she needs to be punished, and she can think of no other way to do it. her visit to the kindergarten today had been the result of one of those moods. but this, this makes the trip beyond worth it.
❛ my name is ROSE, ❜ she says kindly, barely able to contain her excitement as she reaches out a hand for the other gem. ❛ where did you come from ? ❜
