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cannibalings

have you reopened the wound? will you reopen the wound? when will you reopen the wound?

#my therapist @ me today

mx-macintosh

y'all need to relearn the word erratic and stop using schizophrenic/bipolar/psychotic as a replacement

mx-macintosh

y'all need to relearn the word particular and stop using ocd as a replacement

weresoul

People need to relearn the word "egocentric" and stop using narcissist/narc as a replacement.

thatpreciousthing

People need to relearn the word "impulse" and stop using "intrusive thought" as a replacement

answrs

People need to relearn the word "lying" and stop using "gaslighting" as a replacement

#I’m so tired #there’s always either one extreme like I remember in like 2010 you weren’t allowed to say you #feel depressed without a clinical diagnosis and now it’s like. what relevance does the #the DSM Even Have anymore?#obv it’s all very centric to whichever bubble you’re in but those are apparently my bubbles

ellisonwongparty

actually have nothing funny or snarky to say about episode 5. this is just actually the most moving and heartwrenching television i've ever witnessed and it changed my life. it changed so many people's lives. sometimes i'm like the hr hype is lowkey a little too insane and then i watch this episode and i feel like the world writ large actually underreacted to how legendary this episode was. i too would actually soul bond with francois, hudson, and connor if i witnessed this live in the dead of winter.

ellisonwongparty

like i'm sorry rr/tierney ate with this....... like the idea that someone else coming out being the impetous for you yourself taking a big leap of faith too is so like. what being gay and in a community is about. like you just literally don't know you aren't the only one if someone doesn't come out and do something so ridiculously brave. sorry i'm being so earnest about this because i'm writing this mid tears. like that thing jacob said about how scott's coming out needs to be outlandish and loud to contrast the like quiet and tender coming together of shane and ilya. the problem with this show is that it's literally that good.

#watching that was so monumental and then seeing it on a big screen in a club full #of like-minded people all ecstatic and happy and a little crazy #is there a state that goes beyond cathartic? cause that was It

2well2water

the older i get the crazier i feel about botox. like what do you mean society is telling me it would be better if i couldn't express my emotions. the next beauty trend will be injections that freeze your lip muscles and it will keep women from talking at all oh my god what a happy coincidence

#luckily most people in my life see this for what it is #but a few are so deeply in this shit that it’s so hard to get them to that point #and honestly whenever I talk to them I’m so exhausted. like this is how you live? i feel dir you but also wake the fuck up #but it’s such a difficult conversation to have. because there’s so many emotions tied up in it #and ideology as we #as well*

fairycosmos

person who genuinely hates themselves so much they can barely look anyone in the eye: i must remain humble lest my hideous ego spiral out of control

#my therapist laughed out loud when I asked but what if I come across as so overconfident and conceited?#when we were talking about how I can be more confident

ewaneneollav

repeat after me: people don’t notice the little details. i’m going to get away with it. people don’t notice the little details. i’m going to get away with it.

evilnicegirl

if i could give advice to me as a teenager i would say be 25

#every time I talk about being a kid vs being a grown up #most people I talk to are so shocked when I say I love being an adult #they all wanna go back to kids but I just cannot handle the thought of such a lack of autonomy #and agency

torstherapy

7pleiades7

Georgian enamel secret message ring (c. 1780-1830), gold with hand-painted floral panels and hidden inscription, Victoria and Albert Museum, London

rosieandthemoon

Guillaume de Machaut, Dit du Lion, Paris 1350-1355 ,BnF, Français 1586, fol. 103r

#I’m so exhaustedddd the 11 year olds had so much drama today #and it’s so fckin scary too I had to have a couple of very sensitive conversations today #and like idk if I handled them well but at least I felt equipped to handle them #but ONLY because of therapy!!!! if I hadn’t done so many years of therapy I would have had no idea how to handle this adequately #and like one of the girls reminds me so much of myself in a way and she had a meltdown today #and I was like I really get it and she was like no you don’t and again I was like no actually I do #and idk if it actually helped her or not but at least she stopped crying #but like yeah my brain is so fucking fried today #I’m too exhausted to sleep !! lmao #it’s nice to know they feel comfortable around me but it’s so exhausting trying to always find the right words

requiem-on-water

(1) “Madonna del Monte Squircle”, (2024) by Noé Duchaufour-Lawrance (2) Glass sculpture by Hennie Elzinga

riverlarking

from “the worst journey in the world” (1922) by apsley cherry-garrard

#this is so hilarious to me #im currently living the polar (hah) opposite of that which is the dirties and most crowded way of having a bad time which is a field trip #with 50 6th graders and we’re staying overnight for a week #lmaoooo no it’s not bad at all rn #I’m just overstimulated all the time

heatherwitch

My resolution last year was to do one thing before bed that would make my morning feel easier, and that’s become a daily habit that I’m carrying into this new year.

Some nights even filling up the kettle and setting an empty mug out for my morning tea felt hard. But I was always thankful for it in the morning.

Other nights, one thing would lead to another, and I’d wake up in a clean house with everything ready to go.

And, on a rare few nights, the one thing that I could do to make my morning easier was going straight to bed and allowing myself to rest.

What stayed the same each day is that I would take a moment to think of what I could do for my future self and do it, even after a hard day. And I would wake up knowing that I had done my best and any effort—no matter how small—was a kindness to myself.